Chapter 59 Echo: Xiaobo, please be fair.
Jin Yunyan considers himself not a person who would feel regret or remorse, and he does not believe in cause and effect or retribution.
But after meeting Bo Xia, he thought about the past more than once. He even wondered if God made him fall in love with her many years later just to teach him a lesson, to let him know how hurtful it was to reject others coldly in the past.
He was silent for a long time, and finally couldn't help but ask her softly: "Have you really never blamed me in the past years?"
This time, Bo Xia told the truth: "It's strange."
She had also occasionally hated him shamefully in her heart, hated that he was not a valley and refused to give her any response, hated that he saw no difference between her and other people.
"But then I grew up," Bo Xia told him gently, "I began to realize that you didn't choose me not because I wasn't good enough. I also began to understand that the true meaning of many things isn't to reach them, but to guide them."
She had read Shi Tiesheng's book, and there was a sentence in it that said:
“People can walk towards heaven, but they cannot reach heaven. To walk towards heaven means the establishment of the other shore, but to reach heaven means the disappearance of the other shore.”[1]
Bo Xia looked at his face, recalling so many things from the past. She couldn't help but stand on tiptoe to give him a final hug: "Jin Yunyan, thank you for illuminating my youth so brightly."
Regardless of whether the moon shone its light only for her, she had truly been illuminated by that light.
That's enough.
Jin Yunyan never thought that he would receive this hug in such a context. His expression was not very good, but he was not angry because of her rejection.
He raised his hand and gently stroked her hair: "I'll take you home."
He was always a gentleman and didn't show any bad emotions even at such a moment.
There were a few wet rains before summer came, which made the green color of the streets more intense.
It had been a while since that day that they hadn't seen each other.
Jin Yunyan understood that her rationality was the same as his own in the past, and he was not the kind of person who liked to pester others, so he continued to live his life as usual, but would occasionally think of some moments.
I remember that day when she wore a rich green long dress, looked at him and said firmly that it was him she wanted. I remember the curve of her hair blown by the wind when she sent him home, and I also remember her moist but tough eyes when they talked about the past that day.
She said—
Jin Yunyan I like you.
But I know that the part of you that I like is a projection of my inner self, and that is not the real you.
From beginning to end, it was not him who illuminated her youth. It was she herself who kept the lamp that never went out burning in that wet rainy season.
A few days later, Bo Xia didn't attend the dinner with Wan Sheng. Jin Yunyan was flattered but still a little absent-minded. He went out to light a cigarette, and when he came back, he heard the other people in the private room chatting. Someone mentioned Bo Xia, and Meng Xubai said she wasn't feeling well today.
The two of them were working colleagues and were a perfect match. The person sitting next to him couldn't help but inquire about their relationship. After learning that they were not lovers, he couldn't help but ask, "Aren't you tempted by a beauty like Miss Bo?"
"What's the point of me being moved?" Having been friends for a few years, Meng Xubai believed he understood Bo Xia somewhat. He hid the dejection in his eyes, "People like her are very particular about propriety. If she doesn't like you, if you take one step towards her, she'll take ninety-nine steps back. Do you think I can be more tactful?"
The man smiled and said yes.
Jin Yunyan sat back in his seat, the smile on his face still there, but it was hard to hide in his eyes.
He couldn't deny the displeasure in his heart and began to wonder, was there any difference between him and Meng Xubai in her heart?
Hearing the noise around him, Meng Xubai raised his eyes and saw Jin Yunyan, and the look he gave him was a little complicated.
When the show was over, Meng Xubai came over to talk to Jin Yunyan. Normally, because of work, he was always polite to Jin Yunyan on the surface. The two of them were not really friends, and they rarely talked about topics that friends would talk about in private.
But this time it was a little different.
Meng Xubai lit a cigarette, not caring about his feelings like usual: "Did you have a fight with Bo Xia? Why didn't you ask me why she didn't come today?"
Jin Yunyan was a little surprised. He lowered his eyes and looked at Meng Xubai, as if trying to understand the meaning of his words.
There is actually no need to explain many things, Meng Xubai sees them more clearly than anyone else.
Although he was very unwilling, he had to admit that every time Jin Yunyan appeared, it was different for Bo Xia. He said, "If we have a quarrel, please be more tolerant. I have known her for too long. She only looks strong, but she is actually fragile inside."
Jin Yunyan was indeed a gentleman, but he didn't think he could be gentle when facing his love rival. A smile lingered at the corner of his lips, and the aura of a superior was clearly revealed: "Who are you to say these words to me?"
Meng Xubai laughed. He really didn't have much status.
He didn't say goodbye, and his face was a little cold when he left. When he stood beside him, he still left some words -
"Do you think I'm a generous person? If I hadn't seen how special you are to her, why would I say these things? I want her to be happy more than anyone else, even if the person who makes her happy is not me."
Meng Xubai added: "I didn't lose to you, I lost to her heart."
On the way back, there was an accident on the road, causing traffic jams. Jin Yunyan couldn't hear the driver's voice clearly, and what came to her mind were Meng Xubai's words. Is he different from others to her?
After thinking about it, he began to admire Meng Xubai again.
If he were in Meng Xubai's position, could he watch her be with someone else? He was not yet that saint.
Something in the darkness gradually became clear.
Jin Yunyan did not let the driver go home and gave another address.
After arriving at the place, he was unable to make the call and stared at the window in the car for a long time.
There is no plum rain in Beijing, so even if the temperature rises in early summer, people will not feel stuffy.
It was the most comfortable weather, and the locust trees on both sides of the street reflected the red walls, casting a large area of green shade.
Bo Xia got into Meng Xubai's car and looked through the information while listening to Meng Xubai talking about today's clients. It was about a private courtyard design project.
"He even mentioned you specifically, saying you were young and promising and wanted to meet you."
"I?"
She didn't know Mr. Yu, so she was a little confused about what he said.
When she arrived at the place, she saw from afar an old man in a Zhongshan suit. Although his hair was gray, he looked energetic, as steady as a rock, and looked kind yet had a strong aura.
After chatting for a while, the other party was very impressed with her, and then he said: "It was Xiao Jin who introduced you to me, otherwise how would I know there is such an outstanding child like you."
Bo Xia felt a dampness in his heart. Just as he was about to continue asking questions with doubts about these words, the box was pushed open from the outside and the waiter respectfully greeted the people outside.
She looked up and saw someone she hadn't seen for a long time walking in with a casual demeanor. After greeting him, he sat down next to her.
He was still as gentle and respectable as ever, appearing calm on the surface, but his eyes were always on her.
"Mr. Jin, you..."
She hesitated for a moment, then politely continued the unfinished words: "Hello."
Act as if none of that ever happened.
"Are you surprised?" His eyes traced her facial features. Actually, it hadn't been long since they last saw each other, and for some reason he missed her a little.
Bo Xia said he was not surprised. After all, the circle was so small that it was inevitable that there would be interactions.
Jin Yunyan laughed: "What if I say I arranged it?"
Bo Xia was slightly startled. It seemed to be true. If he hadn't arranged it, there wouldn't be a meeting today. He was still looking at her, even leaning a little closer, with a hint of aggression. Bo Xia was about to say something when she was interrupted by Yu Lao.
"Since you're so late, shouldn't you drink three glasses of wine as punishment?"
Jin Yunyan had specifically called to explain the reason for being late, but Mr. Yu said it was nothing at the time. Now it was embarrassing for him, so he laughed and said that he deserved to be punished.
Everyone was chatting and laughing at the dinner table.
Bo Xia lost her focus for a moment and dropped the spoon on the ground. She bent down to pick it up, and when she looked up, she saw Jin Yunyan's bony hands on the table.
As if afraid that she would bump into the table.
But when I looked at him, he was talking to someone else, as if his hand movements were just unintentional.
She got up and went to the bathroom. After putting on her makeup outside, she saw Jin Yunyan standing at the end of the corridor. It seemed as if she had been waiting for him for a long time.
Bo Xia hadn't expected him to do this. She recalled Wen Xin's complaints about her ex-boyfriend, saying he was a spoiled young man with the typical flaws of his group: he wasn't proactive and couldn't coax people. Jin Yunyan was no exception, and even worse.
Logically speaking, she rejected him last time. Not only would he not come after her, but given his arrogant personality, he would not do anything to pester her.
She pretended not to see him and walked forward, but when she passed by Jin Yunyan, he suddenly grabbed her arm.
Bo Xia raised her eyes and looked into his gentle gaze. She felt like she was trapped in a swamp. The more she struggled, the harder it was to escape. She pretended to be stupid and waited for him to speak, not mentioning the previous conversation first.
"Aren't you going to ask me why I came to see you?"
Her eyes suddenly began to avoid, and she lowered her eyes to look at his hand that was holding hers, thinking that he would hold it tighter. Unexpectedly, Jin Yunyan quickly and gently loosened his grip, as if the other emotions that had just been revealed at that moment were just her occasional illusion.
His eyes were even more affectionate than before, and his deep eyes made it almost impossible to look directly at them. Her heart trembled just by being looked at for a while.
"Is there something wrong?" Bo Xia said in a calm tone, "I remember I told you very clearly last time that Mr. Jin is not the type to get entangled."
"I also thought I wasn't," he lowered his eyelids, "but I've been thinking about it for a long time these past few days. I'll regret it later if I don't come to see you."
"Bo Xia," Jin Yunyan moved closer to her, his voice gentle, "What about you? Don't you have any regrets at all?"
Her heart felt like it was being hit hard, and even the sounds in her ears were a little blurry. At that moment, she didn't even dare to look at him again.
It was that moment of hesitation that gave Jin Yunyan an opportunity. He saw that she didn't seem to have no feelings for him at all, so he moved closer to her and coaxed her in a low voice -
"Shouldn't we only know the value of the gifts in the window after we own them?"
Jin Yunyan was so close to her, as if he would hold her in his arms in the next second. His Adam's apple rolled: "Xiao Bo, please be fair."
His ending tone was so gentle and tender, as if water could drip out of it, and he asked her -
"OK?"
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