Chapter 79: Flirting "So this is how you think of me."...
He asked her what she was thinking, and Bo Xia said that it might be difficult for her to do so.
Jin Yunyan brought up the past, saying they weren't the same kind of people. She shook her head. But family affection was different. She resisted marriage because she subconsciously carried a fear, a fear that she would most likely repeat her parents' upbringing.
She was afraid that she would hate them and inadvertently become like them.
Those illnesses in character are like a cancer that has penetrated deep into the bone marrow, and often require scraping the bones and removing the flesh to completely cure them.
This disease is usually hard to detect or rarely occurs, but when you enter into an intimate relationship again, it begins to hurt. You cannot ignore this potential cancer, because sooner or later it will erupt.
So at that time, Jin Yunyan didn't know that for Bo Xia, it seemed like a sword of Damocles was always hanging over her head. It hadn't fallen yet, but that didn't mean it didn't exist.
After getting the sky, Jin Yunyan prepared to go to the hospital.
His dressing room was almost becoming Bo Xia's. After she changed her clothes, she said she wanted to go with him. Jin Yunyan had no reason to refuse.
The person behind him was putting on his shoes. Bo Xia was boredly looking at the things in the cabinet. He saw a very beautiful women's watch and asked him if he could borrow it to try on.
Jin Yunyan followed the direction of her finger and saw the item she was talking about. He was obviously stunned. He said it was a very precious item, but it had been broken for many years and he had asked many people to repair it but none of them could fix it.
At that time, I thought that maybe the damage to the items was also a sign of something, so I didn't pay any attention to it in the end.
"I'll take it and have it repaired."
Jin Yunyan thought about it and handed the item to her. There was a subtle hint of desolation in his voice. "Don't worry too much. It probably can't be repaired."
The matter was just left unresolved, and no one took it too seriously.
When they arrived at the hospital, Bo Xia did not visit his family. She thought she should give them some private space, so she sat on a chair at the corner at the end of the corridor and waited.
She didn't know how long it had been, but a pair of sneakers suddenly appeared in front of her. She looked up and saw someone she knew. Jin Xingzhou saw her and asked if Jin Yunyan was here.
"That's none of your business."
Jin Xingzhou felt that she was becoming more and more disrespectful in her words, and couldn't help but sneer at her: "Do you think you are so great now? Do you really think you can get to the point of marrying him?"
"Don't waste your time attacking me. I understand what you're talking about better than you do," Bo Xia smiled. "I'm not as superficial as you think, basing my value on marriage."
For a moment, he found himself somewhat helpless. She knew what this person was talking about better than anyone else, so, should he face the challenge head-on or accept it with joy?
She checked the time and said, "I hope you won't bore yourself later. Ah Yan has always been envied by mediocre people. Even if you provoke him, it won't change the fact that he is excellent. But for you, such behavior will make you ridiculous."
This sounds like a bit of harsh truth.
Bo Xia originally wanted to get up and leave this place, but when he looked up, he saw a shadow. Jin Yunyan had stood there at some point, and judging from his expression, he had heard their conversation.
"Are you done talking?"
Jin Yunyan said "hmm", took her hand and left the hospital without even looking at the other person.
Thinking of what she had just said, he was inevitably a little distracted, so that he didn't quite hear what Bo Xia said to him. It took him a long while before his hazy eyes focused on her: "Hmm?"
Fortunately, Bo Xia mistakenly thought that he was worried about family matters and didn't take it to heart.
She was driving the car today. In order to ease his depressed mood, she did not go home but took him for a ride.
Silently, something cracked, as if acknowledging that they would be separated one day.
Jin Yunyan admitted that when he was first attracted to her, he had not thought about something as far away as marriage, and even these two words were unfamiliar to him.
He just didn't know when it started, but he had already included her in his future plans, and he couldn't imagine the days without her anymore.
Obviously, they have been doing the most intimate things in the world during this period of time, but they didn't expect that their hearts didn't seem to be that close.
A favored child like him rarely worries about gains and losses, but the feeling of uneasiness and fragility always comes up because of Bo Xia, as if God is punishing his arrogance and wants him to taste what she had experienced so that he can empathize with her.
The early spring wind is still chilly, and tender buds are beginning to sprout on the trees on the roadside outside the window, wrapping themselves in vitality and sneaking into people's sleeves.
After driving for an unknown amount of time, Bo Xia found a place to park the car.
The sky was a little dark at that time, and twilight enveloped everyone. The crabapple flowers on both sides looked like gorgeous fireworks in the dark night.
He looked at the falling petals and suddenly felt like smoking again, but when he took out a cigarette from the box, he remembered that he had quit.
So he just held the tobacco between his lips and teeth, and he had no intention of lighting it.
Bo Xia was somewhat fascinated, as a gentleman like him rarely showed such a dissolute side.
She came over and held his face, her amber eyes like two sparkling gems: "Don't be unhappy."
The flowers on the tree behind her swayed in the direction of her long hair, connected to a surging spring tide. The scene was as beautiful as a painting. However, some people seemed to have no idea where their unhappiness came from.
Jin Yunyan originally wanted to ask, but suddenly thought, forget it.
Questions like this made it seem like he was some vulgar person who was in a hurry to get married, even though they hadn't been together for long.
This idea is too wishful thinking. If she has no intention of starting a family at all, do they have to separate?
What's more, people like her look strong, but their hearts are more fragile than anyone else. Or maybe it's because he didn't provide her with a sense of security that she didn't think so far.
For many things, it is better to leave them to fate.
He took the cigarette from between his lips, and his eyes softened a little.
The soft embrace wrapped her tightly, and she didn't know why, but she felt that his mood eased a little.
There were many couples dating around. Seeing a boy taking pictures of his girlfriend seriously, Jin Yunyan asked her to pose under a tree.
He looked very professional and serious when taking the photo, but when Bo Xia took it to check, she couldn't help but frown. It seemed that her boyfriend was no different from other boyfriends.
Seeing that the girl next to her had already started fighting, Bo Xia looked at him pretending to be angry, her eyes seemed to ask whether she should fight or not. Her expression was vivid and people couldn't help but be fascinated by it.
"Where do you want me to hit you?" Jin Yunyan leaned over and extended his face towards her. It looked like he didn't want her to hit him, but to hold it with her palm.
Bo Xia couldn't move her hands anymore, so she just pinched his face.
She took another set of photos, but they didn't seem as good as the few selfies she took casually. In one of the photos, she accidentally closed her eyes. When she pressed the delete button, she found that a petal had fallen on her eyelid, so she clicked cancel again.
When Bo Xia returned home that night, she felt a little tired. After taking a shower, she received a call from her parents, asking them to let Bo Yi come to Beijing to play for a while, and she would pick him up when the time came.
She made an excuse that she was busy with work, and they said that it was just to give Bo Yi a place to stay. You can't let your own sister stay in a hotel when she comes there.
Bo Xia rubbed his eyebrows and agreed.
She didn't know why, but whenever she contacted them, she always felt like there was a heavy stone pressing on her heart and she couldn't breathe.
Their concern made her feel insincere, and their indifference made her feel that it was difficult to change their nature. Only by not contacting her could she feel at peace. That feeling made her feel very dark, as if the unbearable rainy season had not ended yet.
Fortunately, Jin Yunyan called her again. He returned to the old house today, so the two were not together.
He asked her if she had anything to say to him.
This question was a bit confusing, and Bo Xia naturally didn't know what to say to him. She thought for a moment and said, "My sister will be coming over in a couple of days. Come with me to pick her up then."
"What else?"
besides?
She thought about it carefully, and could only think of the words he had wanted to hear from her when he was on a business trip. But they were only apart for one night, so it wasn't that serious...
Bo Xia said hesitantly: "I miss you...?"
Jin Yunyan chuckled softly, obviously not expecting her to say this. His gap was easily filled by her, and he couldn't help laughing at her: "You miss me after just one night apart?"
Suddenly I didn’t know where to start explaining.
She simply gave up and said, "Yeah."
There was only the inaudible sound of electricity in the call room, and Jin Yunyan's slightly rapid breathing could be vaguely heard. He suddenly felt helpless and felt that he had lost completely.
At that moment he could no longer doubt her love.
Someone called his name outside, he said hello and put down his phone.
After a while, he came back and said, "Grandma just asked me to take you home for dinner when I'm free. Do you want to eat?"
"I……"
Perhaps influenced by Jin Yunyan, she felt that he was not very close to them, so she didn't want to be close to his family, and she didn't want anything unpleasant to happen.
Jin Yunyan understood what she meant and took this opportunity to say to her: "If you don't want to come, don't come."
"Isn't that inappropriate?"
"There's nothing inappropriate about it. They can't decide who I date," he paused, then added, "nor can they decide who I marry."
She didn't notice anything at the time, but it was only a long time later when Bo Xia recalled it that she suddenly realized that he had been so firm from the beginning. But people like her seemed to have to wait for others to say it repeatedly and verify it repeatedly before they dared to believe it.
Because his sister was coming over, Bo Xia started making plans these two days.
When she got to Jin Yunyan, she was still flipping through something with her eyes downcast. Seeing that she was not looking at work, Jin Yunyan took the thing from her hand. She looked at him a little confused.
Jin Yunyan asked her, didn’t you say you missed him?
Of course, she didn't know that she had easily provoked him with just one sentence. She looked at Jin Yunyan in some confusion, not understanding what was so good about verifying that ordinary sentence.
Bo Xia hummed and leaned over to take her iPad, but someone took advantage of his long arms to put things back, and when she supported herself on the sofa with one hand to take it, she accidentally dropped it on him.
The woman lowered her eyes, and her long eyelashes cast an uneven shadow on her fair cheek.
Without any signal, Bo Xia realized what would happen next almost instantly. It was not the first time. Many things always happened naturally.
He held her waist, pressing against her through the fabric. His beautiful peach blossom eyes looked even deeper under the light from the overhead lights, like a bottomless sea. Jin Yunyan asked in a hoarse voice, "Tell me what you think of me."
“…”
Sometimes she felt that he was inexplicable, even a little childish, calculating everything and taking every little thing to heart.
But she still seemed to like him very much.
Bo Xia gave the answer with a kiss, but it didn't satisfy anyone.
The living room sofa was facing a mirror. Even after many days, she still hadn't forgotten the scene she saw in front of it that day. He coaxed her to please himself: "Baby, play for me."
His dark pants were wet, and he stroked them gently, his eyes flushed: "So this is how you think of me."
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