Chapter 51 Don't worry "I won't do anything to you."
Seeing that the work was finished, Bo Xia sorted out the recorded feedback and prepared to return to the company.
Before leaving, she thought she should say hello to Jin Yunyan out of courtesy, especially since he had spoken up for her in disguise today. So Bo Xialuo walked up to Jin Yunyan and chatted with him for a while.
He asked if there have been any major changes in Southern Eucalyptus over the years.
Bo Xia said that Nan'an now has a subway, transportation is much more convenient than before, and the tourism industry has also developed.
When she said this, her mind recalled the time when she was sitting on the bus. At that time, the boy in school uniform let the sunlight fall on his body through the gaps between the sycamore leaves. But now, she hasn't taken the bus for a long time.
Both of them maintained social distance and spoke politely, as if what had happened before had not happened and they were still just ordinary classmates who met in this city.
Just when Bo Xia was about to leave, the man in front of her suddenly called her.
She asked what happened and heard Jin Yunyan say, "The brooch fell off."
Bo Xia followed his gaze and looked at the pearl brooch pinned to the right side of her collarbone. Sure enough, it was showing signs of loosening. She smiled and thanked him, but before she could say anything else, Jin Yunyan raised his hand to fasten it for her, then said casually, "It's done."
His movements were so light that he didn't even touch her body, but the decorative ring on his warm finger still dazzled her eyes.
Bo Xia looked up and saw his gentle expression. For a moment, she had the illusion that they were a close couple. She concealed her feelings, did not dare to think too much, and said goodbye to him with a smile.
When the conference room was empty, an employee who had just witnessed their intimate behavior began to notice something. Even if they were not in a romantic relationship, they were probably very familiar with each other.
This is indeed a rare thing. It is rare to see any woman who has a close relationship with Jin Yunyan around him on weekdays.
A few days later, it snowed in Beijing. The fine snowflakes lightly covered the city with a layer of gauze, and the city was covered with a vast expanse of white.
Bo Xia had originally planned to return later, but Wen Xin suggested she go back with her earlier to spend a few days. Since she still had her annual leave, she combined it with the Lunar New Year holiday, extending her vacation time somewhat.
It was just raining softly in the southern part of the country, and it didn't start snowing until two days after I returned.
Bo Xia and Wen Xin went to the mountains to enjoy the snowy scenery and then stopped by a nearby temple. Wen Xin liked colorful things and insisted on buying two lucky charm bracelets for each of them.
After worshiping Buddha and going down the mountain, Wen Xin asked Bo Xia if he had made any wishes.
“Make more money.”
She glanced at Bo Xia's thinner waist and said, "I think you can make money with your hard work, but you have to take care of your health."
"What did you ask for?"
Wen Xin's wish was more simple: "Give me ten male models."
She continued, "You don't know I just broke up with my ex-boyfriend and I really want to play again...oh and not date another one."
Bo Xia couldn't help but be curious: "What's your ideal type?"
"Let me think... a teenage dad? The kind with an 18-year-old body and a 28-year-old personality. He's all-powerful outside, but acts like a dog to me at home."
Bo Xia: “…”
Climbing the mountain was so tiring that within two days of returning home, Bo Xia's legs hurt even when he went down the stairs.
She began to wonder if she lacked exercise and was considering whether she should get a gym membership. She had just walked out of the bedroom in her pajamas when she saw a boy suddenly appear in the living room, accompanied by a middle-aged woman.
Bo Xia was a little confused and thought it was a relative of the family, so she just greeted him politely.
Who would have thought that halfway through the meal, they actually started talking about Bo Xia's marriage. The woman was quite satisfied with her, but she felt that she was too busy at work and did not look virtuous. Before she responded, her mother took over the conversation and said that she was only working in Beijing temporarily and would come back.
A nameless fire arose in Bo Xia's heart.
She had been controlled by her family for years, and her emotions were easily on the verge of collapse when she returned to this home. Now, she was being forcibly selected and arranged without being informed. Her face suddenly turned cold, and she could no longer play the role of the good girl she used to be: "What are you talking about?"
In such an environment, she even ate calmly: "Are you so poor that you can't afford to buy a mirror for your son to look at himself? And yet you still find fault with me."
The situation was very awkward for a while. The other party didn't think he was being excessive when he commented on her just now, but when he was treated in the same way this time, he broke down and was so angry that he kept saying that she didn't respect her elders.
Bo Xia hated people who disrespected their elders the most: "Respect is mutual. Only by respecting others can you earn their respect. Using age and seniority to bully others only proves that they are incompetent."
She also wanted to tell the second half of the sentence to other people.
In short, Bo Xia's mother was the most embarrassed in the end, so after everyone left, they began to criticize her.
It seems like when their daughters are getting married, parents tend to become enemies. Not giving money is a crime, not marrying is also a crime, and they're just dying to burn them.
Bo Xia looked at the familiar face and for a moment didn't know why the person closest to her could be so hateful.
Ever since she could remember, she had been subjected to endless abuse and suppression. Sometimes she would think that if you hate someone, you could become his mother in your next life and torture him. This would be more cruel than killing him.
After all, the blood relationship connected by the umbilical cord is often the sharpest dagger.
She wasn't one to argue, but she was eventually pushed to the brink and, after more than twenty years of silence, she erupted: "What do you want from me?"
"What do I want from you? I want you to come back, find a stable job, and get married. Do you know it will be hard to find a partner in two years? How embarrassing it will be for me if you can't get married?"
Bo Xia smiled, and then she heard her say, "Besides, how far away are you working outside? What's the point of us having you if you don't come back? You don't even know how to hand over your salary. Other people's children know to hand over their salary, but what about you?"
"Why did you give birth to me?"
"Of course I gave birth to you so that you could raise me, otherwise why would I give birth to you?"
That day she heard the cruelest truth. It was probably at that moment that she began to lose her illusions about family affection, and she even began to doubt the meaning of her existence.
She was still too immature at that time. She felt that her parents' love was very important to her. She even felt that a child who was not loved by his mother should not be born and was worthless. So even though she had vaguely known that they did not love her before, at this moment she still had some doubts about her own existence.
In the end, it was naturally my father who smoothed things over. He was good at watching the fire from the other side of the river.
Bo Xia had originally wanted to endure it until after the New Year, but the next day her mother started to be sarcastic to her, saying that she wasn't as caring and sensible as her sister. She said, "Don't be like your sister and stay unmarried at such an old age."
She looked at her sister and couldn't help but sneer.
She could deceive her parents into believing they didn't understand love, but then what? Why could they love someone else so unconditionally? Wasn't she her biological child? If she could have received even a little love, would she have neglected her family like this? Would she have compromised and yet still not become the obedient person they saw her as?
When she was a child, she even wondered if she was really picked up as they joked. If that was the case, maybe she would let it go.
But there are many things in this world that are neither right nor wrong.
Not loving is the original sin.
That day, she had a heated argument with her family. She accused them of always favoring her younger sister, and they didn't deny it, saying it was normal to be partial. Bo Xia smiled and said, "You are family." Then she packed her things, checked into a hotel, and bought the next available flight back to Beijing.
Fortunately, it was not the most difficult time to buy tickets, otherwise she would probably still stay in Nan'an.
After arriving in Beijing, Wen Xin called her and asked her why she didn't find herself. She could spend the New Year with her, which was better than being alone in Beijing.
She probably felt that home was a cage, and even the city was a huge cage, so she escaped without thinking or caring about anything.
Later her father called her, but she didn't answer.
He sent her a message, asking her to be considerate of her mother, but she only replied:
"Have I not been considerate and understanding of you all these years? But why have you never thought about being considerate and understanding of me? Just because I am your child and have your blood flowing in my body, do I have no personality of my own? Dad, sometimes I really feel that I am not as good as the dog at home."
People always praise parental love as so great, but this is a kind of kidnapping for parents, as if parents must be good to their children with all their heart. It is also a kind of kidnapping for children, as if all parents in the world are selfless, so it is a sin for children to disobey.
So even though she needed to be independent, do housework, and take care of her younger sister when she was very young, and later went to school just to make more money to give back to her family in the future, even though she was just a tool for her parents' retirement and a punching bag from beginning to end, even though she never had a personality in front of them and suffered from mental torture, she still needed to be grateful to them.
I used to think the wind and rain were outside my home, but once I got outside, I realized I didn't need an umbrella. The malice and pressure of this world can never compare to the power of a single word from my family.
The person you love the most will always hurt you the most.
So even though Beijing is so magnificent and can easily drown out a person's talent, even though she had been shaken by the pressure and wanted to come back, she finally chose to stay in that cold city.
Spending the New Year alone actually made Bo Xia feel peaceful, but when he went out, he felt that the streets were a little quieter than usual.
Bo Xia went to the restaurant that he had never had time to go to, took a few photos and posted them on WeChat Moments.
When I woke up from my nap, there were many messages on my phone, one of which was from Jin Yunyan——
"Didn't you go back to Nan'an?"
She yawned, "Yeah."
When Jin Yunyan received this message, he had just taken out a bottle of ice water from the refrigerator. He unscrewed the cap and his Adam's apple rolled up and down as he tilted his head back to drink the water.
After a while, he thought for a moment and asked, "Do you have any plans for New Year's Eve? Do you want to go together?"
When Bo Xia saw the message on the screen, he suspected it was an illusion. He got up, washed his face, and reopened the chat box, only to find that the content was still the same.
If we are classmates, can we celebrate the New Year together?
Jin Yunyan seemed to know her confusion and sent another message: "There are other friends here, don't worry, I won't do anything to you."
"..." She certainly believed in his character, "I know."
Looking at those three firm words, Jin Yunyan smiled helplessly.
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