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Ever since I first met Leng Yue, I've been watching her. I've observed her personality and her ways. I thought I knew her perfectly, but I was wrong. She's far more fragile than I imagined.

I had Sai Huatuo pretend to take poison to trick her into revealing her feelings, but Leng Yue's face suddenly turned pale, her body went limp, and she nearly fainted. I quickly took her pulse at the wrist, and it was beating faster than the sound of horse hooves.

"Leng Yue, Leng Yue, cheer up. I saved Sai Hua Tuo's life. Really."

Leng Yue looked at me with tearful eyes, her voice trembling: "Really?"

She cried. I was sure I saw her cry. I had thought Leng Yue was a heroine, but I hadn't expected her to be so frightened.

Perhaps, the relationship between them is much deeper than I thought.

I suddenly felt that all my efforts were meaningless.

I helped her sit down beside Sai Huatuo's bed and said calmly, "Sai Huatuo is fine now. Don't worry too much. Take care of yourself."

Leng Yue forced herself to smile and tremblingly uttered four words: "Thank you, Nong Yue."

"Then you can stay here and chat with Sai Huatuo for a while. Nong Yue will take her leave first."

I practically ran away. This sour feeling came out of nowhere, yet it was so strong it nearly consumed me. Why? Why had no one ever loved me so passionately?

Once upon a time, there was one. Now, there is no more.

Now, I am no longer a ghost, but a living person. But, apart from a warm body, what is the difference between me and a ghost?

My brother has Shangguan Yan, I have Leng Yue who is as good as Hua Tuo, I have Princess Ling Xue who is as good as stinky tofu, and who do I have as Nong Yue?

While alive, you are still a lonely ghost.

I stood at the window for a long time when I suddenly heard a strange sound coming from Sai Huatuo's room. I opened the door and saw a dark shadow flash by. When I rushed to Sai Huatuo's room, Leng Yue's face was purple and Sai Huatuo was using his internal energy to force the poison out of her.

"Mr. Nong Yue, pick up the small bottle on the ground and put the antidote in the bottle into Leng Yue's mouth." Sai Hua Tuo said.

I did as I was told.

"Mr. Nong Yue, please use your internal strength to help me." Sai Huatuo said again.

I put my hand on Sai Huatuo's back and gave him a strong burst of true energy.

"Puff puff puff puff..." More than a dozen poisonous needles flew out of Leng Yue's body. The needle tips were purple-black and were snake venom.

Sai Huatuo's face was pale, and the beads of sweat on his forehead showed that he was weak at the moment.

Regardless of the principle of physical contact between men and women, I reached out, picked up Leng Yue and sent her back to the room.

"Sai Huatuo, in fact, Nong Yue and Leng Yue have become sworn sisters. The relationship between us is just brother and sister. What you saw last night happened for a reason. She didn't let me tell you, and I can't explain it to you either. But you have to believe that Leng Yue is devoted to you."

Sai Huatuo's face was solemn: "I know. She didn't tell me, it was just for my own good."

I didn't know how to comfort her. If it weren't for my awful idea, Leng Yue might not have been injured or poisoned at all. Although the poison has been resolved, the poison from the needle still damaged her body. I'm afraid she'll suffer from the occasional attacks for a long time.

I just wanted to help everyone and go with the flow, but it didn't go my way. I hated myself for not being able to accomplish anything and instead causing more trouble than success.

Sai Huatuo smiled bitterly and asked me, "Am I a useless man? If not, how could I let her get hurt for me again and again?"

It turned out that he also had such a deep sense of frustration in his heart. She was used to protecting him, but he was a seven-foot-tall man, so how could he be willing to hide behind a weak woman?

"Just like Hua Tuo, this is just my personality. Don't blame yourself too much." I comforted her.

"I'm a little afraid to be with her, for fear that she will..."

"Nong Yue, why has this feeling become so heavy? It's suffocating me."

Sai Hua Tuo's words made me feel very sad. It turns out that falling in love can become such a heavy thing.

"Sister has too many concerns in her heart, so she... Hey, Sai Hua Tuo, now that things have come to this, I will tell you the truth about what Leng Yue told me! I believe that after listening to this, all the doubts in your heart will be resolved."

I didn't care about anything else, I just wanted to tell Hua Tuo everything. We were just a story, we were just fictional characters, our love, hate, and vengeance were just the talk of others after dinner. But she came for us, gave her heart, and endured pain and torture.

I remembered what Leng Yue said in the imperial garden that day.

"Unreal, whose life isn't an illusion? Maybe my life is also an illusion. What we love, hate, obsess over, and insist on, from the perspective of the soul, may all be just an experience."

Whether it's real or imaginary, let's be honest and open with everything. Stop second-guessing each other, stop avoiding each other. This drama is too tiring. Even as a bystander, I find it hard to bear.

Upon hearing the truth, Sai Huatuo's reaction wasn't as intense as mine had been. He simply replied calmly, "So, it's not surprising that she knows everything about us."

Leng Yue, if you had anticipated Sai Hua Tuo's reaction, would you have kept it a secret? Perhaps others aren't as fragile as you think.

"In fact, the art of dream control is something I have also practiced. However, because it consumes a lot of energy and requires the setting up of array formations, and the arrangement of the array formations is extremely complicated, I have only entered into dreams a dozen times in three years, and each time lasted no more than half an hour. Leng Yue knows nothing about the Five Elements and Eight Trigrams and the art of array formations, but she can create a long dream that lasts for three and a half hours with clear layers. Her dream control technique is so superb, Young Master Nong Yue, don't you think it goes against common sense?" Sai Huatuo raised the corner of his lips and asked slowly.

I was horrified: "Could it be..."

"Leng Yue is also a fictional person. She is no different from you and me." Sai Huatuo said word by word.

I was stunned and stood there, feeling confused.

If all this is false, then what is real?

"Whether it is true or false, this is our life. Since the trajectory of life is like this, we have no choice but to go on like this. Anyway, we will eventually close our eyes and let go of everything. Since we have never really owned it, why bother about whether it is true or false?" Sai Huatuo said.

"So you and her...?"

“Even if everything seems to be in vain, I will not give up easily. Even if the result is not what I expected, I will still have a clear conscience.”

Although the tone was light, it was powerful.

I lay in bed, feeling hollow. I couldn't sleep all night.

If one day you suddenly discover that your life, your world, and even yourself are nothing but nothingness, what should you do?

Ouyang Feiying and the Shenyue Sect launched a palace coup, and the Sima, Huangfu, and Shangguan families were brutally wiped out overnight. Such tragic family affairs are just a few strokes in the book, the purpose of which is to draw out the love, hatred, and resentment of our descendants.

Everything suddenly seemed so deliberate. Every word and action seemed scripted, yet the people involved believed it, believing it was a heartfelt grudge.

Ridiculous! Absolutely ridiculous!

If more than thirty members of the Sima family were killed by a pen less than three inches long, how would I avenge them? Now, for the innocent souls of the Sima family, who should I turn to for revenge?

I suddenly felt like I had lost the meaning of living. No wonder Leng Yue had warned me so earnestly that day in the Imperial Garden not to do anything foolish. It was all just a dream, a bubble, too hard to accept.

"Whether it's true or false, this is our life. Since this is the trajectory of life, we have no choice but to continue like this." Sai Huatuo said.

Although the old scars on my shoulder had long been removed by Sai Hua Tuo when I was treating the Dragon Soul knife wound, the heavy knife blow sixteen years ago was so painful that it pierced my heart. How could I fake this pain?

Since this is the trajectory of life, we have no choice but to continue like this.

Half Moon, I will still tear you into pieces.

I turned over in boredom, and the jade peace amulet slipped out from under my clothes. It was a thick, oval-shaped, still peace amulet. I'd worn it since I was a child, and I don't know how many years it had lasted.

More than a decade ago, whenever I missed home, I would take it out and play with it. Sometimes I would even make a serious wish on it, hoping to be reunited with my parents in my dreams. Unfortunately, that wish never came true.

Now...home, where is home?

Suddenly I felt that such reliance was too illusory.

I picked up the carving knife and casually carved a gourd. Feeling the gourd was too dull, I added a vine, hanging down loosely and softly. Still feeling it lacked a touch of spirit, I carved a squirrel on the side of the gourd. In half an hour, the jade plaque was no longer a plain jade plaque, but a delicate jade pendant.

I remembered that Leng Yue was three years older than me and must be born in the Year of the Rat. A squirrel jade pendant is a perfect match for someone born in the Year of the Rat. So, I decided to give it to her.

I caused her to be injured and poisoned, so I should apologize to her in person.

Hearing familiar footsteps, I pushed open the door and saw Sai Huatuo standing outside.

"Mr. Nong Yue, I'm afraid the matter of the man in black needs to be reported to the city lord. Should you do it or should I?" he asked.

"Just like Hua Tuo, if you have something to say, just say it directly," I said.

"Young Master Nong Yue is indeed straightforward. I believe that if this matter has alarmed the City Lord, he will definitely come to visit. Leng Yue will definitely not commit suicide casually because of the City Lord's entrustment."

"Since Sai Huatuo is so well-intentioned, how could Nong Yue not help? Don't worry, I will report to the city lord tomorrow morning."

"Thank you very much."

The next day, I reported the matter of the man in black to the city lord, and he came to visit me. Leng Yue remained calm, not only revealing the man's true identity but also offering a strategy for dealing with him. The calm and wise Leng Yue was back, and I was deeply impressed.

Sai Hua Tuo escorted the city lord out the door. I walked over and sat by her bed. Leng Yue's face was still dark yellow from the poison, and her pale lips were tinged with purple. Seeing me, she seemed to be in a good mood. She narrowed her eyes and smiled angrily, "You little brat."

These three words meant that she not only guessed that I was the instigator of the scene last night, but also guessed the reason why the city lord came to visit today.

"Is sister angry with Nong Yue?" I asked.

She smiled and shook her head: "No, I know you have good intentions and have even called the city lord here."

Leng Yue is a good sister who understands me and tolerates me.

I took out the squirrel jade pendant and handed it to her. She loved it. She also told me that her zodiac sign was not rat, but rabbit. Because she came from a different world, her calendar was out of sync with ours.

"So, sister is only less than a month older than Nong Yue. Sai Hua Tuo was born in the cold winter, so by that calculation, sister is only half a year older than Sai Hua Tuo, so we are the same age."

Leng Yue frowned: "But I am indeed 26 years old. Even if I follow your standards..."

"Well, since you're here, you should follow the local calendar. You're twenty-six back home, but twenty-three here."

I am very satisfied with this conclusion.

Leng Yue suddenly smiled frivolously and said, "You are saying all this just to try to match me up with Mingri. Actually, I think you and Sai Huatuo are a good match."

The hand that was fiddling with the fan suddenly froze.

That night, Leng Yue suddenly said while drunk: "Hey, you are not with Sai Huatuo?" Today, I finally understood what she meant.

I stood up, not knowing whether to laugh or cry, and said, waving my fan, "Nong Yue doesn't have any sexual preferences."

Leng Yue smiled and said, "Nong Yue, in fact, the friendship between men is sometimes more precious than the relationship between men and women."

Not wanting to continue this topic, I said coldly, "Sister, please don't make fun of me, otherwise, Nong Yue won't help you."

Leng Yue covered her mouth and laughed for a while, then begged for mercy: "Good brother, sister is just joking with you, it doesn't matter whether you help me or not, please don't be angry, okay?"

"Nong Yue and Sai Huatuo are people who appreciate each other and are evenly matched. It's not like what my sister said. Mencius said: If you know how to love beauty, you will admire young girls. It is human nature to prefer women. Although Nong Yue is outstanding, he is not immune to this. What's more, if there is no competition of talent and wit between Nong Yue and Sai Huatuo, but it becomes a love affair of mutual concessions, then what's the point?" I said seriously.

After hearing this, Leng Yue still had that playful smile on her face: "I know. It's my fault, dear brother, don't be angry."

I slowly closed my folding fan and for the first time in my life pointed the tip of it at her face.

"Sister, please don't say that again. Otherwise, you'll be disrespecting both Sai Hua Tuo and Nong Yue."

There was an inexplicable surge of anger and sadness in my heart.

Even if Hua Tuo is Longyang Jun, I am not the King of Zhao. What's more, he is not.

I've lived in Chunfengdeyi Palace since I was seven years old. The scent of girls fills my body, no matter how I open my eyes or close my eyes. That scent comforts me, makes me feel at ease. Chunfengdeyi Palace is never short of beautiful women, and as I've seen them for so long, my aesthetic standards have gradually risen.

Now, you actually said that I like men? Leng Yue, you know the story between Xing'er and me, so how did you come to the conclusion that I like men?

What on earth are you thinking about all day long in this unique little head of yours?

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