Chapter 48: Near death, she realized that today might be the end of her life
Qin Cangye went to the restaurant and packed a lot of food.
Su Yinuo wasn't picky about food, so he ordered a little of everything, including the fruit and dessert after the meal. In case Su Yinuo didn't have much of an appetite, he also packed some sweet porridge. He also bought a box of yogurt from a supermarket near the restaurant and planned to store it in the suite's refrigerator so Su Yinuo could always come up and grab some whenever she wanted.
Fearing that he had not considered something carefully, he slowed down his movements, but fearing that Su Yinuo would get anxious, he quickly quickened his pace.
This cautious state does not make him irritable. As long as it is done for Su Yinuo, he will feel happy and satisfied no matter how troublesome the matter is.
After a hearty afternoon of venting, while soaking in the warm tub with Su Yinuo in his arms, his mood improved considerably. His anger had largely dissipated, and as he went out to buy things, he felt incredibly light, as if the huge rock weighing on his heart had been lifted. He even felt a surge of confidence in himself, believing he could win back Su Yinuo's heart.
After all, recalling the past, Su Yinuo prefers herself to be the truth.
He still believed that Su Yinuo had relationships with those men, perhaps even with Ji Wenjun, and that she might have developed feelings for Qin Wangxuan without him knowing. But he didn't blame Su Yinuo. He believed that it was Su Yinuo's softness, kindness, and affection that made her unable to refuse the men who approached her, and he was also one of them she couldn't refuse.
But I'm better looking than Ji Wenjun and Qin Wangxuan, right? I'm richer than them, right? I care about her more than them, right? I can make her feel comfortable, and we're perfectly compatible in bed...
After this comparison, Qin Cangye's confidence became even stronger.
Since she can't refuse others, I'll just keep a close eye on her from now on and not allow her to contact other men. Tell Wang Yiliu to take charge of my work directly, or simply move her desk into my office.
However, this will inevitably be distracting. If Su Yinuo shows up in front of me every day with her beautiful and lovely appearance, how can I concentrate on my work?
I really want to put her on the desk and do it...
Thinking of this, Qin Cangye stopped and his ears turned red.
Shaking off the messy thoughts in his head, he took a deep breath and walked into the elevator.
Qin Cangye never thought that he had any mental problems. The painful memories of his childhood that destroyed his mind had been erased by himself. He believed that the eight years of seeing a psychologist afterwards were a way for Qin Weishu to torture him.
After he became an adult, he never saw a psychiatrist again. He knew that his emotions were particularly prone to ups and downs, but he also knew how to control them and how to express them. He had never made a mistake in a critical situation, so he firmly believed that he was not sick.
The attack four years ago had shaken his self-esteem. He couldn't remember exactly what happened afterward. Faced with Qin Weishu's accusations, even after he had hurried abroad, he flew into a rage and vehemently refused to follow Qin Weishu's instructions for treatment. Ultimately, he dismissed the attack as a fluke, a result of his emotional outburst.
He never thought he was sick, never thought there was anything wrong with his surging love for Su Yinuo, his crazy greed, his obsessive possessiveness, and his increasingly distorted desire for her. He never believed that he would ever hurt Su Yinuo one day. After all, she was a treasure that was much more precious than his own life.
He never thought that one day when he stood in front of Su Yinuo, he would have the urge to kill her.
He had already reached the bedroom door and saw Su Yinuo standing on the open balcony. The scarlet plaid skirt stung his eyes, and he felt a rage and hatred in his heart that he himself did not understand.
Everything in his hands fell to the ground. He took a step forward, then stopped abruptly.
Her red skirt was blown up by the cool night breeze. She was shivering in the cold on the balcony, hugging her arms. She looked like that...
The scene in front of him suddenly began to tremble and distort, and then suddenly retreated, as if it was caught in a torrent of time travel, pulling Qin Cangye back to seventeen years ago.
On that night seventeen years ago, the dim bedroom was filled with fear, anger and sorrow.
Heart-wrenching pain invaded Qin Cangye's entire body. He began to tremble, and like that ten-year-old child, he burst into a hoarse roar: "What the hell are you doing?! Have you taken good care of my mother? My mother is dead. Why are you wearing her skirt? What the hell are you doing?!"
Fragmented and dizzying spots of light enveloped his vision, and the face he could not see clearly had completely turned into the frightened face of the vain maid when he was a child.
"Get out of the Qin family! No, you can't leave. You should go to hell. You should die. You should pay for my mother's life!"
Su Yinuo was terrified standing on the balcony. Her fear made her completely ignore the biting night wind and she stood frozen in front of the railing. She couldn't understand a single word Qin Cangye said. The state Qin Cangye showed was not the regret and self-blame that Qin Weishu had described, but hatred, deep hatred!
Seeing Qin Cangye coming forward, she quickly took a step back and leaned against the railing of the 36-story building.
Suddenly, a strong wind blew, lifting Su Yinuo's long black hair. The whistling wind brought icy raindrops, which sprinkled on Su Yinuo's smooth shoulders and neck. She hugged her arms tremblingly and looked back at the dark world behind her.
Deep regret, strong unwillingness and despair arose from the bottom of her heart. She realized that she had been deceived and that today might be the end of her life.
There was no way to escape. She had no strength left in her body. Moreover, she had been standing on the balcony in her skirt for ten minutes on this winter night. Her body was so stiff that it was difficult for her to even raise her hands.
It seemed like she had reached a dead end, but she didn't want this to happen. She didn't want to die at Qin Cangye's hands and let him fall into endless pain and self-blame. She wanted to help Qin Cangye, she didn't want to destroy him!
Tears streamed down her face as she looked at Qin Cangye, who had completely lost his mind and was constantly approaching her. She cried and said, "I love you, Qin Cangye. Remember that I love you. I want you to live a good life. This is not your fault. No matter what you see when you wake up, it's not your fault."
Qin Cangye suddenly stopped and stopped one meter in front of Su Yinuo.
There was a violent knock on the door behind me, and it seemed like someone was calling someone's name outside.
Qin Cangye seemed to be deaf to everything. The world before his eyes became a mess, and only hatred drove him forward. But there were a few moments when his chaotic mind suddenly became clear, and he realized with despair that the other self in his body was about to kill the person he loved most.
No, I can’t!!!
His soul was trembling with fear. He had no time to hate himself for being out of control. He just wanted to beg someone to suddenly appear in front of him and stop his behavior, even if it meant killing him!
Please, please, someone can come and save Su Yinuo, someone can come and save my Su Yinuo!!
His face was distorted, half filled with hatred, while the other half was covered in tears. He slowly raised his hand and extended it towards Su Yinuo, uttering a hard and hoarse voice: "Nuo... Don't, don't stand there, it's dangerous."
But his hand was holding Su Yinuo's shoulder tightly.
bump! ! !
The door was suddenly pushed open, and two anxious figures appeared at the bedroom door.
"Qin Cangye, stop!" Qin Wangxuan shouted and rushed towards Qin Cangye, holding him tightly with the hand that was not dislocated, and knocking him to the ground with the weight of his body.
Wang Yilu followed closely and hugged Su Yinuo, who was freezing cold on the edge of the balcony.
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After that day, Su Yinuo fell seriously ill.
After running a high fever for several days, she lay in the hospital in a daze for almost a week before slowly recovering. During this time, she always felt that many people came around her, surrounding her and talking loudly, but she couldn't hear a word.
When she could see the world clearly, she only saw Qin Wangxuan standing by the bed.
"Where is Qin Cangye?" she asked hoarsely.
"You're awake! You're finally awake!" Qin Wangxuan stood up excitedly and rang the bedside call bell. "I'll call the doctor to check you out!"
"Where's Qin Cangye?!" Su Yinuo propped herself up, her tone urgent and her emotions very excited. Seeing Qin Wangxuan standing there in a daze without answering, she stretched out her skinny hand and said, "Give me your phone, I want to call Qin Cangye!"
"He...is probably unreachable now..." Qin Wangxuan answered carefully without handing over the phone.
"Why?" Tears rolled down Su Yinuo's pale face. After being stunned for a few seconds, her lips trembled and she cried pitifully, "I want to see him. I want to tell him that it was my fault. I believed Qin Weishu's words and provoked him. It had nothing to do with him. I'm afraid he'll have wild thoughts and do something stupid under the impulse. Can you please call him over to me?"
She had just recovered from a serious illness, and even her lips were pale. She looked so fragile and pitiful as she trembled and cried.
Qin Wangxuan couldn't bear it, so he walked over and patted her on the back, comforting her: "Don't worry, he's fine, he's going to see a psychiatrist."
Su Yinuo stopped crying, raised her head and looked at Qin Wangxuan in surprise.
"The psychiatrist said his condition wasn't caused by one or two incidents, but by the long-term repression he suffered in his childhood and the outbreak of that incident. Oh, you still don't know what happened that time, right?"
Qin Wangxuan helped Su Yinuo up, handed her a glass of warm water, then sat next to him and told him the truth about Li Ruyin's death.
After he finished speaking, the doctor came over to examine him. Su Yinuo remained silent. After the doctor left, he calmly asked, "Why are you telling me all this? Why did you want to save me? What is your position?"
Qin Wangxuan smiled bitterly, sorted out the IV tube for Su Yinuo, and said, "There are still many things you don't know. Take care of yourself, and I will tell you everything..."
Qin Wangxuan stayed in the ward for the entire afternoon and told Su Yinuo about his true relationship with Qin Cangye and his plan to bring down Qin Weishu together with Qin Cangye.
Then he talked about Qin Cangye's treatment: "He is now in the Qiyuan Sanatorium. His attending physician recommended that he undergo treatment in stages. The first stage is isolation. Stay away from anyone or anything that can trigger his childhood memories. Let go of all the burdens in his heart and cooperate with medication until he can soberly and calmly accept all the blows he has experienced. This stage will not be too long, at least one month, and at most half a year..."
"A month...a month without being able to see him?" Su Yinuo lowered her head, staring at her fingers tangled in her hair, tears rolling down her face one by one.
"It's only been a month, why are you crying again?" Qin Wangxuan quickly took out a few pieces of paper and wanted to wipe Su Yinuo's tears, but Su Yinuo snatched them away.
Seeing Su Yinuo huddled up in a ball with her head down, wiping away tears, Qin Wangxuan lay on the bed, tilted his head and looked at her, poked her leg, and said, "Sister-in-law, let me take good care of you before he goes to the nursing home."
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