Chapter 58 If it hurts, can you touch me?
it hurts......
Su Yinuo held her heart, feeling dizzy.
I could no longer hear the sounds in my ears, and the things in my brain seemed to be cut into pieces, mixed into a disgusting ball, and then thrown into a dark space, scattered in all directions.
The pain spread to all my internal organs and even to my fingers. Besides the pain, I also felt nauseous.
Su Yinuo didn't know what was wrong with her. In many moments, she just wanted to die immediately and end this unbearable torture immediately.
It took a long time for her to gradually regain consciousness, but after waking up, she was still greeted by overwhelming heartache.
“Wuwuwu…”
She burst into tears and trembled constantly, reaching out for help. She didn't know whose clothes she grabbed or whose arms she snuggled into.
She hugged him tightly, and her tears soaked his clothes.
She felt the palm patting her back and the anxious comfort in her ear. She snuggled into his arms again, and in the warm breath, she found a little comfort that calmed her down.
Her mind was still unclear, and she didn't even realize he was carrying her to the bed. She still held on to his clothes tightly and refused to let go.
He felt a little helpless as he stroked her wet cheek, his heart beating fast.
Maybe I could have her tonight.
When this thought came to his mind, he immediately turned over and pressed her down, wanting to kiss her, but her head was always buried in his chest, so he couldn't kiss her at all...
"Sister-in-law, please let me go first," he pulled her hand away and quickly took off his coat and shirt, but she hugged him again, her wet face pressed against his chest, her warm breath hitting his chest.
"Sister-in-law, are you...torturing me to death?"
Qin Wangxuan was helpless. He wanted to do it so badly, his body already reacting violently, and the girl in his arms was in such a state of distraught that she certainly couldn't resist. But he didn't dare to do it, fearing that in his impulse, he would completely destroy this already bruised girl.
"Okay..." After a long time, he lay down and hugged Su Yinuo into his arms, "You are sad, I will accompany you to be sad..."
"Go to sleep, go to sleep," he turned off the light and patted her back gently, "Have a good sleep and wake up, and nothing will happen."
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In a dark room at the Qiyuan Sanatorium, tables and chairs were overturned, and a mess of things was scattered all over the floor. Qin Cangye huddled in a corner, holding his head, his mind replaying the image of pushing Su Yinuo off the tall building.
Blood and shattered flesh filled his brain, pain tore at his soul, and he trembled as he cried out:
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm not worthy, I'm not worthy of seeing you..."
He reached out his hand tremblingly, grabbed the pill at his side, and stuffed it into his mouth.
The bitter taste made him feel a little more stable. He covered his face and begged, "Noruo, wait for me, wait until I get better..."
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Holding Su Yinuo to sleep was like an unimaginable dream to Qin Wangxuan. After coaxing her to sleep, Qin Wangxuan couldn't sleep all night, always laughing inexplicably in the dark. After finally falling asleep, when he woke up, it was only dawn.
The person in his arms was still unconscious, her even breathing still beating against her chest. The hand that had been on her waist had loosened and rested softly on her abdominal muscles. Qin Wangxuan felt so happy. He moved slightly and hugged Su Yinuo upwards, letting her rest her head on his arm so that he could see her sleeping face.
Her eyes were red and swollen from crying, and her lips were a little dry. She looked both fragile and attractive. Qin Wangxuan raised his hand and gently stroked her dry lips, wanting to kiss her.
So he moved closer, and just as he was about to kiss her, she opened her eyes.
Qin Wangxuan was startled and quickly stepped back, saying awkwardly, "Are you awake? Did you sleep well? It's still early, you can sleep a little longer."
Su Yinuo's eyes were dull. She stared at Qin Wangxuan for at least five minutes before she recalled the pain she had experienced last night. She felt much better after a good night's sleep, but her head was still dizzy, her stomach still ached, and her body felt weak.
She didn't remember how she fell asleep yesterday. In fact, after hearing Qin Cangye's rejection, her memory was fragmented. So looking at Qin Wangxuan with his upper body naked in front of her, she moved her weak legs and asked, "Did we... do it?"
"Ah?" Qin Wangxuan exclaimed in surprise, then he lifted the quilt with a look of both laughter and tears, and said, "Look, you haven't taken off your clothes, and I haven't taken off my pants either. We are both innocent!"
Su Yinuo said "oh" with a very calm attitude.
Qin Wangxuan stared at her for a few seconds. He was surprised that she was so calm. He had expected to be scolded or slapped when he woke up this morning. He grabbed her hand and placed it on her waist, saying, "If you want to do it, you can do it now. If you want me to be hard, I can do it anytime..."
"Get out," Su Yinuo cursed weakly.
Although she felt very uncomfortable, Su Yinuo did not push Qin Wangxuan away and closed her heavy eyelids again.
Su Yinuo's weak state lasted for many days before she gradually recovered. Seeing her like this, Qin Weishu no longer dared to force her to eat, and her life returned to its usual peace.
Li Guogang's son was abroad, and Qin Wangxuan had finally managed to get his contact information. However, it was difficult to deepen the relationship and gain his trust simply through online communication. Su Yinuo, due to health reasons, no longer had the energy to pursue Li Guogang, so the investigation into Qin Weishu also came to a standstill.
In fact, Su Yinuo was not only unable to investigate due to physical discomfort, but also mentally exhausted by Qin Cangye's unilateral breakup. She began to doubt whether everything she was doing was worth it.
But she knew one thing, whether it was worth it or not, there was no way out now.
The show must go on, previously it was for Qin Cangye, and now it is to be able to break free from this quagmire.
But she felt miserable every day, completely lost in thought and unable to muster any energy. She locked herself in her room, often not even leaving for days at a time.
One day, Qin Wangxuan knelt in front of Su Yinuo, hugged her while she was sitting on the sofa, took out his phone and said, "Don't be sad, my brother sent me another video. Come, let me show it to you."
Su Yinuo suddenly raised her hand, knocked Qin Wangxuan's phone away, and burst into tears.
"Don't be like this, don't be like this," Qin Wangxuan sat on the sofa and hugged her with heartache.
"Why would he do this?" Su Yinuo broke down and burst into tears. "He said he wouldn't let me go. He said he would never let me go even if he died. Why would he abandon me? What on earth is he thinking? Has he forgotten how much he likes me? Has he forgotten how much I like him? Has he forgotten? Wuuuuu... Wangxuan, I'm so sad, wuuuuu..."
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry..." Qin Wangxuan was so flustered that he could only apologize.
"Why are you apologizing? It's not your fault," Su Yinuo cried.
"I apologize because I'm useless and don't know how to make you happy," Qin Wangxuan held Su Yinuo's face and wiped the tears from her face. "Just tell me, you can ask me to do anything, I will listen to you."
Su Yinuo stared at Qin Wangxuan for a long time, and her crying slowly stopped.
Qin Wangxuan couldn't understand the meaning in her eyes, but her stare made him feel hot all over, and some bad thoughts came to his mind. He slowly moved his hand on her waist and held her neck. He stared at her lips, and when he was about to kiss her, she raised her hand to block her mouth.
"I don't like you. I have rejected you many times. Why aren't you sad? Do you have any secret? I want to learn," Su Yinuo asked.
"Who said I'm not sad?" Qin Wangxuan laughed at himself, licked Su Yinuo's palm with his tongue, and then opened his mouth to bite her slender wrist. After biting it a few times, he hugged her tightly and said with his eyes raised, "Oh, I'm really not sad. Maybe it's because I can hold you."
Seeing the lust in his eyes, Su Yinuo wanted to push him away, but he held her waist tightly. He grabbed her hand and continued to kiss her wrist, the desire in his body began to stir.
"Come with me?" He kissed the wrist until it turned red, and asked breathlessly.
"No," Su Yinuo refused decisively.
He smiled bitterly, threw her onto the sofa, grabbed her right hand, placed it on his neck, and said in her ear: "Then touch me, okay?"
"Then you have to promise not to touch me."
"I promise!"
Su Yinuo gently stroked his neck, her soft fingertips sliding across the swollen meridians, then fell on the rolling Adam's apple and pressed lightly.
Qin Wangxuan growled hoarsely, put one hand on Su Yinuo's ear, and untied his belt.
Su Yinuo had grown accustomed to Qin Wangxuan's presence. She was used to holding hands, accustomed to hugging him, and even these days, when he occasionally held her to sleep, she didn't really mind. But she simply couldn't accept having sex with him. She didn't love him, and when they were close, she couldn't feel the slightest bit of desire. Any deeper would only create a strong feeling of nausea and repulsion.
But she didn't hate Qin Wangxuan either. At certain moments, she even felt sorry for him and sympathized with him for not being able to get the love he wanted.
So she indulged him more and more. Her fingers slid down and unbuttoned his shirt, one by one, until she was almost touching his hot...
She pulled her fingers back and slid them across his chest.
He shuddered and breathed hot air into her ear: "Help me...you touch it, okay?"
"No," Su Yinuo pressed against his open chest.
"Okay... whatever you want... touch..."
Su Yinuo exerted force with his palms, and his breathing became heavier.
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In the Qiyuan Sanatorium, Qin Cangye came to the attending physician's office and said, "Doctor Qi, I've been here for nearly a month. I feel like my condition has stabilized. Even at night, as long as I take the medicine, my mood won't fluctuate too much."
Doctor Qi stood up, asked Qin Cangye to sit down, and said with a smile: "Want to leave?"
Qin Cangye nodded, his expression was very peaceful, and he looked completely different from a month ago.
"My suggestion," Dr. Qi took Qin Cangye's phone out of the drawer, handed it to him, and said kindly, "First, establish contact with the outside world. Try it with the people you want to see, the people you don't dare to see, the people you dislike or hate. Try it all. If there's really no problem, you can leave."
Qin Cangye took his cell phone and returned to the bedroom.
After charging, as soon as he turned on the phone, he saw Su Yinuo, who he had set as his wallpaper.
The corners of his mouth lifted up into a smile unconsciously, and when he realized it, his smile became even wider.
Without the burden in his heart, he could meet her openly. But when he clicked on her cell phone number, he hesitated again.
Still a little nervous, but not a big deal.
He comforted himself, swiped Su Yinuo's number, and dialed Wang Yilu's number.
"Vice President Qin, are you feeling better?" Wang Yilu's voice showed rare excitement.
Qin Cangye hummed and asked anxiously, "Su Yinuo, how is she now?"
There was a long silence on the phone. A strong sense of unease welled up inside him. Qin Cangye pressed his chest, which was struggling to breathe, and asked, "What's wrong? Is she in trouble?"
"No, nothing happened," Wang Yiliu said quickly, "It's just that she is with your brother, and...she is pregnant."
Qin Cangye froze, and his phone fell from his hand and onto the floor.
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