Chapter 59 "Third Person Perspective" He is too real to me
Episode 59 「Third person perspective」He is so real to me
Fu Lin is cunning and despicable.
After being discharged from the hospital, he asked to live in the same neighborhood as Li Zhi, using the excuse that he was still in danger. As luck would have it, when Shang Hexing was working under Mayor Ethel, he was given a safe house that happened to be right opposite Li Zhi's house. Shang Hexing recalled this incident when he visited Li Zhi's house for the first time. Now, after Fu Lin used Shang Hexing's body, he counted all the permissions and found such a house. He decisively asked to live in that house.
Shang Hexing didn't want to have any further involvement with Li Zhi.
Fu Lin's behavior of using his body's authority to satisfy his own selfish desires is really despicable.
When working with Fu Lin, Shang Hexing made three rules with him, "Don't use my body to do weird things. I don't want to be responsible for your mess when I get my body back."
Shang Hexing actually felt very keenly that Fu Lin himself also had resentment, anger, and hatred towards him.
Even if he agreed now, Shang Hexing felt that he was being unwilling. It's just that we are all in a special situation right now, and there's no need to completely tear each other apart and sort out these things clearly. After all, making things too clear will only deepen the wound.
After listening to Shang Hexing's words, Fu Lin's expression was calm, even with a hint of cold sarcasm. His raised eyebrows were as sharp as a knife. He was completely different from the gentle, kind and good-tempered Fu Lin that people talked about. "I am just doing things that are consistent with my identity. So far, no one has doubted that I am not Shang Hexing. But you, are you doing well?"
To Shang Hexing, the subtext was, "Don't just criticize me. How are you doing? Have you taken advantage of my convenience to do anything else?"
Shang Hexing didn't take this soft thorn seriously. He raised his hand and twisted the wrinkles of his cuffs with his thumb and index finger. His voice was as indifferent as a layer of frost. "I am not interested in your identity, nor do I think it is good, but I found that many people want you dead. This has caused me a lot of trouble."
Fu Lin had a blank expression on his face, and there wasn't even a hint of perfunctory smile in his eyes. "Do you think I feel good inside your body?"
If you don't agree, there's no need to talk too much.
Shang Hexing originally wanted to talk about Li Zhi, but with Fu Lin's sarcastic attitude and because he didn't want to show that he cared about Li Zhi, he decided to just drop the topic. He was just about to leave when Fu Lin spoke first, "What's your relationship with Li Zhi?"
How do you see this? It was as if Fu Lin was in his body, enjoying a lot of intimacy that he shouldn't have, so he was very jealous.
Shang Hexing had only been in Fu Lin's body for a few days, but he already knew that Fu Lin and that group of people actually liked Li Zhi very much. From the beginning of the group chat, he could see that they were very concerned about whether they would leave a bad impression on Li Zhi. In the group chat with action leaders like Fu Lin and ideological leaders like An Qingyan as the dual core, other group members were also very concerned about Li Zhi.
But he really couldn't see what was so noteworthy about Li Zhi.
When you are not familiar with him, Li Zhi seems very distant and oppressive, especially when he doesn't speak. You always feel like he can see through your thoughts at a glance. But after getting to know each other, Shang Hexing saw through Li Zhi's bravado in his fragility. Sometimes he is not actually doubting others, but he subconsciously pays more attention to them because he is worried. Ever since Li Zhi fell ill a week ago, Shang Hexing felt that he was really fragile.
Although he was in poor health, after hearing about the disaster on the Peace train, he still dragged his sick body to see the situation and to witness with his own eyes whether he was safe or not.
Shang Hexing found it hard to say whether he was moved or not.
Because the person Li Zhi was hugging had nothing to do with him, or even to put it bluntly, Li Zhi was hugging his nemesis and caring about his safety. This made Shang Hexing feel absurd and ridiculous when he looked at it from afar at that time. He even wanted to laugh at his stupidity. He couldn't even tell the difference between the two people who had swapped their cores.
Would Shang Hexing himself be willing to have any casual physical contact with others?
This is obviously not the case.
But Li Zhi still held him so tightly, as if he was going to lose him forever.
What's wrong with this person?
Shang Hexing hates this kind of sticky and entangled relationship, and also hates this kind of unclear and inexplicable feelings. But because the person he was hugging was not his real self, he did not have to feel so directly the other person's physical contact and strong emotions that ignored social distance. Shang Hexing stands from an outsider's perspective, at just the right distance, and can see more clearly the truthfulness, sincerity and earnestness of Li Zhi's feelings for him.
This inescapable feeling made Shang Hexing feel so complicated and entangled.
Shang Hexing listened to Fu Lin's questions and began to make more associations.
What is his relationship with Li Zhi?
The answer is actually not difficult.
"He and I have nothing to do with each other." Shang Hexing coldly put aside his own entanglements, "He just likes me unilaterally."
As soon as these words fell, Fu Lin seemed to be blown away.
He suddenly leaned forward, resting his hands on the table, his eyes as sharp as a knife, approaching Shang Hexing, "Did you already have the NPC's information and secretly improve their favorability? Didn't you say you are a game enthusiast? You know these people's strategy patterns better than anyone else!"
Shang Hexing was neither anxious nor flustered. Instead, he leaned back in his chair, folded his hands on his legs, and sneered slightly at the corner of his mouth. He raised his head slightly and looked down at Fu Lin, "You are the one who said that the people here are real people, but you yourself don't even consider them as human beings. Do you find it ironic?"
Fu Lin's face turned pale after hearing Shang Hexing's words, "I don't think so..."
He was just angry that Shang Hexing was able to get away with it.
But he was afraid that if he said this, he would appear to be one of those jealous and dark creatures.
Fu Lin looked at Shang Hexing, his feelings towards this competitor were extremely complicated.
Seeing that they were talking to each other, Shang Hexing simply continued, "I'm actually not interested in NPCs, and I don't want to be involved with them. If you know that your actions will cause me trouble, you should restrain yourself. That's what I want to say."
Fu Lin didn't say anything, and no one knew what he was thinking.
Shang Hexing didn't stay long, but when he left, he looked at Fu Lin a few more times. He always thought that Fu Lin was a straightforward person, but after changing his body, he found out that he was so entangled in boring emotions. This made Shang Hexing feel like he was back in high school, seeing a group of people in his class obsessed with chasing stars, or always thinking about having a boyfriend or girlfriend, and he was filled with incomprehension. Like him, he never takes emotional matters to heart and always cuts off relationships when necessary.
He would only think these things were troublesome, and his first reaction would be to refuse.
In short, Shang Hexing hoped that Fu Lin would understand what he should do. As a result, the next day Shang Hexing found out that Fu Lin had sneaked out and took his opportunity to meet Li Zhi.
This person is so shameless.
Shang Hexing couldn't sit still when he thought that Fu Lin had used his identity to hurt Li Zhi's heart.
If the incident at Bird Cafe had not just happened, Shang Hexing would have had to argue with Fu Lin on the spot. He even thought about tearing off Fu Lin's hypocritical mask in front of Li Zhi. As a result, after he witnessed Fu Lin molesting Li Zhi for the Nth time under the pretext of investigating a case, Shang Hexing could no longer bear it.
Taking advantage of Li Zhi's return, Shang Hexing wanted to talk to Fu Lin alone, but he didn't expect that he was pushed into the Warren River and Fu Lin had to jump into the river to save him.
After waking up again, Shang Hexing found that he and Fu Lin had switched bodies again.
Maybe God is still on my side. Whenever things don't go as I wish, the balance still tips towards me, allowing me to regain control of the out-of-control situation.
He successfully stopped Fu Lin's little trick, but encountered another big trouble——
"What does this sentence mean?" Li Zhi asked cautiously, and Shang Hexing could read expectation and hope in his eyes.
He had originally wanted to take this opportunity to cut off his relationship with Li Zhi, but he didn't know what had gone wrong between him and Li Zhi that made him look so confused. He obviously just wanted to explain to him the mistake Fu Lin had made, but Li Zhi's questioning seemed to give him more possibilities to get closer to Shang Hexing.
Shang Hexing was in a state of confusion, so he could only cut the Gordian knot, "Don't misunderstand me."
Shang Hexing said again: "I am telling you these words because I don't want to have any unnecessary relationship with you."
All those feelings and emotions you have for me have nothing to do with me.
Shang Hexing said fiercely in his heart.
How about just tell me to move out tomorrow?
Shang Hexing's mind was filled with thoughts of escaping from this emotional whirlpool as quickly as possible.
But at this time, Li Zhi's eyelashes drooped slightly, and there was a light of forbearance in his pupils, which made people couldn't help but tighten their hearts.
He said quietly: "If you really think so..."
When he looked at her again, Shang Hexing saw that the strands of hair on his forehead had become tiny shadows because of the light from the corridor, and fell into the depths of his bright black pupils. He said in a sad voice, "If I don't give you a farewell gift..."
Shang Hexing understood the deep desire to keep him and his reluctance to let him go in his words, but he really didn't want such a heavy feeling.
If he really accepted this gift, Shang Hexing felt that he would no longer be himself, but Li Zhi's "Shang Hexing". It's like I was originally a cup of pure water, but after accepting Li Zhi, he would dye myself into various colors, or different flavors, and I would no longer be myself.
What on earth is there about him that is worthy of Li Zhi's pursuit?
Shang Hexing was puzzled.
But as soon as this idea came up, he instantly found a breakthrough, "Do you want my permission key?"
These words came out almost without thinking. Shang Hexing’s first instinct was that this was the standard answer. This is something that everyone wants, including Fu Lin, who also wants to use his authority key to learn all aspects of Anubis's secret intelligence. If Li Zhi wanted to get close to him just for this, he believed that as long as he gave it to him, Li Zhi would naturally stay away from him. However, as soon as this thought came to his mind, Shang Hexing felt that there was something wrong. If he gave it to her like this, wouldn't he be a fool who fell into the beauty trap?
I clearly know that there is something wrong here, but I still want to give such an important thing. Doesn't this make me seem like I am deliberately sinking into it and unable to extricate myself?
He was regretting what he said. Li Zhi on the opposite side was slightly startled and then looked at Shang Hexing.
Those eyes were bright, like crystal water drops filled with sunlight, looking at the whole world with the cleanest and most thorough perspective. He had no idea that he was making malicious assumptions about Li Zhi.
"You misunderstood," Li Zhi's voice was incredibly gentle, "I don't want anything from you. What do I need those for?"
As he spoke, the oppressive feeling in Shang Hexing's chest suddenly dissipated, like the warm sunshine after the dark clouds were brushed away and draped over his shoulders. He subconsciously stared into Li Zhi's eyes and saw that the dark pupils also reflected Shang Hexing's own shadow, which was clear and without any impurities.
At this moment, Li Zhi, who responded to the gaze, also tilted his head slightly. A smile hung on Li Zhi's pretty face with gentle persistence.
At that moment, Shang Hexing felt as if his heartstrings were plucked.
The ripples in my heart spread slowly without my noticing, even without wind.
Soon, Shang Hexing subconsciously lowered his eyes, fearing that if he looked at him for one more second, that sincere look would pierce his cold and hard defense like steel.
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