Chapter 91 Are You Asleep?
Episode 91 Are you asleep?
Halfway through the meal, I started to feel sleepy.
I wasn't hungry to begin with, but now that I've slightly filled my stomach, I can already hardly open my eyes.
But I was afraid that my father would agree with me on the surface, but actually do things according to his own ideas secretly, without consulting me later, so I didn't let myself go to bed.
If emotions and feelings can really bind a person, there wouldn't be such words as unfaithful man, heartless man, ungrateful man, playboy, ungrateful, etc. Just because I can make my dad listen to me temporarily doesn't mean we can always get along like this.
I think we still need to explain more to each other.
My connections in this area are basically gone.
Because if I have to, I will follow my dad and join Vita. The worst case scenario is that we all die together. On a better note, maybe we can watch Vita rule Anubis, and maybe even become the ruling class all of a sudden.
What is this called?
When one person succeeds, the whole family will benefit.
I can defect at any time, but if my father doesn't want me to defect, then he should stay in this camp with me and not leave under any circumstances.
I told my dad, "If you betray me and run away, I will run away with you."
I also said, "If you want me to stay, you have to stay with me no matter what happens."
"I hope you can tell me clearly, were you forced by others, or did you join the Vita organization voluntarily?"
According to official sources, the Vita organization was actually established 20 years ago and has been lurking there. Now it seems that many people are criticizing the Vita organization, but in fact, the public opinion on the Internet is biased towards Vita.
"I want to try to understand better what's going on inside your head from your perspective."
To be honest, we have lived together for more than 20 years, but we rarely communicate with each other and express our true thoughts. First, we rarely face such a drastic moment; second, neither of us is the kind of person who likes to speak out our thoughts.
So facing this moment, I felt timid inside, but it was just that things had to be talked out at times like this, so I had to force myself to face this situation toughly.
But I think that my father's inner thoughts are still filled with patriarchal ideas and the idea that a father should be strong. He doesn't want to tell his children about his worries and troubles.
So when I took the initiative to speak frankly, there was a clear blockage in our conversation compared to when we were having dinner.
I'm afraid my dad will insist on having his own way.
But I'm not the kind of person who would use the death of a child to hold parents hostage.
Because to put it bluntly, if a child commits suicide in response to his parents' behavior, it means that the two parties have never talked it out. If parents don’t understand their children’s feelings and children don’t understand their parents’ feelings, how can the problem be solved? The same is true in real life. You may feel sorry for your parents or want to take revenge on them, but the other party still doesn’t understand what you are worried about. That's the problem with two-way communication.
But sometimes people also say that if they don’t use extreme methods to warn others, they will never understand how hard their parents have gone through.
What I thought more in my heart was that instead of punishing myself, I might as well punish my parents and take them to hell together.
I think so, but I certainly wouldn't say it that way.
I'll just say mildly that I don't know what I would have done.
"We can go crazy together, and then go gently into that good night together."
I asked my dad for my cell phone.
He can take his time to reply.
And what kind of situation I wish I were in now. What kind of information gap can I exploit to gain my own advantage?
"You don't have to tell me for now, but I want you to stay with me tonight."
I spoke to comfort my father, and then secretly had someone block all entrances and exits of the hospital, making it impossible for my father to escape.
Of course, this is a rather extreme idea.
Because I don’t really like being wrong.
Mainly, I don't want to stage any pretentious or melodramatic scenes.
My dad naturally had no idea that his son was actually a wolf in sheep's clothing. So after hearing what I said, he felt very guilty and worried. He just gently supported my back and told me to rest early and get better soon.
I also urged him to go back to bed.
The two of them were a loving father and a filial son.
Not derogatory.
*
The mobile card drawing software has updated the content. The third character card does not reveal the appearance of the character, but from the silhouette, it is a brother holding an infusion bottle, like a scepter -
This is already very clear.
There were two words written under the card: "Xin Qiao".
If I had to change someone next time, it would probably be this grumpy and angry brother. This is a huge advantage for me, because from the situations I have encountered before, this person probably has some say.
And I haven't yet reached the conditions for substitution.
The back of the card is pistachio chocolate.
I immediately lost my composure when I saw it. Why did this person represent such delicious snacks?
He should be like some kind of chili or sweet pepper candy - the kind of snack that no one wants to eat anymore. As soon as I finished thinking about it, I felt that the system would not produce anything bad, so there was nothing I could do.
There wasn't much in the comics that I didn't already know.
If guessing is considered knowing -
Shanghexing version of Fu Lin followed Xin Qiao into the base near the reservoir.
It was still an experimental base, and the staff were all unfamiliar faces, but there were many experimental subjects with familiar faces. Among them is the victim of the first case, which again suggests that this is essentially an experiment in cloning or replicating humans. Xin Qiao was naturally among the crowd, and it was obvious that he was the person in charge.
Unlike Tang Li and Cui Shi, Xin Qiao has a more sinister temperament and his character flaws are obviously more obvious.
I thought carefully about what happened between Tang Li and Cui Shi.
Although Tang Li has some character flaws, judging from his reports to his superiors before boarding the train, he is still very trusted in the M organization - he is a loner but honest person.
Cui Shi's personality is not one that is obviously likable, but people around him are very tolerant of him. Firstly, it may be that he has strong professional skills and is someone who can be trusted and relied upon; secondly, he sticks to the facts and is willing to take responsibility. He is always the first to shoulder the responsibility when there is a problem, which allows people who dare not easily step into a fight to work better and feel more at ease - he is eccentric, but also easy to talk to.
It's hard to understand why people like Xin Qiao, who hits people at every turn.
Because he is the founder? So no one will resist him?
I suddenly had a whimsical idea for a moment, but I felt that I had glimpsed the truth.
However, the comics do not give more details, except that Miao Lunan actually tried to win over He Qisi secretly, but He Qisi never took his words to heart; then there is He Qisi's attitude towards "eternal reincarnation". The sentence "death is eternal" is really eye-opening to me.
It’s not that I didn’t understand what he meant, nor that I didn’t expect him to say this, but at that moment, hearing this sentence was like asking a question and getting a perfect answer.
Because whether Tang Li and Cui Shi broke the cycle of reincarnation or not, they would definitely die. If reincarnation really exists, then their fate would be no different from today. If there were no reincarnation, they would not be born.
"Only death is eternal."
Based on this statement, He Qisi probably has no motivation to participate in Vita anymore. Miao Lunan also did not want to continue participating in cruel and ruthless human experiments, so he would not persuade He Qisi to participate again.
After this incident between the two people is over, there will definitely be some negotiations between them.
Maybe he would tell others that Cui Shi was also an experimental subject in the organization.
I thought for a while, "..."
I feel that their debate will be very exciting. As He Qisi and Miao Lunan often talk a lot and occasionally get physical, they are likely to use their fists to convince each other.
I tried to imagine the picture in my head, but it didn't take long before I stopped myself from thinking.
Because I am not that kind of person, I essentially pursue harmony.
I must have been influenced by Choi Si…
When talking about Cui, I can't help but think of the sentence "Don't make the same mistake again this time."
What is this speech?
I flipped through the comics again and didn't see Cui Shi say this.
In the comic, there is only a scene where I am holding Cui Shi with my head down, and the shot is not even facing the front, but facing our backs, which is very similar to the composition of Michelangelo's "Lamentation over the Christ", but because the camera is focused on the upper body, in a sense, Cui Shi also looks like he has not landed on the ground.
This sentence was not said by me, but a flash of comments in the barrage, which made me subconsciously capture the information while quickly expanding my own thoughts - "Lamentation of Jesus" is the moment when the Virgin Mary hugged her dying son. In the protective embrace, a mother's deepest sorrow is also revealed.
When I went back to look for this comic comment, I saw more voices discussing an exaggerated hypothesis.
This hypothesis originated from a small detail in the comics.
When I hugged Cui Shi, only my toes were supporting the ground, and the trouser legs at my ankles were stretched forward as I squatted, revealing my tattoo. At the same time, a piece of tattoo was revealed at the camera, and from the shape, it seemed to be the same as my tattoo.
You know, I designed and drew this tattoo myself.
Why does Choi Shi also have the same tattoo?
Could it be that we both had our tattoos done by the same artist? After he finished my design, it happened to be noticed by someone, so he asked Cui Shi to make an identical one.
The comments are totally different from what I thought. It can be said that they are completely different.
[I said, actually Li Zhi is also from Vita! Look at them all have the same tattoo】
Does this mean that all Vita users have this logo? 】
[This is quite reasonable. How can we tell whether this person is from the same organization? You see, the organizations in other novels and TV dramas all have uniform clothing, but in this comic, everyone’s clothes are different. How can people recognize them? So, it’s just like the Tiandihui in The Deer and the Cauldron. Even if the members of the organization are scattered all over the world, as long as the four big words "Anti-Qing and Restore Ming" are written on the soles of their feet, everyone is united. Similarly, people in the same organization have the same tattoos on their ankles or somewhere on their bodies, which serve as unspoken codes to each other. 】
[I was just about to say that everyone has tattoos on their ankles, which makes them too easy to recognize. After hearing what the above person said, it is indeed very likely that they all have the same tattoos]
[Tattoo, sashimi is Sashimi]
[Besides, don’t the wings themselves look like a V? 】
【real! ! ! That makes a lot of sense! 】
[The prophecy of God above...]
I couldn't help but raise my eyebrows slightly.
[If Li Zhi is from the same organization, why would Xiao Zhuang say that? Didn't Xiao Zhuang say before, "It's okay if Fu Lin suspects us. But what if Li Zhi finds out?" Doesn't this mean that Li Zhi is not in the same group with them? 】
[Oh, yes, so these two tattoos are a coincidence? After all, we haven't seen the full picture of these two tattoos, so maybe we are just thinking too much. 】
[Then why does Li Zhi have so many roles? Compared to the real people from the Vita organization, Li Zhi’s role is very unconvincing. Why do people who are merely there to provide assistance appear in every episode? 】
[A useful tool?] And it can be seen that everyone in the comics likes Li Zhi very much. Besides, if Li Zhi was really a problematic person with a background, why would he rush over to save a "person who is destined to die"? Who was he trying to show off to? Is there anyone who currently has a negative opinion of him? From what I see, the only obvious one is Miao Lunan. This person's attitude towards Li Zhi is actually dispensable and will not affect the plot. Personally, I think Li Zhi really has nothing to do with the organization, and he is simply portrayed as a good guy. After all, in this comic, I can no longer see anyone who is a real good guy. This is difficult to judge. Keeping Li Zhi can also provide a tool for passing the review. 】
[From the tone of the whole story, I can see that there are various reversals. I think there is a possibility that Li Zhi's identity may be reversed. Now we just have to do this role well so that everyone will have a good impression of us. How can someone who is kind to Cui Shi and willing to sacrifice his life for her be a bad person? But when we looked at the next case, we found out that this person also had a black heart. 】
“…”
I don't have a black heart.
I'm white!
[I also think that there is a possibility that Li Zhi’s identity may be reversed. And Xiaozhuang’s words might also mean that she was afraid that she would make a mistake and be known by Li Zhi (her superior), and she would not be able to escape the blame. As we know from the above, the police are keeping an eye on the Forensic Identification Center this year, so someone has to do the identification well. Without venture, you cannot get the tiger cub. If it wasn't for the purpose of fulfilling this identity, why would the sniping location be set at the Forensic Identification Center? Why did Li Zhi have the chance to run forward and save Cui Shi? Isn't this just a show? 】
Although the idea of the barrage was a bit biased, it did happen to fit my design.
I really wanted to present myself well in front of the police.
The reason why I rushed towards Cui Shi was actually to restrain my father. I didn't want him to make the same mistake again and again and make things irreparable.
At that time, I was thinking more that if my father really shot me, I would have no more attachment to or thoughts about this world. Even the people closest to me had to sacrifice themselves to achieve my goal.
What else is more worth looking forward to in this world?
There is no need to think too much about death.
It can be considered a complete relief.
However, I didn't expect that Cui Shi would save me when he made an effort. Because I always thought Cui Shi was a gift from the system. After I left Choi Shi's body, he became a puppet with its strings cut.
But who would have thought that he was still conscious?
Is it system controlled?
…This thought suddenly startled me.
Because I never thought carefully about what Cui Shi said.
“Don’t make the same mistake again this time.”
This sentence is not human at all.
The system should say congratulations to the host, and then blah blah blah.
Is Cui Shi real?
This thought was like a bolt of lightning that struck my worldview and almost shattered my three perspectives.
If deep down in my heart I believed that I would exchange bodies with Xin Qiao, and Xin Qiao is essentially alive and has his own soul, then there is indeed a possibility that I have exchanged bodies with a person who already has a soul or individual consciousness.
Similarly, if we really exchanged bodies, then the "Li Zhi" who waved to me from afar at the window and said something to me as if he could read my mind was actually Tang Li and Cui Shi themselves?
If we study their personalities carefully, the first Tang Li is indeed very withdrawn, doesn't like to talk, and avoids interacting with others; while the second Cui Shi is very observant, and can see through my expressions and thoughts, and he speaks and acts a little eccentrically, and doesn't care about other people's thoughts at all...
No way?
It’s a bit scary when I think about it.
After all, if I think about it carefully, I have lived with the system for so many years, but he has never once asked about my well-being. But after I got the card to exchange my identity, the system became very considerate to me, almost treating me like its own son.
But if they really have self-awareness, why don't they resist? There is no shortage of tracing and thinking about why they are here?
Could it be that they have really already gone through reincarnation and are now watching our actions?
So they knew they were going to swap bodies with me, so they were prepared, even looking at my ankle tattoo and getting one for themselves as a sign - to suggest they'd been here before?
It's like making a mark in a maze to show that you have been there once so you won't get lost.
It is precisely because they may have already been reincarnated once that Cui Shi was able to give the warning "Don't repeat the same mistakes."
However, this is not a reasonable code.
Because how do they know that reincarnation is linear?
The number of reincarnations n must be greater than or equal to 2.
How do they know about reincarnation?
How do they retain their memories?
There is another question. They all know that they have had the experience of having their bodies replaced. Does Xin Qiao know about it?
My actions are all in their memory, so there's no chance of success no matter what I do, right?
I need more evidence to determine whether my guess is reasonable.
If they knew what I could do, it would mean they knew that I could also see the secret of reincarnation. So, is it also hinting that my future self will know how to achieve reincarnation?
The more I think about it, the more complicated it becomes.
I think my thinking was misguided by the barrage.
I was overthinking, and it wasn't doing me any good.
Just as I was about to close the useless barrage, I had a new idea.
Why does barrage exist in this world?
So far, I don’t feel that I have enjoyed many of the conveniences brought by barrage? Maybe it’s because my ambitions are not high. I don’t want to be a superior person, nor do I want to use barrage to gain too much convenience for myself. Furthermore, I personally feel that the barrage does not contain enough information. They are almost synchronized with the time when I see the comics. At most, they give me some more inspiration, but rarely provide me with the information I really need.
The comics didn’t give me as much of a warning as I thought.
So what is the use of this barrage?
To further emphasize that this world is a comic world? I don’t need comic barrage to decide my life or death.
Or can this comic itself be used by me?
But what kind of test can I make?
I found that when I was free before, I never thought about these things at all. But now that I discovered that my family and I were involved in the incident, I began to feel that something was wrong.
Just as I was about to close the comic, a comment flashed before my eyes:
[By the way, does the Lord God really exist? From the first case to now, the Lord God has never appeared again. I see that Shang Hexing and Fu Lin have been together for quite some time, and they have never successfully entered the main god space again. 】
I followed along subconsciously.
[It may be that the game rewards have been redeemed, so the main god no longer appears. Look, didn’t Fu Lin just say that he hoped everything could start over again? 】
Does that mean she won't show up at all? So what's the point of them trying to find out the secret of Anubis now? The story can't end with Shang Hexing and Fu Lin finding out Vita's secret and staying in this world forever because they discover their rewards have been redeemed, right? This is a bit empty. 】
After being reminded by the comments, I suddenly remembered that this is indeed the truth.
[What do you think? Could it be that this exchange of bodies and consciousness was not done by the Lord God at all? Shang Hexing and Fu Lin never actually went to collect the reward from beginning to end. It was all an illusion. 】
【What's the meaning? 】
[That’s right, someone in Anubis wants to replace Fu Lin and Shang Hexing? Then their consciousness and souls were artificially replaced. I remember that when we entered the main god space, all the players entered together. If both parties thought that they had made a wish in the main god space at that time, then it would be difficult for them to realize, or at least Fu Lin unilaterally did not want to meet the main god again. (Of course, this is just a guess)]
[How could the residents of Anubis have imagined such a setting? If you look at the beginning, Fu Lin only said one sentence at most to reveal his identity, and he didn't say anything else. 】
“…”
What if any of the residents have read the comics or have them on hand?
Or maybe some of the residents are actually hidden players.
So isn’t that different?
I couldn't calm down for a long time.
Just when I was about to study the comics again, my father's voice popped up, "Li Zhi... aren't you going to sleep?"
I subconsciously covered my phone and said, "I can't sleep for now."
My heart is pounding.
My father's voice was deep, "Have you ever heard me tell you about your mother?"
I subconsciously wanted to turn over, but as soon as I moved, my arm hurt so much that I resisted the urge to turn over and look into his eyes. "...You say."
"Your mother is a clone."
The remaining sleepiness I had was completely driven away.
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