Every time she attempted suicide, even if she jumped off a cliff in a remote mountain area or into the sea... searching for a deserted place, someone would suddenly appear and save her, only for the person who saved her to die a violent death...
...Why should you save me?
...I didn't ask you to save me!
...I don't need your kindness!
...That was your own doing, why should you blame me for killing you?
...Time and time again, these words popped into Su Deng's mind. She wanted to roar, to scream, to curse those people.
But those people died saving her, they died because of her. Even though she felt grief, anger, and hatred, she couldn't say the words.
There's no way to say it.
But she couldn't be grateful. Those people cursed her for being ungrateful, for taking kindness for granted, for being a scourge, for being ungrateful, and for saying that saving her was worse than saving a piece of barbecued pork...
"But... I've never needed anyone to save me..."
Su Deng closed her eyes, her heart filled with pain and despair.
For so many years, she has endured this torment of self-despair.
Even after entering this game world, I still can't die.
You can't die by suicide, and you can't die even if you're killed repeatedly.
Fortunately, no one in this game world will die because of her anymore.
In the end, however, the god changed the game rules specifically to target her, creating a game world specifically for her, putting the lives of countless players and their own lives in the real world on her shoulders...
The person who died for her, causing her immense pain and torment, reappeared before her time and time again, as if from the past…
A series of ferocious faces were reflected in her pupils. Su Deng closed her eyes, two lines of clear tears sliding down her cheeks. Her hand gripping the sword tightened and tightened, but she couldn't bring herself to strike.
Su Deng, it's not your fault.
Su Deng, you did nothing wrong.
Su Deng, you owe no one anything.
Su Deng, you don't need to feel guilty...
She used to tell herself this all the time, but she could never get over that hurdle.
But now, she has one more thing to say—
Su Deng, it's not you who deserves to die.
She has nothing to lose now, so she has nothing to fear!
The puppet screamed, and Su Deng opened her eyes, her gaze clearing again.
"Three chances, right?"
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