Gu Yunzhou's mouth twitched, "I was just being stubborn, it has nothing to do with Liu Xinyue.
My family arranged a marriage between her and me before, and no one asked me what I thought. It was only when I came back from my mission that I found out that I had a fiancée.
You all know that I was in the army the whole time and seldom returned to the compound. Even if I did, I would just have a quick meal and then go back with grandpa. I seldom interacted with Liu Xinyue. ”
"The main reason why I am so obsessed with this is because of the Gu family..."
Gu Yunzhou raised his hands and placed them behind his head, and for the first time he spoke about his inner thoughts with two friends who he had grown up with.
“Even if I don’t care about Liu Xinyue, she is still my nominal fiancée. They forced her on me when we got engaged, and now no one has asked me about it.
Since I was a child, the sentence my father said to me the most was to let me listen to my grandfather and work hard for the future of the Gu family. Every time my mother saw me, she would just ask me to behave well in front of my grandfather and speak for my eldest brother.
I also want them to care about me, ask me if I am doing well, if I am tired, and if I feel pain when I am injured. ”
Gu Yunzhou's tone was filled with an imperceptible sadness. "Nothing. No one asked me. My grandfather would only scold me with a stern face and said to me loudly, 'Gu Yunzhou, hold back your tears. Don't forget, your last name is Gu. Men in our Gu family shed blood and sweat but not tears, and lose skin and flesh but never fall behind!'"
A picture suddenly appeared in Liu Xinyan and Peng Zhihua’s minds.
In the cold wind on the playground, little Gu Yunzhou shivered and gasped, looking up and holding back his tears...
"I've always been alone, every night I've been alone, every time I've been injured I've been alone.
Later, when I came home one time, I saw my brother broke a bowl and cut his finger. My mother was anxiously looking for the medicine box to apply medicine on him...
Do you know how envious I was at that time? ”
“I have been developing in the direction they expected, and I wonder if I am not good enough, so they don’t like me.
Is there any young child in this world who is willing to leave his or her parents and join the army to suffer?
Life in the army is very tough, and many adults find it difficult to persevere, let alone a child. ”
Even though he told himself not to care, Gu Yunzhou's heart still ached slightly.
“Everything I did was according to their expectations. I never lived for myself. I thought that even if they didn’t love me, at least I was different to the Gu family.
I tried hard to become excellent. Although my parents still loved my brother more than me, I was also the pride of the entire Gu family.
Although I am indifferent to family affection, at least I lead the men of the Gu family to fight in battles, and I am the center of attention in the Gu family.
I didn’t think…”
There is no need for Gu Yunzhou to explain what happened next, everyone knows it.
"I've hit a dead end. Comrade Qiao is right...
I am much more open-minded now. Even if I don't step down, I will still be a puppet controlled by the Gu family, and I still can't be myself.
If you change your mindset, this isn't a bad thing for me now. At least I can be myself.
The time I spent in Gaoshi Village was the most relaxing time in my life.
My brain, my spirit, my thoughts, every piece of flesh and blood in my body, are not like before. They are tense every moment and every second. ”
Peng Zhihua let out a sigh of relief, "Yunzhou, look forward, your life will get better and better in the future. If you don't like your current life, it's a good thing for us to change our way of living."
Gu Yunzhou chuckled, "Yeah, I think so too, so I also cherish the present life.
After all, I don’t know how long I have left. There is a time bomb buried in my body, and no one can tell when it will explode. ”
Liu Xinyan hurriedly said, "It won't happen, Brother Gu. There will definitely be a way. The organization has been trying to find a solution, and Grandpa Gu will not really ignore you."
Gu Yunzhou didn't say anything.
He knew very well that if there was a way, the Gu family would never give up on him.
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