Bian Li's voice was a little nasal at this time, and he asked Fu Xiangze in a gentle voice, "Do you want to listen to my version?"
Bian Li showed a rare smile at this time, but it made Fu Xiangze's heart ache instantly, as if it was grabbed by something, it was so painful that it was difficult to breathe.
Fu Xiangze said directly, "You don't have to laugh when you don't want to laugh, and you don't have to say things you don't want to say. Don't force yourself."
Bian Li still cried as he responded, "It's not that I don't want to say it...it's just that I don't know how to say it."
Fu Xiangze took a deep breath and said, "Then don't say it."
"Why didn't you ask me? Aren't you curious?"
Fu Xiangze smiled and said, "That's the most painful thing you don't want to talk about. Why should I be curious? I just want to know how my Bian Li survived that time."
Bian Li, “Actually, I didn’t have parents until I was eight years old. When I was very young, I heard that I was picked up.
But I was still young at that time, I didn't know what it meant. Later, after I went to school, I realized that it meant that my parents didn't want me and wanted to throw me away.
But I have never understood why they would abandon me and not want me? Am I really that bad?
This was my thought before I was eight years old. You would never imagine that the thoughts of a child of a few years old could reach such a level.
Later, I was adopted when I was eight years old.
At that time, my adoptive parents went to the welfare home through Zhang Shen to adopt a child.
You would never have guessed that we, a group of kids, were standing there waiting for these adults to pick our moods.
At that time, I felt like cabbage being picked in the vegetable market... That feeling is hard to describe. Until now, I still remember that feeling deeply and hate that feeling.
At that time, I was selected by Li Li.
I still remember that he told Zhang Shen at that time that he didn’t like girls. The look in their eyes still makes me feel disgusted when I think about it now.
At that time I didn't understand what he meant, until I went to his house later and I knew...
At that time, I had just arrived at Li Li's house, and everything there was very unfamiliar to me.
But what I remember most clearly is that Fang Ting was my adoptive mother and she was very kind to me, treating me like her own daughter.
She made delicious food for me every day and braided my hair beautifully. That was one of the few motherly loves I felt.
During those three months, I seldom saw Li Li, and when I asked my mother, she said she didn't know where he had gone.
However, I think it would be better without Li Li. Actually, I currently think so.
It was only later that I understood why I saw that look in my mother's eyes, a look similar to fear and disgust.
The good times didn't last long, and my adoptive father came back.
After he came back, I saw him drinking heavily every day. He would go gambling with his neighbors, and when he lost money, he would come back to ask Fang Ting for money. At first, Fang Ting gave him money, but later Fang Ting told him that there was no money left at home. That was their last living expenses.
However, the next day, he took away all of Fang Ting's money while she was at work.
When Fang Ting found out, she had a big fight with him, and then he beat her with a wooden stick, leaving her face covered with scars.
Our lives became increasingly difficult, but he would still beat my mother and me after coming home from drinking every day, and later it became even worse... My mother and I lived in fear almost every day.
After that, my mother worked three jobs at the same time. I understood her hard work, so I would help with the housework every day after school.
However, Li Li smokes and drinks at home every day... He also often harasses me..." At this point, Bian Li burst into tears.
Fu Xiangze hugged her tightly, "Don't say anything."
Bian Li shook his head and continued, "I found him several times, hiding in the corner and peeking at me when I was taking a shower..."
"After that, he started to get worse and started harassing me in places where my mother couldn't see... Later, when I told my mother about it, she started arguing with him...
Afterwards, he got drunk and beat my mother up. He even said that it was a father's love for his daughter. I felt so sick when I heard that that I couldn't help but vomit...
After that, my mother would take me with her when she went to work... I would feel more at ease.
Later, my mother and I noticed that he often went out, and each time he was away for more than a month.
After he came back, his clothes became more respectable, and he would even give us money, saying that it would be used to supplement the family expenses...
We thought he had changed his appearance, but we didn't expect...
My mom and I found that he started to do XD at home, and the FDY time was getting more and more...
It got so serious that he started selling things at home. Later, he owed a lot of debts outside, so he sent his mother to work as a prostitute in a nightclub.
At that time, no matter how much I cried, my mother couldn't keep me by her side, so I had to stay at home.
However, that was the beginning of my nightmare...
Because of his previous criminal record, I was afraid to fall asleep at night. When I was very sleepy, I dared not close my eyes. I found some rubber bands to tie on my hands and bounce myself when I wanted to sleep.
It hurt at first, but then it didn't work and I started holding the knife in my hand, which was too uncomfortable and started to hurt myself.
So I had almost no energy to go to school during the day, and my academic performance was not good.
However, one day, I was doing my homework in the room, he came back from outside and suddenly kicked my door open.
He walked in with a lewd smile, pulled me to the bed, started to strip my clothes, and said some disgusting words to me...
Then he started to press me down on the bed... No matter how I screamed, no one came to help me. I saw that the neighbors passing by heard my screams, but they didn't come to help...
I took a fruit knife that was on the bedside and stabbed him, but he dodged quickly and was not hurt by me. Then he threw away my knife.
He slapped me a few times on my waist… Later, later, when I was very desperate, I thought I was done, when I heard someone kicking the door and breaking in.
I saw one of the older brothers, who was very young, holding up my adoptive father and raising his fists...
Later I learned that the brother was a policeman, and he was lurking undercover there.
Who can't imagine what kind of existence he was to me at that time? That was my last straw...
He had known that Li Li was an XDFD... and wanted to keep an eye on him to find their big fish... but he didn't expect that he would actually do such a beastly thing.
Later I heard that my mother contracted AIDS while working in a nightclub... She couldn't stand it and jumped off the building.
…
Later, I was sent back to the welfare home. In the following year, I didn’t dare to talk to anyone or make friends with them. I was against everyone…
However, a year later, Fang Ting’s biological brother, who is now my uncle, said he wanted to take me home.
After returning to my uncle and aunt's house, I still didn't like to talk and didn't like to get along with others. However, during that period of time, my uncle and aunt often took me to see a psychologist and accompanied me to take care of me.
Through their efforts, they pulled me back from the extreme world...
Three years later, I slowly started to interact with people, but with my dull personality, I still had no friends to play with when I went to school.
Fortunately, there is Fang Yixing. He and I go to the same school. He waits for me to get home as soon as I get home after school every day, under the pretext of wanting to protect me.
After that, I was often bullied at school because of my introverted personality. When he found out, he would go out to fight with others after school.
Afterwards, I was scolded by my uncle and aunt when I got home. Since then, my relationship with him has gradually improved.
In fact, I can’t really remember a lot of things… I still remember that there seemed to be a little brother who played with me in the orphanage, but I forgot what he looked like.”
Fu Xiangze pinched her face, "What little brother? You are not a little brother now, but a little brother, right? Where do you put my husband?"
Bian Li suddenly laughed, "Are you jealous?"
"What else?"
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