Hearing this, there seemed to be no surprise in Shen Yichen's eyes.

He looked at her calmly and said softly, "Is that so...then what have you been doing these years..."

He seemed to want to ask something, but suddenly stopped.

What is there to ask?

He just wanted to ask how you've been doing these years, but the moment he saw the words she wrote, he knew whether it was good or bad.

The words stopped at their lips and teeth. After a long time, seeing the two of them were silent, Shen Yichen smiled and finally spoke, only asking: "How did I die?"

"You went to Yunlai to find me." Hua Xiangwan tried to calm herself down and recounted his death. "Come to celebrate my birthday and keep me company. Later, you wanted to leave, but when you heard that Xie Changji and I were getting married, you stayed."

"And then?"

"In fact, you just drank a glass of wedding wine and left. Who knew that Xie Changji left without even drinking the wedding wine on the wedding night?"

"Ah Wan..."

"You were afraid that I would be upset, so you stayed again."

Listening to Hua Xiangwan's words, outside the window, Xie Changji was breathing softly, with countless scenes in his mind.

He remembered...

The scene described by Hua Xiangwan flashed through his mind, and he tried his best to calm his breathing and stay calm.

However, as Hua Xiangwan spoke, he didn't know why, but he remembered those years clearly.

His depression that night in the cave, and his panic when he woke up the next day.

He was still too young, and he had never experienced such naked desires and experiences, so he almost ran away in panic. Later, when he calmed down, he told himself that he had to marry her.

Since he has become a married woman with her, he must marry her.

He was too scared at the time. He didn't dare to think too deeply about the relationship between him and her. He couldn't even face the joy that quietly blossomed in his heart when he realized that he could find a reason to marry her.

He finally had a reason to think about the future, to think about how to place her, and how he would leave and spend the rest of his life with her when the boundary between life and death was settled.

He pretended to be indifferent and told her about the marriage. He looked calm and said to her, "I want to marry you. What do you think?"

But when she was silent, he actually clenched his fists silently.

Until she laughed and teased him: "You want to marry me. I have nothing to complain about, but I am not happy about one thing——"

"What?"

Xie Changji's heart shuddered. He didn't know what he was afraid of. He looked into her eyes and thought that if she didn't like it, he would change it. But she smiled lightly, put her arms around his neck, and clung to him: "You said it too late. I've been waiting for a long time."

Only after hearing this did he feel a little relieved. He lowered his eyes slightly, and his cheeks turned red all the way to his ears.

He lowered his head and only said softly, "Yeah."

After saying that, he was afraid that he hadn't said it well, so he added: "I know."

He didn't dwell on these feelings until he lifted her veil on their wedding night.

At that moment, he looked at the girl who looked up at him, and his heart trembled greatly.

A huge feeling of happiness filled his heart, but such an unfamiliar emotion made him panic.

He sensed the flaw in his heart and could only force himself to look away.

He was afraid of her, especially after Kunxuzi came to inform him that something happened in the world of life and death - he was even more afraid.

He was afraid that something might happen to his heart at this moment, that he wouldn't be able to draw out the Sword of Conscience, that he wouldn't be able to protect the boundary between life and death for her.

He didn't even have the courage to drink the wedding wine with her, so he ran away in a hurry.

Away from her, in the darkness of the night, he was finally able to calm down, and he began to outline his future so clearly.

When he has guarded the boundary between life and death, when the boundary between life and death is pacified, and when the next Sword of Conscience appears, he will unload his responsibility as Xie Changji - and then he will come back to find her.

At that time he naively thought that she would wait for him forever.

He felt a piercing pain in his heart and could not bear to listen any longer. He staggered, holding onto the wall, and forced himself to return to the house.

As soon as he entered the room, he fell to the ground, curled up, trembling, and gasping for breath.

His mind was filled with memories: three years of acquaintance, two hundred years of waiting, reunion in Yunlai, breaking his heart and changing his ways, accompanying each other in the West, falling from the way and being disqualified...

One picture after another flew out and intertwined. Finally, in her dream, on the ice field, she looked up at his eyes.

His heart seemed to stop and everything became peaceful.

Because he clearly understood what she meant, she was saying, Xie Changji, you are here.

He gradually calmed down and lay motionless on the ground.

On the other hand, Hua Xiangwan spoke of the past in a tone that was as restrained as possible.

"Someone wanted to kill me, and you were killed by them for me. After you died, I had someone send you back to Hehuan Palace and put you under the glacier of Hehuan Palace. Later, Hehuan Palace was destroyed by someone, my mother failed to survive, and all the elites of the younger generation died. Except for Senior Sister Humian and me, almost everyone you knew was gone. I lived a very lonely life alone, but for the sake of Hehuan Palace, I had to live."

Hua Xiangwan smiled bitterly: "No one talks to me, so I have developed a habit. Every year on your birthday - which is also your memorial day, I will talk to you."

"Ah Wan..."

Shen Yichen looked at Hua Xiangwan's expression and frowned slightly: "Let the dead person go."

"The dead," Hua Xiangwan stared at Shen Yichen, "can't they come back to life?"

Hearing this, Shen Yichen's eyes were full of disapproval.

Hua Xiangwan didn't dare to look at him and turned her head away: "Don't worry, I'm living a good life. I'm not bullied and I'm living a happy life. I also found two more handsome guys, but we're not suitable and we're not together..."

"What about Xie Changji?"

Shen Yichen interrupted her, but Hua Xiangwan said nothing.

Shen Yichen thought for a moment, then got up from the bed. He walked to her and said in a gentle voice, "Ah Wan, whether I am alive or dead, I hope you live a good life. I hope my Ah Wan is happy every day, and I also hope my Ah Wan can follow her heart and live a good life. You have been afraid of being alone since you were a child, and I don't want you to be alone for the rest of your life without me."

"I'm gone," Shen Yichen raised his hand and gently placed it on Hua Xiangwan's head, "No matter why I die, you don't have to be buried with me."

"What if I'm already buried?"

Hua Xiangwan raised her head and looked at Shen Yichen.

Shen Yichen was stunned. He looked at Hua Xiangwan's eyes for a long time, then he smiled and said, "But this is an illusion."

As he spoke, he reached out his hand and gently hugged her: "To me, you are fine now, so you should live well. Follow your heart, be happy, and spend every day of your life."

Hua Xiangwan was held in his arms, blankly feeling the warmth given by the person who loved him. She heard Shen Yichen ask: "Promise me to live well here."

Hua Xiangwan closed her eyes and looked at the wall blankly.

After a long while, she said in a low voice: "Okay."

Shen Yichen rarely hugged her for a long time, but this time, his hug was very long.

After a long time, he finally let her go and said gently, "Go and have some rest. I need to get some sleep. I'm leaving for Yunlai the day after tomorrow."

Hua Xiangwan looked at him with red eyes. Shen Yichen chuckled, "If I don't go, you won't get a birthday gift."

Hua Xiangwan was upset and nodded.

"Then I'm going to bed."

As she said this, she couldn't stand it any longer and turned around in a hurry. When she reached the door, she remembered and looked back at Shen Yichen who was watching her: "Yichen, have you noticed that I wear new clothes every day?"

Shen Yichen was a little surprised when he heard this. After a moment, he smiled and said, "I know."

After hearing this, Hua Xiangwan was finally satisfied. She nodded, smiled, and then turned and left.

When she walked out of the room, she couldn't control her tears. She forced herself to go back to the room in the cold wind, but from the moment she returned to the room, she couldn't control herself and tears fell.

She sat down on the edge of the bed, knelt down, hugged herself, gritted her teeth and cried silently in the night.

There were many things she hadn't told him.

There were many dirty, filthy, painful and unbearable things she wanted to talk about, but she had learned not to say them.

Just as she learned to wear new dresses for him, she also learned to save the beautiful things for the ones she loves.

But pain always has to go to exile, and she can only pour out silently here.

She grabbed her arm, forcing herself not to make a sound. After waiting for a long time, she heard the sound of a door being pushed open.

She smelled the cold fragrance of pine brought by the wind, without looking up.

Without saying anything, he slowly walked into the house and came to her.

His shadow blocked the moonlight and blocked her view. She didn't want him to see her, so she buried her head in her arms.

Xie Changji looked at Hua Xiangwan who was like a child, and he remained silent.

After a long while, she uttered in a low voice.

"You know, there was a time when I really disliked you."

"I have no idea."

Xie Changji spoke calmly.

Hua Xiangwan raised her head and stared at the boy in front of her with her watery eyes. The boy was the same as Xie Changji in her memory. She looked at him and said, "You are not my brother."

"Who am I then?"

"Your name is Xie Changji, and you are the chief disciple of the Heavenly Sword Sect's Heart-Seeking Sword School. You are someone I once loved."

"I like you, and have liked you for several years. You never responded to me, but I thought it didn't matter. I could persist and wait. Later, we got married, and you still treated me like this. At that time, all I could see was you, and I couldn't see anyone else. Yi Chen kept persuading me to leave, but I refused. He persuaded me to let go, but I didn't want to. I told him that liking Xie Changji was my own business and had nothing to do with him."

"What happened next?"

"But later, you and I got married, and you left. Then someone wanted to kill me. I was injured at the time, and he took me and ran away." Hua Xiangwan looked a little dazed, talking about the past that she couldn't bear to tell Shen Yichen, "But we didn't run away. In the end, he put me in his mermaid pearl. Those people couldn't find me, so they tortured him."

As Hua Xiangwan spoke, Xie Changji could imagine the scene at that time.

No matter how important Shen Yichen was to her, and no matter how strong her temper was, she was imprisoned in the mermaid pearl by Shen Yichen at that time.

She could only beat her fists powerlessly in the mermaid pearl, listening to the people outside who refused to make a sound even though they were tortured, for fear that they would worry her.

"I want to go out, but I don't have the ability." Tears fell, and Hua Xiangwan grabbed her arm tightly. "He locked me in the mermaid pearl and let me out only after they left."

"At that time, he was covered in blood and they had poisoned him. I was also injured. I held him in my arms and realized for the first time that he might die. I was so scared... I just wanted to find you," she said, raising her head and looking at him. "I hope you can save him. I know there are magical herbs in the realm of life and death that can prolong life, so I want to find you and beg you to save him."

But she was destined not to find him.

When Xie Changji heard this, he knew the outcome.

The barrier of the realm of life and death was broken. As the chief disciple, he had already led four hundred disciples into the barrier, forming a sword formation and cutting off all communication with the outside world.

"But I couldn't contact you, so I had to take him to the Heavenly Sword Sect. I was injured and couldn't wield the sword, so I carried him on my back. That journey was too long..."

Hua Xiangwan cried out as she spoke: "I called out your name countless times, and I prayed to the heavens countless times in my heart, but you never responded, and neither did the heavens. I watched him die in my arms, and waited for his death - his death!"

Hua Xiangwan cried so hard that she was out of breath. She rushed forward and grabbed the hem of his clothes tightly, her eyes completely unfocused: "He just told me that he wanted to hear me call him, and wanted to see me wear beautiful clothes just for him. It was just this little wish, but I never had it - I never had it when he was alive!"

"I blame you - I hate why you're not here, I hate why you didn't respond! But I know you did nothing wrong, the only person I should hate is... myself."

Hua Xiangwan lay powerlessly on the ground, howling, "If I had given up on you earlier, if I had left you earlier... he wouldn't have died."

Xie Changji didn't say anything. He quietly squatted down and held her in his arms.

She leaned on his shoulder and cried with her eyes closed.

Every cry of hers cut into his heart, and he didn't even know why it hurt.

He suddenly understood why she didn't come to see him.

He also suddenly realized how pale and powerless he felt here at this moment.

He couldn't even say a word of advice to her - it was all in the past.

Because he knew that if "getting over it" was so easy, she wouldn't be crying like this here.

He raised his head, suppressed all the bitterness, and stroked her back gently, as if comforting a child.

When her crying gradually subsided, she sobbed on his shoulder.

"Xie Changji," she said softly, "If you had heard it back then, would you have come?"

"I will."

"But you didn't come." She burst into tears.

Xie Changji hugged her and said, "No more."

"From now on, wherever you are, there I will be."

"I will accompany you back to the Palace of Joy, accompany you to revive him, and accompany you to do everything you want to do."

"In the future, as long as you look back, I will be there."

Hua Xiangwan said nothing. She leaned on his shoulder and said, "Xie Changji, you will forget about it when you go out."

Xie Changji was about to speak, but before he could say anything, he felt Hua Xiangwan reach out her hand, put it around his neck, and slowly put her arm away: "But it's okay, you'll forget it when you go out."

Xie Changji froze, and Hua Xiangwan closed his eyes as if resigned to his fate.

"Xie Changji, tell me, if Yi Chen hadn't died, and nothing had happened to Hehuan Palace, and you had followed me back to the Western Territory, what would have happened?"

Xie Changji listened to her assumption and lowered his eyes.

His voice was calm, yet somehow reassuring.

"I will love you."

I will love you.

I'll accompany you.

We will be together.

Evening.