Chapter 98 Give Up
Chen Musheng wiped the corners of her eyes and called him softly, "Chengyu, come chat with your aunt for a while."
Shi Chengyu's body froze, as if he had a premonition of something. He was very resistant in his heart, and hesitated for a long time before he walked out of the ward with unsteady steps.
"Chengyu, you're a good kid." Chen Musheng choked up. Watching him torture himself like this over the past few years, he felt very sorry. "Uncle and aunt don't blame you. Come back home."
Shi Chengyu's expression instantly turned into a panic. "Auntie, is there something I did wrong?"
Chen Musheng shook his head. It wasn’t that it was bad, but that it was too good.
"Auntie doesn't want you to be trapped here for the rest of your life because of Tangtang's matter. We all hope that you can start over and live your own life."
Everyone advised him to live his own life, but without Shen Chutang, living had no meaning to him.
Shi Chengyu stood up suddenly and said, "Auntie, it's time for Tangtang to get some sun."
He fled in panic, and Chen Musheng's crying voice rang out behind him.
"Chengyu, give up."
Shi Chengyu pretended not to hear anything. He returned to the ward and pushed the bed onto the balcony. The afternoon sun was warm, and the breeze brought the scent of flowers from downstairs.
"Tangtang, aunt and her family came today, along with grandpa. Grandpa cried because he missed you so much." Shi Chengyu said to himself as he massaged her legs, "He missed you so much."
"The sun is shining brightly today. There's a new purple rose planted in the flowerbed downstairs. I think you'll like it."
There was total silence all around, even the sound of the wind became very quiet, and no one responded to him.
He should have gotten used to it long ago, but today he couldn't help but feel wronged. He held Shen Chutang's hand and begged, "Tangtang, please wake up, please?"
Water droplets appeared on Shen Chutang's face, but were quickly wiped away.
Shi Chengyu's voice became choked with sobs, "Tangtang, I miss you too, so much, can you open your eyes and look at me? Even just for a glance..."
Still no one answered him.
"Tangtang, I'm angry. Can you comfort me?" He said he was angry, but his tone was full of pleading and grievance.
"Tangtang, don't you want me anymore?"
He hugged the person and asked word by word. He felt very painful and wronged. He even cried, but Shen Chutang ignored him.
Not getting an answer, Shi Chengyu suddenly went crazy and kissed Shen Chutang on the lips, venting his grievances.
All the kisses before were just enough, twice a day, and he always restrained himself.
But now, he tried desperately to get a response and kissed her very hard, but even so, the person in his arms still did not react.
Shi Chengyu lost his temper instantly, hugged her tightly, buried his head in her shoulders, and began to apologize helplessly, his tears soaking her clothes bit by bit......
He held Shen Chutang quietly, not saying anything, until it started to darken.
Shi Chengyu's hoarse voice echoed in the night. He said, "Tangtang, if I give up, will you blame me?"
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About a week later, on a sunny afternoon, Shi Chengyu made his first suicide attempt.
He was really determined to die. Not only did he swallow a whole bottle of sleeping pills, he also cut his wrists, with the wound on his forearm, leaving no room for himself.
The ground was covered with blood. He sat on the ground with his head leaning against the bed, holding Shen Chutang with one hand. There was a will next to the pillow, leaving all his things to Shen Chutang.
He still held on to a glimmer of hope that Shen Chutang might wake up, but he couldn't hold on any longer. Being alive was too painful for him.
Fortunately, the nurse who came to check on the patient discovered it in time and sent the patient to the operating room.
Everyone was shocked when they received the news and rushed over. Only then did they realize that Shi Chengyu was going to give up when they saw him lying in the ward.
But what he wanted to give up was never Shen Chutang, but himself.
In a world without Shen Chutang, he chose to give up his life. He had made this choice many times, but this time, he thought he could bring happiness to Shen Chutang, but in the end, it was regret, which made her regret...
Shi Chengyu was in a coma for two days before he woke up. He was not surprised, nor did he make a big fuss. He was as calm as a lake of stagnant water without any ripples.
He got out of bed and started to walk out, as if the people in the ward were just air. Shi Hexun rushed over and slapped him hard on the face, "Shi Chengyu!"
Chen Musheng and Xue Wanqiu quickly supported Shi Chengyu. He tilted his head and was stunned for a long time.
"Don't hit the child!"
Shen Gengli pulled Shi Hexun and comforted him, "Don't be angry, Chengyu was just impulsive."
"I don't think he was acting on impulse! He has had this idea in mind for a long time!" Shiga Shun scolded, "How long do you want to torture yourself!"
Shi Chengyu stood up straight. The bright red slap on his pale face was very glaring. He said lightly, "I want to see Tangtang."
When he was on the verge of death, he was not afraid, he just wanted to see Tangtang one more time.
Shi Hexun was so angry that he almost couldn't breathe. He pointed at Shi Chengyu's nose and didn't say anything for a long time. Finally, he put his hand down helplessly.
They knew that Shi Chengyu had always been indifferent to people and things since he was young, but they never expected that he would love someone to this extent.
When something happened to Shen Chutang, two families were broken up, which was a result that no one wanted to see.
Shi Chengyu really walked through the crowd. His thin figure seemed like it could be blown down by a gust of wind, but he walked very fast.
When he met Shen Chutang as he wished, Shi Chengyu wanted to warm her hands, but he found that his hands were not much warmer than hers.
Shen Yanheng followed him to the bedside and sat down on the sofa opposite the end of the bed.
Shi Chengyu rubbed Shen Chutang's hand, his voice carrying a hint of self-mockery, "Brother, are you here to advise me too?"
Of course, no one wanted to see him leave before Shen Chutang, but Shen Yanheng knew that what he needed now was not advice, but hope.
Shen Yanheng: "No, it's just that I haven't chatted with you for a long time."
The last time was the day Shen Chutang was discovered kissing him.
"Although Tangtang is my sister, I still want to ask, why do you like her?"
This kind of love has transcended life and death and is beyond their understanding of love.
"The tolerance and love they have shown over the past decade have been the same, sometimes to the point where we can't even understand it."
Shi Chengyu's eyes fell softly on Shen Chutang's face, "Brother, love is mutual."
"You all know what happened to me when I was little. You all went to school and I stayed at home alone. Tangtang was so young and loved to play, but she would stay in the house with me every day, reading and daydreaming."
Shi Chengyu spoke slowly, reminiscing as he spoke, "I said I liked flowers, so she secretly used her pocket money to build a flower house in the yard. I didn't want to go out and meet people, so she took me out, helped me meet new friends, and taught me how to go out and meet the world."
"When I was being bullied, she stood in front of me without hesitation, even though she was so young."
"That year she jumped from the second floor. I was so scared that I almost died, but she still asked me if it hurt."
"There are many more. What Tangtang has done for me is never less than what I have done for myself."
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