Moon White
I returned to the Li family not to live in Taiji Palace permanently, but to leave the palace...
That year, Princess Zhaoyang was still not well. It was from that spring that Concubine Tong's health gradually declined. That year, even I was seriously ill...
A son wants to support his parents, but they are no longer there.
I have never met the mother who gave birth to me, but I must meet her while she is still alive.
The second day after Ah Xiang and I returned to Taiji Palace was the fifteenth.
Yes, all in all, I only had half a day of peace.
That day, while the Li family were all at Taiji Palace.
I knelt down and bowed deeply.
I told Empress Dowager Feng and Concubine Tong that I wanted to go to Tanzhou to meet my biological mother, Xiao Manniang.
Eunuch Zhu suggested, "Why bother going there yourself, Madam? Why not ask Tanzhou to come to Jingzhao?"
"How could a mother come to Chang'an to meet her own daughter?" Before I could say anything, Eunuch Dong spoke for me.
Dong Guiren's name was correct. Except for the Emperor's Li family, every other family only had sons paying respects to their mothers, not mothers paying respects to their sons.
What's more, Man Niang doesn't want to see Chang'an again, and even more so, she doesn't want to see me again.
My selfish motive is because of my long-standing obsession. If I don’t go to Tanzhou, I’m afraid I will regret it for the rest of my life.
Concubine Tong was born and raised in Hunan.
As soon as I heard about Tanzhou, the Concubine Dowager ordered me to go there quickly and come back quickly, so that I don’t have to worry about her, Chang’an, or Taiji Palace.
Empress Dowager Feng said nothing.
The Empress Dowager did not allow it, and Xingqing Palace fell silent.
"Sister, you've seen your own mother. You don't want the Queen Mother, you don't want the Consort Mother, you don't want your sisters, and you won't go back to Chang'an, right?"
I could hear Princess Anyang asking questions, and everyone in Taiji Palace came over to look.
Empress Dowager Feng looked displeased, and His Majesty was even more thoughtful.
Both Yongle Palace and Xingqing Palace refused to let me go to Tanzhou to find Manniang.
"She was not able to be raised in life, and she would never be willing to die without seeing her biological mother. Mother, why don't you order her to go and see her once, so that she will give up the thought from now on, and will never think about Tanzhou again, and can stay in Chang'an with peace of mind..." Princess Huayang pleaded for me.
In this world, the only people who understand me best are Huayang and Anyang, the two princesses of the Li family.
I don't want to go back to Chang'an, but Empress Dowager Feng and Concubine Tong are both in Chang'an. How can I leave Chang'an without permission?
I have done all kinds of evil and committed great rebellion, but I do not want to be an unfilial person.
"This is my only wish in this life, and I hope Queen Mother will fulfill it."
I knelt down and begged the Queen Mother.
This is my only wish in this life.
Queen Mother, I grant your permission.
It’s a pity that I have a long history of bad deeds. The two palaces are afraid of my lies and my audacity. Once I leave Jingzhao, I will be like a dragon meeting water.
Eunuch Dong couldn't win the fight, and Eunuch Zhu couldn't argue with her, so Empress Dowager Feng had no choice but to order Tang Gongzheng to accompany them.
"It won't take a few days. If her mother doesn't want her anymore, she'll definitely ride a fast horse back to Chang'an and cry in my mother's arms..."
The princess laughed at me, and every word was correct. I chased her and played with her while laughing. She hid in Concubine Tong's arms, and I did the same.
On the day Ah Xiang, Yuan Xiao and I left Chang'an, the mistress of the Yan family came to see me off.
She told me not to go to Tanzhou, she told me not to see Man Niang, she said Man Niang was not a good person, she said I would definitely regret it.
The heart of the barbarian woman is not pure, and the mistress is even more evil.
"She's not a good person, and neither are you. Whether Man Niang is good or bad, she is still my dear mother."
I finished speaking, but the mistress smiled.
Ignoring her conspiracy, I hurriedly left Chang'an.
As soon as we left Chang'an, our group met Tan Jiuyue and his group.
Tan Jiuyue, the eldest son of Princess Taikang, and the elder brother of Princess Yunyang.
He is also your Majesty's cousin, confidant, and follower.
Mr. Tan told me that he had been promoted recently and the saint had appointed him as the flower and bird envoy.
I heard that Jingchu has countless exotic flowers and plants, rare birds and animals.
The sage sent him to Jingchu, and he happened to be traveling the same way as us.
There are many wonderful people in Jingchu. They select beauties from Xiangjiang River to enrich their harem and prolong their offspring, and escort the beauties back to Chang'an for the saint. Why bother talking about exotic flowers and rare birds and beasts?
The master is really dignified and pretentious.
The journey is long and the road is boring.
I am struggling and I am indecisive.
I am on and off, I am wavering.
I was uneasy and hesitant.
I want to go to Tanzhou, I want to go back to Chang'an, I am not afraid of regret, I am afraid of having regrets.
I wasn't originally like this, but somehow I became like this.
I can't eat or drink.
Barbarian girl, a few words from each person cannot describe her complete picture. I have recounted her story in my mind thousands of times.
I am afraid that I am not as good as my mother wants, and I am afraid that my mother is not as good as I want.
Sometimes he wanted to go back to Chang'an, and sometimes he wanted to go to Linxiang.
The illness started from my heart, and I was sick all the way from Chang'an to Tanzhou.
Medical officers are replaced every day, and medicines are provided at every meal.
Mr. Tan and Mrs. Tang Gongzheng both advised me to return to Chang'an, but I insisted on my own way and refused to listen.
I used to be hesitant and indecisive, not knowing whether I should go to look for Man Niang. Until the moment I was driven out of Yinyue Palace by Princess Yi Yang, I made up my mind to go to Tanzhou.
If my mother wants to drive me away, I will think about it, but it is nothing more than this.
From summer to winter, from Chang'an to Tanzhou, and from Tanzhou back to Chang'an.
This trip actually cost me half a year of my life.
Along the way, the flower and bird envoy and the Marquis of Luoyang expressed their true feelings to each other.
Mr. Tan and I have no connection, let alone friendship.
In the past few years, I rarely saw Mr. Tan.
Langjun was frightened by Guo in his early years. After the fright, he did not go to school, did not enter the officialdom, did not hold an official position, did not marry, and did not have children. Princess Taikang had only this one son. The princess did not ask about Langjun's affairs and was always careful about him.
The Li family’s grand funerals and weddings, even Princess Yi Yang had to attend these weddings and funerals, and only then could people in the palace see Mr. Tan.
For one winter, one spring and half summer, the sage was in Lingtai Temple, and Tan Langjun accompanied him day and night. When the sage went to Yinyue Palace, Tan Langjun was always there. I guess he wanted to enter the officialdom.
Tan Jiuyue follows the sage, and I follow Empress Dowager Feng. If you look closely, the Marquis of Luoyang and the Flower and Bird Envoy are political enemies.
My true feelings are like a womanizer. I have no one to vent to, so how could I confide in him?
Will the man be sincere?
I don't want to dirty my crippled ears.
Mr. Tan didn't care and insisted on telling me the truth.
He told me that he was infatuated with Princess Yi Yang of Yin Yue Palace and that he liked Li Yin Yue.
Is Tan Jiuyue madly in love with Li Yinyue?
Princess Yi Yang stays indoors and the young master of the Tan family lives in seclusion in Chang'an. These two rarely see each other, so how could they be so infatuated with each other?
It turns out that the Flower and Bird Envoy was not accompanying His Majesty, nor was he serving the Li Dynasty. He went in and out of Yinyue Palace because of his infatuation.
Tan Jiuyue was not frightened by Guo, he was trapped in love for many years.
It turned out that His Majesty was not so absurd as to disrupt the ethical principles. He Nu often went to Yinyue Palace not for the sake of following the laws of nature or Lady Li, but to help his cousin.
I am most disgusted with the sons of the Li family, and even though I am deaf, I still want to listen to the ladies of the Li family.
"My lady, do you still remember the old Chang'an City?" Tan Jiuyue asked me.
Everyone in Chang'an City knows that I am a bastard, so of course I remember it.
"In the Chang'an City that had not been massacred and bloodbathed by the previous emperor, there were countless children of the royal family and descendants of the Li family, all of whom were royal relatives. Although the princess and I are both members of the Li family, I have never seen each other in my childhood. In the past, I only heard that the princess was a nun who was devoted to Taoism..." The Flower and Bird Envoy recalled.
"And then?"
Ah Xiang asked, and I asked too.
"Later, we had to talk about the Guo family of the previous dynasty, Concubine Guo, Crown Prince Guo, and Grandson Guo..."
"At that time, the Guo family was causing trouble. Concubine Guo ordered me to marry a daughter of the Guo family and Princess Yiyang to marry a man from the Guo family. I refused to marry, and the princess refused. Then, Concubine Guo locked me and the princess in the same palace."
"That is a disaster for Chang'an, but also a blessing for me." Tan Langjun sighed to himself.
"She has a cold face but a kind heart. She is highly educated and has a clear mind. I live and die with her, I share joys and sorrows with her, we know each other and accompany each other. We have a bond of life and death that no one in the world can compare to. I always hope that she can develop some affection for me."
Unfortunately, Princess Yi Yang was devoted to Taoism.
My uncle's Madam Li still wants to get married, but this Madam Li from Yinyue Palace has vowed not to marry and will never break her oath.
How can Tan Jiuyue be compared with the Taoist Master?
"There are countless people in the world, and there is more than one Miss Li in Chang'an. Why do you have to wait for only this one plum?" I asked.
"There are tens of millions of Miss Lis in the world, but I only recognize this one..." he said, "Luckily, there have been many weddings and funerals in the palace in recent years, so I don't have to wait several years to see her. I am already content..."
It’s another facial expression, no, flowers and birds are even better than facial expressions.
I don't like it, I hate it so much, but I dare not say it out loud.
That day, Princess Yi Yang and Prince Guangcheng quarreled in Yinyue Palace because of Tan Jiuyue.
The princess drove me out of Yinyue Palace because I was talking nonsense. It turned out that the princess angrily scolded Henu in order to expel Tan Langjun.
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