Chapter 19: Only when you lose something do you know how to cherish it
Lu Jingyao entered the dormitory sadly, startling Liu Muhan who was about to fall asleep on the upper bunk.
She said dazedly, "Lu Jingyao, there is a letter for you. I put it under the quilt for you."
"Oh, thank you!"
Lu Jingyao sobered up a little and hid in her bed. She didn't want anyone to see her weakness.
But Liu Muhan noticed something. He half poked his body out from under the quilt and stretched his head along the edge of the upper bunk like a cat poking its head out.
"What's wrong with you, Sister Jingyao? Are you feeling unwell?"
"No,"
Lu Jingyao quickly wiped the tears from her face with a quilt to avoid being seen by Liu Muhan.
But just when Liu Muhan's head was about to shrink back, Lu Jingyao suddenly thought of something.
"Mu Han, can you lend me twenty dollars?"
"Twenty dollars?"
Liu Muhan was stunned for a moment, sat up from the bed, took his coat and started taking out his wallet.
As she took out her money, she asked, "Sister Jingyao, what do you want the twenty yuan for? Is there an emergency at home that requires money?"
"No, it's our literature club's dinner party and I want to return the money to Qian Shun as soon as possible."
Lu Jingyao hesitated for a moment, but still told Liu Muhan the truth, except for the part where Qian Shun went crazy after drinking.
Liu Muhan paused for a moment as he was taking out his wallet, then took out twenty yuan and handed it to Lu Jingyao.
"Thank you, Mu Han. I will return the money to you as soon as possible."
"You don't have to rush to pay me back, but there are a few things I must tell you."
Liu Muhan said seriously: "Sister Jingyao, we have entered the adult world and can no longer trust others as easily as teenagers.
This society is very complicated. Some people may seem to be nice to you, but they may not have good intentions. Some people may seem to be mean to you, but they may not have bad intentions. "
Lu Jingyao didn't quite understand and asked awkwardly, "Mu Han, what do you mean by that?"
Liu Muhan shook her head helplessly and said, "Sister Jingyao, think about what kind of substantial help He Xue and the others finally gave you? Think about what kind of support your ex-boyfriend gave you?
Any false feelings cannot stand up to the test of material things. Just for a few words of "concern" from a few close friends who only know how to talk, you should belittle those who have paid for you.
"Do you know that He Xue and the others just want to laugh at your joke?"
Liu Muhan said this in one breath and then curled up in his bed to keep warm.
However, Lu Jingyao couldn't calm down for a long time because of this.
"Look at me and make fun of me? Am I not a joke today?"
Lu Jingyao felt a little uncomfortable. Today, she wanted to secretly borrow money from He Xue and others to pay the bill in order to maintain her self-esteem, which she valued most.
As a result, He Xue suddenly leaked the news, letting everyone know about Lu Jingyao's embarrassment and poverty.
Although He Xue later told Lu Jingyao with great concern that it was unintentional, but was it really unintentional?
Thinking back to what happened a few months ago when everyone first entered university, Lu Jingyao actually already had the answer in his heart.
At that time, we had just arrived at the university, and we were chattering and close to each other, just like real sisters.
But soon after, a subtle rift began to emerge.
Liu Muhan's family is well-off, and not only does he have a complete range of daily necessities, but many of them are authentic "high-end goods".
Lu Jingyao is sensitive and self-reliant, and seldom touches other people's things, but He Xue and others are careless and often just take things and use them.
At first Liu Muhan didn't care much, but when He Xue took Liu Muhan's soap, shampoo, and vanishing cream and gave them to the senior students of the Student Union in the bathhouse, Liu Muhan became unhappy.
The girl from Jiangnan who looks delicate and weak actually has very good ideas. It's ok to give you something from a dormitory, but you use my things to show off and do me a favor. Do you have any shame?
But He Xue didn't care and had a big quarrel with Liu Muhan, saying that she was "stingy" and "petty bourgeois" and so on, and swore to double the compensation to Liu Muhan.
But several months have passed, and Lu Jingyao has not seen He Xue compensate Liu Muhan for the things.
No matter how expensive a bar of soap is, it is only one or two dollars. Can't He Xue squeeze it out?
Today, the stingy Liu Muhan lent Lu Jingyao twenty yuan. He Xue knew that Lu Jingyao's family was poor, but she still wanted to ask her to treat her.
"Ah~~"
Lu Jingyao sighed and took out her letter from under the quilt.
【There are actually three?】
Lu Jingyao took a look and saw some from her younger brother, Xia Yue, and Li Ye.
After a moment's thought, she opened her brother's letter first.
After reading Lu Zixue's letter in one breath, Lu Jingyao was filled with worries.
Even though they were thousands of miles apart, she could still understand the resentment and grievance in her brother's heart at the moment, but Lu Jingyao felt powerless against this resentment and grievance.
This matter is easy to say and easy to do. Just buy a bicycle for Lu Zixue and his brother's predicament will be solved immediately.
But who could give her a bicycle? A Phoenix brand one at that?
There is no one else except Li Ye.
The last time Lu Jingyao wrote to Li Ye, she asked Li Ye to return the Phoenix car to Lu Zixue first, and she would pay the car fare slowly.
At that time, I thought there was nothing wrong with this method, but after what happened today, Lu Jingyao's heart was shaken.
It was only thirty yuan, but Qian Shun wanted to take her out for a walk in the dark.
How much does Li Ye’s 26 Phoenix car cost?
The ticket is over 160 yuan if you have it, and you can’t buy it even if you don’t have it for 200 yuan.
Two hundred yuan is an astronomical figure for the Lu family.
Why should I give it to you?
Did you let Li Ye hug you around the waist? Did you play hide-and-seek with him under the quilt?
Li Ye doesn't owe you anything.
"Alas~"
Lu Jingyao sighed again and opened Xia Yue's letter.
Lu Jingyao is still very close to this former best friend. The two have very similar personalities. Both come from humble backgrounds, are confident and self-reliant, and are full of yearning for freedom in the future.
In the past days, the two encouraged and supported each other ideologically and got through the most difficult days.
But when Lu Jingyao finished reading Xia Yue's letter, he couldn't help but be stunned for a while.
[Li Ye, a relative of Li Ye, got into the fast-track class through the back door.]
[Li Ye’s relative reported me to the police, causing me to lose my position as squad leader.]
[Li Ye, the dog landlord, is secretly studying English. I guess he will come to Beijing to cause trouble for you in the future.]
In the four-page letter, Lu Jingyao did not feel any "self-reliance" or "confidence", but instead it was all "resentment" and "grievance" just like her own brother.
However, what Lu Jingyao cared about was not Xia Yue’s resentment and grievance, but Li Ye’s rapid improvement in English.
"His English has surpassed Xia Yue's. Will he really be able to be admitted to the Foreign Languages College next year?"
"If Li Ye can get into the Foreign Languages College, should I accept and fulfill my father's promise?"
At the beginning, Lu Jingyao's father promised Li Ye in front of the neighbors, "If you can get into university, I won't stop you two from being together."
Lu Jingyao was very angry at the time and felt that her father was forced to compromise.
But now it seems that my father is the master who knows everything about the world and has every possible plan.
If Li Ye is admitted to the Foreign Languages College next year, will the relationship between the two be restored naturally?
Thinking of this, Lu Jingyao suddenly felt ashamed and felt that she was a little shameless.
But vaguely, there is some expectation.
If Li Ye was around, how could a man like Qian Shun dare to treat him like he just did?
Although Li Ye is simple-minded, his fists are extremely hard.
Moreover, Li Ye's handsomeness alone is enough to make countless suitors feel inferior and give up.
Li Ye doesn't understand literature or poetry, but he is a college student!
The brilliance of a college student is enough to cover up countless shortcomings and match oneself equally.
. . . .
"Huh?"
With anticipation, Lu Jingyao opened Li Ye's letter, only to find that it contained the original letter she had written to Li Ye a few days ago.
After looking through it carefully, Lu Jingyao finally saw the reply written by Li Ye on the back of the letter.
Then, Lu Jingyao was completely stunned.
Li Ye's fierce words and resolute questioning caught Lu Jingyao off guard and left her at a loss as to what to do.
Li Ye's last sentence was like a bucket of cold water, pouring down on Lu Jingyao's head, chilling her to the bone.
[Since you have chosen to pursue your freedom, why do you interfere in my life? Why do you ask me to be generous and give the bicycle to your brother? ]
[Don't contact me anymore. The swan flying up to the sky, please don't bother the frog at the bottom of the well. Even if he becomes a prince one day, it has nothing to do with you.]
After a long while, Lu Jingyao murmured to herself: "He actually... hates me so much..."
And a strong sense of loss grew from the depths of her heart and quickly spread throughout her body.
Only when you lose something do you know how to cherish it. Many things, once missed, will never come back.
(End of this chapter)
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