Chapter 201 The Supreme God can be replaced.
Make a decision as soon as possible. What decision? Is there even a need to think about this?
“I’ll stop him.” Nanmen Jue didn’t hesitate for a moment. The moment the crow revealed the method, no matter the cost, it was her only option.
The crow swallowed a sigh, nodded, and said, "Alright, then you need..."
"Wait a minute," Yu Wanyan suddenly said.
Nanmen Jue and the crow stopped and turned to look at the doll on the bed.
Yu Wanyan's scalp tingled with shock. If the doll's body hadn't been immobile, she would have definitely gotten up and run away.
That crow-like thing is actually that monstrous god covered in eyes! How did Nanmen Jue manage to get along with Him so well? Just being stared at by Him almost made him feel like he was in the uncanny valley.
Yu Wanyan cursed herself inwardly for meddling. People were trying to save their sister, why did she have to jump in? And why did she have to speak up while facing such a terrifying thing?
But since the road had already been opened, Yu Wan made up her mind.
"Um... you're talking about something like 'stopping another god who's gone mad,' right? Stopping the main god's true form? But Nanmen Jue has to fight tooth and nail even against a clone. Isn't that a bit too much to ask?"
Nanmen Jue frowned: "I'm not..."
Yu Wanyan roared fiercely, "Shut up first!"
Nanmen Jue shut his mouth. Yu Wanyan cleared her throat and put on that businesslike, yet still stiff, demeanor. "This, Crow God, do you think this is the case?"
The crow asked, "What are you trying to say?"
The doll's eyes darted around. "Look, since Nanmen Jue has been helping you suppress the main god and has been very effective, she has done her part, even if she hasn't made any great contributions. Besides, this is a win-win situation for you, not a charity from you."
"So, are you going to give her something more so she'll do this dangerous work?" Yu Wanyan finally revealed her purpose. "She can help you weaken the main god, which is a great thing for you! Besides, if she really dies, it won't do you any good, right? I heard about that contract between you two in that strange realm."
Now that things were clear, both Nanmen Jue and the crow understood what she meant.
She felt that Nanmen Jue was taking too much risk and wanted to secure more protection for her.
The crow didn't answer her directly, but turned to look at Nanmen Jue, "Have you two become good friends?"
Nanmen Jue glanced at Yu Wanyan with a complicated expression, and Yu Wanyan had already haughtily snorted, "Who's friends with her? We're a perfect couple destined to love and hate each other."
The crow tilted its head, and a teasing look appeared in DouDou's eyes.
Nanmen Jue had a headache. She was silent for a moment, then said to the crow, "Wait a minute."
After saying that, she grabbed Yu Wanyan and returned to the Main God Space.
As she was leaving, she heard Yu Wanyan shouting angrily, "Nanmen Jue, do you even know what a good person is?! That's a god! Don't you know how to ask for more to protect your own life..."
Nanmen Jue disappeared, but returned to the room two minutes later.
“I thought her infatuation would have disappeared once she found out you were a woman?” said the raven.
“That’s what I thought too.” Nanmen Jue pinched the bridge of his nose. “She saved my life, I can’t kill her no matter what… Let’s not talk about her anymore, you didn’t finish what you were saying earlier, did you?”
If it were simply a matter of fighting desperately, then the crow would surely know that Nanmen Jue would not hesitate at all. The fact that it solemnly asked Nanmen Jue to consider it must mean there was more to the story.
Sure enough, the raven raised its head and said, "Your current power is not enough to stop the main god's true form."
Nanmen Jue's throat tightened. "I'll hurry up and go salvage a few more worlds."
However, the raven shook its head. "This time we can't wait for the main god to appear on his own. If we want to stop Him, we must take the initiative. You have to find Him, and the biggest problem between you is dimensions. Do you understand? Our race is a dimensional attack to you, so we can appear in front of you, while you can never find Him."
Nanmen Jue's gaze sharpened. Since the crow had brought it up, there must be a solution. So she listened quietly.
The crow seemed reluctant to speak, its beak opening and closing a few times before its voice lowered, "Nanmen, how about we switch places? I'll teach you what to do, and you can try to stabilize Nanmen Yu's soul."
Nanmen Jue said quietly, "But you just said that you need to be personally in charge to be confident."
The crow remained silent.
Nanmen Jue asked, "If you come in person, what are the chances of success?"
The crow said, "I can't guarantee it 100%, but there's an 80% chance."
Nanmen Jue then asked, "What if it were me? I want to hear the truth."
The crow hesitated for a moment, then whispered, "About fifty percent."
“A 50% chance.” Nanmen Jue forced a smile, his voice trembling. “Xiao Nuo, you’ve watched me grow up. Do you think I would give up a near-100% success rate for any reason? Even at any cost?”
The crow met her gaze, and there was obvious heartache in Black Bean's eyes. "It's precisely because I've been watching you... that I don't want you to lose even your 'self'."
"What?" Nanmen Jue was taken aback.
“Nanmen, what you lack now isn’t the power to fight the main god, but only dimensions. That’s the only thing that can stop you. So your only way out is to ascend to another dimension,” the raven said. “To shed your human identity, come to our world, and become one of us. Do you know what that means?”
"It means that your thoughts, cognition, and existence have all been broken down and reassembled. In the universe, we are all tiny particles. Now, this pile of particles has come together to form who you are now, but after the reassembly, you may not be who you are anymore."
“…How could that be?” Nanmen Jue said. “If the memories that make up me are still there, how can I not be myself?”
"When you become a higher-dimensional being, everything will be different. I can't even guarantee that you'll still recognize Nanmen Yu's existence then, or understand your current sacrifices." The raven's usually calm tone finally became intense. "Do you know what this means? You're willing to sacrifice everything for someone, but when you can actually save her, you won't understand why you saved her. Everything you're holding onto now will seem like a foolish joke from a lower-dimensional being to you then! Is it worth it? What you've persisted in, what you love, what brings you joy, what brings you sorrow—in our dimension of life, it's all like a wisp of smoke, blown away by a phoenix. You've clearly worked hard for these things until now, but in the blink of an eye, you've forgotten them all… Is it really worth it?"
"Xiao Nuo".
"Didn't you already plan to start over? Even if Nanmen Yu is really dead and will never come back to life, you've decided to live well. You chose companions, friends, lovers... even if you have nothing, you can still continue your life. Isn't such a vibrant life more meaningful than eternal loneliness and nothingness?" A tear rolled from the crow's dark eye and disappeared into its thick feathers. "Nanmen, let's give up, okay? Let's not save her anymore. Even if you're in a lot of pain right now, you'll get better eventually, won't you? Or, even if you live with regrets, that's still living, isn't it?"
The crow suddenly froze, because Nanmen Jue stepped forward and hugged him tightly.
“Xiao Nuo, I’m glad you’re telling me all this in detail.” Nanmen Jue’s voice was tinged with amusement. “If you hadn’t said anything, and I had become your kin, your ally, the two gods would have been hard-pressed to withstand the attack.”
The crow choked back tears and said, "What are you talking about? Even without you, I can still beat the God to a pulp."
“So now it’s me who needs your help, not you who needs me. I’m the one asking you to help me,” Nanmen Jue said. “I need Nanmen Yu to come back. Only then will my heart be whole. I’m not doing this for her, I’m doing this for myself. Of course I can continue living now, but I will never forgive myself. This is a demon in my heart, and it might explode at any time. Only when Nanmen Yu comes back can I become the complete Nanmen Jue again.”
"Wouldn't that be even worse?" Crow smiled bitterly. "You've spent your whole life trying to become the complete Nanmen Jue, but once you do, you might not even acknowledge Nanmen Jue's existence anymore."
Nanmen Jue nestled the crow's fluffy head into the crook of his neck and gently closed his eyes.
Indeed, this was the most terrifying price to pay for her.
She fought for herself her whole life, struggling with the guilt within her that made her want to kill herself, but in the end, she was the one who gave up on herself.
but……
“But you’re crying, Xiao Nuo,” Nanmen Jue said softly. “You are a god too, but you have feelings, you cry too. You know what makes me sad, joyful, and regretful. Becoming your kind isn’t so scary, is it?”
“I’m not like them, Nanmen, I’ve said it before,” the raven said. “The unprecedented state of severe injury and amnesia, the unprecedented process of reconstruction, my birth now is an unrepeatable miracle. I am no longer a cold nothingness, no longer the embodiment of authority, all because of you. But what about you? What will you do?”
“Then let me, back then, answer you.” Nanmen Jue’s throat bobbed. She thought of Ying Yao leaving happily, of Mo Gui’s sincere and passionate eyes, of Yu Wanyan’s protection, of Zhang Zhiru’s admiring gaze, and of the tears in Wuya’s eyes. She wanted to smile, but her tongue felt bitter, making her voice dry. “If I forget everything and abandon everything by then… you must not abandon me, even if I become very annoying. I have so many friends now, and I don’t want to be a person without friends anymore.”
"I won't, of course I won't abandon you, you are my only contractor," the crow cried.
"That's enough." Nanmen Jue placed Him back on the bed and looked earnestly into His eyes. "Tell me, what should I do?"
When Nanmen Jue returned to the main hall, the first thing he did was to summon all three managers from the four major guilds, except for Shang Jin.
"I have an important request to make of you all. If I succeed, the Lord God can take my place."
Nanmen Jue's first words almost made the three of them jump up.
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