The pain from being pinched and beaten is still there, and the buzzing sound from that heavy slap on the ear has not disappeared yet. If her uncle hadn't stopped her, her mother would really have beaten her deaf, right?
Lin Xiaoxue couldn't help but burst into tears: She missed her father. When her father was alive, although he sometimes thought she was stupid, he really loved and protected her. Every time her mother beat her, her father would stop her as long as he was nearby. If he was not around, he would quarrel with her afterwards.
Dad was really reluctant to quarrel with Mom, but he quarreled for her.
If dad were still alive, she would not be stupid anymore and she would live a good life with dad!
The waitress took Lin Xiaoxue to the dining car and prepared to take her order. She turned around and saw her crying. She was shocked and asked, "Why are you crying?"
Lin Xiaoxue wiped her tears and shook her head. The waitress looked at her eyes again and was even more surprised: "Oh, what's wrong with your left eye? It's all red and bloodshot... What happened? Did someone hit you? Do you want to see a doctor? Eye injuries are no joke. If you don't get treatment in time, you will go blind!"
Lin Xiaoxue was frightened by her words. She was taken to the conductor's lounge to look in the mirror. Seeing her left eye was bloodshot and red, she cried even harder: Mom was so cruel. She really beat her blind or killed her. Didn't she feel sorry at all? She was her mother's biological daughter, just like her sister! Lin Xiaoxue's cousin's face suddenly appeared in her mind. She heard many people in the factory gossiping about her mother and cousin. She also saw that her mother and cousin were indeed very close. Her mother and father were not as close and natural together, but she didn't want to believe what people said, that her mother and cousin had an abnormal relationship.
Was she wrong? Lin Xiaoxue didn't want to think about it, but at this moment her mind seemed not to be hers. She could no longer control herself. The past unfolded in her mind bit by bit, scene by scene, like a movie... The more she thought about it, the sadder she felt.
She remembered that she was very happy when she was a child. She was innocent, lively and carefree. Her father loved her and would happily play with her whenever he had time. It was not until her younger sister was born that her father stopped smiling often.
At that time, Lin Xiaoxue often made her father angry. Why? Lin Xiaoxue knew very well that all the things that made her father angry were caused by her mother.
If she didn't listen to her mother or follow her mother's wishes, she would have no food to eat, and her mother would beat and scold her, saying that she didn't want her anymore.
At that time, Lin Xiaoxue was only a little girl of five or six years old. She could not imagine what it was like without a mother. She was extremely scared. In order to get her mother's love, she had to do her best to curry favor with her mother, even if it would make her father angry.
The little girl inexplicably knew that even if her father was angry, he would not leave her, but if her mother was angry with her, she would really abandon her! Now she was in her twenties and had gone to the countryside and suffered so much. Could she really not leave her home and her mother? No, she was just used to flattering and fawning, and was so submissive, just for her mother to give her a little face, hoping that her mother would love her a few times like she loved her sister and Wang Xiaobao, even like she treated Wang Jingjing.
But he never did, he was either beaten or scolded, and he never worried about being seriously injured or killed! Just now he cursed himself to be kidnapped by human traffickers, sold to the mountains and forests to be with an old man, and die of poverty and misery...
Lin Xiaoxue burst into tears and cried uncontrollably.
At this moment, she had to ruthlessly tear open her heart. It was useless to deceive herself or numb herself. She had to face it: the rumor was true - Lin Aiqing and Wang Xiaobao were both born to her mother and cousin.
My mother likes my uncle, so she only loves Lin Aiqing and Wang Xiaobao.
Mom doesn't love Dad. I am Dad's daughter. No matter what I do or how hard I try, it's all in vain! Mom doesn't love me. She doesn't have me in her heart. If I keep getting close to her, I will still be the one who gets hurt.
Like now, they came to the capital under my name, but they didn't get the results they wanted, so they directed all their anger at me. As a mother, I can beat my own daughter to deafness and blindness...
Lin Xiaoxue didn't want to become deaf and blind, that would be too terrible. She was still so young and unmarried, and she had a long life ahead of her.
Lin Xiaoxue decided not to follow Ge Hongjiao and the others back to Xuncheng. She was arranged to get off the train and stay in a local hospital to treat her eyes and ears.
Ge Hongjiao couldn't find Lin Xiaoxue, so she was furious and cursed even louder. Wang Xiaobao didn't get any delicious food and kept making a fuss. Lin Aiqing and Wang Jingjing were jealous that Lin Xiaoxue could sit in the bright and clean passenger compartment in a decent manner, while they could only stay in a closed, smelly and dark freight compartment. They were so angry that they cried.
Ge Hongjiao tried to coax her left and right, her mouth dry and her tongue chattering, she was exhausted and she hated Lin Xiaoxue even more. Wang Wenqiang reminded her that Lin Xiaoxue might have been instigated by Shen Yu to get rid of her biological mother and siblings and hide away to enjoy the benefits alone.
Ge Hongjiao was furious. How dare her daughter disobey her? Under Wang Wenqiang's plan, Ge Hongjiao went to the police station as soon as she returned to Xuncheng to report that her daughter Lin Xiaoxue had disappeared on the train and asked for help in finding her.
The police were very dedicated. After filing a case, they conducted a serious investigation and gave Ge Hongjiao news half a month later: Lin Xiaoyu was not missing. She had been transferred from the paper box factory to the commercial bureau in the district city. The procedures were complete and she had been working for a few days.
The police also reprimanded Ge Hongjiao for reporting a false case and warned her that she would be brought to justice if she did so again.
When Ge Hongjiao learned that Lin Xiaoyu had already started working, and that she was working in the city's Industrial Bureau, she was surprised and anxious: Such a good unit should be given to her younger daughter, Lin Aiqing. It was a waste for Lin Xiaoyu to occupy it! Ge Hongjiao took Lin Aiqing and Wang Jingjing and spent a few dollars to buy tickets. They took the bus and rushed to the city a hundred miles away. She planned to let Lin Aiqing take over Lin Xiaoxue's job, and then let Lin Xiaoxue ask the leader to give her two more job quotas, and even if they were not so good, she could arrange Wang Jingjing together.
Where exactly did he go and when will he come back? I don't know.
Ge Hongjiao hurriedly said that she was Lin Xiaoyu's biological mother, and she came from the county. She couldn't go back at this time. Lin Xiaoyu should have a dormitory at work. Can they stay in Lin Xiaoyu's dormitory for one night? The old man shook his head: "When people are on a business trip, they must lock the door. The keys are taken away. Where can you stay? Stay in a hotel."
“…”
Ge Hongjiao tried to persuade them, and her lips were worn out, saying that all she had to do was squat in front of Lin Xiaoyu's dormitory for a night. However, the old man looked at her like a lunatic, and not only did he not open the door for her, he even chased them away.
Ge Hongjiao had no choice but to leave cursing. She paid for the two girls to stay in a hotel, and the next day she bought a ticket back to Xuncheng in despair.
Not only did she not find the person, but she also spent a lot of money. Ge Hongjiao felt resentful and heartbroken. She thought about going again in a few days, as she didn't believe that she couldn't catch Lin Xiaoyu.
In fact, Lin Xiaoyu was not on a business trip. Ding Hao arranged for her to work here and had made preparations in all aspects, including preventing Ge Hongjiao from causing trouble and sabotage.
Lin Xiaoyu also knew that Ge Hongjiao was coming. She even ran out and hid behind the green bushes. When she saw her mother, she was still thinking about receiving them well. But when she heard that Ge Hongjiao was repeatedly refused entry by the old man, she immediately changed her face and cursed her:
"This unfortunate girl has no conscience. She didn't even tell me that she was going to work in the city. God, may she be struck by lightning! Next time she comes home, I will strangle her to death and tear her into pieces!"
Lin Xiaoyu: “…”
Suddenly she felt pain in her eyes and buzzing in her ears, so she quickly closed her eyes and covered her ears.
In the hospital, the doctor found that her ears and eyes were hit by gravity and said that it was fortunate that she came to the hospital for treatment in time. Otherwise, even if she did not become deaf or blind immediately, she would have been left with sequelae, her eyes and ears would often have problems, and she would be at risk of deafness and blindness at any time for the rest of her life.
She had been treated for a week and was still not fully recovered. If she got slapped by Ge Hongjiao again...
Lin Xiaoyu was completely disappointed.
Her mother would never like her, and she didn't want to be beaten again. She didn't want to be replaced by Lin Aiqing and take away her favorite job, then she wouldn't have to go back to that home from now on.
She would listen to Comrade Xiao Ding's advice, concentrate on working hard for her future, and would never waver no matter how many times Ge Hongjiao came.
In 1977, when the news of the resumption of the college entrance examination spread, Comrade Xiao Ding conveyed Shen Yuge's intention and asked Lin Xiaoyu to take the college entrance examination. Of course, Lin Xiaoyu also wanted to go to college, but the time was too tight, she was not well prepared, and failed the exam.
Comrade Xiao Ding arranged two tutors for her, but maybe she was really too stupid and she failed the exam in 1978.
The teacher continued to tutor her, and in 1979, Lin Xiaoyu was finally admitted to Wucheng University! Her first choice was Jingcheng University, and her score was a little short, but Wucheng University was also a famous university, so she was happy and content.
During her four years in college, Lin Xiaoyu not only improved her knowledge, but also found love. Her lover was gentle, handsome, and excellent in both character and academic performance. They were assigned to Hai City after graduation and got married one year after working. Her parents-in-law treated her very well. A year later, she gave birth to a lively and lovely boy.
Lin Xiaoyu brought her husband and son back to her hometown to sweep her father's grave. Uncle Shen and Aunt Shen also came with Brother Shen Yu, Sister Taotao, and their nephews. There was a large group of people, making a lot of noise throughout the forest.
My father's grave is covered with weeds. Although the two nephews raised by my father are not his biological children and they have consumed his life's energy, none of them have come to burn incense for him.
Lin Xiaoyu and everyone else cleaned up the cemetery, and then placed offerings. Lin Xiaoyu lit incense sticks and told her father in tears: "I was really ignorant when I was young, but now I understand life and feel my father's deep love. Thank you, father!" Now my daughter is taken care of by Uncle Shen and Brother Shen Yu, and accompanied by her husband and son. She is very happy. Please rest assured, father, don't worry about her anymore.
(End of this chapter)