"..." Zhang Xingrong was surprised and looked at the man opposite her with a wounded face, not knowing what to say for a long time.
She knew that the rift he was talking about was the matter in his previous life where he personally dealt with Zhang Hewu.
She couldn't help but feel conflicted, and felt a lump in her chest, making her feel uncomfortable.
"I originally thought that I would only know how to deal with it after I understood everything...but what's coming will eventually come." Lu Ran laughed at himself. "I always thought that everything could be solved. I always thought that I could help you solve all your problems. In fact, I was just too self-righteous."
Zhang Xingrong was silent. She knew that Lu Ran was just trying to use a self-torture tactic, but... she couldn't help but feel uncomfortable watching him criticize himself so seriously and admit his mistakes.
"But if you treat me as your wife, you should respect me. We should discuss things instead of making decisions on your own."
"You're right," Lu Ran looked at her, "Between fear and respect, I should choose respect."
Even if you know you will lose, you still have to respect each other. This is equal love.
Zhang Xingrong fell silent. It was true, sometimes it was difficult to choose between fear of loss and respect. If it were her, could she do it?
In fact, she never did it because she never intended to tell him her secret.
They are actually all the same.
"It's not entirely your fault. Just like my secret, I didn't intend to tell you because I was afraid that if others knew it, I would lose a lot." Zhang Xingrong took a deep breath.
The man opposite was stunned for a moment, his eyes suddenly lit up, and he looked at her expectantly.
Zhang Xingrong felt a pain in her heart, as if a needle was piercing it. "Our marriage was built on deception, so it has never been strong. Therefore, neither of us can be honest with each other. I can't be honest with you, and you can't be honest with me."
"I didn't..." Lu Ran wanted to say that he had never wanted to be honest with her. He had always been honest. But when he thought of Zhang Xinglian, he didn't.
And Zhang Xinglian is the biggest obstacle to their marriage, both in the past life and this life.
"You know perfectly well that there's nothing between Zhang Xinglian and me. I know myself very well, better than anyone else. I could never possibly like Zhang Xinglian, whether in this life or in the past. My marriage to her couldn't be based on liking her, nor could it be a marriage based on love. You should know better than me that my grandparents died long ago in my past life. Grandpa's death had nothing to do with her, but Grandma's death was very likely related to her. I learned this from the fragments she said when she was mad and when she wasn't. But you should know better than me! My marriage to her was just revenge, not a true marriage!"
As the man spoke, his eyes turned red.
He thought Rong Ya had thought it through, and he thought there was still a chance between them, but she still didn't give him a chance.
Zhang Xingrong looked at the man with red eyes, and her heart ached even more. She knew that this man would not cry easily, and rarely cried. She had hardly seen him cry. But this time, he cried.
"Lu Ran..."
"I'm here." Lu Ran looked at her, not daring to look away, and said softly.
Looking at him, Zhang Xingrong suddenly couldn't say anything cruel, but she couldn't pretend that nothing had happened and continue to be his wife.
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