Chapter 338: Want to empathize with my mother】

The head nurse has worked in the hospital for so many years, and she has seen children like Guo Peng who refuse to take off their clothes.

Most of these children have injuries on their bodies and don’t want others to see them.

The head nurse guessed that Guo Peng might have been bullied at school.

"What did you say?!"

Guo Aihua couldn't help but cover her mouth to prevent herself from screaming out loud, "Peng Peng... was bullied?"

However, because of Guo Peng's status as a minor, the police station protected the information about Guo Peng killing his father very well, and it was impossible for it to be leaked.

And the neighbors who knew the truth did not say anything outside, and they were kind enough to help her keep it secret.

As for the cause of death of Guo Peng's father, it was announced to the outside world that it was an accident.

Over the past year, even the teachers at school didn't know what happened in her family, so how could she be bullied by her classmates?

Guo Aihua couldn't help but think back to the children who came to Guo Peng's birthday party, whether any of them treated Guo Peng badly.

But no matter how she thought about it, she didn't think there was anything wrong with those children, but instead discovered another thing.

Guo Peng would not wear short sleeves in the summer. He said that his hands and feet were cold and he had to wear long sleeves.

But this didn't exist before Guo Peng killed the man with his own hands.

At that time, Guo Aihua only thought that her son was frightened and weak after experiencing those things, and she often supplemented Guo Peng's body for fear that her son would be weak.

"Go and communicate with your child first."

Seeing that she seemed to be unable to think of anything, the head nurse went back to the examination room with her.

Guo Aihua saw that Guo Peng was shorter and thinner than his peers. She thought that the child might be bullied in school, but he never mentioned it to her. She burst into tears and hugged Guo Peng and cried: "Peng Peng, tell me the truth, have you been bullied outside?"

Guo Peng was stunned: "Mom, I haven't..."

While he was in a daze, the head nurse quietly rolled up Guo Peng's sleeves.

Guo Peng was alert and subconsciously wanted to pull his arm back, but it was still too late.

Including Guo Aihua, everyone saw the scars hidden under his sleeves.

"Peng Peng...!"

Guo Aihua couldn't believe it, she grabbed Guo Peng's arm, full of heartache: "This... When did this start? Who did it? Mommy will go find him! Mommy will support you!"

"No... No one..."

Guo Peng hesitated and wanted to retract his arm.

Guo Aihua didn't believe it, she felt a little heartbroken: "Peng Peng, don't cover up for those who bully you, Mommy will protect you, believe Mommy, okay?"

"Really no one beat me..."

Guo Peng opened his mouth several times, and finally gritted his teeth and said what happened: "This is... I did it myself!"

His words shocked everyone in the room.

"You yourself..."

Guo Aihua stared at the marks on Guo Peng's arm, and couldn't help asking, "Why?"

Guo Peng was silent for a long time, and finally confessed the truth to his mother.

He had been doing this to himself for a long time.

At that time, the man was not dead yet.

Every time Guo Peng saw the man abusing Guo Aihua, he wanted to protect his mother, but the more he stopped the man, the more angry he became. Guo Aihua would be more seriously injured because of his protection, and he would also be beaten by the man. The man

tried to use violence to force him to obey and prevent him from getting close to Guo Aihua.

Guo Aihua couldn't bear to see her child being beaten, so every time she found that the man wanted to beat her, she would lock Guo Peng in the room in advance and not let him out.

But through the door, Guo Peng would listen to the noise outside and imagine that his mother was suffering.

He hated the man and himself, hated himself for being useless and having to cry.

With such hatred, he secretly hurt himself, trying to atone for his mother's sins with the pain, and also wanted to use the pain to empathize with his mother.

At first, he did it on purpose, and would pinch himself in places that were not exposed to the outside, such as his stomach and thighs.

Until that stormy night.

When he saw his mother's face covered in blood through the crack in the door, and the man was laughing, his nerves seemed to be stimulated.

It seemed that someone in his mind was talking to him: "One day, he will beat his mother to death, and he will also beat you to death!"

Guo Peng was twelve years old at the time, and he already had the concept of death. He didn't want his mother to die, so he rushed out of the room like a stimulus, took a fruit knife from the kitchen, and stabbed the man.

After that day, his body, or more precisely, his brain, seemed to have changed.

Even though he and his mother left the home full of painful memories and lived a happy life, the shadow of the past seemed to still linger in his heart.

He seemed to still be living in those painful days. At first, he had nightmares for several months and had to have someone to sleep with him.

But even with someone to accompany him, it couldn't relieve his anxiety and fear.

When he reacted, he started to hurt himself again.

He didn't even realize that he was hurting himself. Only when he came to his senses did he feel the pain.

"I couldn't control my behavior, and I hit myself harder and harder..."

Guo Peng said this, and secretly glanced at the crying Guo Aihua, and lowered his head with some guilt: "I'm sorry, Mom, I really didn't do it on purpose."

He felt that he was abnormal, and was afraid that his family would worry, so he kept it a secret.

"Peng Peng is not sorry for Mom, it's Mom who is sorry for you... It would be better if Mom could get a divorce earlier, and leave that man earlier..."

Guo Aihua hugged Guo Peng and burst into tears. If she had known that her son would become like this because of her being beaten, she should have died with that man. Why did she let her teenage son desperately protect her and leave such serious psychological trauma?

Later, at the suggestion of the head nurse, Guo Aihua took Guo Peng to see a psychiatrist. In

the 1970s, there were very few psychiatric professionals in China. This discipline was only systematically educated abroad, but most of the talented people with overseas education were in a miserable situation.

Guo Aihua also asked around before she found a fairly reliable doctor to provide psychological counseling for Guo Peng.

The doctor said that Guo Peng was probably suffering from severe depression, which was why he was hurting himself. Moreover, patients with severe conditions would also experience hallucinations.

At this point, psychological counseling was no longer enough to solve the problem. He had to take medicine.

However, in the 1970s, the side effects of such medicines were very severe.

After taking the medicine, Guo Peng, who was originally a lively child, gradually became introverted and even a little dull. His body shape also became fat even when drinking water due to hormones.

Seeing Guo Peng’s big change, fewer and fewer classmates at school were willing to play with him.

After graduating from junior high school, Guo Peng was unable to continue his studies due to physical reasons, and he did not find a job. He just stayed at home to recuperate.

Fortunately, with the care and company of his family, Guo Peng’s situation has improved a little.

However, half a year ago, Guo Peng suddenly deteriorated again.

After treatment, he had not "seen" his father for a long time, but now he "saw" that man again.

Not only that, he would occasionally see plants and people as strange things.

At first, Guo Aihua thought that his son's condition had relapsed, and the doctor increased his medication dosage.

However, three months later, Guo Peng did not get any better.

The psychiatrist felt something was wrong, so he asked Guo Aihua to take Guo Peng for a physical examination.

This examination revealed that the reason Guo Peng's condition worsened was that he had a brain tumor. The tumor pressed on his nerves, causing him to have severe hallucinations!