Zheng Xiaolian was stunned.
After realizing what was happening, she waved her hands hurriedly.
“No, no, no, that’s not necessary…”
She was already feeling bad that he saw her in such an embarrassing situation.
She also understood that Song Wenlin wanted to take her out to dinner because he saw her current predicament.
An inexplicable feeling of sourness came over me.
She secretly wiped away her tears.
When she looked up again, she tried hard to force a smile.
"Wenlin, thank you, but I really can't trouble you anymore! I'm married now, and I have a child. I can't, I can't trouble you anymore!"
God knows, it took almost all her strength to say these words.
The child was so hungry that he was about to faint.
But Zheng Xiaolian knew that she couldn't and could no longer accept Song Wenlin's kindness.
He is a good man!
He has always been a good person!
In the beginning, it was I who betrayed him.
In order to stay in the city and no longer return to the farm that kept her awake every night, she finally chose to abandon him.
Although it was partly because of her mother, Zheng Xiaolian knew in her heart that she was also afraid of being caught again. She felt that the thought of returning to that farm would make her life worse than death.
By doing this, she also knew what kind of harm it would cause to Song Wenlin.
But she had no choice in that situation.
Who would have known that the country had already allowed the educated youth to return home?
Just one step, just one step!
If she had known that the educated youth returning to the city would not have to be repatriated, she would never have abandoned him!
She hadn't lived a good life these years, or rather, a very bad life. It seemed like God was punishing her for what she had done. She deserved it all.
Two years ago, her mother fell ill with lung problems. The doctor said it was difficult to cure, but because she held on to a glimmer of hope, she kept asking her in-laws for money. Even if she was scolded and beaten, she would take the money back to pay for her mother's treatment.
But in the end, all her efforts were in vain, and her mother passed away this fall.
What she didn't expect was that although the child she gave birth to had been weak and sickly since childhood, she didn't care about it. But two days ago, the child suddenly fell into a coma. After a doctor's examination, she found out that Xiaoxiao had a tumor in her brain.
As she grew up, the tumor also continued to grow and now has pressed on her nerves, which caused her coma a few days ago.
When Zheng Xiaolian heard the news, she was completely stunned.
Why did God play such a joke on her?
Let her loved ones leave her one by one?
Experts said that if Xiaoxiao's tumor is not treated promptly, it will only grow bigger and bigger. If it squeezes any blood vessels or nerves, it may even cause cerebral hemorrhage or stroke, and it is more likely to develop into brain cancer. By then, she can only wait for death.
Her Xiaoxiao was only two years old, and at that moment Zheng Xiaolian even felt like the sky was falling.
Her current man’s surname is also Zheng, and his name is Zheng Lijun!
Both his parents are working, and he himself is also the workshop director in the factory.
He was nice to her when they first got married, but ever since her mother fell ill and she asked him for money, he changed completely.
But she had no choice but to ask him for it and borrow money from all the relatives she could.
The families of my two younger brothers also sold their old houses.
But this money is just a drop in the bucket for her mother's illness.
Zheng Lijun felt that all his money was wasted, and he looked down on her even more.
In addition, Zheng Xiaolian only gave birth to a daughter in all these years, and her mother-in-law was not very satisfied with her.
Now that my daughter is sick again, the attitude of the whole family has changed.
Zheng Lijun really felt that he had married a jinx.
Her parents-in-law became even more dissatisfied with her, and even thought of asking their son to divorce her and remarry.
No one was willing to pay for Xiaoxiao's medical treatment, so Zheng Xiaolian had to secretly sell her job to pay for her medical treatment.
But even so, it only slowed down the growth of the tumor and could not fundamentally solve the problem.
The doctor said that if Xiaoxiao wants to recover completely, she must undergo a craniotomy. Although it is very risky, there is no other way now.
She didn't want to trouble Song Wenlin at this time, for she was afraid that she would not be able to resist borrowing money from him.
She had already let him down enough and felt guilty enough.
I really want to pass on my misfortune to him.
In fact, just now by the river, Zheng Xiaolian really had the idea of committing suicide.
She and Xiaoxiao had both experienced too much suffering, and perhaps death was the only true relief.
All the way there, she was holding Xiaoxiao and comforting her constantly.
"Xiaoxiao, my dear child, you won't feel uncomfortable in a while. You won't feel any pain or be hungry anymore. Mommy will be with you, always with you..."
But when she got closer, she found that the river was frozen.
Just as she was hesitating about what other ways to die.
It was Song Wenlin who helped her wake up.
She actually wanted to take her own daughter with her to die. She was so young and hadn't seen the world properly yet, but she decided the length of her life privately. Isn't that too selfish?
But Zheng Xiaolian thought sadly that she had no money to treat her daughter. Instead of living in pain, it would be better to die quickly.
Moreover, she would always be with her and die with her.
Song Wenlin saw that she was shaking her head desperately and was unwilling to go with him.
I feel a little uncomfortable.
"Xiao Lian, I know what you're afraid of. I don't want to do anything to you. You're married now, so don't worry. I don't have any improper thoughts. Even if I see a stranger with a child, I can still give her a bite to eat, right?"
Zheng Xiaolian froze at these words.
Although she tried her best not to have anything to do with him anymore, she couldn't help feeling sad when she suddenly heard him say that he no longer had any improper thoughts about her.
Because even though he hated me so much, I still loved him and missed him!
She quietly clenched her sleeves and couldn't help laughing at herself.
How could she have the nerve to love him now?
At this moment, Xiaoxiao in her arms suddenly held her face.
A pair of clean and pure eyes, very much like my former self.
I only heard Xiaoxiao crying and whispering: "Mom, can we not die? Xiaoxiao... I don't want to die, and I don't want Mom to die..."
Xiaoxiao, who is just over two years old, has been smarter than other children since she was young. She could call "Mom" when she was less than one year old. Maybe because she lives in such a family, her thoughts and ideas are not like those of a two-year-old child.
Hearing her words, and then meeting her eyes filled with sadness and pleading.
Zheng Xiaolian couldn't hold it in any longer and hugged her and started crying "wuwuwu..."
Why would she want to die? !
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