Dulan stared at Harigana in shock, tears streaming down her face.
"Princess, how could you curse yourself? You'll be alright, absolutely not, Dulan will protect you!"
Harigana reached out to wipe away the tears of Xiao Dulan, who was crying uncontrollably, and he himself couldn't help but shed tears as well.
"Dulan, don't cry. I only said maybe, not definitely, why are you crying?"
Dulan looked aggrieved and didn't dare to really cry out loud.
If it were the old Dulan, she would have burst into tears. But after so many things, she has grown a lot on her own without anyone's prompting.
She thought that since the princess hadn't asked anyone else, and when she handed her the letter she said it should be given to the emperor unless there was an emergency, then she didn't want anyone else to know.
So she was really sad and scared, but she just bit her lip and didn't cry out.
"Princess, you will definitely be alright, the Eternal Heaven will surely protect you!"
"Okay!" Harigana nodded with a smile. Since things had already come to this point, he might as well say everything at once to avoid feeling sad again later.
"Dulan, I have a few more things to tell you, and you must remember them."
"Princess, please speak!"
Harigana thought for a moment, then slowly began to explain his thoughts and requests.
"Dulan, you are my personal maid, and you are the one I trust the most. So if something really happens to me, you must take good care of the two children in my womb and make sure they are not bullied."
Remember this: my child doesn't need to fight for the throne, but he also can't be a spoiled brat. I'd rather he live a peaceful and uneventful life.
I don't want them to experience any bloodshed or violence in their lives.
"When they understand, you must tell them that their mother loves them very much and will become a star in the sky to protect them, so they won't be afraid."
As Harigana spoke, she suddenly felt very sad. She had initially intended to give them all her maternal love, but now it seemed that things had deviated from her original plan, and even the future was unpredictable.
In that instant, her resentment towards her parents from her previous life vanished.
Regardless of how they treated her later, her mother must have suffered a great deal to give birth to her.
Even after her younger brother was born and treated her worse, the medical expenses were never delayed. They even waited for a suitable heart and agreed to perform the surgery.
Resentment lasts a lifetime, and so does remembrance. The suffering and grievances she endured were real, as were the money and care her parents gave her.
So at that moment, she suddenly felt relieved.
No more resentment or dwelling on the past; there's no need to bring it up again. Living well in the present is the most important thing.
"Dulan, you must remember this: if anything happens during my delivery, you must save the baby, understand?"
Harigana didn't know if this choice was right, nor did she know if her child would live a good life if she died.
But she would rather gamble on Kangxi's feelings for her and his kindness towards the two of them than deprive them of the hope of being born into this world.
She has lived two lives, and she has experienced everything she should and shouldn't have seen, everything she should and shouldn't have enjoyed. She has no regrets, and now she only prays that her child will be safe and sound.
"If Your Majesty agrees, send me back to the grasslands. I still love the scenery and freedom there. If Your Majesty disagrees, tell him that I wish to be alone and do not want to be with his concubines."
I came into this world cleanly! I will leave this world cleanly, without being disturbed.
Tell the Emperor that if there is an afterlife, I will wait for him, hoping that in his next life he will belong entirely to me. Even if we are just an ordinary couple, I will stay with him until we grow old together.
It's impossible for Harigana not to feel sad when he said these things. Even raising a pet creates feelings, let alone Kangxi, who was a living, breathing human being.
After meeting her, he liked her, doted on her, and even quarreled with the most respected Empress Dowager for her sake. He did so many things that violated the imperial precepts for her. If she didn't feel anything for him, she would truly be heartless.
However, the reason she said all this was not because she was moved, but because she wanted Kangxi to remember her for a little longer, and even longer.
As long as her two children can grow up, even if it's just to seven or eight years old, thanks to the love that Kangxi still has for her, that will be enough.
"Little Dulan, I'll give you a contract of indenture in a couple of days. Once the child is grown up, you can leave the palace and go wherever you want, understand?"
And all of Su Mama's things, I'll give them to you. When the children grow up, if they want to leave the palace, let them leave; if they want to go back, let them go back."
"Princess!"
Dulan didn't dare hug Harigana, she could only hold her hand and try to comfort her, but she knew in her heart that what Harigana said was very likely to happen, so she gritted her teeth and listened quietly, trying to remember it.
"Alright, I was just saying what if, what if! I didn't say anything would definitely happen. Your princess is protected by the Eternal Heaven, she will be safe."
Harigana didn't say anything more. Explaining more wouldn't have mattered. As long as they took the initiative to do their job, that was better than anything else.
However, she still needs to do something with Kangxi these next few days to deepen their relationship.
Not long after he left the study, Kangxi returned, with Li Dequan behind him carrying a food box. After placing the food box on the table, Li Dequan withdrew.
"Jiaojiao, have you been crying?"
Kangxi glanced at her and immediately noticed something was wrong; her eyes were slightly red, indicating that she had been crying.
Harigana was helpless; she was completely exposed to Emperor Kangxi now, and nothing could be hidden from him.
Fortunately, she had made preparations in advance; otherwise, given Kangxi's petty nature, he would have definitely summoned Wei Qi for questioning.
"Xuan Ye, isn't it wrong for you to understand me like this? It's like I'm a little child."
I read that picture book; the scholar in it failed the imperial examination, and the emperor refused to marry the princess to him. In the end, neither of them married, and they lived out their lives like that.
Although his tone was somewhat reproachful, Kangxi felt much relieved. He picked up the sketchbook, glanced at it, and found tear stains on it before tossing it aside.
"Jiaojiao, these picture books are all fake, don't look at them."
"You can't cry, you know? Be careful, or you'll cry even more than you when you're born!" After saying that, he lowered his head and kissed her lips before opening the food box that Li Dequan had brought in.
"Jiaojiao, look, I had Li Dequan bring this in from outside the palace. I remember you liked to eat it last time."
Harigana quickly asked Dulan to fetch water to wash his hands, and then began to eat the snacks.
Although they are just ordinary little pastries, they are sweet and sour and quite delicious.
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