August, Anseong.
It rained heavily on the day we arrived. On the way from the airport to the hotel, the wind was particularly strong, the green trees on the street were shaking, and the rain hit the car window, crackling. The whole city seemed to be shrouded in rain and fog, wet.
Chen He saw Yan Yongwang next to him.
The young man's profile was cold and expressionless. His eyebrows and eyes were dark and his eyes showed very little emotion. He just stared at the wind and rain outside.
Soon, he lowered his eyes wearily and refused to look anymore.
We walked in silence until we reached the hotel, dragged our luggage, and got into the elevator.
Chen He didn't dare to speak softly. He looked at Yan Yongwang's back worriedly. He walked a few steps ahead of him, and his steps were very fast. He didn't have time to open an umbrella when he got off the car. Half of his shoulder was wet, and he didn't look very decent.
Swipe the room card and enter the room.
Chen He finally spoke up: "Change your clothes."
Yan Yongwang seemed to realize that his shoulders were soaked. He was lost in thought for a moment and nodded: "Okay."
I took off my coat, the shirt inside was already wet. There were clothes in the suitcase, so I opened the suitcase and changed my clothes.
Chen He saw him coming out of the living room. Yan Yongwang, who had regained his dignity, looked no different from usual. He breathed a sigh of relief and then asked him, "Do you want to rest or eat first?"
"Let's eat first."
So we ordered food and had our meal in this VIP suite.
They rarely talked during the meal. Chen He always knew how to stir up Yan Yongwang's emotions, but in the past few months, he was at a loss as to what to do with him.
Chen He recalled the incident later, trying to figure out why he was in such a bad mood. He could only barely remember that winter morning.
He went to work as usual, and when he got to the office, he looked pale and was thought to have hypoglycemia.
But later, when he came back from delivering the documents, he ran into him leaving the company in a hurry.
Later, he discovered that Yan Yongwang's mood became extremely depressed.
He asked, but he didn't want to say.
In the end, two months ago, Shen He used his trump card and looked at him sadly - even though there was some false acting, most of it was true.
Shen He asked him: "You? Have been feeling bad lately, it makes me sad to see you."
"What's the matter? Can't you talk to me about it?"
"We have known each other for more than ten years, almost twenty years if you count," the secretary said seriously, and as he spoke, his acting turned into a true confession. He felt that seeing him sad was like seeing his own child fall into confusion and pain, and he wanted to use the best medicine to heal him, "...you make me very worried."
So, under Shen He's questioning, he reluctantly opened his mouth and smiled. That smile was ugly and indescribably lonely.
"Someone I loved left me."
Chen He didn’t know who he was talking about. He thought, what’s wrong with Yan Yongwang? Is he “someone he likes very much”?
Apart from Chao Juan, there seems to be no one else?
At that time, the only thought in his mind was that Chao Juan had left him.
Because of Chao Juan's previous words, Chen He was mentally prepared for their possible breakup. He wanted to comfort her, but he didn't know how.
Afterwards, I found Chao Juan's contact information, thought for a long time, typed, and asked, "Miss Chao, are you and my boss okay now?"
After asking this question, he regretted it, but Shen He was too anxious. He wanted to know the reason why Yan Yongwang was sad and lost. He hoped that if he found the reason, he could prescribe the right medicine.
If it was a breakup, he hoped he could muster up the energy to try to get back together or find someone else…
In short, he urgently needed a way to make Yan Yongwang happy.
Chao Juan’s reply was very late, she just sent a question mark.
Chao Juan: “?”
In the dialog box, this question mark stands alone and has no further meaning.
Chen He had no choice but to continue replying, saying that he felt that his boss seemed to be in a bad mood recently... wondering if the two had a quarrel. He said in a tactful tone that his boss was too straight and sometimes might not be so thoughtful in doing things. He hoped that Chao Juan could understand. Relationships need to be worked out. If they really had a quarrel, he hoped that they could have a good talk.
These are words spoken in the tone of elders.
The dialog box was filled with his words, and he used careful words and a cautious attitude, trying his best not to make people feel uncomfortable. In fact, he did a good job, as social skills have always been his strong point. After he finished sending, he held his breath and waited for Chao Juan's reply.
Then, Chao Juan replied briefly: "Yes, we broke up. Don't ask any other questions."
Then he stopped answering.
Chen Hexin felt like he had fallen into an ice cave.
He didn't know what happened behind this, he just thought, no wonder, no wonder.
No wonder Yan Yongwang was in such a bad mood.
…
However, the truth is that Yan Yongwang was sad because of Chao Lingxi's departure.
He encountered a second separation, but compared to the first one, he left a few words to Lingxi and did not leave without saying goodbye. He wrote, saying that he loved him and asked if he would miss him as much as he missed Yan Chi and Shi Xianyuan.
The little snowman he left behind was placed by Yan Yongwang in the house.
The water and electricity were never cut off every month. From time to time, he would go to the house, open the refrigerator, look at the snowman, and then look around at the things Chao Lingxi left behind.
Chao Lingxi left just the right amount of things in this world, and it only takes a few dozen minutes to read through them.
His coat - which Chao Lingxi had once secretly worn - was placed in the closet, hung neatly with mothballs placed next to it, in case there were bugs in the hot weather.
The cactus pot he bought online is very strong and only needs to be watered once every two weeks. It is still very green.
The landscape painting on the wall was printed out from a template. The scenery was very nice, but Yan Yongwang knew at a glance that it was an Internet picture. He told Lingxi that he liked this landscape painting very much.
So every time he went to see the snowman, he would take a closer look at the landscape painting.
…
August is the day to worship parents.
It was raining heavily in Ancheng. Shen He hated rainy days because he thought it would make Yan Yongwang sad.
The weather always affects people's mood. When Yan Yongwang was 26 years old, it rained when he came to worship his parents. He was holding an umbrella at that time, and I don't know if he cried.
This time, Chen He tacitly gave him some time, allowing him to talk to his parents alone in front of the tombstone for a long time.
He stood far away, watching the young man in a black coat, slowly bending down and arranging a bouquet of flowers. The white petals were wet with rain, his profile was very handsome, his eyelashes drooped, his Adam's apple swallowed lightly, and then he turned his back to the front.
Shen He could not see his expression.
It was a long time before he passed by. Yan Yongwang sat cross-legged in front of the tombstone, his coat pressed under his legs, and his umbrella was a little askew. Rain fell in, and his hair was a little wet.
This time, Shen He was shocked and saddened to find that his eyes were red.
"..." He was so silent that he didn't know what to say.
After a while, Shen He whispered, "You? Are you okay?"
His young boss, who had never seen him cry, nodded and told him hoarsely, "I'm fine."
Shen He watched him leave worriedly. Before leaving, he tried to smile, but unfortunately it failed to make Shen He feel relaxed.
Yan Yongwang said, "Can I lend you my coat? Sit down for a while."
"Give it back to me later."
Chen He didn't dare to blink, watching him walk back to the car with an umbrella. His back was straight, but he always felt that he was vulnerable.
The tombstone was very cold. After the rain, it was still frighteningly cold to touch.
Chen He slowly sat cross-legged on Yan Yongwang's coat.
He was speechless for a long time.
After a long time, he said, "Madam, Sir."
"The young master cried today."
As he spoke, his eyes slowly turned red and moist, like a lake covered in morning mist. He tried hard to suppress his voice and said, "How can I make him happy?"
He didn't know the answer either, or, to put it another way...
Ever since Yan Chi and Shi Xianyuan died unexpectedly in a plane crash a few years ago, his young master has rarely had a purely happy day.
The young master's life seemed to have hit a watershed a few years ago.
Before that, he had a happy and luxurious life, his parents were alive, and he had a smooth and peaceful life path; after that, there were days of perseverance, coldness, and pain, and he could only rely on himself for company.
It was only in the year before last that he began to smile. And last year was his happiest time. Chen He often saw him smiling - it seemed that it overlapped with the days when Chao Juan first met him.
But this year, everything started all over again, and he became the person that Chen He was extremely reluctant to see.
It seemed as if it would collapse and crumble into gravel with just the slightest push.
…
The news of [Chao Juan and Yan Yongwang breaking up] was first spread only among the socialite circle, but later, somehow, it became a hot topic.
Yan Yongwang spent a lot of energy on his work this year. Chen Hedu discovered that, whether it was because he was widowed or something else, his daily life was no longer divided among other things, but mostly divided among work.
That is, he returned to the state that Chen He particularly didn't want him to be in.
"Workaholic" should not be a term exclusive to men of his age.
Chen He feels that a young man of working age should not only think about work, he should have another life.
But since "Chao Juan and Yan Yongwang broke up", Yan Yongwang's life has become like this. He wants him to change, but he doesn't know where to start.
When asked, Yan Yongwang said coldly: "Nothing? It's easy to explain."
"My relationship with her is sometimes not what you think."
Chen He also looked for Chao Juan in private. Because he cared about Yan Yongwang, he didn't care about his face and wanted her to get back together with him.
The result obtained was just a few words from Chao Juan.
"Nothing? It's easy to explain."
The words sounded particularly similar to those spoken by Yan Yongwang himself, which made Chen He feel a little amused and confused for a moment. He thought, have they been a couple for a long time, so even the way they speak is similar?
Why can't these two people who have such a tacit understanding be together?
Chen He had mixed feelings. But he was just an outsider, and it was hard to say more, nor was he qualified to say anything.
Mentioning it once in front of Chao Juan was already a huge overstep.
Later, he stopped talking about it. He just hoped that Yan Yongwang could pay more attention to him and not let his annual physical examination report index look too bad.
He already knew about their breakup, so it wouldn't be too late for others to know. Word was circulating in the capital's socialite circle that Yan Yongwang and Chao Juan had broken up. The reason was that Lin Shen mentioned one day that he hadn't seen Chao Juan mention Yan Yongwang for a long time.
One stone can cause a thousand ripples.
Everyone is speculating whether they have broken up - because Yan Yongwang's recent condition seems to be very bad.
After some communication, people who were closer to Chao Juan confirmed from the person himself that they had indeed broken up.
Lin Shen: I was very confused.
After receiving this news, he wondered whether he should pursue her.
He had never really imagined that Chao Juan would break up with Yan Yongwang. Although he secretly thought about pursuing Chao Juan after they broke up, but... he hadn't thought it through enough.
So much so that they broke up, this fact caught Lin Shen off guard.
Pincheng He got this important information from Pincheng Lan. After knowing it, he became anxious and intended to attack.
However, when he made an appointment with Chao Juan as a friend, he found that Chao Juan was not interested and seemed to be in a bad mood.
No matter how you ask indirectly, you won't get any answer.
Pincheng He thought about the only possibility, that she was depressed only because she was upset about the fact that she broke up with Yan Yongwang.
He tried to pursue her, but unfortunately the result was not good, so he had to give up in the end.
Later, during a dinner date with friends, Chengpin He hesitated for a long time and said to Chao Juan: "If leaving him makes you sad... why don't you try to get back together?"
Chao Juan was stunned for a moment. She opened her lips and wanted to say something, but in the end, she was speechless due to Chengpin He's concern.
He shook his head and smiled bitterly.
No one in this world can understand why Yan Yongwang feels lost.
He was not sad about the "acted" or "mistaken" love, or even the subsequent "breakup".
Even the so-called loss and sadness that others thought of was just because of Chao Lingxi's departure.
Once you’ve tasted loneliness, you never want to taste it again.
The days when there is a telepathic connection are always happy. But happiness is always short-lived. He only now understands this truth.
Yan Yong was delusional. It was too difficult for him to get used to life without Chao Lingxi. It was obvious that Chao Lingxi had only been with him for more than a year, not even two years.
But he already liked him very much.
I think he is sometimes silly and sometimes cute.
The cooking is also delicious.
The little snowman is still in the refrigerator and has been well preserved. Sometimes when he misses Lingxi, he will drive to see it.
…
September.
Chen He walked into the office with a complicated expression and reported a piece of news.
"boss."
"Um?"
"There's another earthquake in Ling City."
Yan Yongwang's fingers, which were originally typing, paused for a moment, and he suddenly raised his face and asked, "What?"
"The project has to be stopped again." Chen He said helplessly, "It was just started a while ago, and now we have started the finishing work... but then there was another earthquake." Really? It disrupted all their plans.
As he complained, he didn't realize that joy appeared on Yan Yongwang's face. He restrained himself too quickly, and when Chen He looked at him, those emotions had disappeared.
In a flash, Chen He heard Yan Yongwang say, "Make arrangements to go to Ling City in the near future."
Shen He: “Huh?”
"Wait... Boss, are you going to go there in person?"
"Um."
"Actually, that's not necessary. There's only the finishing work left. Even if we resume work in half a year, it's still in time. It's no big deal. Lingshi's project manager can handle it."
Chen He thought he was worried, so he advised him, but he didn't expect Yan Yongwang to be so determined: "We still have to go."
"...Okay." Chen He looked at him doubtfully, very puzzled, but still booked the plane ticket honestly.
From that day on, he inexplicably felt that Yan Yongwang seemed to have become happier.
After Shen He left, Yan Yongwang searched for the Ling City earthquake.
This was a minor earthquake, and because there had been an earthquake before, the government organized relevant training for various institutions, and there were no casualties in the city.
It's good news.
Yan Yongwang's focus was not here. He was just recalling the last earthquake in Ling City, and Chao Lingxi appeared in his life shortly afterwards.
He was waiting for the day to go to Ling City with an inexplicable expectation.
September 15th.
Ling City.
The boss and the secretary finished their work. It was late at night and the boss said he wanted to have a midnight snack, so Chen He agreed.
The two were waiting in the restaurant, and before the meal was served, the secretary received a call from the project manager.
He said he had something urgent to discuss and needed to see him.
Chen He: "You want me to go there in person?"
"I'm having dinner with the boss, right... OK," Chen He raised his eyebrows and looked at Yan Yongwang: "The manager said there is a document that needs my review, boss, I may not be able to eat with you."
Yan Yongwang nodded calmly.
After hanging up the phone, Chen He sighed and said, "Why is there so much trouble? I can't even have a peaceful midnight snack."
"Go ahead. If you want to eat, I'll pack some for you to take back."
Chen He smiled: "That's not necessary. You eat. I'll go first. Can you go back by yourself later?"
We are all adults, so this kind of advice sounds childish. After Chen He finished speaking, he was also amused: "I'm leaving first."
Yan Yongwang nodded.
He watched Chen He leave and turned on his main phone. The message he had just sent to the manager was clearly visible on it.
The manager sent another message: "Boss, I've already called..."
He responded: “Well done.”
After closing the chat box, he booked a car online and the address was Lingshi Cemetery.
When he got on the online taxi, the driver looked him over and asked, "Why are you going to the cemetery so late at night?"
"Nothing?" Thanks to this cold face, when he was unwilling to say more, he was quite intimidating. Seeing that he was not interested in talking anymore, the driver did not ask more questions.
Just before he got off the car, he warned: "It's late at night, such a good-looking young man, be careful walking on the road at night, if anything happens, remember to call the police."
Yan Yongwang: “…”
The earthquake in Ling City last month did not cause a lot of urban anomalies like the previous one. No one even heard of any strange things happening near the Ling City Cemetery.
Yan Yongwang stepped on the stone pavement of the cemetery, standing in the night breeze. When the cool wind blew, he finally regained consciousness.
He wondered, why did he firmly believe that this earthquake would allow him to see the people he wanted to see?
The few words left by Chao Lingxi were enough to infer one fact - he left out of helplessness.
The same thing happened to his parents; they did not leave this world willingly.
But can he find what he wants when he comes to Ling City?
The more Yan Yongwang thought about it, the gloomier his heart became. He lifted his feet and walked up higher step by step.
There were many graves on the hills of Lingshi Cemetery. The moonlight was cool, but he had no fear in his heart. He walked slowly and thought slowly. Under the dim moonlight, he could clearly see the lush grass and tall trees, and the subtle shadows of the trees were shaking.
On that September night, there was a cool breeze that chilled Yan Yongwang's heart a little bit.
How did you meet Chao Lingxi in the first place?
It seems that Chen He had foreseen it.
Yan Yongwang felt a little regretful again. He thought that he should not have let the manager trick Chen He away. He knew that Chen He would definitely not agree to visit the cemetery with him, but if he talked to him nicely and made a firm request, Chen He might come with him.
I walked a little depressed, from the hillside to the top of the mountain.
He has seen countless tombstones. If there are ghosts, Yan Yongwang may have met many ghosts face to face many times.
He was not afraid of these gods and ghosts, just like he was not afraid of meeting Chao Lingxi at the beginning.
Looking down from the top of the mountain, the slope is gentle, with many tombstones and wild grass almost half a person's height.
The bluestone slabs that were broken by the earthquake have not been repaired yet, and looking at them with the naked eye, they have a kind of desolate beauty.
The dim moonlight fell on Yan Yongwang. He found an open space and sat down cross-legged with an expressionless face.
Then I thought, I’m such an idiot.
Chao Lingxi is no longer here, but I have learned his stupid way of thinking. What? Without thinking, I came here with a sense of expectation.
Although the only overlapping point was an "earthquake", he seemed to believe it without a doubt and felt that he could see Chao Lingxi again.
Yan Yong said to himself: "I am a fool."
As he said this, he felt both funny and pathetic.
"I'm stupid."
His eyes became moist a little bit.
The moonlight was cool. Yan Yongwang stretched out his hand. His fingers were very pale. Under the moonlight, they looked especially like the skin color of Chao Lingxi that he had seen when he met him.
What was Chao Lingxi like at that time?
With pale skin, dark eyebrows and eyes, his appearance is gloomy and gorgeous, a bit like him.
Shen He was shocked at that time.
Yan Yongwang folded his fingers and slowly put them into his pockets. He felt a little cold, which was rare for him.
Just a little bit.
He thought of Chao Lingxi again, who would enthusiastically hand him a heat pad when his hands were cold.
Said: "Girls need to use a heat pad, because you are a girl!"
When he smiled, even his usual gloomy look was gone, and he looked quite gentle.
Sometimes, when he handed something to him, she would be considerate of him and try not to touch it with her cold fingertips, but instead touch it with her warm palms.
Yan Yongwang sat on the ground in a daze and exhaled very slowly.
He murmured, “I kind of missed you.
”
"Telepathy."
…
Then, he heard a very pleasant and clear voice, as light and hazy as moonlight, with a slight chill.
"You? Miss him?"
Yan Yongwang looked stiffly in the direction of the sound. He saw a white corner of clothing next to him. He had just lowered his head, but he had never heard where the footsteps came from. Like moon-like silk, the snow color was ambiguous. He raised his face in a daze, and before he could react, the person who spoke touched his forehead with a warm finger.
Her fingers were soft and delicate, like small brands, pressing on his forehead.
"You? Why are you so? Coquettish? You're crying?"
What a beautiful and elegant person.
Long hair, peach blossom eyes, and light brown-gray pupils.
"you?--"
Yan Yongwang choked on his saliva.
"I--"
She pretended to imitate his way of speaking, raised her lips and smiled at him, her peach blossom eyes narrowed, looking particularly beautiful.
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