Chapter 220 Can they make peace?
"Xihen, please don't be angry. Actually, what I want is for our entire team to go to the Time Gap together. I've been there this time and I think the scenery there is quite nice. Living there in retirement is like living in the galaxy." Lou Su followed Chu Xihen all the way back to the apartment.
Xie Ling is now arranging for everyone to redeem the items in the mall, and their discussion about Xiao Chou has come to a temporary end.
However, Chu Xihen and Lou Su are currently facing a serious problem that will affect their harmony as husband and wife, and it must be resolved as soon as possible.
"I'm not angry with you." Chu Xihen sat down on the sofa, "I'm angry with myself."
"Are you mad at yourself? What's wrong with you?" Lou Su sat down next to Chu Xihen and reached out to pull him, but was dodged again. This made him really unable to believe what Chu Xihen said.
If Chu Xihen wasn't angry with him, why would he refuse to even hold hands?
"Let's keep our distance first. Just listen to what I have to say." Chu Xihen pointed to the other side of the sofa and asked Lou Su to sit there.
Lou Su was very obedient and moved to the far right of the sofa.
That’s not all. Chu Xihen sat on the far left, with more than a meter between the two of them.
"Hurry up and tell me." Lou Su frowned. He really didn't like the distance between them now.
Chu Xihen's mind was still a little confused. After sighing, he slowly expressed his thoughts in the laboratory just now.
"When I heard that you secretly decided to go to Time Gap to waste time with Xiao Chou..."
Chu Xihen had just started to speak when he was interrupted by Lou Su, "I'm sorry, I made the decision on my own, but I didn't intend to abandon you. I just wanted us to be together, but I didn't have time to discuss it with you or ask for your opinion."
Lou Su felt that Chu Xihen was angry because of this.
"No, just shut up and listen to me." Chu Xihen glared at him.
Lou Su quickly pursed his lips and made a gesture to seal his lips.
"What makes me angry is that when you said that, my first reaction was not to stop you, but I thought that if this is really feasible, then I support you to do so." It was just such a simple sentence, and after Chu Xihen finished speaking, he looked at Lou Su.
Lou Su reacted slightly, "Aren't you sad?"
The reason why he thought Chu Xihen would be angry when he heard him say that was because if the person who said that was Chu Xihen, he would definitely be angry too.
"It's sad, but it's far from the point where I would die if something happened to you. When I heard Bai Jinli talk about our past, I knew that you would rather sacrifice your own life to keep me alive. If you couldn't save me, I don't think you would be able to hold on."
"But if the situation were reversed, I would definitely not be able to do what you did. I would try my best to save you. If I really couldn't, I wouldn't want to die just because you were gone." Chu Xihen frowned when he said this, "So I can't understand why Bai Jinli said that if you used your life in exchange for my survival, I would go crazy."
After Lou Su and Bai Jinli were pulled into the dungeon, Chu Xihen spent the whole day thinking, what would happen if Lou Su couldn't come back?
After thinking for a long time, he came to the conclusion that it would be okay.
He will still live the same way as before, except that Lou Su will no longer be by his side.
After listening quietly, Lou Su looked at Chu Xihen eagerly.
"Why are you staring at me like that?" Chu Xihen thought for a moment, "How about we break up?"
Because of this comparison, Chu Xihen felt that his love for Lou Su was far less than Lou Su's love for him. Their contributions were unequal, and this relationship was naturally unfair to Lou Su.
"No, my eyes are asking you, can I speak now?" Lou Su spoke.
Chu Xihen was speechless, "Speak, I didn't sew your mouth shut!"
"Just because of this, you distance yourself from me and want to break up?" Lou Su stood up and walked to Chu Xihen and sat down next to him.
“Isn’t this serious enough?” Chu Xihen squinted and looked at Lou Su, wondering if that jealous guy had been possessed by someone?
"Although I don't remember what crazy Bai Jinli said, have you ever thought about this? I used my life to exchange for your survival, so that you can live well. If we can't live without each other, what's the point of saving each other? I saved you, and you died for me. Can you imagine how ridiculous that scene would be?" Lou Su found it ridiculous even when he thought about it.
While Chu Xihen was still in a daze, Lou Su continued, "Bai Jinli said that you went crazy because I was not around, which was not true. We found the answer after entering the dungeon this time. You did not go crazy. On the contrary, you were trying to live in the direction I hoped for."
Lou Su held Chu Xihen in his arms, "Thank you for being willing to live for me."
His words confused Chu Xihen, "For you?"
"Yes, Xihen, you have always wanted to live. No matter how bad the situation is, you have to live, but have you ever thought about why?" Under Chu Xihen's confused gaze, Lou Su told him the research data he saw in the copy.
"Before you were 20, you lived for what that researcher said. After you were 20, you lived because I wanted you to live." Lou Su said this with a very gentle tone. "You don't need to do anything to prove that you love me. The fact that you are still alive is the best proof. I admit that if you were gone, I might not want to live anymore, but I hope that you will live well with or without me. Do you understand this?"
Isn't it an old saying that the one who stays behind is the one who suffers the most? Leaving your loved one behind in the name of love is actually a selfish act, pushing things that you cannot bear onto the other person.
It just so happens that Lou Su is the timid one, and Chu Xihen can live with his hope. Aren’t they a match made in heaven?
"Love is not a game. There is no need to rank people. It is enough for me to know that you love me." After Lou Su said this, he kissed Chu Xihen's forehead devoutly.
Before entering the sixth copy, Lou Su often felt uneasy because he could not figure out Chu Xihen's thoughts. But now he no longer feels uneasy. Knowing Chu Xihen's identity, he feels very at ease.
Chu Xihen didn't expect to hear Lou Su say such words, and he was somewhat shocked.
In the laboratory, he was frightened by his own calmness and began to think that he was not worthy of Lou Su's sincerity.
So he thought of breaking up with Lou Su, so that any decision he and Lou Su made in the future could deceive themselves into thinking that it was a personal matter and had nothing to do with the other person.
But Lou Su's words made him realize that his idea was completely unnecessary. Lou Su was not the kind of person who wanted to be with him for a long time and put him in a dilemma of choosing between other humans and Lou Su.
Ultimately, it was because he didn't understand the story well enough, or maybe he had been a human for more than 20 years but had never truly become one.
"Look, we've been apart for almost ten minutes. Can we get back together?" Lou Su asked and kissed Chu Xihen's lips again.