She walked into the room, closed the door, leaned against it silently, and slid down slowly.
The voice from earlier kept ringing in my ears: She'd been seen by another man, she was no longer clean, she'd framed Captain Zhang. Oh, maybe she'd deliberately seduced Captain Hu, she must be a fickle woman, Captain Zhang was truly blind...
"No, stop it, stop it. I beg you to stop it, I don't want this to happen either."
What should she do? She held her head helplessly, wanting to die.
If I die, I won't be able to hear those gossips, if I die, I won't have to face other people's strange looks, if I die, I won't have to worry about the pain brought by this matter, if I die, I won't have to bring shame to Zhang Jianjun.
After a while, she walked into the kitchen in a daze and saw a vegetable salad hanging on the wall. She picked it up, put the sharp edge on her wrist and pressed down hard.
However, the moment she felt the pain, she suddenly came to her senses.
No, she can't die.
She knew that Zhang Jianjun loved her and he didn't care about her past. If she died, she would definitely be in great pain.
She still had her mother, her older brother, and her sister-in-law. She had promised her sister-in-law that she would take care of her children. She was her mother's only daughter, and she had to take care of her until the end of her life. She couldn't just die like this.
But the same filthy voice kept coming to her ears: She had been seen by other men, she was not clean, she was not a decent woman.
Shouldn't an unruly woman be thrown into a pig cage? Are you still cooperating in this world?
It feels so uncomfortable and painful. I want to be relieved immediately.
In another world, there is no Hu Xingbang, no these people, and certainly no rumors.
But there are no relatives or lovers of hers either.
Qing Jie Zi Qing.
She was also a victim at the time and had no choice. Since she had been victimized once, why should she punish herself again?
She must be strong and brave. Rumors cannot defeat her, nor can they kill her.
She finally plucked up the courage to think that rumors could hurt people, and it all depended on the person involved's view of the rumors. If she could face the rumors without fear, and Zhang Jianjun could face them with her, then what were they afraid of?
What was just a casual remark from others, but she had to pay the price with her life. When she was alive, she had little impact on others, but when she died, those who talked about her just had another topic of conversation.
She died because of others, but others can still live a normal life. She is just a wisp of smoke passing by in front of others. Others don’t care about her that much, so why should she care so much about what others think of her?
She put down the dishes, stood up, and walked out of the kitchen. She was going to find Zhang Jianjun. As long as Zhang Jianjun didn't mind others knowing about this, she wouldn't be afraid.
If Zhang Jianjun found out and was afraid of being embarrassed, and therefore despised her, she could divorce him and go back to the Qingpingwan Brigade.
In addition, she also had to stop Zhang Jianjun. Last time, Zhang Jianjun beat Hu Xingbang because of this incident and was punished. This time, she could not let Zhang Jianjun make a mistake again.
She tidied her clothes, but the moment she opened the door, her heart tightened, fearing that she would meet someone.
Take a deep breath.
Thinking of the words she had just used to comfort herself, that those people treated her like a passing cloud, she could also treat those people as air, so she walked out openly.
There was no one else in the corridor, so she didn't feel so restrained.
When I walked out of the single door and went outside, I saw two women talking not far from the door.
She couldn't hear what they were saying, and at first she didn't pay much attention to it. But when she took two steps forward, she noticed one of the women looked at her, and she thought they were talking about her.
Just now she thought she had prepared herself mentally, but at this moment she became timid again.
She saw their mouths opening and closing, and recalled the look the woman had given her just now.
They seemed to be saying: Look, she is that dishonest and unclean woman. She was seen naked before she even got married. No one knows whether the two of them did that thing. Alas, she has no shame.
Suddenly!
She felt as if she had taken off all her clothes and was naked in front of them.
Fear, shame, helplessness, fear.
She instinctively wanted to shrink back and retreat into her little room.
But she can't be afraid, she still has very important things to do, she must have the courage to face this matter, and can't back down because of it.
She just didn't want to listen. She would go find Zhang Jianjun. As long as Zhang Jianjun didn't care, these people's opinions didn't matter at all.
She walked forward a little further and saw a group of five or six military wives discussing something. Each of them had a look of gloating and contempt on their faces. Two of the women also looked at her with cold eyes, without a trace of kindness.
They, they should also be talking about themselves.
Jiang Ting thought so.
Her hands and feet suddenly began to tremble, and her whole body felt cold.
Where are her clothes?
She hugged her arms tightly against her chest and touched her pants again. They were still there, but it seemed they were gone at the same time. She instinctively squatted down to protect her privacy.
"No, I'm dressed properly. I'm not naked."
She couldn't deny that she was fragile and not strong at all.
Suddenly someone patted her and said, "Jianjun's wife, what's wrong with you?"
When she looked up, she saw that it was the old lady from her next-door neighbor.
The old lady had a kind face and seemed to have no ill will towards her. She spoke to her in a gentle tone, and her guard was immediately lowered. The haze in her heart seemed to be dispelled by the old lady's smile.
She stood up and smiled at the auntie: "Auntie, I'm fine."
"I'm glad you're okay. I saw you squatting here alone and was worried you might be feeling unwell."
"I'm fine, Auntie. Thank you."
The old lady waved her hand and said, "I just came back from buying groceries. I'm going home to cook."
"Okay, Auntie, go ahead."
The old lady turned around and walked towards the family building with another middle-aged woman in the family compound. Before they had gone far, they started talking to each other.
The middle-aged woman glanced back, and Jiang Ting thought she was looking at her. Could it be that the topic they were discussing was also her?
They were saying that Hu Xingbang had seen her in public, and they also felt that she was not clean and was a shameless woman.
That old lady had been so gentle and kind to her just now, but was that all fake? The next moment, they were talking about her and saying things that were unbearable.
Her heart was clenched tightly, and she could hardly breathe because of the pain.
She looked away again, and the women seemed to be still talking about her.
The entire sky darkened, covering her like a heavy hat.
My legs felt like they were filled with lead, making it difficult to move forward.
Is she still going to look for Zhang Jianjun?
She took a few steps forward with difficulty and found that someone in front was talking about her again.
Yes, they were definitely talking about her and making fun of her.
There were so many people in the yard, but she was the only one without any clothes, naked and exposed to the air. Those people were watching her, pointing at her and talking about her.
She wanted to put on her clothes, but she couldn't find them no matter how hard she looked.
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