Seeing Zhao Qinghuai, Lin Ying felt a release for her frustrations of the past few days:
"Waaah, I can't sleep. No matter what I do, I can't fall asleep. I've tried medicine, acupuncture, and even sleeping pills, but nothing works. I don't know what to do."
Zhao Qinghuai was stunned. He hadn't expected things to get this serious. Looking at Lin Ying's dark circles, he suddenly realized that he had also seen the dark circles under her eyes when he returned from his first mission.
He asked in a slightly hoarse voice, "When did you start?"
Lin Ying thought to herself, since she had already let him know, there was no point in hiding anything anymore: "It's been like this ever since I woke up. Since you weren't home, I've been sleeping by giving myself acupuncture needles," she said, showing several needle marks.
Zhao Qinghuai glanced at the bruised and blackened areas around him, and his hands trembled slightly.
Then Lin Ying continued, "Later, after you came back, my symptoms started to lessen, and I could fall asleep by burning some medicinal incense. Later, I only needed to put a sachet by my bedside to sleep soundly until dawn."
But now, no matter what I do, Ming can only sleep for a little over three hours a day; it's no use struggling.
As she spoke, Lin Ying scratched her head, unsure of what to do.
Seeing Lin Ying like this, Zhao Qinghuai hugged her and said, "Calm down and listen to me."
Once Lin Ying started venting her emotions, she couldn't control her temper at all.
Seeing her like this, Zhao Qinghuai simply pulled her tightly into his arms.
"Lin Ying! This isn't the first time I've known you. In fact, I knew from the beginning that you weren't a simple and kind girl."
Lin Ying suddenly stopped moving. She started to panic. She subconsciously didn't want to tell Zhao Qinghuai that she had insomnia because she didn't want him to hate her.
Are we going to lose even this now?
Seeing Lin Ying's eyes grow increasingly dark, Zhao Qinghuai quickly said, "But it's precisely because I know what kind of person you are that I feel sorry for you and can't forget you."
Lin Ying looked up in disbelief upon hearing this and saw Zhao Qinghuai, whose eyes were filled with her.
“During the month I was at your house, I learned a lot of things. I knew that you would use your grandfather to beat your father, that you would get your grandfather to kick your father’s family out of the clinic, and that you would use the gossip of the neighbors to make your father’s family too ashamed to go out. I knew all of these things.”
Not only that, but I also found out later that you hired someone to kill Lin Rong. Several times, I was the one who stopped you and cleaned up the mess for you.
Lin Ying's eyes were now completely devoid of light. Yes, how could someone like her deserve anyone's love? Would it have been better if she had just died?
"But I also know that you made Grandpa beat your father because your father deceived you and cheated you out of your feelings. I know that you plotted to have Grandpa kick your father out of the clinic because you saw him reselling the clinic's medicinal herbs."
The reason you always ask the neighbors to talk about your dad's family is because your sister always brags in front of you about how much your dad loves her.
You want to kill Lin Rong because she stole everything from you.
I know that too.
I also know that after you finish all this, you go up the mountain to collect herbs, and each trip takes you several days.
At this moment, Lin Ying felt that Zhao Qinghuai had seen through her inside and out. She never expected that he knew even the darkest side of her heart.
She was at a loss, like a criminal awaiting sentencing, utterly powerless to struggle.
Surprisingly, she calmed down, as if she realized that she no longer had anything to care about.
Seeing that Lin Ying had stopped struggling, Zhao Qinghuai breathed a sigh of relief. He led Lin Ying to the bedside, lay down with her, and then spoke again:
“But I know you’re not bad. You’ve lacked love since you were little, and you’re protecting yourself. You donate to orphanages and feed stray cats and dogs. You only target people who are not nice to you. You’ve never hurt anyone else. You’re not as bad as you think.”
Lin Ying's eyes remained fixed on Zhao Qinghuai, as if every word he spoke could lift her from the depths of her drowning state.
Zhao Qinghuai became like a lifeline in her eyes.
Zhao Qinghuai looked back at Lin Ying and said, "Now, I only want to ask you one question: what is the source of your unease? Is it because you feel uneasy that those who bullied you have been punished, or because you feel guilty about those you have used?"
Zhao Qinghuai's question was very straightforward, so straightforward that she had to open up her own heart and face the problem directly.
It seemed that since she had nothing left to lose, Lin Ying didn't care whether her opinion would affect Zhao Qinghuai.
After thinking it over, she honestly said, "I don't regret what I did."
However, she feels accommodating towards those who are being used.
Hearing Lin Ying's words, Zhao Qinghuai suddenly laughed: "Very good, I don't want you to be uneasy because of regret."
Lin Ying was a little taken aback when she heard Zhao Qinghuai say again:
"Your man is not exactly a kind-hearted person. I left home when I was ten and wandered around with my master. I have seen far more dark things than you have. I do not believe in any nonsense about winning people over with virtue or influencing others with kindness. If anyone makes me unhappy, I will pay them back!"
You might not know this, but in my old unit, I was known as a "jinx." Even my superiors wouldn't tolerate me giving them a hard time if they tried to make things difficult for me!
This was the first time Lin Ying had heard Zhao Qinghuai say these things, and her eyes were full of disbelief and curiosity.
Seeing that Lin Ying enjoyed listening, Zhao Qinghuai told her a few more stories from his past. He couldn't reveal military secrets, but he also told her other less gory stories.
Listening to Zhao Qinghuai's "bad deeds," Lin Ying became more and more relaxed and gradually fell asleep.
For the first time, without medication or acupuncture, Lin Ying fell asleep to Zhao Qinghuai's words.
Zhao Qinghuai watched Lin Ying fall asleep, kissed her forehead, took out Lin Ying's notebook, wrote a line, and left.
Instead of returning to his unit, Zhao Qinghuai went next door, waking up the sleeping couple there.
"who?"
Wang Shan was, after all, a soldier, and was very alert. He opened his eyes the moment he heard the noise outside.
Li Yue'e was awakened by Wang Shan and stared out the window in surprise.
Zhao Qinghuai spoke up promptly: "Political Commissar Wang, sister-in-law, it's me. I have something I want to discuss with Political Commissar Wang."
The two breathed a sigh of relief upon hearing Zhao Qinghuai's voice. Wang Shan assumed it was something from the military and was about to get up, intending to let Li Yue'e continue sleeping, when he heard Zhao Qinghuai say, "Sister-in-law, I also have something I'd like to ask for your help with. Would it be convenient for you to come out for a moment?"
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