Chapter 120 Duck
These words made the girl's heart clench, and a flood of complex emotions surged up like a tide.
Does she hate Gu Zhi? Of course she does.
She hated his mind control, hated his deception over two lifetimes, and hated him for ruining her life, which should have been smooth sailing.
You can't fool yourself.
What's in my heart isn't just hatred.
The source of all this for the man was that heavy, suffocating, and painful emotion that she could clearly feel.
That emotion was tinged with selfishness, baseness, and prejudice, yet it was so real and profound that it could not be ignored.
She knew perfectly well that such vile emotions could not be considered normal love at all.
Ruan Yi took a deep breath, pushed Gu Zhi away slightly, and her voice turned cold.
"You know perfectly well that I could never kill you, right?"
Ruan Yi looked into his eyes and said, word by word.
"I am not you, I am not a madman, and I would never commit murder."
Gu Zhi slowly shook his head without saying anything, but simply reached out and picked up the gun she had thrown on the sofa.
With practiced ease, he pointed the gun at his own heart.
The cold metal clung to her thin shirt as the man gazed at her with a devout yet dark look in his eyes.
"I never thought that way."
"I can do it myself if you just say the word, sister."
"You're insane!"
Ruan Yi suddenly swung the gun away, and with a crisp metallic clang, she gripped his wrist with all her might.
She grabbed his neck tightly with both hands, her fingertips digging into the skin on the side of his neck.
Ruan Yi gritted her teeth and strained, watching Gu Zhi's Adam's apple bob as he struggled to breathe, yet he made no attempt to resist.
The man's face slowly flushed red, but a strange light shone in his eyes, as if he was enjoying the touch, which was filled with anger and murderous intent.
As the feeling of suffocation rose, he even let out a soft sigh.
"To be strangled to death by my older sister."
"It seems... that I'm also very happy."
Gu Zhi leaned back onto the sofa, pulling her down with him so she could straddle him, making it easier and less strenuous for her to pinch him.
Amidst the suffocating panic that should have gripped the man, a strange warmth surged within him.
The girl's soft skin was on his waist, his strength carrying an undeniable control, the pain of his fingertips digging into the skin of her neck was clear, and the moment his breath was choked.
A strange tingling sensation crept up the spine and up the nerves.
Even with her, would she feel something?
Ruan Yi paused, her hand still applying pressure.
The indulgence in the man's eyes and the almost morbid satisfaction were like a bucket of cold water poured over her heart.
Looking at Gu Zhi's pale lips, and at the red marks on his neck that she had pinched, she saw Gu Zhi's pale lips.
The girl's tears fell unexpectedly, landing on his face, scalding hot.
"Can you please let me go?"
Her voice choked with emotion, and her grip loosened.
"Can you please stop bothering me?"
The man immediately turned around and hugged her tightly, pressing her against his body. Their embrace was so close that there was no gap between them. His breathing was a little rapid, but his voice was exceptionally clear.
"Sister, I love you."
No one can love you more than I do.
He repeated it, his fingertips tracing her back.
"As long as I live, I will not let go."
Ruan Yi tried to push him away, but he held her even tighter.
"This is not love at all..."
This is kidnapping!
Gu Zhi didn't refute, but buried his face in the crook of her neck, greedily inhaling her scent.
How could he not know?
How despicable and vile this love is.
Given his status, he was not entitled to a more dignified approach; he had no room for trial and error.
She was always surrounded by beautiful women, and he didn't have the time to waste.
Just the thought of her being taken by someone else—
He even seriously considered killing everyone who coveted her if she had no feelings for him.
Finally, pull the trigger on yourself.
Fortunately... fortunately, her reaction last night wasn't fake.
Whether it's subconscious dependence or the result of being influenced by him for a long time.
He felt fortunate as long as he was of even the slightest use, as long as she could retain even the slightest trace of him in her heart.
Ruan Yi was forced to lie on his chest, listening to his rapid heartbeat, and her tears fell even more fiercely.
The heart in the man's ribs beat uncontrollably for her, brewing countless crazy thoughts for her.
She couldn't escape, couldn't break free; she was firmly trapped.
Ruan Yi gritted her teeth, her eyes red-rimmed but filled with a fierce determination.
"Do you think that just because you love me, I have to accept it?"
"By that logic, how many husbands would I need? Can you please stop talking nonsense!"
Gu Zhi stared at her silently, feeling as if an invisible hand was gripping his chest, the pain making it almost impossible for him to breathe.
He had known all along that she had so much, so much that his feelings were nothing special in her eyes.
But hearing the pain from her own ears still brought waves of agony to my ears.
It's more suffocating than being choked, and sharper than having a gun pointed at your heart.
Looking at his suddenly pale face and rapid breathing, Ruan Yi felt a strange sensation.
Her words hurt Gu Zhi more than any physical or verbal abuse.
This realization made her feel like she had grasped something, and her tone became even more unrestrained.
"So what? What good does all this do? Do you think I lost anything by sleeping with you?"
No.
Ruan Yi paused, deliberately emphasizing her words, each one laced with sarcasm.
"Can't I just treat it as hiring a male escort and enjoying myself for one night?"
"It's like a duck that's delivered right to your door."
"Gu Zhi, you need to understand the consequences of what you've done. I won't respond to you now..."
"Never again."
When the girl said those last words, her fingertips trembled slightly, perhaps because she felt guilty about what she was saying and was unsure of herself.
But seeing Gu Zhi's pained expression, those sharp words seemed to flow out uncontrollably.
She just wanted to provoke him, to make him experience the feeling of a headache.
The man's gaze shattered in that instant.
Gu Zhi suddenly reached out and grabbed the back of her neck with such force that he almost wanted to crush her bones, and kissed her without saying a word.
The kiss was filled with desperate ferocity, mixed with indescribable pain. Hot tears slid down his cheeks, staining her face and lips.
They were salty tears.
He said nothing, but kissed Ruan Yi tightly, as if he wanted to knead all the pain, resentment, and deep love into the kiss.
The man knew she was angry, and that these words might not have been sincere, but he was still hurt by the most cutting words from the person he loved most.
The pain still spread densely throughout his heart, almost overwhelming him.
But what can we do about it?
No matter how sharp her words were, no matter how much it hurt my heart.
Love cannot be diminished in the slightest.
Ruan Yi's lips went numb from the kiss, which was filled with hot tears. Her head was almost suffocating, but she couldn't push it away. A strange, indescribable emotion surged in her chest.
She turned her face sharply away with all her might, her voice as cold as ice.
"Have you kissed enough? If you have, then get out."
The girl's eyes were devoid of any warmth, as if she were looking at something insignificant.
Gu Zhi still held her, his chin resting on her shoulder, hot tears dripping onto her neck, wetting a small patch of skin, burning hot, but he remained silent.
Ruan Yi was enraged by his silent tears, grabbed his hair, and forced him to look up at her.
"Why are you crying? Didn't you tell me not to cry when I was crying last night?"
Why am I crying like a dog now?
The girl's eyes were acting as if she were looking at a pile of garbage, and she deliberately amplified the contempt in her tone, just to make him feel worse and suffocate him.
The man's breathing suddenly became rapid, his Adam's apple bobbing violently, but he couldn't utter a single word.
Ruan Yi tossed his hair aside, stood up abruptly, and looked down at him.
"Get out of here."
Gu Zhi seemed to want to say something; his lips moved, but before he could utter a sound, she interrupted him.
Ruan Yi twitched the corners of her mouth, revealing a mocking smile.
"If I need anything at night in the future, I'll have you come to my door."
"Don't worry, I'll pay."
She deliberately nailed their relationship to the most unbearable position, every word like a knife, precisely stabbing him in his most painful spot.
Gu Zhi's face instantly lost all color, as if all his strength had been drained away. He stared at her blankly, his whole body trembling, as if he were about to shatter at any moment.
"Sister, no..."
His voice was hoarse beyond recognition, filled with an almost desperate plea.
"Can my sister love me a little bit more too?"
"Just a little bit, like how I love my sister, even one ten-thousandth is fine..."
Ruan Yi bit her lower lip hard, tasting the faint metallic flavor of blood, before suppressing the inappropriate heartache in her heart, and uttering sharp words clearly, one by one.
"Gu Zhi, you could have been a good younger brother."
"But right now, you're nothing more than a toy to relieve my needs! You have no right to tell me you love me."
After saying that, Ruan Yi turned her face away, not daring to look the man in the eye.
She's soft-hearted.
The man remained silent for a long time, so long that Ruan Yi thought Gu Zhi would go crazy and pounce on her again.
Gu Zhi gave a soft "hmm," his voice terribly hoarse.
The man knelt down before her, head bowed, and carefully leaned forward to place a very light kiss on the instep of her foot, with the reverence one would show to a deity.
"Okay, I will make my sister happy."
As he spoke, the light in his eyes went out completely, leaving only a deathly silence of submission.
"As long as I can stay by my sister's side, anything is fine."
Looking at his utterly undignified appearance, Ruan Yi felt a sudden pang of sadness, and tears almost welled up in her eyes.
She was like a firecracker that had been lit; she raised her foot and kicked him, her voice trembling with tears.
"Are you crazy?! I've treated you like this! With looks like that, can't you find someone else?"
Gu Zhi was kicked and fell to the side on the carpet, but he showed no dissatisfaction. Instead, he quickly knelt up and reached out to rub the foot that had just kicked him. The warm touch in his palm carried a cautious and ingratiating feeling.
He didn't speak, but kissed her leg little by little, his kisses landing on the inside of her knee with restrained devotion.
Ruan Yi finally couldn't hold back her tears and they rolled down her cheeks. She was both angry and anxious, but she didn't know how to bring him to his senses.
She tried to push Gu Zhi away, but her wrists were too weak to exert any strength, and she could only let the wet kisses spread upwards.
Up to the base of the thighs, down to the more hidden and softer places.
Her heart felt like it was blocked by something, a mixture of sourness and bloating.
"You idiot...you idiot!"
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