Chapter 63 Love Must Be Timely, It Can't Wait...
“That’s enough for today,” Yu Kui said softly in the cramped space. “I’m very sorry, but I will give you my answer in three days at most.”
“It’s okay,” Xu Xi said. “You don’t need to put too much pressure on yourself. I like you but I don’t want to burden you. If this backfires, I’ll blame myself for being too impulsive and not considering your feelings.”
“No,” Yu Kui felt a little guilty, “you’re not that kind of person.”
"That's good," Xu Xi smiled faintly, "Do you need me to take you upstairs?"
"No need," Yu Kui opened the car door. "Be careful on your way back."
"Okay." Xu Xi watched her go upstairs, stayed downstairs for a long time, and then slowly drove away.
Yu Kui stood by the window, watching the car drive away, her face expressionless.
"Who brought you back?" Shu Jia came out of the room, looking at the lotus-shaped pastries she had placed on the table, and asked in surprise, "Did you go out on a date?"
Yu Kui did not answer the question directly, but only said, "Would you like to eat lotus flower pastries?"
"Eat!" Shu Jia said, sitting on the sofa. "I haven't had dinner yet."
Where is Sun Lin?
"He had something to do today," Shu Jia said listlessly. "He said it was a family dinner, so I didn't bother him."
Yu Kui nodded and asked, "What do you think it's like to like someone?"
Shu Jia was taken aback, not expecting her to ask this question. After hesitating for a few seconds, she said, "Actually, I can't quite put my finger on what 'liking' means, but I can tell you why I feel like I like Sun Lin."
"Why?"
"When I see him, I instinctively look into his eyes; when we walk together, I can't help but get closer to him; I always share interesting things with him, whether it's funny videos or movies, wanting him to know how I feel; even if I'm talking about something extremely boring, as long as I tell him, I'll find it interesting... We always have so much to talk about, and he makes me feel like I can live freely and happily in his presence..."
"I don't know if you can understand what I'm saying, but I think liking someone isn't heavy. It brings me joy and ease first and foremost. If you don't feel these emotions when you're with someone, then you don't like them."
Shu Jia looked into Yu Kui's eyes and said, "Although the three of us are all in relationships except you, some things can't be rushed. The more pressure you have, the easier it is to make the wrong decisions. After all, love isn't everything in our lives. Whether we're in a relationship or not, the most important thing is to make ourselves happy. As for the rest, let nature take its course. We're still young, so we don't need to hold ourselves back."
Yu Kui was taken aback, while Shu Jia laughed triumphantly, "Do you find me unfamiliar? Do you think I'm a philosopher?"
Yu Kui: "......"
"Actually, you should just follow your heart. Your feelings about who you like won't lie to you."
Yu Kui blinked a few times, "How...did you become so proficient?"
"That's easy," Shu Jia scoffed. "I've always been a dating expert, okay?"
Yu Kui: "......"
"Is something going on with you?" She leaned closer to Yu Kui. "Is someone pursuing you, or have you fallen for someone?"
"I'm not telling you." Yu Kui sat down next to her. "My mind is a mess right now."
“That means someone is pursuing you,” Shu Jia immediately realized. “You probably don’t really like that person, otherwise you wouldn’t be so troubled.”
Yu Kui: "......"
"If you don't like it, just say no. It's not like you haven't said no before."
Yu Kui didn't tell her her real concerns, only saying, "Some things aren't that simple."
"Then he must have done something to make you feel awkward." Shu Jia's eyes flickered, and she suddenly asked, "Was it the cake shop owner?"
Yu Kui's eyes widened; she hadn't expected that Xu Xi would still remember her.
"Don't look at me like that," Shu Jia said, taking Yu Kui's arm. "Back in school, that person brought you desserts several times, and the way he looked at you was also very special. I'm not that oblivious."
"Is it because he came all the way from his hometown to find you?" Shu Jia cut to the chase. "It's not just his confession that puts you under pressure, but his behavior also makes you feel conflicted, right? You feel that he left his hometown to find you, but didn't get the result he wanted, so you didn't reject him immediately, am I right?"
Is that so? Yu Kui asked herself, was it because she had feelings for Xu Xi or because she felt guilty?
When Xu Xi said he wanted to open a shop in City B, she was very surprised. After all, Xu Xi loved life in the town. She didn't know what prompted him to come to a new city, and even chose an address near Yanning University. It wasn't until Xu Xi confessed his feelings that she realized that Xu Xi's purpose in opening a shop here was probably because of her.
Yu Kui's feelings instantly became very complicated.
For reasons she couldn't quite explain, she began to seriously consider her relationship with Xu Xi; she didn't want to hurt him.
“If I’m right, then this matter needs to be resolved as soon as possible.” Shu Jia said with a frown, “That person looks older than you, and he is more mature than us in terms of his thinking and other aspects. He makes decisions after careful consideration. You shouldn’t look at him with a one-sided perspective, nor should you take the responsibility on yourself, otherwise it will be very difficult.”
"I know." Yu Kui knew perfectly well that she was overthinking things, and that it wasn't good for either Xu Xi or herself.
"I'm glad you understand," Shu Jia secretly breathed a sigh of relief. "So, are you going to sleep with me tonight? You can tell me anything that's on your mind."
“No,” Yu Kui immediately refused, “I can handle it myself.”
"Alright," Shu Jia ruffled her hair, "Does Xie Xingzhi know about this?"
"I know." Yu Kui recalled her conversation with Xie Xingzhi yesterday, but didn't tell Shu Jia in detail.
"What do you think of Xie Xingzhi?" Shu Jia continued, "I think you two are quite compatible. Why don't you try getting to know him?"
Yu Kui was surprised that even after several years, she was still trying to match her up with Xie Xingzhi. "He and I are..."
“Don’t say you two aren’t a good match,” Shu Jia interrupted her. “You haven’t even seriously thought about this.”
“It’s really not suitable.” Yu Kui shook her head. Her relationship with Xie Xingzhi was not only because she considered him a friend, but also because she was waiting for an opportunity to help him on the day he got into trouble. As for anything else, she hadn’t thought about it deeply.
Perhaps at some point in the past she misunderstood Xie Xingzhi's feelings for her, but a long time has passed. They had known each other since their second year of high school. If they had developed other feelings, things wouldn't be like this now.
"Ugh, so annoying," Shu Jia leaned against her. "I knew from the start that you two had something going on, but what is Xie Xingzhi doing?! He's driving me crazy!"
Yu Kui: "......" Do I have to get this into character?
That evening, Xu Xi messaged Yu Kui, saying that he had already left work and was worried that he had caused her psychological stress today.
“Don’t overthink it,” Yu Kui replied. “I’m just thinking about it seriously.”
Xu Xi: "Really? I look forward to your answer."
Yu Kui: "......"
She lay in bed, looking at the money tree she kept on the windowsill, wondering if Xu Xi would think she was vulgar if he knew she kept such a plant, since he seemed so refined and virtuous.
But she quickly lost interest in thinking about it. Xie Xingzhi called, his voice sounding tired, "Are you resting?"
"Not yet," Yu Kui asked, "Have you gotten off work yet?"
"Hmm." Xie Xingzhi also stayed in City B during the summer vacation, and sometimes worked overtime on weekends.
“Then you should go eat dinner quickly,” Yu Kui said immediately, “Don’t ruin your health.”
“Okay,” Xie Xingzhi paused for a few seconds, “Where…did you go today?”
Yu Kui briefly recounted what she had done that day, and Xie Xingzhi chuckled softly, "Going out to dinner with Xu Xi?"
“Yes,” Yu Kui said, “We ate Xinjiang cuisine, which was quite delicious. I’ll treat you to some when I have time.”
Xie Xingzhi remained silent for a long time this time. "So...did you agree to be with Xu Xi?"
“You’re doing it again,” Yu Kui frowned. “Didn’t I tell you my thoughts yesterday?”
"I just wanted to confirm," the boy said softly, looking up at the deep blue night sky, "If you're in a relationship, I'll definitely want to know as soon as possible and send you my sincerest blessings."
Yu Kui smiled. "Why?"
“Because you are my most important friend,” Xie Xingzhi said. “Without you, I don’t know where I would be now or what kind of miserable life I would be living.”
"Nonsense," Yu Kui retorted without hesitation. "You'll be fine whether I'm there or not. The person you should thank the most is yourself."
“Look at you, every time this comes up you deny it and don’t want to have anything to do with me.”
"What do you mean?" Yu Kui laughed angrily. "I was clearly affirming you. Everything you have now is what you deserve. Don't give up on yourself in the future, and take good care of yourself."
"I understand," Xie Xingzhi said. "Did you enjoy your date with Xu Xi? Did he do anything to upset you?"
“No,” Yu Kui said. “He is a very good person and would never disrespect me.”
"Then he..."
"Xie Xingzhi, don't be so paranoid. He's not a bad person and won't do anything to me."
"Is that so?" Xie Xingzhi fell silent again, seemingly unsure of what to say. Their conversation became heavier than ever before, completely devoid of their usual lightheartedness.
"Xie Xingzhi, I asked you before if you wanted to find a partner at school. You said you wanted to get married in the future, which means you are full of expectations for the future. You should know that I also have expectations for the future and will not make decisions that will make me unhappy."
Xie Xingzhi: "You once said you weren't in a hurry to find a partner."
Yu Kui smiled, "But several years have passed, and now that there are suitable candidates, of course I have to consider it."
"I didn't expect it to happen so quickly."
Yu Kui was silent for a few seconds, then whispered, "Love should be timely, not wait for the right moment."
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