Chapter 170: Revealing one's own scars
Shu Wan didn't know how to respond to his words for a moment.
"Love?" After a long while, Shu Wan managed to pull the corner of his mouth, "The most unreliable thing in this world is love, the love between family, the love between friends, the love between lovers, tell me, which one is reliable? In my opinion, they are all used for betrayal and abandonment. So, these things are the most unnecessary things for me! Rong Chen, you say you love me, how long can you love me? Forever? Forever and ever? Ten thousand years? Of course you can say these words, but who knows what will happen tomorrow, will you meet other people, and then suddenly feel that I am not so worthy of your love? At that time, you will feel that those words you promised to love me for a long, long time in front of me are simply a joke. Those words can only prove that you were sincere when you said them, but it does not represent the fact that you will change tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, or some day in the future." Shu Wan felt a little blocked in the heart.
"Wanwan!" Rong Chen called her.
"Look at the little girl I picked up a few days ago!" Shu Wan ignored him and spoke to himself, "You should know that she was abandoned by her parents. Look, even her own parents can abandon and sell a child with their own blood flowing in her body. Then tell me, what kind of feelings, family affection, and love can make people stay together for a lifetime? Tell me, what is love!"
"Wanwan, I don't know what happened to you in the past that made you so resistant to the closeness of people around you!" Rong Chen knew that something terrible must have happened to her, which made her become like this. Shu Wan said that she was not from this place, otherwise, with her identity, she would not be able to say this, "But Wanwan, can you try to trust me once, just a little bit? I promise that I will never let you down. You don't know, in the past 20 years, before I met you, I never knew what love was. At that time, I thought that maybe I would just live my life step by step, and I would not fall in love with anyone. But you, after you came into my life, I realized that there was another kind of life. For the first time, I was so eager to walk hand in hand with you. I realized that my past life was wasted!"
"Rong Chen, I believe you, I really believe you!" Shu Wan knew that what Rong Chen said was sincere, but you have to believe that once the sense of security is broken, you will feel that everyone you meet next time is coming with a knife. "But you don't understand, you really don't understand. Maybe one day, one day you will meet another woman and you will fall in love with her uncontrollably. At that time, you will feel like today that your previous life has been wasted. I am a stubborn person. Once I make up my mind, I will not change it easily. So, if possible, please take back your feelings for me. I am destined to let you down!"
"No!" Rong Chen looked at Shu Wan firmly, "I have never regretted any decision I have made in my life. The same goes for loving you. I have given you my whole heart. In this life, except for death, how can you ask me to take it back? I don't force you to accept me. That is your freedom. But Wanwan, please don't chase me away. Loving you is also my right. I will try not to make you feel troubled. If I appear next to you and cause trouble to your life, just tell me, and I will step back a little, and then step back a little, to a place where I can't disturb you. But don't drive me away too far and let me lose sight of you. If I do that, I won't know whether you are happy or not, and I will feel uneasy."
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"Rongchen, why can't you understand what I mean?"
"Rong Chen, let me tell you a story!"
"Do you want to hear it?"
Rong Chen moved his lips.
"Okay." Then he answered.
"I told you before that I'm not from your place!" She seemed to have made a big decision.
"Yeah, I know!" Rong Chen nodded.
"In that world, I didn't know who my parents were. They threw me away not long after I was born."
Rong Chen finally understood the secret in Shu Wan's heart. No wonder she was so emotional after seeing Shengnan, who was also abandoned by her parents.
"I was adopted into an orphanage, a place that was specifically used to adopt homeless children!"
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"When I was six or seven years old, there was a couple who had been married for many years but had no children, so they planned to adopt a child. I was the child they chose!" Shu Wan's thoughts gradually immersed in it.
"At first, they were very nice to me. They said to me, Wanwan, this will be your home from now on, we will be your father and mother, and we will love and care for you all our lives." Shu Wan spoke in the same tone as the couple at that time.
"But a year later, my adoptive mother, who had been infertile for many years, became pregnant, so they discussed sending me away!"
"But I already remembered a lot of things by then, and they were afraid that I wouldn't want to go back to the orphanage!"
"So they tricked me into a very remote mountain area and left me on a road. It was night time and it was pitch black. I was terrified and kept calling them, saying, 'Dad, Mom, where are you?' I was scared, but all I could hear was the whistling of the cold wind and the chirping of insects and birds."
"Then suddenly it started to rain heavily, with lightning and thunder. You have no idea how terrible it was. I was so scared that I cried loudly. At that time, I hoped so much that someone could appear and save me, but there was no one passing by on the road!"
"I ran forward alone in the heavy rain, trying to find a place to take shelter."
"But I ran and ran, and ran very far, but I didn't see any place where I could temporarily hide from the rain. The rain was getting heavier and heavier, and I couldn't even open my eyes."
"In the chaos, I couldn't see the road clearly, so I slipped and fell hard from the side of the road. I passed out after that fall."
"I was found by a local resident who went up the mountain the next day to check if the road had been washed away after the heavy rain. He took me back."
"But maybe I was born with bad fortune, and I am destined to meet the wrong person!" When he said this, Shu Wan sneered self-deprecatingly.
Wanwan is so miserable, isn’t she? Awan, please bear it for your mother!
(End of this chapter)
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