Chapter 23 Big Circles and Small Circles Life is a desolate ruin to him, it is...
"I...I should be fine..."
Zhou Haoyu subconsciously showed his usual gentle smile on his face, and looked helplessly at the young Wei Zhehan who had not yet figured out the situation.
But his heart suddenly felt warm.
Zhou Haoyu spent the first half of his life trying to win the attention of his parents, grandparents, and family. As a child, he never figured out why his younger brother was loved unconditionally by his parents, grandparents, and his younger brother was loved by them meticulously, unconditionally, and he——
I can only hide in the corner, holding the award certificate on my head but no one cares.
He wanted to be important to someone or a group, or at least not be marginalized by the group. So he tried his best to improve his eloquence, actively participated in various clubs or activities, and applied for one position after another that might be helpful.
But the facts prove that none of these can help.
The inferiority complex that was rooted in his bones and as dirty as mud always made him give up halfway. He could never become someone who could bless others as openly as Wei Zhehan or Li Ming.
They can sit on the side of the road and applaud the winner calmly even though they have nothing, but he will only choose to grit his teeth and return to his basement, secretly cursing the winner.
"Does that mean something might go wrong?"
Wei Zhehan repeated in a daze. He was always a straightforward person, so naturally he didn't understand the possible hints Zhou Haoyu was giving.
He would only choose to face it and confirm it directly. He could only choose to face it and confirm it directly.
"Don't take it too seriously."
Zhou Haoyu burst out laughing after hearing this. He smiled and tried to justify his words: "Instead of worrying about the danger that hasn't happened to me yet, you should worry more about Li Ming."
At the end of his words, he even said seriously: "Li Ming needs you now, doesn't he?"
"Um……"
Wei Zhehan hesitantly put down his hand that was about to support.
Yes, Li Ming is in danger now.
He shouldn't waste time here, he should run towards where Li Ming is like the wind without stopping.
But as he ran——
However, he was filled with anxiety about Zhou Haoyu.
All this even made him hallucinate that he had encountered a similar situation before, but made a regretful choice. But what was it?
Wei Zhehan couldn't remember.
He stood at the door, at a loss. The facts told him what he should do, but his subconscious kept reminding him. He seemed to have overlooked something, and he seemed to have not had time to remember something...
Some relatively important things, some particularly important things.
"Is there anything else you're worried about?"
Zhou Haoyu's face showed just the right amount of confusion, and then he frowned, revealing some dissatisfaction with Wei Zhehan's current behavior.
But let’s be honest…
He knew that he did need to be worried. The backlash of his talent was too severe, and he could no longer evacuate the faceless student's consciousness network by himself.
What awaits him is not only being discovered, but also being transformed.
In the scattered images Zhou Haoyu saw, more and more faceless students gathered together. They stayed where they were, looking at each other warily.
The subject's consciousness is already investigating the cause of the problem.
But he couldn't find out, because Zhou Haoyu was outside of all his possible suspects. But what if he realized that it wasn't his siblings' fault?
Zhou Haoyu felt that he needed to be worried about.
Why should I not be paid attention to when I am alive, and after I die, I have to watch others save others with a smile and pretending to be indifferent?
Why couldn't the person who was rescued be him?
The inferiority complex that was like a maggot attached to his bones suddenly emerged at this moment, and the dark side that appeared due to the "lack of attention" began to occupy his thoughts. He almost had to use up all his strength to stand here with a smile.
Go faster...go faster, Xiao Wei...
While Zhou Haoyu was thinking, he heard Wei Zhehan suddenly ask: "Dorm Head, do you also know Jiang Huai's location..."
There was some confusion, hesitation and doubt in his voice.
"Of course I know."
The words came out faster than the thoughts. Zhou Haoyu heard himself answering the other party like this. This was a strange question. At least he suddenly couldn't figure out why Wei Zhehan chose to ask about Jiang Huai's location at this moment.
JAC...
Zhou Haoyu's thoughts suddenly fell into memories of past battles as the name appeared. I wonder if Jiang Huai had successfully retreated at that time...
"I'll carry you on my back to find Jiang Huai."
"ah?"
Zhou Haoyu was caught off guard by Wei Zhehan's impromptu plan. But what's the point of looking for Jiang Huai? Jiang Huai and Li Ming are now in two completely opposite directions.
The time it took them to reach Jiang Huai's location was enough for Li Ming to fall into dozens of irreversible desperate situations.
From the bottom of his heart, he didn't want Wei Zhehan to fall into this "swamp" again.
Yes, he couldn't just think about himself.
The rationality that had prevailed for a long time suddenly returned with difficulty at this moment. Although His appearance was quite late for His master, it was not too late.
Zhou Haoyu sighed softly at this.
He didn't know what to sigh about, he just felt that his life had once again fallen into the accustomed "neglect".
But Xiao Wei's idea really confused him as always. Zhou Haoyu concealed his inner anxiety and troubles, and was about to urge the other party to leave, but Wei Zhehan acted much faster than him.
"Let's go, dormitory head."
Wei Zhehan, who had already made up his mind, walked towards Zhou Haoyu with a serious face and asked decisively: "Do you want me to carry you or carry you on my back?"
Although he asked this, in reality his hand was already on Zhou Haoyu's shoulder.
"Wait, wait!"
Zhou Haoyu quickly stopped him and asked hurriedly: "Are you sure? You really won't regret it?"
"I am sure."
Wei Zhehan answered seriously word by word, "If something happens to you, the dormitory head, because I rushed to save Li Ming, neither Li Ming nor I will forgive ourselves."
"I don't mind it myself."
Wei Zhehan lightly mentioned the past, which was also the mental swamp that he might fall into in the future. "But I can imagine how Li Ming feels. He will definitely feel guilty about this."
"And I can't necessarily help."
Wei Zhehan turned his head away with an embarrassed look on his face, but he was still stating his thoughts to the person in front of him: "Jiang Huai has always been better than me, both in gaming and in studying."
"If he knew, he would definitely rescue Li Ming at a speed a thousand times faster than mine, as fast as the wind."
Jianghuai... Jianghuai is indeed...
Zhou Haoyu was slow to react and recalled:
His old classmate is much better than any of them.
"But Xiao Wei..." The color in Zhou Haoyu's eyes varied.
The two extreme predictions kept tug at each other in his mind, like the sound of paper tearing or the sound of a whistle.
It's frustrating and confusing.
Because Zhou Haoyu knew very well that he could not bear the death of Li Ming, let alone the regret of Wei Zhehan.
He has and can only bear the responsibility of his own death.
So just before he was about to achieve his wish—
He finally gave up his disguise and questioned the other party in a desperate manner: "But do you know? There is always a possibility that things will not catch up? Even if they really catch up, have you really thought about it?"
"Although you have always claimed that you have the best relationship with Li Ming, what would Li Ming think if he knew what you did today? You will no longer be his best friend!"
"He will remember that it was Jiang Huai who saved him, and he will remember that it was Wei Zhehan who hesitated whether to save him."
Zhou Haoyu complained with all his strength:
"Even if we can judge the right and wrong of things from a rational perspective, humans are always emotional creatures!"
…
The scene suddenly fell into silence.
Zhou Haoyu stood there at a loss. He inexplicably felt that the dark side of himself that he had hidden deep in his heart was suddenly and viciously pulled out and exposed to the scorching sun.
The kind that's been dried into a mummy.
He had tried his best to hide and disguise for so long, why couldn't he do it now? Why was he pushing all the problems onto Wei Zhehan? How could he have the nerve to push them onto Wei Zhehan?
Zhou Haoyu paused.
Just as he was struggling to make up for what he had said, he heard Wei Zhehan suddenly mutter in a low voice: "That's why we can't delay any longer."
His tone was as if he was trying to convince himself.
Wei Zhehan looked Zhou Haoyu in the face and said calmly, "I will take my own risks for my decision. Even if we ever break off diplomatic relations, Li Ming will always be my friend, but..."
"I can be not his friend."
After saying this, Wei Zhehan laughed at himself, which was rare: "Isn't it always like this? Not everyone can stay with you until the end."
"If it really turns out like this, I deserve it."
Wei Zhehan took matters into his own hands. Then, with an expressionless face, he commanded Zhou Haoyu, "Let's go, dormitory head."
"Time waits for no one."
“…”
Zhou Haoyu suddenly fell silent.
If the person involved is mentally prepared, is there any need for him to dissuade him?
He finally put his right hand on Wei Zhehan's shoulder in silence. The scenery was passing, the wind was running, and reality inevitably pulled his thoughts back to the past.
past……
The past years are unforgettable to him.
Zhou Haoyu still remembers that his relationship with the other three people in the dormitory was not close.
If there hadn't been a disaster, if there hadn't been Li Ming's death, they would have most likely gone their separate ways after graduation and no longer kept in touch. He would have become a topic of conversation among the other people about their college memories, a roommate who suddenly disappeared.
But the reality is:
The disaster happened and Li Ming died.
So he became one of the few friends of Wei Zhehan who could talk about Li Ming.
Friends... Wei Zhehan's friends...
Wei Zhehan will never know how much benefit it will bring to be his friend...
But later Wei Zhehan died, and he also walked towards his own end. Zhou Haoyu still remembered that before his last mission before his death, his leader gave him such a serious instruction -
'If not necessary, give priority to ensuring the survival of JAC.'
…
Jiang Huai, his old classmate.
He had stood at a height that none of them could reach since the very beginning of the disaster. His qualifications and talents were enough to make the authorities dare to allocate as many resources as possible to him during the most turbulent period.
This is indeed the case.
The only three S-level talent sequences in the country, the top three Apocalypses in the world... Jiang Huai's honors and victories can even fill a long commercial street.
Even if he didn't die, he was destined to be recorded in the history of mankind's struggle against disasters.
But what about Zhou Haoyu himself?
He didn't think he was special, nor did he think he was needed. Life was a desolate ruin and a dead valley for him.
But Zhou Haoyu still remembers the scene before his death.
Soft, cold cotton wool grew crazily in his body. He couldn't help but cut open his skin again and again with a knife in pain, pulling out the white, blood-stained cotton wool from his intestines and spleen.
Disaster, wearing red dancing shoes, strolled towards his hiding place gracefully and nonchalantly.
Zhou Haoyu could hear His footsteps, approaching from afar; Zhou Haoyu could see His vision, and the picture was slowly approaching the familiar scenery.
'Zhou Haoyu, do you have any last words?'
Sitting weakly on the blood-stained floor, he heard Jiang Huai's "hospice care" at the last moment. At that moment, what he thought in his mind was "build a tombstone for me, Jiang Huai", but what he actually said was -
'You must live, or I will die in vain.'
Looking back now...his last words were like a curse...
He should be more like Wei Zhehan, who didn't make any weird requests after saving him. Wei Zhehan even thought he was emotionally unstable at the time, and he didn't even tell him about Li Ming's death until the next day.
so--
No wonder they were trapped in the academy copy after their death.
Zhou Haoyu still remembers what happened that day.
It was Wei Zhehan who saved his life when he returned from the teaching building. He himself stepped forward without even understanding the current situation.
"Hold on, dorm leader!"
Wei Zhehan shouted at him at that time.
Wei Zhehan never said that he was worried about his roommate, but in the end he did so again and again.
When Zhou Haoyu recalled this, his thoughts suddenly froze.
Soon, he couldn't help laughing at himself.
It's really ridiculous.
He has never been a vassal of Li Ming, he has always been a friend of Wei Zhehan. Wei Zhehan actually treats him as a friend like Li Ming.
So… So…
It turned out that those things he longed for but could not reach had already appeared.
It's just that he is inferior and dark.
As a result, I can't see the true heart of others for a long time.
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