Su Xiachu just wants to put all his energy into managing his family and career and get his destiny back on track.
But it is difficult to have extra energy to devote to feelings.
Once missed, it is missed. There is no need to start over.
It's like a bowl of cold food. Even if you pour it back into the pot and heat it up again, it will no longer taste the same as it did at the beginning.
Su Xiachu has never been an indecisive person. Since he has made a decision in his heart, there is no need to procrastinate any longer.
She raised her head and looked seriously into Lu Huaiyan's eyes.
Just as she was about to say something, she saw Lu Huaiyan's eyes darken, as if he had guessed what she was thinking, and he spoke first.
"I know what you want to say, and I also know that our relationship has come to an end. I don't want to force you."
"I just feel that some things should be explained clearly to avoid leaving regrets for each other."
Lu Huaiyan took out all the letters he had hidden in the bottom of his box, handed them to Su Xiachu with both hands, and whispered:
"These are things I didn't have the chance to give you before I died in my previous life. I hope you can take a look at them."
He entrusted all the letters, along with the feelings that had been buried deep in his heart for many years, to Su Xiachu's hands.
After confirming that Su Xiachu did not feel any disgust or resistance because of this, he continued to explain in a low voice.
"I know it's a little too late for me to say these words now, but I really want to confess my feelings."
"I've never been one to make excuses, but over the years, I've had too many things that I couldn't help myself."
"Over the years, I have never thought of letting you down, even though not long after we got married, I received a mission and left home to go to the front line."
"But even when I go to the battlefield, I will carry your photo with me."
Lu Huaiyan reached into his pocket and took out the pocket watch he had always carried with him. He gently rubbed the pattern on it with his thumb before opening it.
Su Xiachu still had a smile on her face in the photo, but at this moment, both of them seemed to be in a trance.
The emotions in his heart continued to surge, and Lu Huaiyan's voice became a little hoarse.
"No matter what time it is, I always feel that being able to marry you home is really the greatest luck in my life."
"When I was on the battlefield, I regarded you as my spiritual support. I always thought that when the war was over and I could return to the army, I would definitely bring you with me so that we would not have to be separated anymore."
"But I didn't expect that man proposes, God disposes. I died in the war before I could go home, and I lost all contact with you on the front line."
"I am too conceited. I always want to tie you to my side when I have the chance, but I forget what an excellent person you are. With your own abilities, you can live a wonderful life."
"Although I still have feelings for you, I cannot affect your future because of my own selfishness."
Lu Huaiyan touched his pocket watch again, but all he could think about was the performance of Su Xiachu on stage that he had seen in the art troupe.
She is so dazzling under the light.
She was so dazzling that he even felt in his heart that he was not worthy of her.
But that last bit of obsession still drove Lu Huaiyan here.
There seemed to be nothing else to say. He didn't want to put too much pressure on Su Xiachu because of his own reasons.
Lu Huaiyan stopped talking, looked into Su Xiachu's eyes, and said softly:
"Whether you want to be with me again or not, the choice is yours."
"I hope that the final decision about the relationship between us will be made by you."
He didn't say much, but the look in his eyes made Su Xiachu feel a little upset.
This conversation ended without any answer.
Su Xiachu couldn't explain clearly what she was thinking in her heart, and whether she still had some lingering feelings for Lu Huaiyan.
But when she returned to her room, she couldn't help feeling a little dazed. She felt that the letters in her arms were heavy, as if they carried all the past between her and Lu Huaiyan.
After much hesitation, Su Xiachu finally took out all the letters one by one and read them carefully.
She felt that it was just as Lu Huaiyan said.
Regardless of whether the two of them want to get back together in the end, they should lay everything out and make things clear so as not to leave any regrets or misunderstandings.
The contents of these letters were exactly the same as in Su Xiachu's dream, with no difference at all.
All these letters were written by Lu Huaiyan during his rest time while fighting on the front lines.
The handwriting was hastily written, and there were even some blood stains in some places.
He must have put it there accidentally while in a hurry.
Looking at these letters, Su Xiachu seemed to be going to that moment of raging gunfire with Lu Huaiyan.
[It has been a long time since I left home. I don't know how you are doing at home alone. Have you suffered any injustice? I am sorry for you, for making you stay alone in an empty house soon after your wedding. When I have the chance, I will definitely make it up to you. ]
[It has been three days since we moved our base. The battle is finally no longer as intense as it was at the beginning. When I chat with my comrades during breaks and hear them talk about their wives, I always can't help thinking about you.
Xia Chu, how are you now? How are you doing at home? Do you secretly think of me when it's late at night? 】
[The battle is finally coming to an end. The leaders said that in less than a month, we will be able to end everything and return to the troops.
I told the division commander that the first thing I would do when I returned would be to bring you along as an army soldier, but he and his comrades laughed at me.
But so what, as long as I think about being able to live with you in the army, I am very happy. 】
[Actually, there is one thing I have never told you. During this period of time, I have been feeling very regretful for not being able to see my feelings clearly earlier.
From a long time ago, I no longer considered you as my sister, but because of my pride I was unwilling to admit it, which resulted in us missing out on so much time together. It's such a pity.
But fortunately, you didn't despise me for not being smart, and you came to my side and became my husband and wife. I swear, I will treat you well in the future and make up for all this doubly. 】
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