Then she pushed the boy to the ground, and she could eat anything in the garbage dump.
She stuffed the leftovers into her mouth frantically, and not far away, the man appeared again.
He walked slowly towards her, his clothes neat and gorgeous, as if spotless. Standing in front of her, he was as holy as a god, but he smiled at her: "Will you come with me?"
She thought that if she followed him, she would become the same person as him, clean and spotless, and only needed to have a cold and arrogant temperament and despise beggars.
She lived a happy life as she wished, with fine clothes and delicious food every day, learning music, chess, calligraphy and painting, and playing chess with him. Until she became a noble daughter with elegant manners and good conversation in the eyes of outsiders, everything changed.
In her eyes, the man was like a banished god. He often took her to various red-light districts and let her hide in the dark to watch the embarrassing scenes inside the bed curtains and listen to the blushing voices again and again.
She always wanted to crawl into the ground, with her cheeks red enough to bleed, but gradually she became indifferent and remained expressionless and apathetic.
After that, an even more terrifying nightmare came. Every day he would call different men, some short, some tall, some fat, some thin, some old, some young, some ugly, some handsome, to touch her and speak dirty words to her.
She had to keep her mind calm at every turn. During those long years, she thought her nightmare was over and she had survived it.
Who knew that an even more terrifying nightmare was coming.
She sat in front of him with great joy, with a table full of delicious food in front of her. In the room, there were only her and him. She thought he wanted to strengthen their relationship and not let her face those disgusting people again.
However, after drinking the wine, she felt dizzy and her body gradually became weak.
The god in her heart stood up and spoke to her, "Remember this feeling and this taste. After tonight, you will be a real woman, not just a pure girl. You can help me."
Her vision gradually blurred, and she couldn't see the expression on the man's face in front of her, but his voice was still cold.
At the door, a man walked in. She heard the god in her heart and told the man calmly and indifferently: "She is yours tonight."
Afterwards, her heart felt as if it were pierced by thousands of sharp blades, and she felt excruciating pain.
When she woke up, she saw a man sleeping beside her, and her body was bruised and battered, with severe pain all over her body. Although her memory of last night was vague, she still had some memory. Every feeling in her body reminded her of yesterday's shame...
She pulled out the hairpin from her bun and was about to stab herself, but the door was pushed open and someone walked in.
The man was still arrogant and indifferent, like a god. Looking at her, he actually saw her in such a miserable and dirty state.
"Kill him."
He thought he would open his mouth to comfort her, and she thought he would explain why he did that yesterday, but his words were so cold and heartless.
That was her first time killing someone. She did not hesitate and acted ruthlessly, almost as if she wanted to destroy the shame.
But her heart was also dead.
After that, she really left his side and started to manage the brothel. She became a charming mama-san. Many customers were attracted by her charming and seductive posture and patronized her again and again. However, she was a mama-san who never accepted customers...
Until a man appeared. He was so gentle. He was different from all the men who came to the brothel. His eyes were pure and there was no trace of desire in them.
And he is her target, the new prefect of Licheng. She becomes Ji Hengyuan's sharpest sword, helping him collect intelligence and keeping him informed to prevent him from being found out for privately manufacturing weapons and seizing the position of prefect.
But she found that she seemed to have fallen in love with that gentle man. In the eyes of others, he was cold and aloof, but in front of her, he was always as gentle as jade.
On the night her identity was revealed, Ji Hengyuan killed her in front of her. The only light that had shone into her heart for many years disappeared.
From then on, she felt that she would never fall in love with anyone again, nor would she be attracted to any man again.
Until, the man who looked like him appeared. However, Jing Yuchen had an evil and aloof temperament. When he looked at her, there was never a trace of tenderness. She knew that he did not like her.
But she still took a step that she despised...
Looking back on my life, I feel so ashamed that I will never be a human again in my next life!
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