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Lin Shuran was once an ordinary human male.
He studied at a not-so-famous undergraduate college on Earth and had two campus romances that ended in failure with holding hands. After graduation, he joined a pretty good high-tech enterprise and after three months of internship, he was successfully promoted to an urban white-collar worker. After that, he began to endure his parents' desperate pressure to get married in his monotonous life of moving bricks.
Everything was so ordinary and went according to plan.
Until he died in a car accident.
When I opened my eyes again, everything had changed.
When others travel through time, they at least cross eras, but he, on the other hand, even changed species.
In his opinion, this race called Zerg has many similarities with humans - especially in appearance. Fortunately, they are not real insects in the human concept. Lin Shuran dare not imagine what he would feel if he opened his eyes and saw himself turned into a big cockroach.
However, there are many differences, such as the disparity in the ratio of males to females. This is a society where males are superior to females, which makes Lin Shuran, who has become a male insect, secretly happy and uncomfortable. He is secretly happy that he doesn't have to worry about his livelihood. It seems that the living conditions after crossing are good, which is the best news. What he is not used to is the meticulous and high-handed attitude of the public here towards male insects, which makes Lin Shuran, as an ordinary person, extremely uncomfortable.
Especially after receiving the original owner's memories and coming into contact with the concepts that "male insects are born noble", "female insects should support me", and "marry more female insects to live a luxurious life", Lin Shuran couldn't help but feel disgusted and completely disagreed with the male insects' distorted consciousness and ideas.
In his opinion, male insects are like giant babies who have been spoiled by society, do not know what respect is, and have some problems with their world outlook, values and values.
In comparison, the female insects seem a little pitiful.
As the majority of people in the society, they may never have the chance to find love in their lifetime. Even if they are extremely outstanding, they are still willing to endure the dictatorship of male insects, be extremely humble and compromise in relationships.
Lin Shuran felt sad for such female insects.
Inevitably, he revealed his attitude, and received unreasonable, malicious looks and some difficulties from the male insects around him, but Lin Shuran didn't care. Male insects are like this, aren't they? They make things difficult for each other, compare with each other, and ridicule each other. They are always self-centered and always think that the whole world should accommodate themselves.
Therefore, Lin Shuran didn’t care how the male insects viewed her or hated her. They were not of the same kind and would never be of the same kind.
Only one male surprised him.
Vanlan.
The famous campus beauty of Capital College, possessing a flawless appearance and powerful charm. As for the latter, before meeting this insect, Lin Shuran had held an exaggerated and rumored view of her, thinking that she was probably an extremely handsome male insect with the beauty of a big star. As for charm and so on... To be honest, based on his contact and understanding of male insects after traveling through time, it was really difficult for him to appreciate the so-called charm of male insects.
However, after seeing Fanlan in person for the first time, this perception was successfully overturned.
That was indeed a very attractive male insect.
Lin Shuran remembered that he was standing by the classroom window, curiously looking at the "school belle" surrounded by insects. When their eyes met, the other party seemed to smile politely, or it seemed that there was just a natural smile on the corners of her lips, and then she looked away. However, Lin Shuran was actually stunned for a few seconds, because in this ordinary second of eye contact, the other party had neither malice nor interest.
The first time he looked into the eyes of a male homosexual, he did not feel offended by the "sizing" or "pickiness" he felt.
It was also the first time that after looking into the eyes of a male homosexual, I failed to leave any trace in his eyes.
No comparison, no vigilance, and no care.
It was as if he was just a flower or a blade of grass on the windowsill.
Rather than what is seen in today's world of insects: a precious, handsome, courteous and charming male insect.
Lin Shuran was sure that there was not a trace of contempt in the other party's eyes.
But at this moment he inexplicably felt a kind of... inferiority complex of a mediocre person. This inferiority complex suddenly made him wake up from the flattery of female insects for many days, and realized that he was not a precious and special male insect - look, a truly charming insect should be like that, and I, I am just an ordinary human being.
As time went by, he gradually adapted to life in the Zerg, and learned how to reject the advances of female Zergs and ignore the provocations of male Zergs. He also had to go on several social dates to fulfill his obligations. As an older youth on Earth who had a hard time dealing with his parents' urging to get married, he now had to face the invisible pressure of the entire society to get married. Lin Shuran felt tired.
Just when he thought he would be single forever by dating on the water, the Alonso case emerged.
In Lin Shuran's opinion, it was an extremely outrageous case that a major general with great military achievements was facing dismissal and detention due to a false accusation of injuring a male insect.
Therefore, when Lin Shuran saw the male insect arrogantly mocking Alonso and saying, "Why are you still insisting on doing so at this time? Are you dreaming that a kind-hearted male insect will fall from the sky and take you in when you are about to become a prisoner, and grant you a reprieve through marriage?", he stood up, looked at the surprised male insect, and expressed his willingness to marry Alonso.
Alonso was obviously surprised as well. He looked up at Lin Shuran with an expressionless face - this male insect who suddenly appeared like a savior in a storybook, and whom he didn't even know.
In this way, Lin Shuran and Alonso reached a marriage contract.
Lin Shuran did not expect, or rather, did not really want Alonso to fulfill any substantive marriage. His choice was just that as a human who believed he had a normal sense of morality, he could not stand the current impulsive behavior. Anyway, he would probably not have someone he liked in this life, oh no, insect, so it was not a bad idea to use the title of female monarch, which was meaningless to him, to save a "hero" who had suffered injustice and deserved glory.
However, Alonso was far better than he imagined.
He took care of everything in Lin Shuran's life, but was not overly strong. Once he noticed that Lin Shuran was uncomfortable, he would apologize and adjust, so that Lin Shuran began to feel that her refusal might hurt the other party. Alonso's silence easily gave people the feeling of silent giving without asking for anything in return, which made Lin Shuran gradually embarrassed to show the sense of distance that two adult "males" should have. He restrained his embarrassed instinct and tried not to reject Alonso's intimate actions - such as helping him wipe his hands or put on clothes, etc. Naturally, under this increasingly close and caring relationship, Lin Shuran gradually felt the long-lost warmth. This was the first completely positive and beautiful feeling he finally received since he came to this strange and different world, and it even made him feel vaguely that he seemed to really have a "home".
Subconsciously, he had begun to truly regard Alonso as his female lord, or husband, that is...partner.
Such days were peaceful and warm, and everything seemed to be on the right track. Lin Shuran began to like this world a little. After all, Alonso, his legal family member, was born here.
The first time I felt a sense of disharmony was when I learned that Alonso had once liked Vanlan.
At that moment, Lin Shuran's mind was blank. He couldn't tell whether he was jealous and sad or just surprised. He asked Alonso, "Have you ever pursued Fanlan?" Alonso admitted it very frankly, so frankly that he was a little confused. He thought he might see the queen's concealed or uneasy look, but no. Alonso just said, "Yes, I have pursued Lord Fanlan."
So Lin Shuran suppressed her emotions and continued, "I don't know. If you still like him, you can... I will give you freedom."
Alonso, on the other hand, seemed even more confused than him. He was a female insect who seldom showed emotions on her face. The fact that one could see his confusion from his expression only showed that he was indeed quite confused.
In the end, Lin Shuran took this pure doubt as a denial of the question "Do you still like Fanlan?" and barely calmed himself down and moved on.
The second time he felt a sense of disharmony was when Alonso placed dozens of pages of lists of female insects in front of him and asked him to choose the one he liked.
Unlike what Lin Shuran had imagined, the bitterness and tolerance of the female monarch when facing the male master marrying a female servant, Alonso's demeanor was so calm and normal, so normal that Lin Shuran wondered if it was just a ridiculous fantasy that Alonso was sad because of his unfamiliarity with contact.
Lin Shuran seemed to hear the sound of something shattering, perhaps something in his mind, or perhaps something in his chest.
He opened his mouth and asked Alonso: "You want me to choose a female servant?"
Alonso corrected, "Yes, some." Perhaps because he looked unhappy, the major general said, "You don't like any of these? Then please wait for two days. I will prepare another alternative."
"No, no thanks."
Lin Shuran turned around and left in a hurry. He did not go home that night, nor did he answer the call from Alonso.
A few days later, he met Fanlan, a male insect who gave him a complicated impression. Perhaps he should be called a love rival. However, he got a suggestion from this "love rival" who was not annoying at all, which was to exercise command.
Lin Shuran really tried it.
When Alonso handed over the list of female servants for the second time, Lin Shuran held back and finally said directly: "I don't want to marry a female servant, don't give me these anymore."
Alonso, the always silent and reliable queen, did not show obvious doubts this time. He just frowned slightly, but after a few seconds he replied, "Okay, I understand."
At this point, Lin Shuran's warm family life was almost falling apart.
He began to recall, trying to figure out why things had turned out this way.
He thought everything was fine between him and Alonso, he was his partner across the world, his home, his harbor.
Now he is horrified to discover that perhaps he knows nothing about his "lover".
He knew that Alonso was very good to him, but he was so confused that he never really thought about why he was so good to him.
Just indulge in this goodness day by day.
I think I have performed a beautiful love story of love that grows over time.
But does Alonso like him? Is it because he has a sense of responsibility? Or is it because of his nature to face his lord?
Lin Shuran wanted to convince herself, yes, he must like me more, and I might just be thinking too much - but is there true love without the desire for exclusivity?
Is it possible to love someone but be willing to share your love with others?
Loving someone.
......
Yes, loving someone...
I love him as a person.
But what exactly is he?
On this nameless night, Lin Shuran stared blankly at the female monarch in front of him who had a worried look on her face.
But I felt that familiar face was extremely strange.
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