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When Fanlan saw the male insect Lin Shuran again, he was daydreaming by a scenic lake on campus.
He remembered what Nuolan Yang had said at the party two days ago, and couldn't help but look at him twice more. The black-haired male insect seemed to sense something and suddenly turned his head, unexpectedly meeting Fanlan's eyes.
"Good morning." Fanlan smiled and greeted.
Lin Shuran was stunned for a long time before coming back to his senses. He responded with an uneasy expression: "You... um, good morning."
"Are you okay?" Fanlan looked at the dark circles under the other person's eyes and his pale and weak face, and greeted him out of insectism.
"..." Lin Shuran didn't know how to answer. In fact, he had very complicated feelings when facing Fanlan. First, Fanlan gave him a very difficult impression, and he was too... superior. He was not good at dealing with such a bug. Second, he thought that the other party might be the one Alonso really loved. As a lord, it would be a lie for Lin Shuran to say that he didn't care at all.
The reason why I say high and mighty does not mean that Fanlan gave him the impression of being arrogant or contemptuous, but... it's like if you accidentally met a big star on Earth who always appears on TV and is the center of attention, even if the other person has a friendly personality and an amiable attitude, it would be difficult for ordinary people to dare to approach and talk to him/her freely at the first time, right?
He was silent for a while, then said, "I'm fine." Fanlan nodded and turned aside to leave.
"Wait a minute!" Lin Shuran called him.
Fanlan turned around.
"You... I want to ask you, what do you think of Alonso? You should know him..." Lin Shuran asked anyway. Perhaps he had too many thoughts surging in his heart and he had been holding them back for too long, and there was almost no one he could confide in or talk to, so at this moment he actually asked Fanlan this somewhat sudden question.
"Alonso? I know him." Fanlan thought for a moment and dug out the somewhat blurry image of the officer from his memory. He was tall, with short hair and a high nose bridge. He gave the impression of being capable and direct. He once said to Fanlan, "When I get the rank of major, I will propose to you." Fanlan felt uneasy at the time. He saw Eliwash, who was a few steps away, give Alonso a cold look and couldn't help sighing in his heart.
The next time I heard about Alonso, it was about the male insect injury case and his acquittal through his engagement with a male insect named Lin.
This is all the impression Vanlan has left of Alonso.
He answered truthfully: "I don't know him well enough to make an assessment, but I think he is a reliable bug."
"Is he reliable..." Lin Shuran murmured, and smiled bitterly, "Yes, very reliable. I have never met anyone as reliable as him...worm."
She was reliable enough to help him arrange all the female servants one by one, and even gave him puzzled looks when he was shocked and objected.
He had never felt how deep the gulf between him and Alonso was. He thought everything was on the right track since they got married. He gradually got used to the new life and the new world. Even though the rules of this world were so contrary to common sense, he finally had his own family and... a partner.
Now Alonso tells him with reality: you are wrong.
It's all just your wishful thinking.
"What about you?" Fanlan asked, "What kind of insect is Alonso in your eyes?"
"In my eyes?" Lin Shuran's answer reflexively emerged in his mind. First of all, reliable. Yes, Fan Lan was right. Alonso was reliable. This can be easily concluded from his temperament and style of words and deeds. He is calm yet meticulous, honest, self-disciplined, handsome, considerate and thoughtful to his partner, and...what else?
Lin Shuran was shocked.
what else?
Seeing his expression, Fanlan did not ask further questions. She considerately withdrew her gaze and only looked at the sparkling lake not far away. She continued to talk as if chatting about the weather: "Sometimes, we seem to be very good at pursuing...ah, should I say demanding - demanding mutual understanding when we don't understand each other at all."
"You should understand my feelings. You are really hard for me to understand..."
"And the word 'understanding' is not easy to come by."
"Different biological individuals, different growth environments, different perspectives, different...concepts are shaped."
"It is difficult to just know, let alone understand."
"......" Lin Shuran remained silent.
He suddenly realized and had to admit that he did not understand his queen.
He regarded Alonso as a destiny from another world, a new harbor, an object for him to invest his emotions and spiritual sustenance, and he expected and took it for granted that Alonso, as his "lover", would give him the feedback he wanted.
When he didn't get the response he "should" have received, he broke down.
But he didn't even know what Alonso really thought about this relationship. Alonso married him, yes, but how did Alonso see him? When did he start to like him or did he really like him? What kind of concept did Alonso have about relationships, how did he view love and family, in what environment did he grow up to become the reliable person he is today, what ambitions did he want to achieve, what did a lord mean to him, was military merit to him the glory he desired or the procedure of work... He didn't know, he didn't know any of this.
He understood Alonso's silence and reliability, but he clearly did not understand what Alonso was thinking behind his silence.
He didn't even think about it.
Just as he never spontaneously wanted to understand the world, but just lived passively.
Fanlan understood his silence.
Lin Shuran is very easy to understand in Fanlan's eyes.
A reserved and stubborn human being.
In Fanlan's opinion, it's not necessarily that Alonso doesn't like Lin Shuran enough, but that the two of them are standing on the wrong tracks.
The marriage system of the Zerg is very different from that of human society. This is far more than just reflected in the superficial quantitative relationship of one male and multiple females. Don't simply equate it with the ancient human polygamy, because even under the ancient polygamous system, as long as there is enough love and affection, then naturally the achievement of being together for a lifetime can be achieved. So it is easy to draw a conclusion - not insisting on monogamy only means that there is not enough love.
I'm afraid this is Lin Shuran's natural train of thought.
However, the Zerg is a society with a very lopsided gender ratio.
Such a disparity means that they do not have many opportunities for emotional development. Modern humans regard marriage as a comedic outcome of love, but for the general female insect population, marriage is essentially a business model.
A group relationship centered on male insects that establishes a reproductive structure and can develop stably.
The reason why the Zerg can still maintain stability despite such a huge gender gap is not simply relying on one male and one female or one male and two females forming a small family to continue their offspring. What they rely on is to ensure that they have a male insect, that is, the "right to breed", and then with the female monarch as the helmsman, they establish a family network surrounded by several female servants, so that a stable family is formed. The female servants with marriage contracts are like diligent worker ants. While they develop themselves, they support their common family. At the same time, they will exchange resources and facilitate each other, and finally give their male insects the best material conditions within the total ability of the male insects.
Unless the female monarch gives birth to more than one "legitimate son", the so-called struggle for power and profit between legitimate and illegitimate children in the next generation often does not exist. The more offspring the female servant has, the better, because they are all nutrients for the family and represent an increase in the family's labor force.
The phenomenon of legitimate sons fighting for power is only limited to certain wealthy families and is not common in the general public.
So, suppose you are a young female who has just entered the society and is quite capable. You enter a company and are appreciated by your boss. You will most likely unlock a scenario where one day your boss calls you to the office alone, opens his arms and says to you - do you want to join my family?
The female monarch, the female monarch, does not only represent the husband, but also represents the actual monarch of a family clan.
They need to take overall control of the development direction of the entire family. Of course, the premise of this monarch position is that the male insects are indifferent and have no ambition.
This is the normal state of most male insects, but if they meet a male insect with a strong sense of autonomy and sufficient ability and skills - a representative insect like Narcissus, then he will be able to develop the most closely connected and loyal network with himself as the center. This is why Narcissus, who has half separated from the Roya family, is still unshakable, and why the young secretary-general can still stroll leisurely surrounded by political enemies.
He holds his kingdom firmly in control with charm and means.
And he never stopped nourishing it. In his hands, power was like a rolling snowball, constantly devouring, devouring, and growing stronger...
Looking back at Lin Shuran, the conflict between him and Alonso is clear at a glance.
Alonso was certain and positive that he did not associate the matter of female servants with any emotional attitudes such as "affection" or "liking".
And no matter how hard you try, you probably wouldn't be able to imagine that there is actually a relationship between the two - if Lin Shuran didn't say anything.
Looking at the still gloomy Lin Shuran, Fan Lan sighed.
"Try giving commands." Fanlan simply threw out a simple and efficient method. After all, it seems that one cannot expect a stone-type and an introverted type to both open their mouths and quickly achieve effective communication.
"What?" Lin Shuran was a little confused.
"If you like him and don't understand his behavior, then just order him according to what you want and need."
"He will satisfy you."
If Alonso really developed feelings for Lin Shuran in addition to the consciousness of completing reproduction.
"This..." Lin Shuran felt that something was wrong, but he also felt that Fanlan seemed to be speaking very reasonably, especially when he pointed out that he did not know Alonso, so he did not know whether he should listen to Fanlan's suggestion which he had never thought of.
"Think 'commands' sounds disrespectful?"
“A little.”
Fan Lan raised her eyebrows slightly, then smiled faintly. That smile was like the wind blowing by the lake, but in Lin Shuran's eyes it had a mysterious and profound meaning.
"That's because you don't know enough about female insects."
He heard the blond male say this.
"Go ahead and give it a try."
"One day you'll understand."
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