It's unclear whether she listened or not, but after Hongli said those words, she finally calmed down a bit and stopped talking nonsense. However, she was still not fully awake and continued to sleep.
Hongli was worried that if she kept sleeping like this, it would worsen her condition, but the doctor said it was fine, saying that the medicinal soup he had prepared had a sleep-inducing effect, and that if the patient slept soundly, she could conserve her energy and recover faster.
Only then did he feel a little relieved and continued to lie with her, waiting for her to wake up.
Looking at her sleeping face, Hongli was filled with mixed emotions:
Even though she got along so well with him, now she's so afraid of him, started to be wary of him, and started to pretend in front of him. But she's not good at acting and not good at pretending, yet she still tries her best to act nonchalant.
He always felt innocent, believing that he had reasons and difficulties for everything he did, hoping to gain her understanding. However, she couldn't accept it deep down, yet she didn't want to argue with him, which is why she kept putting pressure on herself.
He promised to pamper her and protect her, but now he's driven her to this state! What on earth is he doing?
With a sigh, Hongli fell into deep thought.
In a daze, I heard a noise beside me, and when I looked down, I saw the person in my arms slowly opening their eyes.
Su Yushan, who was just regaining consciousness, was a little confused. She stared at him with a puzzled look for a while, and even raised her finger to gently poke the back of his hand.
Upon seeing this, Hongli, who had been feeling sad, suddenly wanted to laugh. "It's not a dream, it's me, I'm here."
Candles were lit inside, but it was pitch black outside. Only the warmth of the blankets wafted through the room. For a moment, she couldn't understand what was going on. She parted her thin lips slightly and murmured, "How did you get here?"
She asked this because she had also heard the nanny mention the rule that a prince must stay in his wife's room for the three days leading up to his wedding. It was already night, and Hongli was still here, which was against the rules.
There was no expectation in her eyes, and she seemed unsurprised by his presence. "Your fever persists, and you remain unconscious. How can I leave?"
She had indeed been feeling very unwell, experiencing alternating chills and fever, which had been quite agonizing, but she was feeling better now. Recalling what had happened during the day, her gaze dimmed, and she subtly took a step back, keeping her distance from him.
"I'm awake now, and I'm fine. Thank you for your concern, Fourth Master."
"You're being polite again."
She avoided responding, only reminding him, "Fourth Master should go to Lanzhao Courtyard."
Here we go again! First it was Li Yu, and now it's Yu Shan. Being reminded one after another, Hongli was slightly annoyed. "You're all reminding me where to go, but has anyone considered my feelings?"
His accusation was truly ridiculous. "These are the rules of your royal family. You told me to follow the rules, but now you're taking it out on me. What do you think I should do? Stop you from leaving? What good would it do? You'd still go anyway, so why should I humiliate myself?"
Realizing he had lost his temper, Hongli softened his tone and sighed, "I didn't yell at you. I just hate myself for not being able to do what I wanted. Why did I have to do things against my will just because of the rules?"
Gazing at the wisps of smoke rising from the bronze incense burner on the table outside the tent, Su Yushan's eyes were unfocused. "Because you are a prince, having enjoyed power, you should bear the responsibility."
So she understood these principles. "So, knowing I was forced, why won't you forgive me?" A deadlock seemed to have formed between them. Hongli desperately wanted to break the silence, but didn't know how.
"Yushan, tell me, what do you want? What do you want us to do to go back to the way things were before?"
Some grudges, once taken root, are hard to eradicate. A bitter feeling welled up inside her, and Su Yushan clutched her chest, closing her eyes and sobbing, "There's no going back! When you were devoted to me, I could be devoted to you too. But once you had another woman, you weren't worth my love anymore. I'm too tired, I don't want to love you anymore..."
Upon hearing this, Hongli was greatly shocked and immediately retorted, "You said you liked me, so you'll like me for a lifetime. How can you just give up like that? I won't allow it!"
I have done everything in my power to give you the utmost love. Tonight I should have stayed at Lanzhao Courtyard, but because you are ill, I broke the rules and stayed to keep you company. Yushan, everyone has a heart; how can you be so oblivious to how I have treated you?
Yes! From his perspective, this was already the best treatment, but she was too greedy! "Do you know what it means to be greedy and take an inch? That's how I am. In my opinion, only when we belong to each other, body and soul, can we be the only ones who can do without each other."
You must think I'm ridiculous, that I'm being unreasonable, right? In fact, I also think it's going too far to talk to a prince like this, so I don't want to argue anymore. This is your territory, I'm in the wrong, please let me have some peace and quiet, and I'll try to convince myself.”
Seeing her holding her forehead, her brows furrowed, as if she had a headache, Hongli didn't press the matter further. He said softly, "Alright! I won't force you. Hate me if you want! But you can't take your heart back. You're mine, and your heart must be with me too!"
If she didn't take it back, was she supposed to leave it for him to continue suffering? No! She didn't want to cry for this man anymore; he really didn't deserve it!
"I'm just saying I no longer like you, but I will still remember that I am your maid. I will listen to you and do whatever you ask me to do. I will not disobey you. Please rest assured, Fourth Master."
When she said these words, her eyes were unusually vacant, like a fish out of water, having lost her will and left to be slaughtered. This was the last thing he wanted to see.
"Do you think I just want an obedient person? I want the real you, the complete you! Not a puppet!"
As you said, everyone has their own thoughts. You have your views, and I have my rules. But I like you, and I will carefully consider every word you say. I'm willing to try to change for you. So, what about you? Are you willing to change your attitude towards relationships for me?
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