His embrace was so familiar, yet she couldn't lean against it with the same ease as before; her body was noticeably stiff. "If the Princess Consort comes looking for me again, what should I say?"
"This situation will never happen again. Trust me, I can handle everything."
If he doesn't let her interfere, then she'll temporarily let go and see how he handles it.
Being held while pregnant was uncomfortable for her; her back and waist ached terribly. Seeing that she seemed unaccustomed to it, Hongli immediately let go of her. After hesitating for a long while, he finally mustered up the courage to ask a question.
"What have you thought about that matter?"
Startled by the sudden question, Su Yushan asked, "What is it?"
He and Su Yushan had been getting along fairly well lately, so much so that he dared not bring up that matter again, fearing that it would cause another unpleasant argument. However, he always felt that this harmony was just an illusion, so he kept thinking about it and wanted to get to the bottom of it.
"The thing I brought up with you a few days ago, are you... willing to start over with me?"
So that's what it was about! He asked her to consider it, and she did consider it seriously. She wasn't being stubborn; she was genuinely thinking about it.
She kept thinking about whether she should give up everything and try to start over with him, but there was a knot in her heart that she couldn't untie.
If she loves him wholeheartedly again as before, what will happen after Kim Min-jung gives birth? Will he still be pressured into bringing them back?
Or what if he accidentally sleeps with someone else? Should she mind, or pretend she doesn't care?
If you don't let your heart be moved, you won't suffer. But once you do, while enjoying the sweetness, you also have to bear the risk of your true feelings being crushed once again.
Rather than this entanglement, it's better to maintain a simple and peaceful relationship, making no promises, always leaving herself a way out, avoiding arguments, and not placing too much hope in him. That way, no matter what happens in the future, she won't be too disappointed.
“You don’t want to hear lies, and I don’t want to lie to you. I can’t start over with you without any resentment right now. After all, I still have my memories, unless you can make me forget them.”
Amnesia? Erasing everything? Hongli couldn't accept that. "Though past memories are painful, they are also sweet. They contain the story of how we met and got to know each other. How could I bear to let you forget those beautiful memories?"
Yes! It's a paradox in itself. "Beauty and scars can coexist. It's impossible to cut off only one side. Those old things still hurt when I think about them now, so I don't want to deceive myself."
For Hongli, the fact that she was willing to open up to him about these things was the greatest comfort.
"You've only been back for less than a month, and some misunderstandings have arisen between us. Although we've resolved them, it's not easy for you to completely let go of past unpleasantness in such a short time. It's alright, I can wait, three months, even half a year, I can wait. But there's one condition: things like this must not happen again."
From now on, no matter who causes you trouble, you must tell me immediately. Apart from the fact that Ms. Kim became pregnant unexpectedly and I was unable to get rid of her as you wished, I can handle everything else for you.
You don't have to love me as much, but please believe me, I'm your man, and these are things I should do. Just leave them to me; don't bear it all alone, making yourself suffer and hurting me in the process.
It's too tiring to carry it all alone, and it might even upset him. Why bother?
Having learned her lesson, Su Yushan stopped dwelling on the issue, nodded, and softly replied, "Okay, I'll remember."
Remembering his ambiguous words earlier, she didn't understand and subconsciously asked, "So, did you go last night or... didn't you go?"
Her voice was soft, yet so clear to his ears. Hongli felt as sweet as honey, and the corners of his lips unconsciously turned up. "Didn't you say you didn't mind? You're even concerned about whether I've slept with other people?"
Realizing that her words might be inappropriate, Su Yushan looked slightly embarrassed and immediately clarified, "I just... wanted to know if I had completed the task that the Fujin had assigned me."
"Why is your little mouth so stubborn? Why won't you tell me what's on your mind?" Hongli was helpless with her, so he simply leaned down and kissed her lips, punishing her severely!
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