Chapter 193 There is a hole in my heart
But the truth lay before his eyes without any warning and in a bloody manner.
Shen Yin, who was only seven years old this year, was completely frightened and stood there in a daze. The colors and smells that he thought were hallucinations caused by extreme hunger in his confused memories suddenly flooded over his head and covered his entire body.
Shen Yin was stunned with fear.
Wang Chunniang was also paralyzed with fear.
He was paralyzed by what Shen Jin said, and also by the sight of so many people rushing into the valley.
Lu Dalang was trembling all over. He stared at Wang Chunniang. If looks could kill, he would have skinned Wang Chunniang alive.
Mrs. Chen and Mrs. Xu reacted the fastest. One went to pull Shen Yin and the other went to pull Shen Jin, and they coaxed them to take them outside.
Old Man Lu and Mrs. Lu's ears were buzzing until they saw Old Lady Xu half-supporting and half-helping the crying Shen Jin to go out. They wanted to say something to Shen Jin, but they couldn't say anything.
They were older and had experienced the chaotic world, so they understood what Shen Jin was enduring behind the questions he asked during his breakdown.
No, without actually experiencing what others have gone through, who can truly fully empathize with them?
Thinking of the way the three brothers looked when they first entered the valley, the old couple of the Lu family were speechless. When Shen Jin had been helped out of the cave, Mrs. Lu looked at the slightly younger Wei Qinghe and said, "Qinghe, please go to the entrance and tell Zhou Cunzheng to call back Shen Lie, A Luo, Da Shan, and my Erlang and Sanlang tonight."
As soon as these words came out, Lu Dalang's legs went weak and he almost collapsed.
His lips trembled: "Mother? Mother!"
Mrs. Lu didn't look at him, but only at Shuanzhu, Da Niu and his sister, as well as Tiezhu and Huzi who came running over after hearing the news.
Five children, Mrs. Lu really wanted to cry at this time. But no matter how desperate she was, she dared not be soft-hearted. For the sake of these five children, she had already indulged them twice.
Mrs. Lu was completely exhausted. She reached back and touched the bedpost. She sat down next to it so that she could lean her body against it. Then she looked at her five grandchildren, and after a while she set her gaze on the face of the eldest, Shuanzhu.
"Shuanzhu, you saw what happened today. I gave your mother many opportunities."
"It's not that she doesn't know how to be grateful, but she hates her benefactors as enemies. She feels that everyone in our valley treats her badly and is unworthy of her."
Mrs. Lu didn't hear what Wang Chunniang said earlier, but she heard almost all of Shen Jin's important words. The child was out of control and her voice was not low.
All the words I heard, combined with the sentence "My elder brother and sister-in-law saved us and also rescued us from our hatred", it is not difficult to imagine.
Lu Shuanzhu had already realized something, tears began to fall, and he quickly wiped them with his hands.
Hu Zi was a little bit stupid. Seeing the expressions of his family members, he subconsciously felt a little scared. He pulled Lu Da Niu and asked in a low voice: "Sister, what did mother do?"
Lu Danniu didn't dare to say anything and just sobbed quietly.
Wei Qinghe looked at the scene and thought about what he had just heard. He decided not to stay any longer, so he nodded and said ok to Mrs. Lu, then left in a hurry. Seeing this, other people in the valley also gave some advice and left.
As soon as Lu Dalang saw Wei Qinghe leave, he knew that the matter was probably a foregone conclusion. His knees bent and his whole body went limp. He barely managed to stand steady by holding onto the bedpost.
At this moment, there was only one thought in his mind: he was implicated to death by Wang Chunniang, and he would be thrown out to fend for himself, that would definitely happen.
My teeth started to chatter.
This fear is much deeper than the previous two times.
The first time the accident happened he was only afraid that his parents would blame him. The second time, he had seen the dangers in the mountains and realized the chaos outside. He was afraid of being thrown out of Yun Valley. But at that time, he reacted quickly enough, and for the sake of the children, his mother would not do that.
This time, Lu Dalang's fear came from his understanding of his parents.
Now he knew what it meant to be terrified.
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On the other side, Chen An, Chen Ning and Shen Tie, who were assigned to work a little further away, saw something wrong and ran over, only to see Shen Jin and Shen Yin crying their hearts out. Chen Tie, who knew nothing, was also frightened, and ran to Shen Jin to ask what was wrong, but when he didn't get an answer, he ran to Shen Yin to ask.
In the end, no one told him.
Wei Lingzhen didn't dare to let the youngest know, so she pulled him back and coaxed him, "It's okay, your brothers are fine, they just had a few words, it will be fine soon."
Even Chen Tie couldn't be appeased by these words, let alone Chen An?
Chen An frowned, turned around and looked at the Lu family where the crowd had gathered. He didn't ask any more questions, asked Chen Ning to look after Xiao Jin and the other two, and turned around and ran towards the Lu family cave. Qin Fangniang, who was standing beside him, didn't even try to stop him.
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The atmosphere in the Lu family was obviously not right. Shen An looked around at everyone's expressions and then fixed his gaze on the pale-looking faces of Lu Dalang and Wang Chunniang, and finally fixed his gaze on Wang Chunniang's face.
Whether it was the old couple of the Lu family or Lu Dalang, they were all considered elders. Shen An looked at Lu Shuanzhu's face and said, "Shuanzhu, what's going on with Xiaojin and Xiaoyin? What happened?"
Lu Shuanzhu's throat was still choked and he couldn't answer at all.
Old Man Lu looked at Shen An and had to take the initiative to speak: "Xiao An, don't ask about this for now, go back and take care of Xiao Jin and Xiao Yin first. Your Grandma Lu has asked your Uncle Qinghe to tell Zhou Cunzheng that she will go out at night to invite your eldest brother and sister-in-law back. Your Second Uncle Lu and Third Uncle Lu will also come back and give your family an explanation."
explain?
That's no small matter.
Shen An looked at Wang Chunniang steadily, and did not make things difficult for the two elders of the Lu family. After all, he would always know when his eldest brother and sister-in-law came back. He nodded and said okay, turned around and ran back quickly, not even bothering to walk, and went straight through the half-harvested field.
When they returned home, Shen Jin and Shen Yin had already gone up to the small cave above. The two brothers looked very bad. Shen Tie had no idea what was going on, but seeing his two brothers like this, he started crying too.
It would be late to harvest the crops, so they couldn't afford to delay the farm work. After sending the people back, Qin Fangniang and the others went back to the fields, but they temporarily avoided the area next to Lu's house to leave space for the Lu family to deal with their affairs, and went to cut the rice on the other side first.
At this moment, Shen Jin was living in the cave, with Xu Wenbo and Xu Wenyin accompanying him.
Shen An didn't dare to ask more questions. He turned around and found Mrs. Chen in her kitchen, making a fire and cooking something with Shen Ning.
"Grandma Chen, what happened? Did Hu Zi's mother do something?"
Granny Chen sighed. She was convinced that someone could still cause trouble even though he was already locked up. She did not deny it and only whispered, "I didn't hear what happened before. He probably said some mean words. Xiao Jin is in trouble now. Xiao Yin must be scared too. Remember not to ask. I asked Aning to make a prescription for calming the nerves from your family's medicine. You can bring it over and watch them drink it."
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By the time the medicine was ready, Shen Jin had obviously recovered a little, at least not as scary as he was at the beginning. His eyes were just red and swollen. He even sent the Xu brothers and sisters away to work in the fields.
When Shen An and Shen Ning brought the medicine, Shen Jin looked at the two bowls of hot medicine in front of him, and his eyes became moist again. His throat was a little choked, and after a while he said: "I'm fine, I just need to take it easy, you guys go to the fields first."
There is not much sunlight in the valley, and if the weather is not good, the rice may not be dried.
Seeing that he was indeed fine, Shen An told him and Shen Yin to drink the tranquilizer, and then he took Shen Ning away in three steps.
Looking at the two bowls of steaming medicine on the table, Shen Jin's fingertips trembled, and he dared not touch them. After a long time, he pushed one of the bowls to Shen Yin: "It's for calming the nerves, drink it, we can't afford to get sick, don't cause trouble for big brother's family."
Shen Yin's lips were still trembling. He wanted to ask about Tian Ya, but he looked at Shen Tie beside him and didn't dare to ask a single question. He wiped his tears, picked up the bowl and started to drink the medicine. After a few sips, he saw Shen Jin still sitting there in a daze, and then Shen Yin said, "Third brother, why don't you drink?"
The question "Why don't you drink?" somehow touched Shen Jin's heart. His nose twitched uncontrollably, his eyebrows and eyes were squeezed together, and two strings of tears slid down again. He wiped them with his hand and said vaguely, "Drink yours."
Shen Yin thought that he couldn't drink it for the time being, so he pushed Shen Jin's bowl of medicine towards him and said, "Brother, don't get sick."
Shen Jin heard fear in Shen Yin's tone when he said "Don't get sick". Shen Jin's hands trembled, and he finally reached for the bowl, picked it up with shaking hands, and before he could even take his medicine, tears fell into the brown medicine. He stared at it for a while, then raised his head while holding the bowl and swallowed the medicine mixed with tears in big gulps.
Swallowing and crying.
Chen Tie watched from the side, then turned around and took out two pieces of hawthorn preserves and two pieces of banana slices from the shelf.
That was given by Sang Luo. Because of what happened in the county, Chen Tie was always afraid of having nothing to eat, and he couldn't change his habit of being in a hurry to eat. After Shen Jin and Shen Yin tasted a few pieces, they kept the food for the youngest Chen Tie, telling him to eat slowly.
Chen Tie took out the things and handed one to Shen Jin and Shen Yin: "Brother, don't cry. If the medicine is bitter, eat something sweet."
Little did she know that when Shen Jin looked at the hawthorn preserves and banana slices, her tears fell even more violently.
The empty medicine bowl in his hand was taken away by Shen Tie, and the two small pieces of food were stuffed in. Shen Jin stared at the palm of his hand for a long time, but he just looked at it and finally held it. He had eaten a lot of food in the past, but now he never dared to put it into his mouth.
Chen Tie was puzzled, called him brother, and asked again: "Why are you crying? You still need to take medicine, don't you take medicine when you are seriously ill?"
Is it a serious illness?
Shen Jin thought that he had given birth to this child before, during those few dark nights when he first entered the valley.
He looked at his two younger brothers, and this time he didn't avoid them. He just carefully concealed what he shouldn't say, and then said, "I heard some gossip and hurtful words, so I cried."
"Xiaoyin and Xiaotie, remember, we were able to survive because Manager Xu and Uncle Xu were willing to help us, because Aunt Xu and the others were kind-hearted, and because Big Brother and Big Sister-in-law didn't care about the past and were willing to bring the three of us back in such a world. The families in the valley who helped us were also Big Brother and Big Sister-in-law who repaid us for our kindness."
"Remember, from now on, if anyone says anything bad about big brother and big sister-in-law in front of you, you must slap them back. Big brother and big sister-in-law don't owe us anything." He was silent for a moment, and said, "It is our family that owes big brother and big sister-in-law, Xiao An and An Ning."
Shen Tie was young and had no idea what was going on. He just nodded obediently after hearing what Shen Jin said. Shen Yin also nodded, but there was some hesitation in his eyes.
Wang Chunniang's words of guidance were truly heart-breaking. A seven-year-old child would really think along the lines of what she said: If the eldest brother and his wife had taken their family with them, would their mother and Tian Ya have survived?
This thought cannot be controlled by humans; it is an instinct, just like Chen Tie who has just turned around and entered the valley. When he sees the good things in the valley, he will subconsciously say, "It would be great if Tian Ya and her parents were still alive."
For example, whenever he saw the children in the valley playing, reading and learning to read, Shi Qiaoer, Xiaoya, and Axu, he would always be distracted. When he went to bed at night, he sometimes dreamed that Tianya was sitting among these people.
I understood everything intellectually, but there seemed to be a gaping black hole in my mind, splitting my life into two. When I woke up, I didn't know whether I was happy to see my sister or scared about what this dream meant.
He didn't dare tell anyone and just tried hard to repair it, but he didn't expect that the patch he had put on would be torn off with blood and flesh.
Now, not only him, but also Xiaoyin's heart was dug into a hole by Wang Chunniang's malicious words.
Shen Jin clenched his hands on the table into fists. He looked at Shen Yin, and even at Shen Tie who was standing beside him and knew nothing about it. All the words that he wanted to block in the past and didn't dare to let his two younger brothers know, Shen Jin knew at this moment that he couldn't do that. He couldn't let Xiaoyin and Xiaotie end up like this, and he couldn't guarantee that his two younger brothers would not grow up to be as bad as Hu Zi's mother because of this.
He stared at Shen Yin: "Do you think what Hu Zi's mother said makes sense? Do you think that if Big Brother and Sister-in-law had taken our family with them, Tian Ya and Mother would not have died?"
Shen Yin's hands trembled slightly, while Shen Tie was stunned.
Shen Jin was not surprised. He knew the feeling best. As soon as Wang Chunniang said those heart-piercing words, he knew it was inevitable.
He did not follow this assumption. He only asked Shen Yin: "If we had not split up, if our eldest brother had not come back, do you know what situation we, Xiao An and An Ning would be in now?"
Shen Tie was confused, but Shen Yin was pulled out of his previous thoughts by Shen Jin's words and looked up at Shen Jin.
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