Chapter 78 Self-blame and regret



Qing Yue was also crying. She hugged Qing Zhan tightly, comforted him and told him that she was still alive.

"You were in front of me, but I didn't recognize you. How could I not recognize you? We grew up together, ate together and played together, but how could my second brother not recognize you?

Second brother suspected you, hated you, yet protected the murderer who killed you so well. Second brother was wrong. Second brother is sorry for you, Yue girl, second brother is sorry for you... I am sorry for you... Snap, snap..."

He stretched out his hand and slapped his own face with such force that five finger marks immediately appeared on his cheek.

Qing Yue was so frightened that she quickly held him down but he continued to hit her hand.

"Why can't I recognize you? Why can't I see she's fake? Why? Why?"

He blamed himself, felt regretful, and felt suffocated by the pain.

Whenever he thought of his younger sister's tragic death, he felt so sad that he felt like he was going to die, especially since the person who killed his younger sister had been protected by him for so many years.

"Brother, it's not your fault. Please don't be like this, okay? Look at me, I'm alive. None of this is your fault. It's the fault of the person who killed me."

Qingyue hugged Qingzhan and kept comforting him. She was really afraid that her second brother would collapse here.

Qing Yue never expected Qing Zhan's reaction to be so big, but she didn't know that Qing Zhan was shocked not only by her tragic death, but also by the self-blame for not protecting his sister and the guilt and hatred for not recognizing the murderer.

All these emotions combined almost crushed him.

"Second brother, take a closer look at me. I've changed my appearance, but I'm still your sister. I'm Qingyue. I remember everything that happened between us. Do you remember that year when Pingyang and I secretly went to the opera house to watch a play? We both secretly put on costumes and ran to the stage to sing a lot, but you found us and even called Chu Yan over. Do you remember?"

"Also, also, on Mom's birthday, you wanted to be nice to her and imitated me in making longevity noodles, but you ended up setting the kitchen on fire. Do you remember?"

"Also, I once went secretly hunting in the mountains with Pingyang, and we fell into a trap. We cried out to heaven and earth, but no one answered us. Finally, you found me..."

"Also, in the summer, we went to the northern suburbs to pick watermelons, but an old farmer's dog bit us. We left gold ingots on the field, but the farmer insisted they were fake..."

"besides……"

Qingyue kept talking about their past and the unknown things they had experienced.

Qing Zhan couldn't bear it any longer, and finally hugged Qin Wan in front of him, holding her tightly in his arms with great strength, as if he was afraid that all this was just a dream.

Qing Zhan hated himself so much, hated himself for being blind and unable to judge people.

"Second brother, God has eyes. He doesn't let bad people have an easy life. He brought me back to life. Please don't be sad, okay? Look, although I have changed, I am still your sister."

Qingyue comforted him with sobs.

Once upon a time, she was also full of hatred. She hated everything around her and hated God for being unfair and why he made her suffer all this. But as the days passed, her mentality gradually became calmer from being filled with hatred at the beginning. She was actually grateful to God for giving her a chance to be reborn and a chance to take revenge.

Qing Zhan was trembling all over, and he couldn't tell whether he was afraid or regretful.

Yes, it changed, and he couldn't recognize it.

Thinking about how he had mocked Qin Wan before, and his own harsh words and cold response, the regret in his heart almost destroyed him.

His little sister had clearly given him hints, but he just couldn't think of it.

No wonder my younger sister said he was blind before.

He is blind and deaf.

"Brother, please stop crying. My resurrection is too strange, and I'm afraid others will mistake me for a monster, so I only told you. You're the only one I trust. Brother, please cheer up."

Qingyue comforted softly.

If Feng Ling saw Qing Yue's expression at this moment, he would definitely be shocked. The woman who was as cold as the moon was gentle all over, and there was no trace of alienation or indifference on her face.

When Qing Zhan heard his younger sister's comfort, the pain in his heart deepened, and his self-blame increased. His younger sister used to be so unrestrained, walking with the wind, acting in a high-profile and ostentatious manner, and when she smiled, her brows were full of the carefreeness of being happy in the world, which was the arrogance caused by being spoiled by everyone.

But now, her voice was gentle, soft and gentle, coaxing him to cheer him up.

She was obviously the one who was hurt.

She had gone through pain that ordinary people could hardly imagine, and emerged from the sea of ​​fire and swords with tears, but she comforted him with a smile.

Qing Zhan, you are a waste. You have never been as good as your sister since you were a child, and you are still not as strong as your sister when you grow up.

Qing Zhan cursed himself fiercely in his heart.

Finally, he raised his head from Qing Yue's shoulder, with a pair of red and swollen peach blossom eyes, looking at the unfamiliar face in front of him. It was obvious that he had never liked Qin Wan's face before, but now that he knew she was his sister, he thought she was beautiful no matter how he looked at her.

"Little sister, my brother has a birthmark on his body. Do you remember where it is?"

Qing Zhan asked in a low voice.

In fact, he was already certain that the Qin Wan in front of him was his sister, but he still couldn't help but ask out loud, because that was an extremely deep memory for him and his younger sister as they grew up.

"How could I not remember it? It's on my right buttock. Mom said it's heart-shaped. So ever since I found out about it, I've wanted to see that birthmark, but you wouldn't let me. We argued about it for years, and even when I grew up, I still didn't get to see it."

Qing Yue said with tears in her eyes.

When she was young, she didn't know the difference between boys and girls. When she was six or seven years old, she even secretly watched her second brother taking a bath. Of course, she failed, and her mother grabbed her ears and scolded her.

"Little girl, I'm still thinking about you."

Qing Zhan smiled with tears in his eyes. He gently raised his hand, wiped Qing Yue's eyes, and tucked the loose hair on her forehead behind her ears.

"Brother, I've grown up now and I don't miss you anymore."

Qingyue also laughed.

very nice.

She finally recognized her second brother.

She is not alone anymore.

She no longer had to live in fear, hiding secrets and waking up in the middle of the night, afraid that one day she would open her eyes and be reincarnated, afraid that her hatred would not be avenged, afraid that Qing Yunyao and Chu Yan had deceived everyone and harmed her family.

"Girl, tell your second brother what's going on..."

Qing Zhan recovered and looked at Qin Wan in front of him and asked.

Asking this question means that he has overcome his emotional breakdown, is mentally prepared, and is ready to listen to his younger sister's experience.

Qing Yue sniffed and slowly recounted her experience...

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