Chapter 305 He finally told the past

Mingzhu looked up at him, her tone as firm as a rock: "Jiang Duo, you will not take the initiative to kill people. The lives you are responsible for must not have been caused by murder or arson. I believe you."

The word "believe" made Jiang Duo's heart completely break. He raised his hand and gently stroked her cheek, and spoke in a harsh tone.

"Three years ago, I led a company of soldiers to the south to carry out a mission. As a result... Although the mission was successfully completed, but... Including me, only 19 people came back alive."

When Jiang Duo said this number, Mingzhu could clearly feel that he was holding his tall body and shaking uncontrollably.

This sadness, without even words, has spread to Mingzhu.

She gently stroked Jiang Duo's back and looked up at him: "Did...something go wrong?"

Jiang Duo shook his head: "At that time, I led four members of the suicide squad deep into the enemy's rear. Before leaving, I ordered the rest of the people to ambush and wait. If our mission failed, I would send a signal to notify them to switch to plan 2. If I succeeded, we would all retreat to the camp together."

"But...when the five of us finally completed the mission and returned, we heard a devastating explosion. When we rushed over, we found that the rest of the people...acted without permission and stepped into the minefield that the enemy had buried long ago..."

Thinking of himself who was seriously injured at the time, he saw the bloody scene at the explosion site.

Those smiling faces that had once appeared before him were now torn into pieces in a pool of blood.

Under the rolling smoke, the first thing that flooded into his limbs was the smell of blood.

Jiang Duo thought about the past, and all the strength in his body seemed to be drained away. He powerlessly loosened his hand holding Mingzhu and took a wolfish step back.

Jiang Duo lowered his head and closed his eyes, like a child who had done something wrong. His voice was filled with uncontrollable pain: "In that mission, including Ning Shuang's brother Ning Hao, I lost four friends... who grew up with me in the same compound."

Mingzhu felt sad. She could imagine how painful he was at that time. She had never experienced such a "disaster" and didn't know how to comfort him.

"Zhuzhu, I always thought I was very strong, strong enough to overcome all hardships, but later I found out, I was nothing special. For a long time, I couldn't even sleep. As soon as I closed my eyes, my mind was full of their faces..."

Mingzhu raised her hands and held his face, "It's not your fault."

"But they are all gone, and only I am still alive," Jiang Duo looked at Mingzhu, a 1.9-meter-tall strong man, his eyes filled with mist.

"Jiang Duo," Mingzhu's voice was solemn, but looking at his eyes, it was full of tenderness and soothing: "It's really not your fault. You said that you led the suicide squad to leave first, which means that you were ready to sacrifice at any time. You even told them not to act without permission. You have done everything you can. You just didn't expect that your mission was successful, but the friends and comrades you cared about left forever because they didn't listen to you... right?"

Jiang Duo looked at Mingzhu's distressed eyes looking at him. He didn't want to let his emotions affect her too much, but... whenever Jiang Duo thought of the many things that happened at that time and later, his heart ached.

"In fact, I understand all the truths, but I just can't get over the hurdle in my heart. Later, even after going through psychological construction again and again, I still can't face it all."

"I don't have the courage to step into the camp where I used to work with them, I don't have the courage to walk into the office where I'm the only one left, I don't have the courage to look at the basketball court where we used to sweat together, and I don't even have the courage... to face their families."

"Zhuzhu," Zeng Jiangduo's heart was suppressed as if he was standing on a cliff. As long as he took one more step forward, he would be doomed: "I can't carry so many lives and fly forward alone, so... I fled here, like a coward, I dare not tell anyone the secret in my heart."

"You are not a coward," Mingzhu said seriously, holding his face with her hands and rubbing it gently, "Jiang Duo, you are a hero, you have completed the task assigned to you excellently, you have a clear conscience towards your country, and you have not betrayed your friends. What you are sad, reluctant to do, and dare not face is the death of your beloved friends and comrades, but this just proves that you are a man of affection and righteousness."

She lowered her hands and hugged him, her gentle voice was enough to soothe people's hearts: "The past has happened and cannot be changed. Those who left are your best friends. Even if I advise you to let it go, you may not be able to do it in your lifetime. In this case, don't let go. They are also part of your past. It's not a bad thing to keep them in your heart and miss them all the time. I will remember them forever with you."

Jiang Duo was stunned.

After the incident, some people praised his contribution; some people hugged him and cried heartbreakingly, asking why their children did not come back alive; some people pulled his collar and questioned why he was the only one who did not die.

In order to calm down all kinds of voices, his family could not stand by him and speak for him.

He could only face the unprecedented chaos alone. During that time, he felt that his life was turned upside down.

Later, after the review, all the survivors proved that his command was not wrong.

Everything was getting better, and everyone around him advised him to let go of the past and start over, except Zhuzhu.

She actually said... they are also a part of her life, and there is no need to let go.

Jiang Duo hugged her again, rubbing his chin gently on the top of her head, as if... a strong big cat was rubbing against its owner, seeking a sense of security.

Mingzhu felt that he was obviously more relaxed, and smiled as she put her forehead against his chest, and began to slowly divert his attention: "Speaking of which, I have to thank Ning Shuang. If she hadn't been so angry that she deliberately provoked me, I wouldn't have known the secret in your heart. Do you feel better now that you've said it out?"

Jiang Duo nodded. Everything he had was already exposed, and Mingzhu didn't mind her bloody past. He really... heaved a sigh of relief in his heart.

He was so lucky to have met such a... savior in his life.

His little girl had illuminated his life.

Mingzhu looked up at her: "So now there are really no secrets between us?"

Jiang Duo nodded, but then he thought of something and suddenly tensed up.

No, he... hid one thing.