Chapter 36 The first time he completely lost his mind
The big raindrops kept hitting Su Rui, and the discussions and ridicules were drowned out by the sound of rain and could not be heard clearly.
But Su Rui knew that she had failed.
It was clearly just one step away, and he had clearly reacted and responded.
But even if it's the final push, defeat is defeat.
Pulling his monk robe tightly around him, Su Rui stood up and walked barefoot in the rain, looking at the carriage that had already gone away.
In the carriage, Yun Ji's lust had not yet dissipated.
He clenched his hands, gasped, and suppressed the desire in his heart over and over again, but the results were not ideal.
All that filled his mind was Su Rui's delicate body, her silky smooth skin, her throbbing breasts, her slender waist...
He was not a saint. As a man, the animal nature in his body was inevitable. Even though he was in a temple, he had desires when he was thirteen or fourteen years old.
But after accepting everything, he has been devoted to Buddhist practice. Desires are controllable for him and can be suppressed by his thoughts.
This has been going on for ten years, until today.
No, to be precise, it was until Su Rui appeared.
She seemed to be a seductive enchantress born with the ability to seduce people. Step by step, she led him into the forbidden area. Today was the first time that she made him completely lose his mind.
It's not because of the incense and the Taoist teachings. He has practiced martial arts for many years, and his internal strength can consume the power of medicine. Moreover, the time today is not enough.
And her soft touch was just a tickle to him, totally useless.
What's more, he had been drugged by Su Rui last time, and it was completely due to his nature at that time, and his mind was in a turmoil.
But today, he knew he was awake.
He lost his mind while sober, and wanted to claim, possess, and even... invade her while sober.
He was not angry with Su Rui, but with himself.
It was his restless mind that nearly led him to fall into the hell of desire.
I almost had my life controlled by someone else again.
He would never walk the same path he took more than ten years ago.
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Walking back to Chaoyang Courtyard in the rain, Su Rui collapsed.
I had a high fever for a few days and was in a daze. The scenes of my past life and slavery kept appearing in my mind.
Her rebirth seemed like just an illusory dream.
She did not return to Beijing, but was imprisoned in a border military camp, where she was forced to eat slop, chew tree bark, roll on a bed of nails, and be whipped.
She lay on the ground covered in blood, letting the wild dogs bite her flesh and bones, her body being pulled back and forth like a rag, while Liang, Zhou Yao, her father, and her brother all stood beside her, glad that she was finally dead.
They stepped on her corpse and another skeleton that had long since turned to dry bones, and lived a happy life again.
"water……"
Su Rui's dry throat made a hoarse sound.
But it was too quiet and no one heard it.
She didn't call out a second time. She looked weakly at the table where the teapot was, trying to get up with all her strength.
But she was exhausted as her fever had just subsided and she fell off the bed.
Feeling no pain, she stared at the teapot, reached out and crawled over little by little, supported herself on the stool, then on the table, lifted herself up, grabbed the teapot, and gulped down the tea that had already gone cold.
"Miss, you're awake." Luo E exclaimed in surprise, walked in quickly from outside the door, reached out and touched her forehead, and chanted "Amitabha".
"Where's Xier?" Su Rui, who had recovered a little, sat down and asked.
Luo E shook her head. "I don't know where Miss Xi'er has gone. She left the other day and hasn't come back since."
Xier is gone?
The emperor gave up on her after failing once?
Yes, when Yun Ji drove her out of the car in front of so many people at the outer palace gate, everyone knew that she had angered Yun Ji, so naturally they would not waste any more time on her.
"The Marquis just sent someone over and told you to go to the main hall as soon as you wake up."
He couldn't wait to deal with her.
After simply changing into clean clothes, Su Rui went to the main hall alone.
Apparently everyone had heard the news that she had woken up, and they were sitting in the main hall waiting for her.
The old lady and the Marquis of Yong'an sat at the top, both with unmoved expressions. The Marquis's wife, Mrs. Liang, had a sorrowful look on her face, and Zhou Yao was beside her to comfort her.
Su Ye was full of anger, like a ball of fire.
Seeing Su Rui approaching, Liang was the first to stand up and greet her. She grabbed her hand distressedly and asked, "Rui'er, tell me what happened on Buddha's Birthday. Why did Mr. Yunji throw it out? This... how are you going to live?"
"How can you live? Don't live anymore!" Su Ye roared, and seeing that she was still indifferent, he became even more angry. "I warned you at the beginning, but you didn't listen and went on to do those prostitute things, thinking that being flattered and pimped out wouldn't be shameful. Now look, you've offered yourself to someone else again and got kicked out. Everyone knows about it. You've thrown the face of our Yong'an Marquis Mansion to the ground and stepped on it again and again. It's really what others say, you are a disaster star, harming people everywhere."
"Ye'er! You are not allowed to talk about your sister like that!" Liang roared with tears in her eyes, her body trembling.
Marquis Yong'an stepped forward and held Liang's shoulders, comforting her: "Don't worry, take care of yourself."
"Yes, mother, you haven't had a good rest these days, and you had heart pain again this morning." Zhou Yao supported Liang and said to Su Ye, "Brother, don't say those hurtful words to me anymore. Now that things have come to this, we should find a way to help my sister."
"What else can I do? I'll have peace and quiet after death." Su Ye didn't want to give Su Rui a chance to live at all. He wished she had died of illness two days ago so that everything would be over once and for all.
"Don't listen to your brother, he's just confused because of anger." Liang was busy trying to comfort Su Rui, but tears started to fall again when she saw her. "Don't worry, mother has a way, she will definitely find one."
Su Rui watched Liang's performance coldly and asked, "Auntie, how can you save me from this dire situation?"
"How do you talk to your mother like that?" Marquis Yong'an growled. Liang Shi hurriedly held him down and shook her head, indicating that it was okay.
"Send him away." The old lady waved her hand and made her final decision.
"Mother, Rui'er just came back, and already..." Liang's face was filled with reluctance and unwillingness, but after thinking it over, she couldn't seem to find a better solution, so she compromised and said, "Then send her to a distant farm to hide, and come back when the storm has subsided, okay, Lord Marquis."
Marquis Yong'an did not answer.
He didn't want to see Su Rui die, but he also didn't want her to come back.
This period of time has caused enough trouble. He has also been deeply implicated in the court these days. Even the people in the military camp dare not speak out, and the sneering looks they see make him feel uneasy.
"If you come back, someone will definitely mention that incident again, and it will be bad for you. If the emperor punishes you, it will be troublesome. Why don't you wait until the storm has passed and go to the rich area of Jiangnan where no one knows your past and find a family. With your status as a young lady from a marquis's mansion, no one will make things difficult for you."
"If it's so good, why don't you go?" Su Rui asked with a sneer.
Su Ye exploded first: "How can you compare with Yao'er? I was thinking about you with good intentions, but you are still biting me. Father, I think it would be better to beat her to death, which would be considered clearing the family."
Marquis Yong'an felt annoyed when he saw Su Rui, who looked like that woman, even having the same unyielding look in her eyes.
He was moved by Su Ye's proposal.
"My Lord! No!" Liang grabbed his hand tightly and begged.
The Marquis of Yong'an was silent for a moment, then waved his hand and said, "It seems you can't talk to others properly now. Come, escort the young lady back to the courtyard. You are not allowed to leave the courtyard without my order."
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