Chapter 33 How can a woman abstain from sex?
"Make way! Someone's coming in!" she cried anxiously.
"Then kiss me."
"don't want."
Li He wouldn't move aside, and Bo Wei refused to kiss him; the elevator doors were about to open.
Bo Wei was extremely anxious.
In my haste, I woke myself up.
In the pitch-black, quiet room, the sudden sound of heavy breathing was quite noticeable.
Bo Wei opened her eyes and stared blankly at the dark room for a long time.
How could she have such a bizarre and illogical dream!
Frustrated, Bo Wei kicked the blanket a few times, then turned to the side and pulled it over her head.
Neuropathy!
How could President Li be that kind of person!
How could she possibly have that kind of delicate personality!
The phrase "What you think about during the day, you dream about at night" suddenly popped into Bo Wei's mind, startling her once again.
but……
The scene in her dream was the elevator where they first met; she had a deep misunderstanding about him, always thinking he was a lecher; she was also troubled by the elevator and video incident these past two days; and just before going to sleep, she was thinking about how to repay President Li…
Everything seems to make sense.
But who taught them to combine them like this?
For a long while, the heat on her cheeks did not subside at all.
Even in a dream, the tingling sensation of our bodies touching, his body temperature, his breath—everything felt incredibly real.
That feeling of collapse and weakness was very profound.
From childhood to adulthood, she had never had any intimate contact with any man, and had no idea that touching someone of the opposite sex could be such a feeling that made her scalp tingle and her whole body feel weak and powerless.
My heart is beating a little fast, my body is a little hot, and I have a strange urge.
She quickly stopped herself when she realized what she was thinking.
She has a boyfriend, how could she dream about other men?
After a while of adjusting my breathing, I gradually calmed down.
I tossed and turned for a while, unable to fall asleep. I picked up my phone and saw it was only a little past 3 a.m.
As she got up to go to the restroom, she remembered that dream again…
My cheeks felt like they were on fire.
She is not someone who knows nothing; on the contrary...
From puberty to now, her body has become more and more mature, and the desires triggered by hormones have become stronger and stronger.
During puberty, the unconscious rubbing of her legs together seemed to relieve some strange 'discomfort'.
Then it dawned on her that she thought it was an illness, so she painstakingly looked up a lot of information, and after a blush and a racing heart, she realized that everything was normal.
Once she knew it was normal, she felt relieved.
However, the frequent 'discomfort' seriously affected her studies, distracted her a lot of energy, and made her extremely annoyed.
Whenever she felt unwell, she would close her eyes and silently recite in her heart: "Form is emptiness, emptiness is form."
She gradually got used to it, and whenever her body started to react, she would immediately distract herself; this method was the most effective.
Up to now, she believes she has a lot of control over her body.
But unexpectedly...
I dreamt I was back to the pre-liberation era.
After washing myself, I went back to bed.
Bo Wei looked sorrowful, picked up her phone, and searched: How can a woman abstain from sex?
Posts popped up one after another... but none of them were reliable.
When she exited the search and refreshed the page, two out of the four recommended pages featured men with abs.
Bo Wei: ...
Damn internet!
Understand yourself first, then hurt yourself.
Damage her Daoist heart, destroy her divine power!
How wicked!
She tossed the lousy phone aside and buried her head in her sleep.
I can't sleep again.
She was staring at something she couldn't understand.
Although her body had experienced countless 'discomforts', she had never had any thoughts about any man, including Ji Mingxiu.
Otherwise, she wouldn't have refused Ji Mingxiu's advances for so many years.
In the second year of junior high school, she received Ji Mingxiu's first love letter.
A love letter from the school's most popular boy made everyone envious, and his classmates were incredibly excited. That day, it caused quite a stir throughout the entire school.
Unexpectedly, she didn't even look at it and simply returned it to him.
Ji Mingxiu was embarrassed and kept asking her why.
Bo Wei looked at him quietly and said, "I'm not interested in puppy love. Even if I were to find someone, I'd like to wait until I go to college and find a college student."
So, the school heartthrob, whose grades were mediocre, began to study hard.
I don't know how her casual remark made him persevere for two years, and finally he and she were admitted to the best high school in the county.
When they entered high school, Bo Wei was in the honors class, while he was in the regular class.
If a boy in high school has a goal and wants to work hard, the results are immediate. Of course, he was very smart. When the classes were reassigned during the subject selection, he successfully entered the science elite class.
Ji Mingxiu's parents already knew about this. When they came to visit their son at school, they specially bought her milk and a lot of fruit, smiling as if they were visiting their daughter.
During her junior and senior high school years, he often appeared in front of her, always smiling brightly when he spoke to her, his tone becoming increasingly familiar, but he never mentioned pursuing her.
Until the two of them were admitted to the same university.
That day, he stood in the sunlight, handsome and youthful, still with a bright smile.
"You said you wanted to find a college student as a boyfriend, would you consider me?"
Bo Wei squinted at him in the sunlight and said seriously, "I have no feelings for you, you know that."
A fleeting look of disappointment crossed Ji Mingxiu's face, but he still smiled and said, "No rush, take your time to find it."
During her college years, her roommates all said she was heartless, able to turn away such a handsome and devoted man.
Bo Wei could indeed objectively see his handsomeness and excellence, as well as his relentless pursuit and unwavering devotion to her.
But she herself didn't understand why, when facing such a person, her heart remained calm and undisturbed.
It wasn't until after graduation, when she was working, that he appeared outside her company on a rainy night while she was working overtime, clearly having waited for a long time.
"Here you go, umbrella." He didn't mention how long he had been waiting outside, but simply smiled gently and handed her the umbrella.
Bo Wei watched him silently for a long time before finally taking the umbrella from him, despite his patient waiting.
At that moment, she saw a light shine in Ji Mingxiu's eyes.
It wasn't that I was moved, it was that I finally softened.
It could even be called selfish, because single women in the workplace are always inevitably harassed by a lot of boring people.
She thought again, maybe not everyone will have love, and if that's the case, then at least Ji Mingxiu isn't someone she dislikes.
Besides, he had walked towards her alone for so long; she should give him a chance.
To my utter surprise, just a few days into their relationship, she ended up in the hospital.
After being discharged from the hospital, he said that in order to make it easier to take care of each other, the two of them lived together, which is their current living situation.
There was one thing she couldn't understand.
Before she fell ill, Ji Mingxiu was infatuated with her. During her illness, he took care of her meticulously, giving her money and effort without reservation.
But after she was discharged from the hospital and the two lived together, their way of getting along was something she hadn't expected.
Ji Mingxiu remained gentle and considerate towards her, but this consideration now carried a hint of politeness and bewilderment, and the proactive intimacy and enthusiasm he had shown when pursuing her had completely vanished.
Whether it was her imagination or not, she vaguely felt that Ji Mingxiu was somewhat afraid of her. It wasn't fear, but rather a sense of self-imposed obligation to maintain his perfect image in front of her.
Bo Wei was just overthinking things; she couldn't really figure it out. It was just her guess.
In any case, apart from caring for each other, the two of them don't have any of the intimacy that couples have.
The relationship between the two had reached a strange juncture, with no way to retreat and no way to advance.
Bo Wei secretly blamed herself, thinking that if she had changed her personality, their relationship wouldn't be stuck in this rut.
She sighed silently. Change, how easy is it?
But can love be cultivated?
There's also the saying that feelings can develop over time. Isn't that just the effect of contact and the law of familiarity? The more she and Ji Mingxiu spent together, the more pleasing they became to each other, and feelings might naturally develop.
All she can do now is adjust her mindset, try to see Ji Mingxiu as his girlfriend, acknowledge his strengths and contributions, and actively reciprocate.
Yes, that's it.
She thought about it with peace of mind, planning for the future.
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