Chapter 56
During the summer vacation after graduating from the third year of junior high school, Dad Lu would prepare breakfast before going to work every day, and Lu Xiaoguo was alone at home.
The landline phone rang and Lu Xiaoguo picked up the call. It was a classmate calling.
"Xiaoguo! I want to tell you something you will never imagine!" said the female classmate.
A boy's voice nearby echoed: "Yes, you would never guess!"
"Is Adan at your house?" Lu Xiaoguo asked while looking at the book.
"He came to my house specifically to talk about this. That is, a thief was caught in the supermarket downstairs from his house. It is said that he is a repeat offender who has stolen many times. The supermarket finally caught him this time. Guess who it is?"
The boy couldn't help revealing the answer: "It was Ji Yue! I was so mad, it turns out she really steals things! The supermarket owner called the police and everyone around knew about it. It was so embarrassing. It was a waste of our trust in her and we even took it out on her! Hey, why did you bump into me!..."
Remembering the consequences of venting his anger, the boy fell silent.
The atmosphere was frozen for a while, and the girl tried to smooth things over: "Xiao Guo, do you want to come to my house and play? Or should we go to the movies together?"
"No, I still need to read."
After hanging up the phone, Lu Xiaoguo lowered his head, his face hidden by his black hair fell into gloom, and his tightly clenched hands were shaking slightly.
Wu Qian was startled because there was a hint of demonic energy emanating from the forehead of the girl Lu Xiaoguo.
Dark air lingered above her head, and a voice like a soliloquy rang out in her brain, speaking out all her fleeting dark thoughts:
I hate it so much.
I have hated many people.
I even hated my mother.
I must be the most heartless person in the world.
I hate that she cared about me so much that she lost her life and left me.
Mom, why do you love me?
Why should I? Why should I?
When Wu Qian heard the girl's inner thoughts, she was surprised and felt a little uncomfortable.
It was a very sudden and bad feeling. She felt inexplicably that Lu Xiaoguo was scary and she wanted to stay away from him.
Realizing this, she immediately jumped out of her own thoughts and looked at herself objectively, only to realize that she might have also been bewitched by the evil spirit and was being used to sow discord.
But the illusion of demonic energy can observe people's psychological activities in real time, and project Wu Qian's thoughts whenever possible.
The scene in front of her eyes suddenly changed, and they came out of the illusion alive and returned to the kindergarten, but they were like strangers, drifting further and further apart. "Wu Qian" even told others that Lu Xiaoguo had too many dark thoughts, so that everyone would stay away from Lu Xiaoguo.
Wu Qian was really angry, especially when she saw Lu Xiaoguo's expression, she felt so devastated and vulnerable.
"Lu Xiaoguo, don't believe it, this is all fucking fake." She held Lu Xiaoguo's hand tightly and loudly recited various mantras to the illusion, interspersed with traditional Chinese culture.
She was conscious and full of anger, and since this illusion might be her own, it was soon broken.
Wu Qian was afraid that this illusion would create a rift between her and Lu Xiaoguo, so she quickly explained to Lu Xiaoguo the cunningness of this illusion and told her not to be affected by it.
However, the illusion jumped back to the girl Lu Xiaoguo and continued her confession.
She huddled on the sofa, in despair.
“I hate so many people, but I don’t know who I can hate continuously.”
“What I hate most is myself.”
Ultimately, it's all my own fault.
The young boy Lu Xiaoguo's tears dripped onto the back of his hand.
The black air was her voice, but also not her voice. It asked her back: "Don't you hate that thief Ji Yue now? She deceived you! It was she who caused you to be taken to the hospital. When your mother heard about the hospital, she drove over anxiously. If there was no Ji Yue, this incident would not have happened. Your mother would not have appeared on that road and would not have been hit by the truck. Don't you know that your mother's car was flattened? How painful it must have been..."
Wu Qian went to look at the young man Lu Xiaoguo, only to see that her lips were pale and there was a trace of black on her forehead. She was completely affected.
Wu Qian was anxious and grabbed her hand, trying to pass on some strength to her, "Lu Xiaoguo, wake up, it's all fake, you can't believe anything, just believe me, I'm the only one who's real!"
Lu Xiaoguo closed his eyes and said, "Wu Qian, recite the sutra."
It was useless for her to recite the mantra this time. She could not break the illusion and her willpower was shaky.
"Tao follows nature, purity and inaction..." Wu Qian quickly recited the scriptures to calm her mind.
The girl Lu Xiaoguo went out and came to the other side of the street where a noodle shop was.
In Lao Ji's noodle shop, the Ji family has already paid the money for the stolen items. Ji Yue came out of the police station, washing dishes with a bruised face.
"So what even if her parents beat her? At least she still has a mother, but you don't." The dark energy continued to instigate.
The girl Lu Xiaoguo clenched the fruit knife under her sleeve.
"Don't do anything stupid!" Wu Qian stopped chanting and exclaimed.
Lu Xiaoguo shook her head, "It's fake, I didn't go looking for Ji Yue, this was just my thought at the time. It's still the same now." She really did hate Ji Yue after picking up this memory again.
Like a well-hidden thread, it looks strong but will actually come loose from the track and fall apart with a slight pull.
She didn't know whether she still couldn't let it go or whether she was bewitched by the devil. But in the end, her heart was unstable.
After so many years of cultivation, is this all he has achieved? Lu Xiaoguo couldn't help but question all his efforts over the years.
Is it all empty in the end?
Wu Qian was stunned. "Yes, yes, this illusion will lead the victim to the darkest direction in his heart after he has dark thoughts! Can you calm down now and use your telekinesis to break through the magic barrier like I did just now?"
"I don't know. I feel very weak now. My childhood self is absorbing my energy and synchronizing her anger. My consciousness can also be projected onto her. Her behavior is also partly due to me. It's like I'm merging into her."
I don’t know if I will still have my sanity after integrating into it. I don’t know what will happen if I lose my sanity.
Since it can be projected...
"You try to stop her with your consciousness?"
“Awareness is weak right now.”
It takes a strong power of mindfulness to stop.
But now her faith is in jeopardy.
The demonic energy that lingered on his forehead like a lively dance showed signs of spreading.
"Lu Xiaoguo, hold on, you're not the kind of person who will be devoured by the dark side of life, you're damn kind."
"Everyone has dark thoughts, it's normal, the most important thing is to change your mindset."
Wu Qian said this in the most basic way, trying to remind her not to forget her purest original intention, and recited the scriptures again.
Lu Xiaoguo closed his eyes, stopped looking at the illusion, and listened carefully.
Affected by the evil spirit, it took her a while to focus her consciousness on the content of the scriptures.
Gradually, I understood the meaning of Tao.
One should not dwell on anything, but give rise to the mind.
Her spiritual consciousness was projected into a vast pure white space, with countless lines of ink scriptures floating around. Lu Xiaoguo looked around, and her shoulder touched a line of scriptures, which burst into golden light and disappeared into her body.
A warm current rushed down, dispelling the dark and obstructive aura covering the mind, and it gradually became clear.
Lu Xiaoguo kept touching the ink characters, digesting the huge amount of energy.
When she opened her eyes again, she tried to instill righteous thoughts into the girl Lu Xiaoguo.
Unexpectedly, it took almost no effort for the young girl Lu Xiaoguo's eyes to become clear. She threw the fruit knife into the trash can and said to the black air - she thought it was directed at herself: "My mother would be very sad if she knew I was like this."
Then he turned and left.
Wu Qian relaxed and smiled.
She knew that Lu Xiaoguo, whether in the past or now, would always be able to stick to his principles.
What a bullshit demon, get away from me.
This time the scene change is no longer about opening the door.
All the objects and buildings before their eyes were strangely twisted into indescribable shapes. Then the road under their feet turned into quicksand. They were no longer falling into the dark abyss as at the beginning, but were slowly sinking down.
Wu Qian held Lu Xiaoguo's hand tightly.
The two could feel countless small particles filling the gaps in the air and grinding against their bodies. When they flooded their noses, breathing suddenly became difficult, forcing them to open their mouths. Then it felt like a lot of things were poured into their throats, and their throats were like a broken bellows, unable to speak. When they reached their eyes, they could no longer see anything but densely packed snowflakes.
It was like entering a painful world of selflessness. I couldn’t feel the existence of my own body, but I was very scared.
The punishment was over, and the evil spirit found another way to break through from the depths of Lu Xiaoguo's memory. The two of them escaped from the ocean of small particles and successfully fell into another layer of illusion.
The death of a loved one will lead to different people experiencing different ways of correcting their pain.
The changes in the Lu family began with this disagreement.
Lu Xiaoguo misses his mother, so he will hang up the family portrait and try his best to keep his mother's things in their original places. When he misses his mother's scent, he will take out a piece of his mother's clothes from the closet and hold it until he falls asleep, as if his mother Lu had never left.
However, Mr. Lu began to put away everything, trying to reduce the traces.
However, as soon as he put something away, Lu Xiaoguo would take it out again.
At first, Lu Xiaoguo didn't understand what his father was thinking. He thought he just felt that some things were useless, so he put them away.
It was Father Lu who exploded first. In front of Lu Xiaoguo, he threw all of Mother Lu's clothes, books, favorite cups, and blankets into several storage boxes and sealed them tightly with tape.
Lu Xiaoguo realized something, pursed her lips and said nothing, but stubbornly took the scissors and cut open the box again, taking out all her mother's things.
Soon, a quarrel broke out between father and daughter.
Lu Xiaoguo felt that his father was different now, and he was the only one who still thought about his mother. He had moved on, but he did not allow her to reminisce about the past.
With tears in her eyes, she continued to take things out.
"Lu Xiaoguo, have you been selfish enough? Will you ever stop?!" Dad Lu collapsed and smashed things everywhere. The cozy living room was in a mess. He expressed his feelings: every trace of the past was like a knife stabbing into his heart.
Lu Xiaoguo looked at his father with tears in his eyes and asked, "I am also a mark of my mother. Am I also a knife?"
Mr. Lu calmed down and said nothing.
Lu Xiaoguo folded her mother's clothes and asked bluntly, "Do you really want to start a new life?"
Father Lu was startled: "What do you mean?"
"I know that Aunt Huang from the community introduced you to a blind date."
"Do you miss daddy that much?"
"Isn't that so?"
The rift between father and daughter began from then on.
The timeline was fast-forwarded to a restaurant box.
Grandpa and grandma Lu were also there. A pretty young woman sat opposite Lu Xiaoguo, and next to her sat Aunt Huang from the community, who said many nice things to Lu Xiaoguo like she was brainwashing him.
Mr. Lu awkwardly picked up some food and gave it to Lu Xiaoguo.
Gradually, except for Lu Xiaoguo, everyone else at the scene transitioned from polite words to laughter of acceptance, especially the grandparents, who relaxed.
The Lu family has a new member. Dad Lu held the child high in his arms and kissed the baby on the cheek. The baby was so amused that he laughed and looked very cute. The grandparents were protecting him from all sides, saying, "Be careful and hold him tight," and "Oh, our Youyou."
This... is too fast. Wu Qian looked at Lu Xiaoguo and asked cautiously, "Is this true?"
Lu Xiaoguo nodded.
Black air surrounded the two Lu Xiaoguos, repeating "No one wants you anymore".
The young girl Lu Xiaoguo slammed the door and walked out, wandering aimlessly until she entered an alley. The faint smell of incense coming from inside made her feel peaceful for a moment. She looked up and saw a lot of people coming and going.
She followed the crowd inside and found a small temple.
The pilgrims are sincere and the incense is burning vigorously.
Lu Xiaoguo slowly followed the team, and when he knelt in front of the bronze statue of the goddess, he was extremely confused and didn't know what he could ask for.
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