Chapter 163 Scene 28 Ji Xiaogao's eyes were smiling, but his heart was crying...
"Xiao Hei, I have a small amount of money from working. When the sun comes up, we can buy tickets and take a bus to another place."
"When we get somewhere else, we'll find a place to live, settle down, and then find a job. Then we can both live a good life in the future."
"In a few months, I'll go to college, and you'll stay alone in the rented place. Every day after class, I'll come back to be with you. At least, this life won't be too lonely."
"I was thinking of living in the dormitory, maybe I could make some new friends..."
"It's a pity, I still can't let her go."
He Yue was folded in the cat bag, held by Ji Xiaogao on his knees.
The cool night breeze brings the fragrance of trees, and the chirping of insects makes the silence seem less heavy.
"Hey, Ji Xiaogao, Ji Xiaogao, you are so stupid, so stupid."
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"Ji Xiaogao, you made such a big mistake today. She is your aunt after all. Even if, even if there was something wrong, you shouldn't have argued with her so harshly."
"Meow."
"Besides, she's raised you for so many years. You, you shouldn't do this no matter what. She'll definitely be very sad to hear you say that..."
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"Ji Xiaogao, Ji Xiaogao," Ji Xiaogao kept repeating his own name, "Can't you figure out the things that others don't talk about?"
"She raised you with great difficulty. Did she want to hear you quarrel with her?"
"She loves you so much and takes such good care of you. Are you going to run away from her just because you're angry?"
"Ji Xiaogao, when did you become such a cowardly and incompetent person?"
"But……"
"Meow."
"What if she really thinks I'm a burden?"
He Yuezhe heard the sound of tears falling on the cat bag, and then the cat bag was hugged tightly, and the sound of the fabric rubbing against each other seemed to be on fire.
"Xiao Hei..." Ji Xiaogao choked up and sniffed, "What if she really thinks I'm a burden...?"
"What if, what if, I'm really a burden to her...?"
"I, I don't want to be a burden to her... I, I also want to help her... I want to make her happy..."
"But, but... But what, I, how can I, how can I... why, why does she..."
"I, I saw her crying... I saw her hurt herself... I, I knew she bought a lot of wigs... I, I... I..."
"I can't do anything... I can only watch her... and cry so sadly..."
"I want to hug her...but she's crying...her tears are almost drowning me...I can't breathe anymore..."
"She's sad... I'm sad too..."
"But I can't help her... I... I... I..."
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"No, no, I have to go back and explain to my aunt that this matter is my fault. I should have found a better solution!"
The cat bag was picked up.
"Xiao Hei, I'm sorry, I might be late before I can leave," Ji Xiaogao ran, "I can't let this quarrel distance me from my aunt."
"I must resolve this misunderstanding!"
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"Da da da da, da da da da..."
Walking into the old building, some out-of-tune sharp piano sounds accompanied by soft humming appeared.
"Auntie! Auntie, I'm back!!" Ji Xiaogao shouted happily.
First floor.
"Da da da, da da da, da da da da..."
"Aunt? Aunt, are you mad at me? I know I was wrong, and I'm here to admit it!"
"Little girl, what are you making noise about so late at night?"
"Excuse me, Auntie, I'll keep my voice down!"
Second floor.
"Da da da da da, da da da..."
"Auntie, did you hear me? I brought you your favorite cake on the way. Will you forgive me?"
Third floor.
"Da, da, da da da da..."
"Auntie, I'll be home soon, just wait for the cake!"
Fourth floor.
"Da, da, da..."
The sound of the piano became louder and louder, but the humming became quieter and quieter.
Ji Xiaogao walked over the broken glass door with a joyful look on his face, holding the cake and calling out, "Auntie, come and eat some cake—"
“Aunt?!!!!”
But all he saw was a woman under the reception desk, in a pool of blood. She was wearing a fishtail skirt that was perfectly tailored and made of fine materials. She was half leaning on the edge of the desk, her fingers tapping lightly on a colorful toy piano.
The emerald green fishtail skirt made the woman's skin look even paler. Her pale fingertips trembled slightly, but the sound of the piano was firm.
"Aunt, aunt, what's wrong with you? Why are you bleeding so much?!!!" Ji Xiaogao rushed over to the cat bag that was placed on a bench beside him.
She took out bandages and alcohol from the medical box under the reception desk, and after looking around, she found that her aunt's body was covered with wounds, so much so that she almost didn't know where to bandage first.
"Auntie, are you still awake?! Wait, I'll call 120 first. Auntie, just hold on for a little while. The hospital is very close to here. They will definitely be here soon!"
Ji Xiaogao gently dipped a cotton swab in alcohol, rubbed it on the woman's wound, and then pressed it with a bandage.
"Hiss...Xiao...Gao...?"
"Auntie, it's me, it's me!" Ji Xiaogao excitedly said, "That's great, you, you're still awake..."
"Walk……"
"Aunt? What did you say?"
"Walk……"
"Auntie, I, I've already said it before. I won't leave. I was definitely wrong about this. I'm here to apologize to you. I'm sorry, Auntie..."
"Walk……!!!"
"Auntie, are you still angry with me? Being angry is bad for your health..."
“You…go…go!!!”
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The woman didn't have much strength, but she pushed Ji Xiaogao away.
"Auntie, let's talk about this after we get to the hospital and your wound is healed, okay?" Ji Xiaogao said anxiously, "Now, let's bandage the wound first..."
"Ji Xiaogao..." The woman's voice was weak, and her eyes drifted to the black cat, "Go away, we don't need you here..."
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"I said, you're not needed here!!"
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"Ji Xiaogao, you are not needed here, and I don't need you either. I don't need your help here, and I don't need your concern."
"Auntie, don't say these things..."
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"I really hate you."
"Um……"
"sorry."
"Auntie, there's nothing to be sorry about."
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"I, I hate you too."
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"I hate your beauty, I hate your gentleness, I hate your strength, I hate your bravery, and I hate your pessimism."
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"To put it simply, this urban beauty, I hate almost everything about you."
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"Hating is not something that is difficult to say. After all, everyone has the right to hate and be hated."
Ji Xiaogao bandaged the woman's wound, sat down and leaned on her shoulder.
The woman's thin body and exposed shoulders were cold, like a piece of iron that could not be hammered no matter how hard you tried.
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"Hey, auntie, you definitely don't know how much I envied you when I first saw you."
"Nice clothes, beautiful makeup, and the ability to play the piano...that's what so many teenage girls have envied for a long time."
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"And you called my name so gently, hugged me and told me not to be sad."
"Aunt, I cried so hard at that time. I felt like the world was going to die along with my mother, but you still hugged me and wiped my nose without any hesitation."
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"You really are a very nice person."
Ji Xiaogao leaned on the woman's shoulder, tears filling his eyes, which she quietly wiped away with her sleeve.
"Auntie, you have to be happy, believe in yourself, and love yourself."
"You have to live, and live well."
"thump."
The woman fell to the floor, in a pool of blood, in her sorrow.
"Aunt, if you want to be free, I won't stop you."
"The medicine you stuffed into my mouth..." Ji Xiaogao loosened his grip, "I'm sorry, I don't have the strength to eat anymore..."
“Meow!!!! Meow!!!!”
A bottle of medicine rolled out of her hand, gurgling, stained with blood, and stopped in the glass shards.
"Xiao Hei... I'm sorry... I can't hold on any longer..."
Ji Xiaogao smiled slightly and said, "My heart is not good... I have been taking medicine for a long time... I have spent a lot of money..."
"So, I understand... Aunt, she left home... Originally, I wanted to take this opportunity to leave as well... But, Aunt, she, she, she..."
"Hahaha……"
"Meow!!!!"
The black cat scratched its cat bag, rushed out, and rushed onto the girl covered in blood.
"Little...Hei...be good..." The girl raised her hand.
"good……"
"good……"
"good……"
“Dang!!!!!”
Then it drooped limply onto the children's piano, that old-fashioned thing making a loud, shrill sound.
"Well, how long has this veterinary hospital been open? Ten years or so, right? The wallpaper is yellowing, the floor is bubbling, and the ceiling is crumbling."
"My aunt, Ji Wenxiu, lives here, damp and rotting with this place."
"As for me, I originally thought that I could warm her heart and help her make this place better and better."
"But what's the truth?" Ji Xiaogao stood among the broken glass, his hands behind his back. "I was a burden. I made her condition worse. I was the one who ultimately killed her."
She stood in the darkness and walked towards the darkness.
"Xiao Hei, I'm really stupid. I can't do anything well. I can't study, live my life, make friends. I don't know how to do anything and I can't do anything well."
"Every time I hear those people praising me, saying I helped them and that I'm a good person and great, my heart starts pounding and I feel...uncomfortable and want to hurt myself."
"I don't know why. I don't want to know."
"Xiao Hei," Ji Xiaogao tilted his head, a smile familiar to He Yuezhe appeared on the corner of his mouth, "I am sick just like my aunt."
"I feel like I'm trash, I feel like a waste, I hate myself, I hate others, I hate this world."
"I don't want this to happen, but I can't stop thinking about it."
"Why is it so hard to love myself? Why is it so hard? Why is life so painful? Why does everyone seem to be talking about me and hating me?"
"Ji Xiaogao, don't cry."
"I, I can't do it..."
Ji Xiaogao's eyes were smiling, but his heart was crying, crying so sadly.
"But that's good too. This way, you can walk the rest of the way easily by yourself."
"Ji Xiaogao..."
"This is my, Ji Xiaogao's, world. It's where I grew up."
"Now, the shackles that bound my heart have been removed."
"I'm about to have the ability to love myself and the world, and I'm going to be able to laugh truly and heartily."
He Yuezhe and Ji Xiaogao hugged each other.
"Thank you, Ji Xiaogao."
"From now on, you have to take care of yourself more. Eat well, study well, live well, and--"
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"Ding Dong! Event Blackheart has been completed!"
"Ding Dong! Please decide whether to stay in your current household or go to another one!"
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