Chapter 66 Human Interpretation Diary: Where is Dasein 1 [Together we...
journal.
I have no way of denying that what I have shown you is actually my diary.
Because it contains my thoughts and my yearning for the emotional bonds of human beings. It is also my representative work of my transformation from a "robot" to a "human".
As I write these words, my abdomen is still bleeding because I am injured.
After escaping from the department store, the old man who seemed to have a good relationship with Lao Yang finally snatched the knife and stabbed it into my body.
I covered my wound and looked back in horror, but all I saw was Lao Yang's unchanging smile.
He sat in a rocking chair, right in the middle of the gate.
The square door frame framed him, and I was outside the picture. I couldn't even hear what he wanted to say.
"Don't run! Be a good boy! How can you be hurt?!" The old man who stabbed me rushed over and reached out to grab me.
"You know we love you! When I was little, bah, bah, I played building blocks with you when you were little!!"
I didn't vomit blood as described in the novel. Instead, I kicked the old man in the abdomen with full energy.
I kicked him and sent him flying, crashing straight into—
"Lao Yang!!!" I shouted in surprise.
At my call, Lao Yang and his rocking chair were knocked against the wall.
Lao Yang looked at me, without opening his eyes, but with a smile on his face.
Fresh blood, old blood, blood of all different colors oozed from his body.
The thin layer of skin gradually melted away, revealing the body of a new type of robot that I had seen thousands of times.
On his face, one mechanical eye and one human eye were gently closed.
--【Feel sorry……】
I clung to the door frame and could barely make out his lip movements.
Then turn around.
I was running with all my might and in a deformed manner on that endless "Antelope Avenue", no, I was running on this Cypress Avenue.
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"Hey, it can talk! Look at it, Xiaoguan! What do you think? Doesn't it look exactly like a human?"
“…”
"Injured?"
“…”
"Are you okay? Come on, the housekeeper's little girl, ah, okay, Xiaoling, please help me get a bandage! My little baby is going to bleed to death!"
“…”
"Xiaoling is your good friend, so why don't you go play with her?"
“…”
"Although our family rents her shop, you younger generations have nothing to do with it. Just be open and go find Xiaoling tomorrow, okay?"
“…”
"Me? Why are you suddenly asking who I am? I'm your...guardian."
“…”
"Hahaha. Who told you that? It's popular now to say that children were found in the trash can."
“…”
"Hey, hey! Why are you also calling me 'Lao Yang' like that little girl Yue Ling?"
“…”
"I am your elder after all, please respect me."
“…”
"Well, I found a child in the ruins today. I want to adopt him. Do you mind?"
“…”
"Don't mention Xiao Jin all the time. Oh my, you have always been my little baby. Even if Xiao Jin is a thousand times better, he can't compare to you."
“…”
"Everyone has watched you grow up, how could anyone not like you?"
“…”
"Hey, I made a wig specially for you. Doesn't it make you look more energetic when you put it on?"
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"As for me, an old man, although I'm a bit talkative, I'm still very capable!"
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"Who said that? Take me there right now, I'll teach him a lesson! Let him know the consequences of calling you a 'bald monster'!"
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"You... suddenly have so many friends. I'm not used to it."
“…”
"But if you really want to invite them over, pick February 13th or 14th."
“…”
"Ahem! It has nothing to do with you little kids being all mad. I'm in good health! Ahem - my throat is just itchy."
“…”
"Ouch! You made me a rocking chair?!"
“…”
"Oh, that's so sweet of me—"
“…”
"What? Xiao Jin! That won't work. I have to send it to the factory for quality inspection first! Wait, what did you say?!"
“…”
"Once you leave, you're not allowed to come back! This isn't a place where you can just come and go as you please, old man!"
“…”
"Humph! It's better to leave! I'll have peace and quiet after leaving!"
“…”
"Oh? The little ungrateful wolf is back?"
“…”
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I was running under the half sun, and my body was burning with pain.
Every word Lao Yang said to me before I left the department store kept popping up in my mind.
I have such a good memory that even if someone whispers something, I can still remember it clearly ten years later.
When I was on the pipeline, the thoughts that lingered in my ears were not actually the thoughts of my fellow human beings.
It's me instead.
It's me who keeps chattering, it's me who can't shake off those thoughts, always on the tip of my tongue but trying to bury them without knowing why—
It’s me.
“Ah ...
Just one day passed and I became a wandering human.
I don't even have a room of my own.
I can only run aimlessly here.
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Night is coming.
I had already left the deserted Antelope and Cypress Avenue and found a nearby ruin to rest.
There is a wooden sign at the entrance of the ruins, and you can just barely make out the words "Ruins No. 499.5" written on it.
Ignoring the strange number, I walked in alone.
My eyes seemed to be red and swollen from crying for too long, and there was a large blurry thing in my eyes, making it almost impossible for me to see anything.
"Hiss." I was tripped by a stone and fell to the ground. I had to lie on the ground with my hands and grope forward.
I didn’t expect that the robot who was once a candidate for “God” and was once so powerful, has now become a human being and is living such a miserable life.
"Huh?" The girl's childish voice sounded.
I suddenly looked up in that direction and saw a small yellow figure standing not far in front of me, holding something in his hands and looking at me.
"You..." Before I could even utter the words for help, I remembered, "Why are you here?"
"Do you know me?" The yellow figure approached me, and she was holding a dirty doll in her arms.
She looked reluctant, but still rubbed the doll on my face, and then helped me tuck my hair behind my ears.
I rubbed my eyes with my sleeve, and in my still unclear vision, the girl stuffed her doll into my hand.
"Since you want it so badly," she turned her head away, "I'll give you the little nut."
I asked curiously, "Who is Little Nut?"
It can't be—
"This is what you have in your hand."
"What do you mean? Don't you want it after all this time?" The girl said with dissatisfaction in her tone.
"I, I want it." I suddenly remembered something, looked at the figure in front of me, my eyes changed again and again, raised the corners of my mouth awkwardly, and slowly accepted it.
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"What's your name?" she said.
"I, I, um, shouldn't you introduce yourself first before asking me?" I said.
"What? As ███, you should always be prepared to answer questions," she said.
"Just this once, listen carefully, I'm going to—Humph, I won't tell you!"
"Ah, okay. So where are we going?" I said.
"Come to my house, where else do you want to go?" she said.
"Why do you ask questions about every sentence?" I said.
"You're not yet! Do you think you, as an adult, are any better? You're still making 'ah ah ah' sounds all the time, and people who don't know you would think you can't speak!" she said.
“…” I said.
"What? I'm not really right, am I?" she said.
"Well, I used to be mute," I said.
“…Ha, are you serious?” she said, “Why didn’t you tell me earlier? I know sign language.”
"'Hello, how are you today? You are the best person I have ever met, and we will be good friends forever,'" I said. "'If possible, I want world peace'...are these said to me?"
"You forgot everything," she said.
"Will I forget?" I said.
"Of course," she pointed to the center of my forehead, put a red heart on it, and smiled. "You are human, so you will forget. This is an irreversible law of nature."
"But if you want to go against the will of heaven, just ignore what I said."
I quickly caught up and grabbed her hand, "I can't!!"
The girl turned and looked at me, shaking her head. She refuted me helplessly: "I'm sorry, but I don't believe someone from the past's evaluation of the future."
"What does this mean?" I wondered.
"What I mean is, you, a loser and an ungrateful person, have no right to have a future."
The girl grabbed me and we ran through the muddy and rugged ruins.
She laughed out loud, "Hahahahahaha, it feels so good to be able to speak freely hahahahahahahaha!"
"It's a pity that I've only been able to speak to my dear sister. I haven't been able to tell my brother my last wish yet."
The girl sighed.
"Alas, I stole someone else's body, stole someone else's vocal cords, became a bad boy, and lost the family affection that I longed for the most—"
"W-what?" I looked at the girl laughing hysterically, so I grabbed her shoulders hard and forced her to look at me.
Those little eyes, smiling so much, were already filled with tears.
She didn't speak and started signing again.
——【Shall we go to hell together?】
"Go home? Okay." My face stiffened and I grabbed the girl's wrist.
Facing her surprised expression, I pretended to be confused and gave my own unique explanation.
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Day 2 at Ruins No. 499.5.
Because the girl didn't have her own name, or maybe she didn't want to tell me yet.
Anyway, we both call each other "you".
Thanks to the fact that there was no one else in the ruins of No. 499.5, our names were not confused.
"You're back?"
Last night the girls and I put up a little tent together using a large sheet of plastic and a few poles.
When I came back from outside, I saw her lying in the tent, seemingly reading a book.
"I'm wanted," I said expressionlessly, approaching her. I put down the food I had painstakingly stolen from the department store today and sat down next to her. "It's the organization I once founded."
"Wow, congratulations."
Only then did I see clearly that what the girl was holding was a very damaged newspaper with a few large words written on it -
Home Weekly.
I laughed awkwardly and asked, "Aren't you hungry?"
The watch shows that it is 15:23 home time, and half a day has passed since we met.
The girl shook her head, her eyes fixed on him. "Do you see what I have in my hand? Precious spiritual nourishment, how can it compare to that kind of food?"
"Spiritual food?" I was confused. "But you're a human. Humans would get hungry if they don't eat for a long time, right?"
The girl glanced at me strangely and said, "Why do you think I'm human?"
"You, you look like a human, don't you? And..."
I frowned and looked at the bags of old biscuits I had placed on the plastic sheet, and suddenly felt a little uncomfortable (note:).
"Ha, okay, okay, I'll eat, but I'm not hungry yet." The girl waved her hand and smoothed my eyebrows.
"Also, isn't this place quite high-tech? Do you know anything about 'games'?"
"Game?" I didn't quite understand what she meant, and after repeating it, I just shook my head.
The girl raised an eyebrow.
She rolled over and threw the newspaper at me, then lay down on the plastic with her legs crossed.
"I don't know, never mind. Anyway, you just need to remember that I'm a character in a game, so I don't feel hungry like you robots. I don't even need to consume batteries."
The girl yawned.
"Ah—but my body will be hungry. When I wake up, um, I'll eat again... again..."
The girl fell asleep, and I had planned to read the newspaper while waiting for her to wake up and have dinner together.
Unexpectedly, she slept until 2 a.m. on the third day.
But at this time, I had already fallen asleep peacefully under the large newspaper with holes in it.
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