Chapter 243: Scene 30 (Inverted V) I spent my entire spring...
"haven't seen you for a long time……"
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"Humph, liar."
"Ha, I'm not a liar. I've done everything I promised you."
"Go to hell? Tang Xiqin, what did you promise me? To risk your life for another person, Tang Xiqin, is this what you promised me?!"
"'Hummingbird Squad, don't wish for tomorrow,' Captain, isn't that what you told me?"
"Tang Xiqin, you should be the one who knows best what 'Don't expect tomorrow' is all about, right?"
"...To live in the present." Tang Xiqin lowered her head, her soft hair covering the side of her face like a curtain, separating He Yuezhe from her. "Yes, I do know best."
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"But Captain," Tang Xiqin raised her head and gave a wry smile. "That's you. Because it's you, I can do anything, as long as it's for you and for everyone else."
"Tang Xiqin, you should live for yourself."
Tang Xiqin has a very awkward personality, but He Yuezhe knows that beneath her hard armor lies a crying child.
Tang Xiqin suffered too much pain in her childhood that she shouldn't have suffered, so everything she did later was for this child and for this child.
Tang Xiqin likes hot pot and spicy food, is very cold towards strangers, and has strong martial arts skills...
She armed herself with every possible means.
Then, a child wearing huge, heavy armor appeared.
She would stand in front of everyone again and again, facing danger alone, saying that she would take it and everyone else would go first.
She would fall and stand up again and again, but her tears were covered by her armor and no one knew she was crying.
She would also play with everyone from time to time, she would take care of everyone in every possible way, and she would not let anyone feel alone.
But after taking off the armor with great difficulty, the child's body was already covered with scars.
"Tang Xiqin," He Yuezhe said, "You are just like me, a complete fool."
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"You say, 'We have no home, we have no social connections, we suffer bullying, each of us is struggling to survive in that world.' Then look me in the eye, and I ask you, what do you call that which we worked so hard to buy? What is it between the five of us? This little piece of sky that each of us worked so hard to hold up, which should clearly protect us from bullying, what is it?"
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"Since you understand that 'Don't Dream of Tomorrow' is meant to teach everyone the importance of living in the present, then have you done it, Tang Xiqin? Tell me, are you living in the present?"
"I……"
"You don't, Tang Xiqin. You never live in the present. You always live in your past."
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"Tang Xiqin, do you regret it?"
"...Regret what?"
"I regret joining us, I regret becoming our friend."
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"Captain, I have never regretted anything." Tang Xiqin's voice was tired but gentle. "Being friends with you is the luckiest thing in my life. It is also the motivation that keeps me alive."
"Yeah?"
"certainly."
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"Captain, I'm not lying to you."
"I know, I know." He Yuezhe raised a smile, "By the way, you came here, is there anything else to do?"
"..." After a moment of silence, Tang Xiqin nodded, "Yeah."
"Is it about your past self?"
"Um."
Tang Xiqin said that she came here to save herself from the past who only knew how to endure.
He Yuezhe then asked her how she planned to save herself?
Tang Xiqin thought about it and replied that she felt that she could take action to let those bad kids know the harm of hurting others, or let them be criticized. In this way, once and for all, her past self would not be overshadowed by their shadow.
He Yuezhe then asked her again, if that was the case, would she, who only knew how to endure it, change at all because of her behavior?
Tang Xiqin was silent.
She knew best that such behavior was useless.
Because when this group of bad kids leaves, another group of bad kids will appear. There is never a shortage of bad kids in this world.
If she only tried to solve the problem from the bad kid's side, she wouldn't change much if she just endured it, so...
"So, have you thought of a good idea?" He Yuezhe asked.
"Well, I think I should have thought of it." Tang Xiqin replied.
So, she should find a way to cheer up her past self.
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“Clatter…”
“Clatter…”
Tang Xiqin didn't have much money. Apart from the money her adoptive mother and father gave her, she only had the money she earned from sneaking out of school to do odd jobs every week, and she had to save this money for buying medicine.
Using the ineffective shampoo she made according to the recipe in the book, Tang Xiqin turned on the faucet. Water flowed out quickly and the count on the meter below began to rise rapidly.
"Ugh..." The shampoo flowed into my eyes through the hair stuck to my face, causing a stinging sensation.
Fortunately, there wasn't much shampoo in my hair, so it was rinsed clean in no time.
Tang Xiqin picked up a towel and wiped her eyes.
In the mirror, a shocking scar grew from bottom to top on the girl's thin face, her eyes were red because of shampoo, and her wet hair was tucked behind her ears.
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The girl gave a stiff smile.
It was a standard eight-teeth smile, but all eight teeth were crooked and missing something.
“…” The corners of the girl’s mouth slowly dropped.
The smelly mud on the body was washed off, but perhaps because there was something else in it, a pile of mud piled up in the drain, making a terrible "gurgling" sound.
She squatted down, and with her bony little hands she dug up the soil bit by bit, picking out the piece of flesh that was blocking the drain from the gap in the drain.
Under the nails, it was very dirty. It was her flesh, with a strange smell and was very dirty.
The girl vomited.
Tears mixed with dirt, flesh, vomit containing grass and various unknown creatures, as well as a few bloody teeth, were cleaned up bit by bit.
“…” The girl took her shampoo and soap back to the dormitory.
On the dormitory door, there were the same dirty words written as always, but the girl ignored it and just pushed it open.
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"Who are you……?"
"hello."
"you……"
"Um?"
"Is this another little prank?" The girl lowered her eyes.
"A little trick to play pranks on people? No, no, no," the doll in beautiful clothes put her hands behind her back and shook her head. Her voice was cheerful, "It's a little trick to comfort people."
“…” The girl frowned.
"Come on, put your hand out." the puppet called out.
The girl hesitated for a moment, then stood at the door without moving.
"Hey, not bad," the doll's reaction was somewhat unexpected. "I thought you would just come over obediently."
"you……"
"Let's play a few simple games."
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"First, let me guess your name is Tang Xiqin! Is that right?"
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"So, why are you sad today? Let me guess - oh, is it because you were bullied?"
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"Oh, how boring! Why don't you say a word?"
"What do you want me to say?"
"Just say, 'Wow, you're so smart,' or 'Oh my god, you guessed them all right, that's amazing,' or something like that."
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“Boring, boring!”
"You," the girl asked, looking at the puppet sitting on her small table, legs swaying and a look of dissatisfaction on its face, wondering, "what on earth are you doing here?"
"Huh, didn't you guess it all?" The puppet snorted and turned its head away.
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"By the way, do you have any dreams?"
"'dream'……?"
"Yes, that's what you want to do when you grow up."
"Later" "Grow up"...
"I just want to live."
"If I may," the girl lowered her head and looked at her hands, "I would like to learn the bow."
"Learning the bow, oh, what a dream! And then?"
"Then," the girl raised her head and looked at the crumbling window, "I want to..."
"Bang!!"
The rickety window was flung open from the outside.
A strong wind blew in, and the girl was stunned on the spot, swallowing back the "dream" she had not finished speaking.
Then, petals, purple, red, yellow, pink, countless petals of various colors rushed in from the window.
The petals gently hit the girl, but it didn't hurt. Instead, it felt like a hug.
The petals gently embraced the girl, caressed her wounds, and held her hands. They were warm and full of the vitality of spring, warming the girl's body that had just been washed by cold water.
"Hello, Tang Xiqin."
Among the petals, a dreamy figure appeared in her sight.
She said, "I am you from the future."
"These are my little gifts for you. I don't know if you like them, but anyway..."
"I like it very much." Before the figure could finish speaking, the girl said, "I like it very much, thank you."
"Really? That's good."
The figure's face was blurry, but the girl was sure that she was smiling.
It was as if she was certain that this person was really her from the future.
"You must have suffered a lot today, right?" The figure's voice was gentle. "You've worked hard. You've been bearing it all by yourself for so long. It's been hard, really hard."
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"I'm sorry, I, I..."
"What's wrong with you?" Seeing the figure turning around, the girl took a few steps forward anxiously.
"Nothing, I just, I just don't know how to face you for a moment."
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"When I first knew I was going to come see you, I was very resistant because I was afraid that seeing you would remind me of everything in the past that I had finally forgotten. I really didn't want to, didn't want to..."
"My future self, have you still not become an invulnerable and strong person?"
"No, no, I guess I became, just, just..."
"But you still can't forget me, you can't leave me. But you are still trapped in the 'cage' like me, right?"
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"But you didn't have to forget me or leave me."
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"..." After a moment of silence, the girl said, "Do you hate me that much?"
"No, no, I don't hate you, I don't hate your..."
"But you resisted meeting me because you were afraid of me and the past."
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"Hey, future me." The girl patted the figure's shoulder. "You gave me a gift, so I'll give you one too."
"What……?"
Tang Xiqin turned around.
A small, skinny girl was smiling, a standard eight-tooth smile, very pretty, very pretty. Her wet hair covered the scar on her cheek, which was a medal of bravery. Looking down, in the girl's hand, there was a bouquet of bright flowers tied with her hair, which she handed to him.
"So beautiful..." Tang Xiqin murmured.
"Yes, it took me a long time to find this." The girl held up a variety of flowers and said, "My future self, thank you for bringing me primroses, thank you for letting me know the true secret of 'invulnerability', and thank you for bringing my spring."
"—I give you my whole spring."
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"Thank you, thank you..."
Tang Xiqin squatted down and hugged the girl.
The girl's thin body was so strong, like a weapon, sharp and fearless.
"Thank you for making me understand that what I need most is to accept my past."
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