Chapter 290 The Third Player
「Ahhhh, even though I guessed it, it still hurts... Help, I feel like Dazai is going to break apart.」
[Help, I'm about to break apart... These two endings can't be said to be completely unrelated, they can only be said to be exactly the same, Mr. Mochizuki, please turn around! ! Please turn around and look at him, please! ! (screaming at the top of his lungs.jpg)]
[The knife hurts so much... My Mochizuki teacher... I burst into tears!! My brother thought I was heartbroken, this hurts much more than heartbreak!!]
[He still didn’t make it in time, he still couldn’t catch up, he still couldn’t stop him… In the end, all that was left was a back view… The aftermath was really huge, who was the one who got stabbed twice in a row in an if story? It turned out to be me.]
[Silence. Sure enough, the ending is exactly the same as the previous episode... In fact, judging by the current ending, Mr. Mochizuki died two years earlier... It's so suffocating. I really can't read it at all. I've turned this page on and off four or five times. Who knows?]
The ending was pretty much what he had guessed before. Xi Hai Qing Dou touched his chin and felt a lot more relieved this time.
From his perspective, he guessed at a glance what happened to "Mochizuki Kaoru" in the comic.
The "special ability" is a random response, and it is very likely that he asked the world consciousness for active help, but Dazai Osamu's sudden appearance should have been beyond his expectations.
The "Cold War" that did not seem like a "Cold War" in the first few pages of the comic should be the "last side" he prepared for Dazai Osamu in the script. It could not only prevent Dazai Osamu from witnessing a farewell in person, reduce the irreversible shock and pain of a farewell in person, but also give the forum a blow - his farewell was destined to be an ending of a person that no one knew about. Isn't that great?
It is truly a win-win situation with no loss.
The result is that it is a pity that Dazai Osamu was too smart and sharp, and arrived too "just in time", which resulted in him having to urgently revise the final script.
If he had shown up one minute later, if he had only had time to see the empty ground... maybe even his script this time would have been different.
——After all, his scripts were all supplemented and modified according to Dazai Osamu's ideas. When Dazai Osamu knew nothing about it, would there be any new changes in his scripts... who can say for sure?
But it seems a bit late to say this now? After all, everything has come to an end now.
Saikai Haruto touched his nose with a guilty conscience and continued to read the comic - yes, the content of the last chapter was much more than any of the previous chapters. After the original "future" content recorded in the "book" ended, there was also a part of the present reality.
In a white background, the first thing that appears at the beginning is a long paragraph of black text, as if two people are having a conversation.
——『Please do me a favor.』
——『Eh? We haven't contacted each other for a long time, so why are you being so cold right off the bat?』
——『…I’m counting on you, Chiaki.』
——『The result is actually even more unaccustomed to it...So, Kaoru-chan, what kind of trouble or important matter is it that requires you to specifically ask me for help?』
——"I will probably be away from Yokohama for a long time, and I'm not sure if I will come back. If I haven't found you by mid-June, I hope you can help me send some gifts to the children at home."
——『…A farewell gift?』
——『Yes. The item is on its way to you.』
——"Okay, remember to owe me one, Kaoru-chan."
——『Forget it.』
——『Eh, what?』
——『I can’t pay it back.』
——"Are you planning to cheat me? Then just keep owing me and pay me back the next time we meet. I'm very generous."
"By the way, remember what I said, Kaoru-chan... don't do anything that you will regret."
——『Something I will regret? No, it’s something I have already decided.』
"goodbye."
Although it can be vaguely seen that it is a conversation between Mochizuki Kaoru and someone, because the background and cause and effect are all missing, this conversation looks a bit foggy in the barrage... It's like the riddler's style has suddenly returned, and many of the barrages express the meaning of "I don't understand".
After this conversation in which no human figures appeared from beginning to end ended, the background in the next frame appeared to be in Mochizuki Kaoru's house, and the figures of Dazai Osamu and others appeared.
Dazai Osamu lowered his head and looked at the "book" in his hand that looked like a notebook. On the first page of the book, the content read -
"Giving Odasaku to a friend"
Dazai Osamu remained silent and handed the letter to Odasaku.
Odasaku continued to turn the page, but his expression was stunned for a moment: "Dazai..."
"Although it's a book for Dazai, Odasaku, and Ango, if I write 'For Dazai', I think Odasaku and Ango might not be able to say goodbye to this book. If I write 'For Ango', it will probably be taken away by Dazai as well. So after thinking about it, it's better to write 'For Odasaku' on the first page, right?"
The handwriting was the penmanship of Mochizuki Kaoru. It was a very ordinary paragraph of words, but it made Oda Saku feel a sense of familiarity from the bottom of his heart - as if Mochizuki Kaoru was still by his side and had not left yet.
Dazai Osamu twitched the corners of his mouth, as if he wanted to laugh, but he couldn't laugh, so he stopped.
He was very familiar with this line of words - he had seen it before in "Books" and in the farewell letter that Mochizuki Kaoru left for him.
When leaving, Mochizuki Kaoru told him that he left behind a book that Dazai Osamu had seen before. Dazai Osamu had indeed seen it before. It was a long time ago, at a party at Mochizuki Kaoru's house. Mochizuki Kaoru, who was sitting next to him, was holding a pen and writing and drawing on a notebook. This made him think of the farewell letter that Mochizuki Kaoru in the "book" had left behind, which had been prepared long ago, and the last sentence in the letter was "goodbye".
Sure enough, when he returned to Mochizuki Kaoru's house, Dazai Osamu found the notebook easily.
However, starting from the next page, everything was different from what he saw in his "memory".
There is no mention of any farewell, nor any other content related to "books" or "Dazai Osamu"... Instead, he wrote about his life from the time he left Europe and returned to Yokohama. His writing style is no longer as sharp and piercing as that of a "bystander", but instead carries a unique gentle flavor of life.
...It looks more like an essay or diary recording life.
Nakajima Atsushi next to him poked his head out curiously: "Eh? Is this book about Mr. Mochizuki's past?"
It seems to be the case?
From returning to Yokohama and having a chance encounter with Natsume Soseki, to meeting the amnesiac Rimbaud and taking him in, to starting on the path of writing, to later meeting Dazai Osamu, Odasaku, Sakaguchi Ango, and later adopting Nakajima Atsushi...it's like the person of "Mochizuki Kaoru" has been completely dissected in front of everyone's eyes.
All his memories were recorded in this book, and it is obvious that it is not something that can be completed in a day or a night... In other words, this book has been continuously updated by Mochizuki Kaoru in every day.
Dazai Osamu was stunned and couldn't react for a moment.
"Mr. Mochizuki... Mr. Dazai, and Mr. Oda, I miss him a little. When will Mr. Mochizuki come back?"
Nakajima Atsushi asked quietly, looking a little sad.
Mochizuki Kaoru had promised him that she would come back early, but she never showed up... Dazai Osamu did not tell the truth to Nakajima Atsushi, but hid it from him. He only told him that Mochizuki Kaoru had something important to do, so she would be away for a long time and could not come back for the time being, and he could not contact him.
Although Nakajima Atsushi felt a little disappointed, he was still sensible and didn't say anything, but he still couldn't help feeling a little missed and worried.
Dazai Osamu did not answer.
In the last few pages of the book, those warm daily records come to an end temporarily, and finally a new turn appears -
Kaoru Mochizuki frankly reveals her true identity: she is not a real human, but a supernatural life form now named "Kaoru Mochizuki".
"One day, I suddenly realized something clearly - I will die in the future - or leave. That future is not far away from the present, or perhaps it is very close. ... Will I choose to leave in the future because of someone or something? Different from the fear and anxiety of human beings about death, I began to feel curious - why would I make such a choice in the future? ... The person who knows me best is myself."
...Mr. Mochizuki guessed that his future self might leave earlier than he thought.
Dazai Osamu's eyelashes trembled, and he once again felt a kind of vague dull pain coming from his heart.
[Damn it, he suddenly became so gentle and kind... But there was a dull feeling... I felt like crying again for no reason... After reading the previous part, I really don’t feel like crying now! Ahhhh wyx, you owe me tears ahhhh]
[Fuck, too gentle, wyx you really... got fooled again, I really swallowed this gentle knife of my mother willingly!! (crying)]
[What a cute opening line, Mr. Mochizuki... I can't imagine that there will be a day when I can laugh and cry at the same time, but I feel like I was stabbed but healed at the same time... Mr. Mochizuki wants to say that I will never regret meeting Dazai and the others, right? It is the comfort of a gentle adult.]
【所以下半部分呢？下半部分在哪裏？？可惡太宰治不要停在這裏啊——】
『……後面的部分，不見了。』
太宰治低頭握住了手中的書，思索：『是被人拿走了麽？』後面明顯還有許多缺失的內容。
但是又有誰能将後半部分的內容拿走呢？而且他拿走的原因又是什麽？
太宰治的腦海中劃過一個人的身影。
只有可能是一個答案——是望月薰自己将後面的部分藏起來的。
……但是，為什麽要把它藏起來？是不想留給他看麽？
直到幾個月後，太宰治才終于找到了答案。
接着太宰治幾人在一起看完上半本書的內容後面，下一行鏡頭又是一轉，時間直接跳到了六月十九日，畫面裏終于出現了一個長發身影。
人來人往的橫濱街道上，看不太清長相的長發青年穿着與周圍人格格不入的黑色大衣，雙手插進口袋裏，鼻梁上架着一副眼鏡，一路悠閑地行走，中途先是在郵局“坂口安吾”寄了封寄信人填着“望月薰”名字的信件，最後停留在蘭波的家門前，悠悠地嘆了口氣：『終于到了。還真是會給我出難題啊，薰醬。』
青年擡起頭，露出了清晰的面容。
溫和清隽的五官，狹長明亮的眼眸，有些蒼白的臉龐，還有鼻梁上一副讓人格外眼熟的細方框眼鏡。看上去約莫二十來歲的青年長相俊美，白色的長發垂在身後，臉上挂着淺淡的笑意，身上卻莫名其妙地帶着一股斯文敗類的味道。
雖然這個面孔在此之前從未在漫畫裏出現過，對于大多數的彈幕來也說都是屬于“陌生人”的範疇，但對于小部分的“雙擔”和“多擔”來說，卻也算得上是個能夠一眼認出來的“熟人”了。
【卧槽，我看到了什麽？這個是君度嗎？？這是又夢幻聯動了嗎？？】
【啊啊啊啊是君度啊！我推我死都不會認錯！我看過柯之前和文野聯動的劇場版！君度和薰醬是好友來着的！所以前面的是薰醬和君度的對話嗎？！雙推人忽然爽到了】
【靠，所以君度這是為了望月老師又來橫濱了嗎？你倆一個薰醬一個千秋的，不是我說你倆是不是多少有點子暧昧了】
【盲猜一個書的下半部分是在君度這裏……給蘭波和安吾都送了，也給輪到宰了吧？今天是宰的生日诶！盲猜一下，是望月老師打算在今天回不來的話就讓君度給太宰送東西麽？】
【蘭波居然還能有戲份……淚目了，冷圈薰蘭人在這裏悄咪咪地磕一小小口】
【沒看過聯動內容，所以這個新帥哥是叫君度嗎？好帥，我感覺我又一見鐘情了……我永遠喜歡白毛紙片人！！（震聲.jpg）】
……看來觀衆對于“君度”的出場、還有他和望月薰的朋友關系倒是沒什麽抵觸的态度。西海晴鬥稍稍松了口氣。
不過“君度”和“望月薰”之間“暧昧”是什麽鬼？西海晴鬥一臉黑線，雖然這麽長的時間下來他多多少少對于觀衆的沒事愛瞎磕點cp、看哪都是“cp發糖”的狀态已經有所免疫了，大多數時間甚至已經學會了大腦自動忽略外加自我催眠，但是不得不說，這一回彈幕的發言還是有把他震驚到。
從未想過的道路突然莫名其妙又多了一條。
西海晴鬥将漫畫又翻了一頁，後面的內容便是“君度”在給蘭波送“望月薰”的禮物之後，又出現在望月薰的家裏，忽悠中島敦、與織田作差點打了一架、後又等到了太宰治，交談一番之後轉身離開，又在外面将藏在身上的竊聽器扔進垃圾桶裏、又給前田編輯送了本書……等等的內容。
好在漫畫裏沒有畫出他在離開“望月薰”的家中後一路疾走的畫面，而是讓他保持了一個神秘深沉的帥哥應有的逼格……西海晴鬥大松了一口氣。
而太宰治将“君度”留下的書的後半截內容打開，後半部分的內容也終于“重見天日”。
與上半部分記錄的溫馨日常不同，下半部分也算是“望月薰”的一個“自我剖析”，但不同的是，他所剖析的內容變了。
他在書中提起了太宰治的異常，也是在上半部分沒有寫到過的內容——在他第一次見到太宰治的時候，就已經在他的身上發現了奇怪的違和感。
太宰治是認識他的，而且很熟悉——作為一個敏銳的前情報販子現推理小說家，望月薰很快就得出了這樣的結論——而且在他的認知裏，他們的關系會很好。
這也是他會選擇那麽快地接納太宰治的原因。
對于太宰治身上的異常，與其說是“視而不見”，不如說他是将一切都看在了眼裏、但全都隐藏在了自己的腦海深處。
也同樣是根據太宰治所表現出來的異常，望月薰也在不久後得出了一個結論——太宰治或許是曾經通過某種方法見到過“未來”，而未來的他會“離開”。
再之後的內容，就是望月薰本人的思考了。有早就決定好的直面未來，剖析另一個“望月薰”會做出的選擇與選擇的原因，還有在“太宰治”出現之後，他的一些更新的，與“太宰治”，還有與“書”有關的抽絲剝繭的解析。
最後是有關對太宰治的安慰與開解，作為最後的結尾。
當然，這是單給太宰治——至于給織田作、給坂口安吾還有蘭波等其他人的部分，也全都是其他的不一樣的內容就是了。
比如對坂口安吾的肯定與他的行為的解釋，還有有關“從始至終一直是朋友”的堅定回複。
比如對織田作的，有關“殺手”與“小說家”身份的認知與認同，對過往的剖析，還有對未來的一個期許……在最後仍在鼓勵織田作早點把寫出來的小說發表出去成為小說家。
……等等等等。
每個人的部分都是不一樣的內容。
主打一個端水大師，人人都有一份。
——這一回才是真正的，望月薰所留下的，離別的信。
漫畫的最後，跳轉到了兩個多月後，幾格太宰治和其他人的日常生活片段之後，鏡頭轉到了外面的大街上，“知名推理小說家望月久留美”的“封筆之作”《Good Bye》進行了發售，而中島敦，則是在這一天也收到了一封署名來自“望月薰”的信件。
最後的最後，中島敦将信件打開，看到了信件上的內容。
的确是望月薰的筆跡，是一封以“出門在外，在各地環游”的口吻，給中島敦帶了日常問候和安慰的信件。
信件的最後，夾雜了一句望月薰寫下的鼓勵，與“會早日歸來”的話語。
雖然仍未等到望月薰本人回來，也未等到确定他會在什麽時候回來的信息，但中島敦仍是因為這封信的出現而重新堅定了他會回來的信心。
『太宰先生！』中島敦将手中的信高高舉起，臉上帶着克制不住的興高采烈的笑容：『望月老師給我寫信了！你看到了麽？他說他會努力盡早回來的！』
太宰治伸手接過，看着信件的內容，臉上少有的，又一次露出了極度溫柔的微笑。
『是的哦，敦君。』他說：『望月老師一定會回來的。』
【好甜的糖……甜個鬼啊你覺得我會相信這是HE嗎？！可惡啊都大結局了給我把望月老師還回來啊！！！你這糖怎麽比刀子還疼啊？？！】
【不要BE不要BE不要BE不要BE不要BE！！！BE篇就應該配HE啊！！我真的真的要生氣了！！！】
【可惡這封信還有太宰的微笑我居然又看哭了，明明前幾頁剛看哭了一回……硬生生看了三天才看完，眼睛徹底不能見人了，我真的要破防了，這個結局就是來騙我的眼淚的吧？！！】
【他連離開之後都是這麽溫柔……啊啊啊啊我放不下我是真的放不下啊！！！！憑什麽是這個結尾啊？讓他給我回來再結尾啊！！！】
【怪不得上一話不完結，呵呵呵原來在這裏等着再捅我幾刀呢，把我淩遲了你終于滿意了是嗎？？天殺的zw我上輩子殺人放火這輩子看文野BE篇】
密密麻麻的彈幕一打開很快就淹沒了整個屏幕，讓人甚至無法看清上面的彈幕內容都是什麽——剛浮現出一行字就被另一行新出現的字覆蓋了過去。
西海晴鬥索性将彈幕給關掉了。
……這應該算是一個溫柔的開放式的結尾吧？
西海晴鬥不确定地想。
他對于這個結尾倒是還算頗為滿意的，不然也不會給中島敦寄那麽一封信了。
Until the end, the "death" of "Mochizuki Kaoru" has not been confirmed, and it is still in a Schrödinger's state... Whether it is BE, HE, or TE depends on how the readers understand it. Although rationally speaking, the former is still the most likely, but in short, this is the result of his best effort not to make too many people sad.
...I'm just not sure what the feedback on the forum will be like after the ending changed from BE to the current ending.
Although such an "ending" might leave readers with a less profound impression than a true BE, Xi Hai Qing Dou thought about it and thought that it was probably because of the little bit of conscience he still had that he was unable to come up with a definite BE ending.
If it is really confirmed that "Mochizuki Kaoru" is "dead", Saikai Haruto thinks, at least for Dazai Osamu...it is indeed a bit too cruel and excessive, right?
After all, he wasn't really dead.
He would feel guilty if he dragged someone into the quagmire of despair because of this.
...Well, it seems that he is a gentle and kind person.
Xi Haiqing Dou nodded, reaffirming his own nature.
Although it is impossible for him to release the "Mochizuki Kaoru" pseudonym again in the short term, but after he stirs up trouble on the forum... ahem, after he has gathered enough energy, he will be able to appear again in the "extra of the extra" that cannot be seen in the comics and forums.
Anyway, it's never too late to have a happy ending, right?
After convincing himself, Xi Haiqing Dou rubbed his hands, stopped looking at the barrage, and opened the forum impatiently.