Chapter 290 The Third Player
"Ahhhh, even though I guessed it, it still hurts... Help, I feel like Dazai is going to break apart."
[Help, I'm about to break apart... These two endings can't be said to be completely unrelated, they can only be said to be exactly the same, Mr. Mochizuki, please turn around! ! Please turn around and look at him, please! ! (screaming at the top of his lungs.jpg)]
[The knife hurts so much... My Mochizuki teacher... I burst into tears!! My brother thought I was heartbroken, this hurts much more than heartbreak!!]
[He still didn't make it in time, he still couldn't catch up, he still couldn't stop him… In the end, all that was left was a back view… The aftermath was really huge, who was the one who got stabbed twice in a row in an if story? It turned out to be me.]
[Silence. Sure enough, the ending is exactly the same as the previous episode... In fact, judging by the current ending, Mr. Mochizuki died two years earlier... It's so suffocating. I really can't read it at all. I've turned this page on and off four or five times. Who knows?]
The ending was pretty much what he had guessed before. Xi Hai Qing Dou touched his chin and felt a lot more relieved this time.
From his perspective, he guessed at a glance what happened to "Mochizuki Kaoru" in the comic.
The "special ability" is a random response, and it is very likely that he asked the world consciousness for active help, but Dazai Osamu's sudden appearance should have been beyond his expectations.
The "Cold War" that did not seem like a "Cold War" in the first few pages of the comic should be the "last side" he prepared for Dazai Osamu in the script. It could not only prevent Dazai Osamu from witnessing a farewell in person, reduce the irreversible shock and pain of a farewell in person, but also give the forum a blow - his farewell was destined to be an ending of a person that no one knew about. Isn't that great?
It is truly a win-win situation with no loss.
The result is that it is a pity that Dazai Osamu was too smart and sharp, and arrived too "just in time", which resulted in him having to urgently revise the final script.
If he had shown up one minute later, if he had only had time to see the empty ground... maybe even his script this time would have been different.
——After all, his scripts were all supplemented and modified according to Dazai Osamu's ideas. When Dazai Osamu knew nothing about it, would there be any new changes in his scripts... who can say for sure?
But it seems a bit late to say this now? After all, everything has come to an end now.
Saikai Haruto touched his nose with a guilty conscience and continued to read the comic - yes, the content of the last chapter was much more than any of the previous chapters. After the original "future" content recorded in the "book" ended, there was also a part of the present reality.
In a white background, the first thing that appears at the beginning is a long paragraph of black text, as if two people are having a conversation.
——『Please do me a favor.』
——『Eh? We haven't contacted each other for a long time, so why are you being so cold right off the bat?』
——『…I'm counting on you, Chiaki.』
——『The result is actually even more unaccustomed to it...So, Kaoru-chan, what kind of trouble or important matter is it that requires you to specifically ask me for help?』
——"I will probably be away from Yokohama for a long time, and I'm not sure if I will come back. If I haven't found you by mid-June, I hope you can help me send some gifts to the children at home."
——『…A farewell gift?』
——『Yes. The item is on its way to you.』
——"Okay, remember to owe me one, Kaoru-chan."
——『Forget it.』
——『Eh, what?』
——『I can't pay it back.』
——"Are you planning to cheat me? Then just keep owing me and pay me back the next time we meet. I'm very generous."
"By the way, remember what I said, Kaoru-chan... don't do anything that you will regret."
——『Something I will regret? No, it's something I have already decided.』
"goodbye."
Although it can be vaguely seen that it is a conversation between Mochizuki Kaoru and someone, because the background and cause and effect are all missing, this conversation looks a bit foggy in the barrage... It's like the riddler's style has suddenly returned, and many of the barrages express the meaning of "I don't understand".
After this conversation in which no human figures appeared from beginning to end ended, the background in the next frame appeared to be in Mochizuki Kaoru's house, and the figures of Dazai Osamu and others appeared.
Dazai Osamu lowered his head and looked at the "book" in his hand that looked like a notebook. On the first page of the book, the content read -
"Giving Odasaku to a friend"
Dazai Osamu remained silent and handed the letter to Odasaku.
Odasaku continued to turn the page, but his expression was stunned for a moment: "Dazai..."
"Although it's a book for Dazai, Odasaku, and Ango, if I write 'For Dazai', I think Odasaku and Ango might not be able to say goodbye to this book. If I write 'For Ango', it will probably be taken away by Dazai as well. So after thinking about it, it's better to write 'For Odasaku' on the first page, right?"
The handwriting was the penmanship of Mochizuki Kaoru. It was a very ordinary paragraph of words, but it made Oda Saku feel a sense of familiarity from the bottom of his heart - as if Mochizuki Kaoru was still by his side and had not left yet.
Dazai Osamu twitched the corners of his mouth, as if he wanted to laugh, but he couldn't laugh, so he stopped.
He was very familiar with this line of words - he had seen it before in "Books" and in the farewell letter that Mochizuki Kaoru left for him.
When leaving, Mochizuki Kaoru told him that he left behind a book that Dazai Osamu had seen before. Dazai Osamu had indeed seen it before. It was a long time ago, at a party at Mochizuki Kaoru's house. Mochizuki Kaoru, who was sitting next to him, was holding a pen and writing and drawing on a notebook. had been prepared long ago, and the last sentence in the letter was "goodbye".
Sure enough, when he returned to Mochizuki Kaoru's house, Dazai Osamu found the notebook easily.
However, starting from the next page, everything was different from what he saw in his "memory".
There is no mention of any farewell, nor any other content related to "books" or "Dazai Osamu"... Instead, he wrote about his life from the time he left Europe and returned to Yokohama. His writing style is no longer as sharp and piercing as that of a "bystander", but instead carries a unique gentle flavor of life.
...It looks more like an essay or diary recording life.
Nakajima Atsushi next to him poked his head out curiously: "Eh? Is this book about Mr. Mochizuki's past?"
Does it seem to be the case?
From returning to Yokohama and having a chance encounter with Natsume Soseki, to meeting the amnesiac Rimbaud and taking him in, to starting on the path of writing, to later meeting Dazai Osamu, Odasaku, Sakaguchi Ango, and later adopting Nakajima Atsushi...it's like the person of "Mochizuki Kaoru" has been completely dissected in front of everyone's eyes.
All his memories were recorded in this book, and it is obvious that it is not something that can be completed in a day or a night... In other words, this book has been continuously updated by Mochizuki Kaoru in every day.
Dazai Osamu was stunned and couldn't react for a moment.
"Mr. Mochizuki... Mr. Dazai, and Mr. Oda, I miss him a little. When will Mr. Mochizuki come back?"
Nakajima Atsushi asked quietly, looking a little sad.
Mochizuki Kaoru had promised him that she would come back early, but she never showed up... Dazai Osamu did not tell the truth to Nakajima Atsushi, but hid it from him. He only told him that Mochizuki Kaoru had something important to do, so she would be away for a long time and could not come back for the time being, and he could not contact him.
Although Nakajima Atsushi felt a little disappointed, he was still sensible and didn't say anything, but he still couldn't help feeling a little missed and worried.
Dazai Osamu did not answer.
In the last few pages of the book, those warm daily records come to an end temporarily, and finally a new turn appears -
Kaoru Mochizuki frankly reveals her true identity: she is not a real human, but a supernatural life form now named "Kaoru Mochizuki".
"One day, I suddenly realized something clearly - I will die in the future - or leave. That future is not far away from the present, or perhaps it is very close. ... Will I choose to leave in the future because of someone or something? Different from the fear and anxiety of human beings about death, I began to feel curious - why would I make such a choice in the future? ... The person who knows me best is myself."
...Mr. Mochizuki guessed that his future self might leave earlier than he thought.
Dazai Osamu's eyelashes trembled, and he once again felt a kind of vague dull pain coming from his heart.
[Damn it, he suddenly became so gentle and kind... But there was a dull feeling... I felt like crying again for no reason... After reading the previous part, I really don't feel like crying now! Ahhhh wyx, you owe me tears ahhhh]
[Fuck, too gentle, wyx you really... got fooled again, I really swallowed this gentle knife of my mother willingly!! (crying)]
[What a cute opening line, Mr. Mochizuki... I can't imagine that there will be a day when I can laugh and cry at the same time, but I feel like I was stabbed but healed at the same time... Mr. Mochizuki wants to say that I will never regret meeting Dazai and the others, right? It is the comfort of a gentle adult.]
[So what about the second half? Where is the second half? Damn it, Dazai Osamu, please don’t stop here——]
"...The back part is missing."
Dazai Osamu lowered his head and held the book in his hand, thinking: "Was it taken away by someone?" It was obvious that there was a lot of missing content at the back.
But who could have taken away the second half? And why would he have taken it away?
A figure flashed through Dazai Osamu's mind.
There could only be one possible answer - Mochizuki Kaoru hid the latter part herself.
...But why hide it? Don't you want to show it to him?
It wasn't until several months later that Dazai finally found the answer.
After Dazai Osamu and his companions finished reading the first half of the book together, the next shot changed again, and the time jumped directly to June 19th, and a figure with long hair finally appeared in the screen.
On the busy streets of Yokohama, a long-haired young man with a hard-to-see face wearing a black coat that doesn't fit in with the people around him, with his hands in his pockets and a pair of glasses on his nose, walked leisurely along the way. On the way, he first mailed a letter with the sender's name "Mochizuki Kaoru" at the post office "Sakaguchi Ango", and finally stopped in front of Rimbaud's house and sighed leisurely: "Finally here. You really know how to give me a hard time, Kaoru-chan."
The young man raised his head, revealing his clear face.
Gentle and elegant facial features, narrow and bright eyes, a pale face, and a pair of familiar thin square-framed glasses on the bridge of his nose. The young man, who looked to be about twenty years old, was handsome, with long white hair hanging behind him, a faint smile on his face, but he inexplicably had a kind of gentlemanly and corrupt smell.
Although this face has never appeared in comics before, and is considered a "stranger" by most of the commentators, it is considered an "acquaintance" who can be recognized at a glance by a small number of "double-loaded" and "multi-loaded" characters.
[What the hell, what did I see? Is this Cointreau? ? Is this another dream connection? ? ]
[Ahhh it’s Cointreau! I will never admit my mistake! I’ve seen the movie that Ko and Bunno collaborated on before! Cointreau and Kaoru are good friends! So is the previous conversation between Kaoru and Cointreau? ! I’m suddenly happy as a double voter.]
[Shit, so Cointreau is coming to Yokohama again for Mochizuki-sensei? You two, one is Konjac and the other is Chiaki, I mean, there must be something ambiguous between you two.]
[I'm guessing that the lower half of a book is here at Cointreau... I've given it to Rimbaud and Ango, so it's Dazai's turn now, right? Today is Dazai's birthday! I'm guessing that if Mochizuki-sensei can't come back today, does Cointreau plan to give something to Dazai?]
[Rimbaud actually still has a role... I'm in tears, and I'm just a little disappointed here]
[I haven't seen the crossover content, so is this new handsome guy called Cointreau? So handsome, I feel like I'm in love at first sight again... I will always like white-haired paper men!! (shock.jpg)]
…It seems that the audience has no objection to the appearance of “Cointreau” and his friendship with Mochizuki Kaoru. Saikai Haruto heaved a sigh of relief.
But what on earth is the "ambiguity" between "Cointreau" and "Mochizuki Kaoru"? Saikai Haruto was very confused. Although he had been more or less immune to the audience's random CPs and "CP sweets" for so long, and most of the time he had even learned to ignore it and hypnotize himself, he had to admit that this comment on the bullet screen still shocked him.
Suddenly, a road that I had never thought of appeared inexplicably.
Saikai Haruto turned the page of the comic, and the following content is that after "Cointreau" gave Rimbaud a gift for "Mochizuki Kaoru", he appeared at Mochizuki Kaoru's house, fooled Nakajima Atsushi, almost had a fight with Oda Saku, and then waited for Dazai Osamu, turned around and left after a conversation, threw the eavesdropping device hidden on his body into the trash can outside, and gave the book to editor Maeda... and so on.
Fortunately, the comics did not show him running all the way after leaving "Mochizuki Kaoru"'s house, but instead allowed him to maintain the demeanor of a mysterious and deep handsome man... Xihai Haruto breathed a sigh of relief.
Dazai Osamu opened the second half of the book left by "Cointreau", and the second half of the content finally "saw the light of day".
Different from the warm daily life recorded in the first half, the second half can also be regarded as a "self-analysis" of "Mochizuki Kaoru", but the difference is that the content of his analysis has changed.
He mentioned Dazai Osamu's abnormality in the book, which was not mentioned in the first half - when he first met Dazai Osamu, he had already discovered a strange sense of disharmony in him.
Dazai Osamu knew him and was very familiar with him - as a sharp former intelligence dealer and current mystery novelist, Mochizuki Kaoru quickly came to this conclusion - and in his opinion, their relationship would be very good.
This is also the reason why he chose to accept Dazai Osamu so quickly.
As for the abnormality in Dazai Osamu, it is not so much that he turned a blind eye to it, but it is all hidden deep in his mind.
Also based on the abnormality shown by Dazai Osamu, Mochizuki Kaoru soon came to a conclusion - Dazai Osamu may have seen the "future" through some method, and in the future he will "leave".
The following content is the thoughts of Kaoru Mochizuki himself. There is the long-decided face-to-face future, analyzing the choices and reasons of another "Kaoru Mochizuki", and after the appearance of "Dazai Osamu", some of his newer analysis related to "Dazai Osamu" and "books".
The finale is about comfort and enlightenment for Dazai Osamu.
Of course, this is just for Dazai Osamu - as for the parts for Oda Saku, Sakaguchi Ango, Rimbaud and others, they are all other different contents.
For example, the affirmation of Sakaguchi Ango and the explanation of his behavior, as well as the firm response that "we have always been friends."
For example, the author's understanding and recognition of Odasaku's identities as a "killer" and a "novelist", an analysis of the past, and expectations for the future... In the end, he still encouraged Odasaku to publish his novels as soon as possible and become a novelist.
…and so on.
Each person's part has different content.
The main character is a master of balancing things, and everyone has a role to play.
——This time it is the real farewell letter left by Mochizuki Kaoru.
At the end of the comic, the film jumps to more than two months later. After a few clips of Dazai Osamu and others' daily life, the camera turns to the street outside, where the "final work" of "famous mystery novelist Mochizuki Kurumi" "Good Bye" is released, and Nakajima Atsushi also receives a letter signed from "Mochizuki Kaoru" on the same day.
Finally, Nakajima Atsushi opened the letter and saw its contents.
It was indeed the handwriting of Mochizuki Kaoru, and it was a letter written in the tone of "I'm away from home, traveling around", bringing daily greetings and comfort to Nakajima Atsushi.
At the end of the letter, there was a sentence of encouragement written by Mochizuki Kaoru, and the words "I will come back soon".
Although he has not yet waited for Kaoru Mochizuki to return, nor has he received any information confirming when he will return, Nakajima Atsushi has reaffirmed his confidence that he will come back because of the appearance of this letter.
"Mr. Dazai!" Nakajima Atsushi raised the letter in his hand high, with an irrepressible smile on his face: "Mr. Mochizuki wrote me a letter! Did you see it? He said he would try his best to come back as soon as possible!"
Dazai Osamu reached out to take it, looked at the contents of the letter, and once again showed an extremely gentle smile, which was rare on his face.
"Yes, Atsushi-kun." He said, "Teacher Mochizuki will definitely come back."
[Such sweet candy… How sweet is it? Do you think I will believe this is a happy ending?! Damn it! It’s the end now, please return Mr. Mochizuki to me!!! How come this candy of yours hurts more than a knife? ? ! ]
[Don’t BE, don’t BE, don’t BE, don’t BE!!! The BE chapter should have a HE end!! I’m really, really angry!!!]
[Damn, this letter and Dazai's smile made me cry again, even though I just cried a few pages ago... It took me three days to finish reading it. My eyes are so sore that I can't face people anymore. I'm really going to break down. Is this ending just to trick my tears? ! ! ]
[He was so gentle even after he left...Ahhhh I can't let go, I really can't let go!!! Why does it have to end like this? Let him come back before we end it!!!]
[No wonder the last chapter was not finished, hehe, it turns out you were waiting here to stab me a few more times. You finally feel satisfied after you tortured me, right? ? Damn it, zw, I killed and set fires in my last life, and I’m just watching the BE chapter of Wenye in this life]
Once the densely packed bullet screen is opened, it quickly fills up the entire screen, making it impossible to even see what the bullet screen says - as soon as a line of words appears, it is covered by another new line of words.
Xi Haiqing Dou simply turned off the bullet screen.
...This should be considered a gentle and open ending, right?
Saikai Haruto thought uncertainly.
He was quite satisfied with the ending, otherwise he would not have sent such a letter to Nakajima Atsushi.
Until the end, the "death" of "Mochizuki Kaoru" has not been confirmed, and it is still in a Schrödinger's state... Whether it is BE, HE, or TE depends on how the readers understand it. Although rationally speaking, the former is still the most likely, but in short, this is the result of his best effort not to make too many people sad.
...I'm just not sure what the feedback on the forum will be like after the ending changed from BE to the current ending.
Although such an "ending" might leave readers with a less profound impression than a true BE, Xi Hai Qing Dou thought about it and thought that it was probably because of the little bit of conscience he still had that he was unable to come up with a definite BE ending.
If it is really confirmed that "Mochizuki Kaoru" is "dead", Saikai Haruto thinks, at least for Dazai Osamu...it is indeed a bit too cruel and excessive, right?
After all, he wasn't really dead.
He would feel guilty if he dragged someone into the quagmire of despair because of this.
...Well, it seems that he is a gentle and kind person.
Xi Haiqing Dou nodded, reaffirming his own nature.
Although it is impossible for him to release the "Mochizuki Kaoru" pseudonym again in the short term, but after he stirs up trouble on the forum... ahem, after he has gathered enough energy, he will be able to appear again in the "extra of the extra" that cannot be seen in the comics and forums.
Anyway, it's never too late to have a happy ending, right?
After convincing himself, Xi Haiqing Dou rubbed his hands, stopped looking at the barrage, and opened the forum impatiently.
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