Think about it, just for this sentence, even if she died now, she would be happy, right? The sentence "I am willing" will make her remember it for the rest of her life, and she will be moved by it for the rest of her life. This will become her belief in living in this world, like a spell, completely enveloping her heart.
Xuan Tianhua never lied. If he said he was willing, he really was. Although he knew in his heart that the person who occupied the most space in his mind was not Feng Xiangrong, after all, he could not ask for that person. He had thought about living alone for the rest of his life, but he did not want to disappoint Concubine Yun, and he did not want to face Feng Yuheng and Xuan Tianming again many years later. Therefore, choosing one person to spend the rest of his life with was the best outcome.
As for the person he would spend his old age with, now it seems that, except for Feng Xiangrong, he really can't remember any other woman. It seems that except for Xuan Tiange and Feng Yuheng, all other women are just passing clouds in his eyes. Some people clearly talked to him, but he forgot about them afterwards. Some people clearly had intersections, but they could not leave any traces in his heart no matter what. He vaguely remembered the incident with Princess Zong Sui. Now thinking about it, he can remember that person's alias Yu Qianyin, but he can't even remember what she looked like or what her real name was.
On the contrary, it was Feng Xiangrong, a little girl. Every time he met her, he would always know that she was the third daughter of the Feng family. She looked very similar to Feng Yuheng, but her weak personality was completely different from Feng Yuheng. At first, Feng Yuheng asked him to take care of her, and later, he became accustomed to it. Whenever he met Xiangrong, he would treat her differently than others. He used to think that it was because of Feng Yuheng, but now thinking about it, maybe it was not entirely because of Feng Yuheng, but that little girl left a trace of impression and trace in his heart that was not immersed in the mortal world!
If you want to choose someone to spend the rest of your life with, then choose someone you can remember. Feng Xiangrong meets this condition.
Xuan Tianhua smiled, a smile of relief.
In the Jingcheng Crystal Courtyard, Feng Fendai half-lay on a rocking chair, letting it rock back and forth. She squinted her eyes, watching Xiaobao playing with the maid in front of her, and occasionally she would smile with satisfaction. But such a smile would soon disappear, and more often, a kind of confusion appeared on her face, a kind of confusion that she didn't know where to go in the future.
At the other end of the corridor of the courtyard, the fifth prince Xuan Tianyan was standing there looking over here. His eyes fell on Fendai in front of him. Looking at the white crystals on her ears, he felt dazed for a while.
The maid Dongying was standing beside the Fifth Prince at this time, looking at where the Fifth Prince's eyes were, with a hint of worry in her heart.
"How is your young lady doing these days?" The fifth prince finally asked, and his eyes turned away from Fendai and towards Xiaobao. The child was fairer, more mature and more beautiful than when he was little. Sometimes when his profile was exposed, he even had some of Feng Jinyuan's original shadow.
Dong Ying quickly answered, she said: "Your Highness, the young lady has not been in a very good state for the past month. These few days, she is even more lonely than the previous times Your Highness came to see her. She often sits in the yard like this for a whole day, either watching Xiaobao play, or chatting with the servants, but most of the time they talk about things in the Feng Mansion in the past, sometimes she is sad, and sometimes she gets angry."
"Really?" Xuan Tianyan's face was bitter. "What about him? Is he still taking good care of the child like before?"
"Yes." Dong Ying spoke truthfully, "Miss treats Xiao Bao well. Although she will slap him a few times when he cries too hard, she feels sorry for him after that and hugs him and cries. Xiao Bao is more sensible now and is very close to Miss. When Miss cries, he is by her side wiping her tears, which is heartbreaking to watch."
"That's good." Xuan Tianyan said, "At least she still has feelings for the child. She won't become a completely heartless and ungrateful person."
"Your Highness." Dong Ying was a little anxious. "I know that Miss is disappointing you, and I also know that our Miss has a bad temper. But she has Your Highness in her heart! Everything she does is for Your Highness's good, and she hopes to have a better future with Your Highness. So Your Highness, you must not give up on our Miss!"
After hearing this, Xuan Tianyan looked at Fendai again and said with a wry smile: "She is not doing this for my own good. She is only doing this for herself. If she really does this for my own good, she should understand that everything she does is not what I want. Well, you guys stay with her well. I'm leaving." After he finished speaking, he turned around and left without staying any longer.
Dongying wanted to call the person to stop, but Xiaobao fell down and started crying. Dongying hurried back, fearing that Xiaobao would cry and upset Fendai again. In fact, Fendai was not very kind to Xiaobao. Sometimes Xiaobao would even be beaten by Fendai when he cried. The child's back was covered with bruises, which were marks of being pinched by Fendai. But she didn't dare to tell the Fifth Prince about this. She could see that the Fifth Prince was very disappointed with her young lady. In the eyes of the Fifth Prince, Xiaobao was the only remaining love of Feng Fendai. If he was told about Xiaobao, he would only think that Fendai was ruthless and ungrateful. And Dongying didn't dare to think about the price of this ruthlessness and ungratefulness, for fear that it would be the worst result.
She held Xiaobao further away and kept coaxing him. On the other side, Fendai's eyebrows were already furrowed, and she said coldly to a maid, "Go and beat him! Beat him until he stops crying."
The woman had a stern face and was about to beat someone up after receiving the order, but Dongying held the child tightly and said loudly, "Miss, you can't hit him! How can a child not cry if he is beaten? The more he is beaten, the more he will cry! If you don't like him, I will send someone to take Xiaobao away, and carry him far away. I will bring him back for you to play with when he stops crying."
Feng Fendai snorted coldly, but did not insist. She just said, "Then hurry up and carry her away, so that she won't hear this fatal cry again."
Dongying quickly handed the child to a servant and told him to carry the child to the farthest courtyard. She returned to Fendai, knelt down and advised earnestly: "Miss, we really can't do this. If you are unhappy, I will accompany you for a walk. Or we can stay in a temple outside the city for a few days to calm down, okay?"
Fendai asked her puzzledly, "Why do you want to live in a temple? Do you know what a temple is? In the past, Shen from the Feng family was sent to a temple because she committed a crime. It's a place where criminals are locked up. Why am I going there for no reason?"
"That's not what I meant." Dong Ying was speechless. "I just wanted you to calm down. You've been a little angry lately and you're not in a good mood. If you continue like this, you'll get sick. And the young master, you've beaten him so hard that there's not much left on his body. You can't beat him anymore. The young master is a good kid. Even when you beat and pinch him like this, he still wants to be close to you. So for the sake of the kid wanting to be close to you, please stop beating him!"
"But I just want to beat him." Fendai straightened up and said to Dongying word by word: "I just want to beat him. Sometimes I even want to beat him to death!"
"But... why?" Dong Ying was puzzled. "Didn't Miss treat the young master very well in the past? You loved him so much and said that you had no relatives in this world. But the child is your closest relative and can keep you company in the mansion. How wonderful!"
"What's good about it?" Feng Fendai asked Dong Ying in a somewhat mysterious tone, "Have you noticed that the child looks more and more like... Feng Jinyuan!"⑧±(.*)⑧±⑧±,o
Dong Ying was startled, and got goose bumps all over her body. Xiao Bao looks like Feng Jinyuan? It seems a little bit. A few days ago, she heard the servants privately say that the child was getting fairer and fairer, and much more beautiful than when he was a child. And she looked at the profile of the child a few times, and there was indeed some shadow of Prime Minister Feng in the past. But...but the child is obviously not Feng Jinyuan's! Everyone knows that it is the child born from the affair between Han and an actor. Feng Jinyuan lost his reputation because of this and was regarded as a laughing stock by people in the whole capital. Why is it now...
"Do you find it strange too?" Feng Fendai said to Dong Ying, "He looks more and more like Feng Jinyuan. This is totally inconsistent with the facts at the beginning, right? Haha!" She shrugged and laughed, "I also find it strange. When my father left, my biological mother did not succeed in getting pregnant. After more than a month, there was no movement. She had no choice but to go to the actor for an affair. But there is always a chance of something happening. Every time I see Xiaobao recently, I think that maybe my aunt made a mistake in judgment at the beginning. The doctor she invited privately was not a reliable one. She was obviously pregnant, but she didn't diagnose it. In addition, the child was born with a dark complexion, which made everyone misunderstand. But look at him now. How old is he and he has already changed like this? In a few years, even a fool can see the difference from when he was young. I see that he looks more like Feng Jinyuan than Feng Zirui did!"
Dong Ying was a little scared when she heard this. She thought if this was true, how unjust was Han Yi Niang's death? How unjust was Xiao Bao's suffering?
She looked at Fendai and said after a while, "If that's the case, you should be even happier. Xiaobao is the Feng family's biological child. No one is blind and they will see it sooner or later. Then you can clear Aunt Han's name and Xiaobao's name, making him a real child of the Feng family and not being ashamed when he grows up."
"What good is that?" Fendai gritted her teeth and said fiercely, "The Feng family is gone, the Feng Mansion is gone, what good is there in having the identity of a Feng family child? I would rather he was a bastard. Why should my aunt give birth to a son for that old bastard Feng Jinyuan? He deserves to be cuckolded! I'll be happy if he dies, I'll have peace and quiet, I don't want to have anything to do with his Feng family anymore. But if he leaves such a seed by my side, and it happens to be born by my aunt... Dongying, tell me, should I strangle that evil seed to death?"
Dongying couldn't understand Feng Fendai's logic. It was obviously a good thing. It was obvious that Xiaobao would be a bastard if he was born to that actor. But why was it the other way around when it came to Fendai? Of course, she also knew Feng Fendai's hatred for the Feng family. How could a child of the Feng family not hate Feng Jinyuan? Even Feng Chenyu, who died first, probably hated her father!
"Miss, you're overthinking." She thought of the Fifth Prince's words again, and her heart trembled. She quickly brought the topic back, "I think Xiaobao is just a little whiter, but that's because he is well taken care of in our courtyard and eats good food every day, so he naturally looks better than before. But he doesn't look like Master Feng, not at all..."
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