Xuan Tianyi said that he was not afraid of being a burden, but he was afraid that Xiangrong would miss Lao Qi even more after following him. If she missed him too much, how would her body be able to bear it?
The carriage sped on the way back to Beijing. Xiangrong leaned against the carriage and closed her eyes to rest, but she couldn't rest for long. She would cough every time the carriage bumped. Her body was so weak that she seemed like she was about to fall down, but she still insisted on not letting the carriage stop and wanted to reach the capital as quickly as possible.
Xuan Tianyi couldn't bear it any longer, and said self-reproachfully, "I shouldn't have told you this news. Look at how sick I am, and I'm still suffering like this. If something happens to me, how can I live? Do you want me to die with you, or do you want me to keep blaming myself for the rest of my life?"
Xiangrong pushed Xuan Tianyi weakly, "Don't curse me, I'm not going to die yet. I wasn't there to show my respect to grandpa when he was alive, and now that he's gone, I can't go back in time to see him off. So, I have to burn some incense and kowtow three times in front of his grave, right? If I don't do anything, I'll be sorry for my second sister, and even more sorry for my own conscience."
"That's your second sister's grandfather." Xuan Tianyi was a little angry. "He's not your biological grandfather. You don't care about your own health just to go back and burn incense and kowtow? Feng Xiangrong, when can you think about yourself?"
Xiangrong frowned and glared at him unhappily, "You can't talk like that! Since ancient times, the legitimate daughter has been respected. My second sister is a legitimate daughter. In the past, Madam Yao was also the mistress of the Feng family. We children have to recognize the mistress's maternal clan as our relatives. I have called him grandpa since I was a child. Before the Yao family left the capital, he did fulfill his obligations as a grandfather. I could feel the love that I had never received in the Feng family when I went to the Yao family. The Yao family treated me the same as my second sister, and never looked down on or mistreat me because I was a concubine's daughter. Therefore, to me, he is a real grandpa. Xuan Tianyi, don't say that again in the future."
While she was talking, she coughed several times, and blood appeared on the handkerchief. An couldn't bear to watch, so she turned her head away to wipe her tears. Xiangrong grabbed An's hand and said, "Mother, don't be sad. I feel much better today."
An was helpless. She was getting more and more helpless with her daughter. She said to Xiangrong, "Didn't you say that you should live well for your mother? But why did you end up like this? Well, it's not your fault that you're sick. It's better to go back to Beijing. Since so many doctors in Yuzhou can't find out what's wrong with you, and even the doctors in Baicaotang are helpless, why not go back to Beijing? Maybe the doctors there can help. At worst... just stay in Beijing and wait for the second young lady. When she comes back, there will definitely be a solution."
Xiangrong did not refute. She also wanted to stay in the capital, but not because of her illness, but because information was more fluent in the capital. She just wanted to know whether her sudden strange illness was related to that person.
She closed her eyes slightly and stopped talking. The image of Xuan Tianhua kept rolling in her mind. In recent days, whenever she thought of that person, she would be terrified. Her heart felt empty, unlike before. Even if they couldn't be together, at least she knew he was still there, where he was, and then she could watch him from afar and miss him, which was fulfilling. But now this kind of emptiness was as if that person no longer existed in the world. The world was so big that she could never find that person again in her lifetime.
Xiangrong was very sad. She no longer expected anything to happen with Xuan Tianhua. As long as that person was alive and well and she could occasionally hear some news about him, it would be good enough. But now, why did she have such a bad feeling? She had clearly rejected the engagement with that person because she didn't want to bring him any disaster or danger. Wasn't that enough?
Bai Furong was also in the carriage, accompanying Xiangrong, without saying a word. She didn't have a very deep impression of Yao Xian, and the two had no direct contact. Unlike Feng Xiangrong, she was related to Yao Xian. She was an outsider to the Yao family and didn't have to rush back to the capital. But Yao Xian was Feng Yuheng's grandfather. Apart from the deep sisterly friendship between her and Feng Yuheng, she had also received a great favor from Feng Yuheng. That was a life-saving favor and a rebirth. Now that Feng Yuheng was on the battlefield of Zong Sui, she, as a sister, should go through this for Feng Yuheng. She knew that Ren Xifeng and Feng Tianyu in the capital would definitely go to the Yao family to see Yao Xian off for the last time. It was a pity that Xuan Tiange couldn't come back. The ancient Shu desert was too far away...
Indeed, the ancient Shu Desert was too far away, so far that even though the Yao family had sent a letter to Yao Shu in advance, the letter still did not reach Yao Shu's hands until Yao Xian's funeral was about to take place.
At that time, Yao Shu was a guest at the Ancient Shu Palace. He was invited by Xuan Tiange and Fan Tianli to spend the New Year in the Ancient Shu Palace. He did not receive the letter from the Yao family, but Fan Tianli learned the news of Yao Xian's death through his own channels. He told Xuan Tiange the news, and then Xuan Tiange was worried about how to tell Yao Shu.
The road was too far. Even if Yao Shu returned immediately, she would not be able to attend the funeral. The round trip would take more than four months, even at the fastest pace. If she stayed in Beijing for a while longer, half a year would have passed. As an official, Yao Shu could leave for half a month, but half a year was too long. But the Yao family valued family affection very much. If she didn't tell them about this, she was afraid that she would be blamed in the future.
Xuan Tiange was troubled by this for two days, and finally told Yao Shu the news. Yao Shu didn't believe it at first! It was obvious that Xuan Tiange was serious. Thinking about it again, no one could joke about such a thing, and then he realized that his grandfather really passed away. He was so grief-stricken that he fainted.
Xuan Tiange had no choice but to ask someone to look after him first, and then hurriedly sent a letter to the capital of Dashun by flying eagle, asking the Sixth Prince Xuan Tianfeng to be prepared. Once Yao Shu was about to return to the capital, someone had to take over in the desert, and it couldn't be left vacant for half a year. After all, it was a border area, and even though she was the queen of ancient Shu, she couldn't be careless about such things.
Fan Tianli felt that his wife was making a fuss over nothing. Since he married her, it meant that at least when he was alive, she must have been on good terms with Dashun. She would not take advantage of the lack of people guarding the border. But thinking about it again, it would be better to be cautious about this matter. If he did not move, it did not mean that others would not move. If someone with ulterior motives was hiding in a corner, then Gu Shu would have to bear the blame, which was not worth it.
So he took the initiative to help Xuan Tiange send the best flying eagle to deliver the letter to the capital of Dashun, and also sent the best doctor of Gu Shu to look after Yao Shu. Once he woke up, he would be sent out of Gu Shu. Whether to stay or go back was up to Yao Shu himself.
At the same time, Xuan Tianming, who was far away in Jiancheng, also received the news. Yao Xian passed away, and the relative that Feng Yuheng cared about the most left this world. Although Feng Yuheng had been mentally prepared, he still felt that if he told this actual news, it would cause too much of a blow to Feng Yuheng.
But his silence did not mean that Feng Yuheng did not know. It was just that Feng Yuheng did not speak of it, and kept the matter in her heart, selectively forgetting it. She went to bed and woke up as usual every day, helping Xuan Tianming train soldiers during the day, explaining the gun skills to the soldiers of the Shenji Camp led by He Gan over and over again, and going into the space every day to test Xuan Tianhua. She just stopped talking about Yao Xian. Since that day when she cried on the street and was carried back by Xuan Tianming, she seemed to have turned over that page and never mentioned it again.
However, just like what Concubine Yun said to Emperor Tianwu, some things don't happen just because you don't acknowledge them, and some people don't cease to exist just because you want to forget them. Yao Xian's death was a huge blow to Feng Yuheng. Xuan Tianming was often woken up by her crying at night, but when he woke up, Feng Yuheng was still asleep. That kind of crying was natural, without any deliberate effort, even in dreams, she was crying.
He felt bad for her and stopped letting her go to the camp, and stopped letting her numb herself with intensive work. He took her shopping, and when she was tired, they would rest for a while, and when they were hungry, they would eat a bowl of wontons at a street stall. Feng Yuheng said, "When we were in Qianzhou, we also ate on the street like ordinary people."
Xuan Tianming nodded, "If you like, we can go again in the future."
"Where are we going?" she asked. "Qianzhou? Yes! We are going to Qianzhou. I have to send Feng Zhaolian's ashes back. Oh, and we have to bring Wu Lisheng with us. She is not very clear-headed. She obviously didn't have much experience with Feng Zhaolian, but she fell in love with her at first sight and imagined herself as Princess Lian. The more she fantasized, the more it came true. She actually followed us from the northern border to the capital. Now she lives in Lian Mansion, and I don't know how to tell her the news of Feng Zhaolian's death."
She was worried about this matter, and Xuan Tianming felt very bitter. He just said, "Girl, you don't know how to open your mouth, and so do I." He stretched out his hand, rubbed her hair, and finally said, "Don't be afraid. No matter who you lose, you always have me."
The Yao family held a nine-day funeral, and on the morning of the ninth day, the coffin was carried out of the capital to the Yao family's ancestral tomb.
The Yao family is a prosperous family in Beijing, and their ancestors have grown up on this land. The ancestors chose a Feng Shui mountain range 30 miles outside Beijing to bury their ancestors, hoping that the Feng Shui treasure land would bless their descendants to live a hundred years without worries.
On the day of the funeral, Concubine Yun came as she had been told, still in mourning clothes and with a white flower on her head, her attire was no different from the other children in the Yao family.
In addition to her, all the princes in the capital also came, bringing their wives to see Yao Xian off for the last time. There were also countless people who spontaneously formed a funeral procession on both sides of the street, sobbing and walking from the capital to the outside of the capital.
Concubine Yun walked with the children of the Yao family, wearing heavy mourning clothes, which looked very abrupt. Everyone knew that the Yao family had no daughters, and the only daughter Yao Qianrou had died many years ago, but Concubine Yun clearly stood in the position of a daughter to send Yao Xian off today, which made people a little puzzled. Why did this concubine who had always been the most special and refused to see the emperor for more than 20 years leave the palace for a Yao Xian and attend the funeral in heavy mourning clothes?
As the saying goes, people's words are scary. When you guess, some words are not so nice to hear...
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