"You really won't leave?" Meiya felt dizzy after crying enough. She held the man's face and couldn't stop sobbing. "Didn't you say...you were going back to the capital to enjoy wealth and luxury? Didn't you say...you were going to make An's family right for you...to give you something more to do?"
"Girl, those are... not important." Zhong Mingwei looked at those wet eyes, and his voice was choked with sobs when he spoke again. He kissed Meiya's overly red and swollen eyes, and whispered, "There is no better destination in the world than Ningguta, and there is no better person than you."
"You lied to me..." Meiya finally stopped crying. Tears started to flow again. She felt so depressed and wronged. She really wanted to slap Zhong Mingwei hard. But she couldn't do it. In the end, she just bit her lip hard and said with gritted teeth, "You have always been fooling me. You wanted to marry me all the time. But in the end... it was because of An's arrival that you changed your mind. You said before that you would not go anywhere in this life. You would just stay with me in Ningguta for the rest of my life, but? But..."
But. You still miss the capital, even though you know it is a place where people are eaten without leaving any bones, but you still miss the wealth, glory and... the taste of power there.
Ningguta is such a desolate place. And how can I, an ugly girl who even a half-grown child can't stand, let you stay?
"Girl, I..." Zhong Mingwei looked into Mei Ya's eyes. These eyes always pretended to be happy and peaceful. Even if tears filled her eyes from time to time, it was definitely not because of joy. But at this moment, these eyes were so sad that he couldn't bear to watch them anymore. He looked away, but was stung by the gray teeth marks on Mei Ya's lips. He took a deep breath, then held the edge of the bed and knelt down.
"You...what are you doing?" Mei Ya was stunned, and then hurriedly tried to help Zhong Mingwei, but Zhong Mingwei gently pushed her hand away and still knelt straight.
"Girl," Zhong Mingwei looked at Mei Ya without blinking. His throat seemed to be on fire and the pain was unbearable. He tried hard to make every word clear. "I have never promised anything to anyone, but the promises I made to you are the most sincere. Please believe me, no matter whether it is the Zhong Mingwei in the past or the Zhong Mingwei now, I have always been wholeheartedly devoted to you. Girl, there are some things I don't want to tell you, whether it is out of consideration for your future or... or out of maintaining my pitiful self-esteem, I really don't want to tell you, I originally wanted to take it into the coffin, but..." At this point, Zhong Mingwei's voice was choked, he reached out and wiped his face, then raised his head to look at Meiya, "But girl, although I am a 33-year-old man and have lived half of my life, I also have my panic and fear. In the past, I just wanted to push you away as much as possible and not let you ruin your life because of me. But, but today, girl, I really don’t want to let go anymore, no matter if it will ruin you or not, no matter if you will regret it in the future, whether you will resent me or not, girl, I... I can’t care anymore. The first half of my life was too hard. In the second half of my life, I just want to live a good life with you. Girl, I know I have always been a selfish person, but girl... please don’t hate me, and don’t... don’t dislike me, okay?”
Mei Ya looked at Zhong Mingwei, who was looking at her with a fearful and daunting look that she had never seen before. Mei Ya's heart felt like it was being stabbed by needles. This man was Zhong Mingwei, a nobleman! But now he was kneeling in front of her, so pitiful and helpless, like a poor child begging his mother not to abandon him.
"What happened?" Mei Ya asked after sniffing. Although Zhong Mingwei didn't say what it was, Mei Ya could tell that something big must have happened, otherwise Zhong Mingwei wouldn't be so upset. She reached out to wipe away the tears from Zhong Mingwei's eyes and asked in a low voice, "Did something big happen in the capital again? And... did it involve you again?"
Zhong Mingwei shook his head, gritted his teeth, and spoke after a while: "I can't have a baby."
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