"No, I just..." Chen Qingxuan looked at the yellowish sky outside, frowned slightly, with some confusion in his eyes, "It just seems difficult for me to fall in love with anyone again."
Chen Qingxuan was telling the truth. Now his heart was really like a pool of stagnant water. Well, not really stagnant water, he still had many pursuits, such as becoming the top scholar, which would make all his ten years of study in vain, making Grandma Chen happy for him, and having the opportunity to show his talents and apply what he had learned and realized over the years. Like every other student, he had lofty and sacred ambitions. Apart from that, he valued many things, such as family and friendship. Like now, he and Gu Qingtong lived under the same roof, caring for each other, drinking and chatting with Kong Wenmin, Pang Yi and others from time to time, and chatting with Zhong Mingwei about Ding Yunwen. He really felt that such days were fulfilling enough, and he didn't feel that he was missing anything. He was very satisfied with his current life, and he had expectations for the future, but it was not about love.
"It seems difficult for me to fall in love with anyone again." After a long silence, Gu Qingtong said softly.
The first person she fell in love with in her life was Pang Yi. She remembered that when they first met, she was going to Chenjiatun for a blind date. Grandma Chen asked the matchmaker to find several reliable young men. They kept nagging Gu Qingtong all day long. Gu Qingtong was so annoyed that she had to come to Chenjiatun. At that time, she thought that it would be good to find a husband in Chenjiatun, at least it was close to Grandma Chen's home. As for the love and affection, she never dared to hope for it. How could she take the things in the opera seriously? Isn't it that two people quarrel and work hard for money and children when they get married? But she was always unwilling, and she couldn't explain what she was unwilling about. Anyway, under this unwilling mentality, she was very resistant to blind dates and getting married. That time, Grandma Chen broke her arm, and in order not to make Grandma Chen more sad, she had no choice but to agree to go to Chenjiatun for a blind date. Then, in Chenjiatun, she met Pang Yi for the first time, and then, she finally understood what she had been unwilling to accept all these years.
However, she finally gave in to her unwillingness. She knew how it felt to like someone, so she had no reason or position to break up Pang Yi and Xiao An. She also gradually understood how difficult it was for Chen Qingxuan. Yes, even if there was only a glimmer of hope, who would be willing to let go?
"You are still young, and you still have a long way to go. Don't jump to conclusions so early. You might meet your sweetheart tomorrow when you go out," Chen Qingxuan looked at Gu Qingtong from the side, his eyes full of pity. He reached out and gently stroked Gu Qingtong's hair, paused, and then said, "But girl, if you really can't meet that person, then don't force it and don't wrong yourself. Don't care what grandma, aunt, and uncle think. When you live, you must be responsible for yourself first."
"If I really can't get married, will you support me, cousin?" Gu Qingtong asked with a smile. Although her face was bright with a smile, her eyes were filled with tears.
"Okay, isn't it good for us two siblings to depend on each other?" Chen Qingxuan said softly, wiping away the tears from the corners of Gu Qingtong's eyes with his fingertips, and whispered, "Silly girl, if you want to cry, just cry louder, why are you holding it in?"
"Who wants to cry? I won't cry..." Gu Qingtong said stubbornly with her neck stiffened, but the next second, tears burst out, she couldn't hold it back any longer, grinning and choking, "Cousin, why is it so difficult? Such a disgusting thing, you clearly...you clearly want to forget it, but as soon as you close your eyes, you will remember it, as soon as you close your eyes..."
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