After about the time it takes to drink a cup of tea, Lan Shanqi slowly asked, "Junior Sister, have you liked me for fifteen years?"
Cheng Huiling got up from the ground, sat up straight, and nodded repeatedly.
Tears and snot were streaming down her face. She had waited for fifteen years, and only today had she finally spoken her heart.
If it weren't for the alcohol today, she wouldn't have dared to utter her true feelings!
She couldn't bear to see the man she loved drowning his sorrows in alcohol alone in his room because of another woman.
The once upright and dignified man has now become a scoundrel.
This is the last thing she wanted to see.
She loved his carefree and unrestrained nature, his dashing and charming demeanor, and his ever-present smile.
She wanted him to be well; she wanted him to always be happy and safe.
I don't want to see him in such a dejected state now.
"So, senior brother, do you still want to give me an explanation?"
Cheng Huiling's words were powerful and resonant, as if she had drawn upon all her remaining strength.
It's as if all the courage of the first half of her life has been staked on this, giving people an unspoken feeling.
Lan Shanqi didn't know, he never knew!
He had never thought about this question. He was someone who liked him too; he had liked Guan Zhiyue for twenty-seven years.
But today, a young girl actually told him that in his twenty-seventh year,
Tell him that you've liked him for fifteen years, since you were five.
This is his junior sister, with whom he spends every day. From this day forward, she will return to Guiling Valley.
She fell in love with him the moment he took her as his disciple, and it's been fifteen years!
He couldn't imagine a girl could persist for so long. Was he happy about that?
Yes, there were some reactions. To say it was shocking? Absolutely. To say it was upsetting? Definitely.
He couldn't imagine what he had actually done over the past ten years.
Did I hurt her feelings? And how did she manage to keep quiet about it?
And watching myself wholeheartedly treat other girls,
In the dead of night, have you ever cried your eyes out like I have?
He was surprised and shocked, but his heart was full of her, how could he possibly have room for anyone else?
How could he possibly give her an explanation?
What kind of explanation can he give?
Should we give her endless hope?
In the end, will I just continue to disappoint her?
He's not that kind of cruel person; he just couldn't do that.
But he just can't bring himself to accept her!
This heart, in essence, is only so big; it can't hold anyone else.
There was already a girl who had filled it to the brim, leaving no room for anyone else.
Cheng Huiling raised her blurry eyes and looked at Lan Shanqi, who was still sitting in the same spot.
She laughed somewhat mockingly, feeling incredibly pathetic and miserable at that moment!
She overestimated her own importance in other people's hearts, and underestimated the Empress's importance in his.
What merits did she possess to earn the respect of her senior brother?
Her senior brother has only ever liked the current empress since childhood.
Her stance has never changed from beginning to end, so how could she speak to her senior brother like that?
Haha, how pathetic!
"Huiling, I'm so sorry, I didn't know you had liked me for so many years."
I have no redeeming qualities; my life is filled with misdeeds.
There's nothing good about it, thank you for your love over the years.
Upon hearing this, tears streamed down Cheng Huiling's face, as if they were free.
She couldn't stand it, she didn't want to hear it, "No, don't say anymore, I know."
"I understand, just leave me some hope, just leave me some hope!"
"Don't shatter my dream, or I'll never be able to pick it up again."
Cheng Huiling felt a sharp pain in her chest, as if someone were holding a sharp knife to her heart.
He kept rubbing himself, unable to stop himself, and in excruciating pain!
She stumbled and struggled to her feet, straightened up, and with her last bit of strength,
"Senior brother, drinking is not good. I think Her Majesty the Empress is clearly unwilling as well."
Seeing you like this now, you'd better go back to how you used to be.
"I apologize for my rudeness today, senior brother!"
"Huiling has other matters to attend to, so she will take her leave now."
When Cheng Huiling said those last words, she bit the tip of her tongue.
She was afraid she wouldn't be able to control herself and would rush forward; she was afraid she would do something rash. She tried to stay calm!
She then stumbled away. She was a joke today; how could she reveal her true feelings?
How could she defile her own senior brother?
Her senior brother was so high and mighty, while she was just an ordinary disciple of Guiling Valley.
How could I openly proclaim my feelings for my senior brother?
Lan Shanqi wanted to say something, but Cheng Huiling had already run far away.
He struggled to get up, supporting himself on the edge of the bed. His body felt numb and he stumbled. He felt uncomfortable and even unbearable.
"Shang Zhuo".
"Shang Zhuo".
Shang Zhuo, who was boiling water in the courtyard, heard his young master's voice and immediately dropped the fire tongs and rushed over.
And there they found their young master, groveling unceremoniously on the doorstep.
Just like a four-legged turtle, it struggles with its arms and legs, but just can't get up.
He really wanted to laugh, but he couldn't; he had to hold it in!
"Ah, here he comes, here he comes, my young master!"
"What are you up to now?"
"Where is Huiling? Didn't she come to see the young master? Why isn't she here?"
As Shang Zhuo helped her up, he looked into the house but didn't see Cheng Huiling. He muttered to himself as he did so.
Lan Shanqi got up with his help and heard Shang Zhuo muttering. He asked, "How did you know Huiling was here?"
Shang Zhuo: "Ah, oh! Sister Huiling, she comes every day, but she's never gone in to disturb you, young master."
She came to comfort you today because she saw that you've been hungover for several days.
"As expected, Sister Huiling is really amazing. She got the young master out of that room so quickly."
"Young master, I've prepared hot water for you. Why don't you take a bath and get ready first?"
Lan Shanqi didn't refuse. He had heard Cheng Huiling say, "Guan Zhiyue doesn't like him like this."
He didn't like himself like this either. He needed to clean himself up, and he also needed to go and talk to Cheng Huiling to clear things up...
Cheng Huiling walked and cried, her head spinning, completely disoriented.
She stumbled and fell into the lotus pond beside her with a splash.
She struggled for a while, but couldn't get up. Instead, she made her clothes even wetter.
Then something occurred to her, and she stopped struggling, opening her arms wide.
He simply let the icy pond water submerge him, submerge him...
Until there was no fresh air left, until my whole body began to sink.
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